ღ There is reason for hope.

I miss those things a lot too! I hope you’re also doing great. I wish I could honestly say I missed watching SPN, but waiting for the narrative to let Sam shine (and waiting, and waiting) got to be too much. I have so much respect for the folks who are still at it and still harbor plans to watch s15.

I’ve been off Tumblr for a while, even though I peek in sometimes and see some really neat Sam gifs on my dash and grin. 

I’ve been writing a lot of original work this year and even gathered the courage to start submitting to various magazines. I decided to only submit to pro-rate publications because I am foolish. I’ve gotten a few tiny publications under my belt, but they were either smallish and/or regional or paid only in contributor copies. On the bright side, actual publication in one of these places would mean professional pay: close to $100 for even a short flash piece.

Unfortunately, no luck so far! But out of around 10-ish attempts, I’ve gotten 4 rejections that were personalized, which is a step above form rejection! The editors took the time to provide positive feedback personalized to the story, which felt really good. I haven’t been trying long and have a lot still to learn… and writing has been like pulling teeth for most of the year.

I plan to keep at it. Even if I fail, I’ll grow. And meanwhile, I’m working on a couple of novels and enjoying self-guided language study and living my best life.

I sure as heck miss Sam fandom, though. Much love, wonderful Anon!

Ahhhhhhh on the one hand I’m so sorry but on the other, Nirvana in Fire is the literal best and deserves all the love in the world and I’m so happy that the coolest folks in this corner of the internet (Sam fam, obviously) are watching it. I have never in my entire life watched a series that is so good and hurts so good.

Like, with Supernatural, it has an insanely high amount of hurts so good, but the show itself (in my humble and subjective opinion) has become a reeking dumpster fire—though I say this without having seen any of the new season. It could have gotten better. Nirvana in Fire is so amazing and tightly plotted and all the characters are extraordinary.

I would say NiF tugs on all the heartstrings, but I have none left. It completely obliterated all of them in the best way.

WHyyyyyyyyyyy didn’t Tumblr tell me I had any asks? Literally it hasn’t told me for months? What is going on? (Admittedly, I am not on nearly as much lately.)

I am so happy you watched Nirvana in Fire oh my gosh. Thank you I love you.

IT’S TIME TO SCREAM. 

RIGHT THOUGH?? LITERALLY EVERYONE IS THE BEST I WOULD DIE FOR ALL OF THEM AND I JUST WANT TO PUT MCS IN MY POCKET AND CRY FOR A THOUSAND YEARS I JUST WANT PEOPLE TO LOVE HIM AND LET HIM BE SOFT AND HE NEEDS A LIFETIME OF THERAPY HE’S SUCH A MESS HE HATES HIMSELF SO MUCH MY SONNNNN.

Tumblr isn’t even telling me when I got this message. I’m crying. I’m so sorry I only just realized I had this message. Please scream with me if you are still in a screaming mood and I’m super sorry ahhhhhh

here have a soft baby MCS getting hugs from Jingyan.