Do You Want To Know How I Improved In 4 Months
I think for a lot of people, 2025 was a long year. And the first few months of 2026 haven't been perfect. I used to think that I was the saddest, most suffering individual in the world at my most dramatic moments. For most of 2025, every aspect of life felt like a chore to me. Work was draining, the food in my diet was destroying me, I was the least athletic I've ever been, and I woke up and went to bed every night on my phone. Every day made me feel like an unaccomplished loser who just happened to attend university. I know a lot of people who still have a lot of these bad habits and have groggy days all the time. Before I continue, I must say that I'm definitely not perfect. And I wasn't the WORST before either. I like to have compassion for my younger self as I grow older. I didn't have parents in my life who helped me be my best self growing up; they didn't pay for any hobbies or sports after the age of six, they felt it was a hassle to put me in after-school programs, and they constantly forced me to stay home instead of exploring my surroundings. It's not always our fault we end up the way we do; it's just how it is. I used to hold resentment and anger that I wasn't born into an active, organic family that hikes every weekend and pays for my piano lessons. I used to stay up thinking of all the things I missed out on because of who my parents were. And then I realized it was their first time living, and I'm old enough to make changes for myself! So, I randomly decided to lock in last year in December. I started going on harder, longer hikes at least 3-4 times a month. I started doing yoga every morning and going to the gym three times a week. I began eating clean and cooking all of my meals. I bought all of my own groceries (still living with my parents) and put them in a separate section to meet my gym diet. I began reading books again and saying yes to waking up early for road trips. I changed my job and changed my attitude ABOUT my job. It's been four months, and I don't feel perfect every day. I still can feel lazy, I still can feel depressed. But every week, I don't stop trying. I do at least 3 activities I enjoy and remind myself of what I want to be. I've gained 14 pounds of muscle after being underweight for months. I sleep better. The little things are enough for me.
