blooming in the waves

Crushed Under the deep white foam Of a rolling wave Of heartbreak. Unable to move Or breathe or speak Without this heavy coat All over me. I can only wait for it to break. Drowning in a salt Of missing you. Crushed Into nothing But grains of sand. Hoping I can get up and Out again, But also for another wave.

Lucky to be so in love With a feeling Like this. You can walk me down The stairs to the Basement to kiss. I don't want to Miss anything, Anything. I just want you to be The ocean to my Sandstorm. I feel like maybe I've finally figured Out what I want. You and The truth And me.

Put my foot to the pedal and I'm torn, The world smells like it was just born. Because you look at me with stars in your eyes, Like I haven't been crying, And you say "let's wait and see." But what about me? How am I supposed to be? Feels like you're a twin flame Or maybe my worst enemy. You make me sing and scream. I wake up, breathing heavy from a sex dream. It was so real, your hands on my face. We were just born. Now I'm torn, in half. Wondering what's to be. I don't want to wake up from these dreams. I don't want to look weak. I don't want to look at you. You bite my shoulder, pull me in. Just friends. Can't stand to be around you but can't stand to be away. We sway, I can't stop laughing, and you look at me the way I look at you. I can't think when I'm around you. I don't want to see the two of you. I don't want to dance in red wine just to get my mind off you. I just want you to hold my hands against the wall again. Just friends. Yeah, right. We'll see how long that lasts. I'm torn, in half. You make me raw. Caught between the gas and the brakes. I just want you more than I can breathe. I seethe, Waiting for you to come back to me, Just as sure as the sun comes up. Just as sore as I was that night of, The world smells like it was just born. You're holding me like I'm your last chance. It was our last dance. Hold the last. Your skin smells like romance. I feel you coming back at me full speed Like a boomerang or a bad dream. Sleepless with you next to me. Smile and kiss me on the cheek. As you walk out the door. I'm torn, in a million pieces. We were just born. The world smells like it was just born. But did it have to die the night before?