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she butterfly on my effect til i (gravely serious) everything could have been different

A huge part of the horror of Malevolent that I think about all the time is that John is very often just stuck watching all this happen. Yes we're all listening to it but John sees *everything*. We talk all the time about all of Arthur's horrible injuries but John is just made to watch, time and time again, while the man he loves gets absolutely butchered and there's nothing he can do but shout and beg and plead. Arthur cut the stone out of Antione but John had to watch as he did it. And even outside of all the gore, Arthur heard the music played by all the other versions of himself but John had to look at all these men with the same face as his dear friend that Kayne had broken before them. We can only hear it but John has to watch it *all*.

Actually yeah give me John who has been thoroughly broken by all of these experiences. John who, after they separate, has to spend many many years learning that he can enact real change in his life because he's been trained to have no option but to sit there and let these things happen. Give me a John who is stuck in a mental birdcage because all of this watching terrible things happen over and over and over again has taught him subconsciously to freeze and compartmentalize and "this is fine" his way through everything. I wanna see John who experiences something awful once he's human and his immediate response is to go numb. To forget or not even realize to begin with that he has the ability to do anything at all about it now

this works so well with a headcanon of mine! i think when (if) john gets his own body, and can choose what he eats, i think he’d end up being a vegetarian. not for the animals, but because he can’t stomach looking at anything even vaguely flesh-y

A huge part of the horror of Malevolent that I think about all the time is that John is very often just stuck watching all this happen. Yes we're all listening to it but John sees *everything*. We talk all the time about all of Arthur's horrible injuries but John is just made to watch, time and time again, while the man he loves gets absolutely butchered and there's nothing he can do but shout and beg and plead. Arthur cut the stone out of Antione but John had to watch as he did it. And even outside of all the gore, Arthur heard the music played by all the other versions of himself but John had to look at all these men with the same face as his dear friend that Kayne had broken before them. We can only hear it but John has to watch it *all*.

Actually yeah give me John who has been thoroughly broken by all of these experiences. John who, after they separate, has to spend many many years learning that he can enact real change in his life because he's been trained to have no option but to sit there and let these things happen. Give me a John who is stuck in a mental birdcage because all of this watching terrible things happen over and over and over again has taught him subconsciously to freeze and compartmentalize and "this is fine" his way through everything. I wanna see John who experiences something awful once he's human and his immediate response is to go numb. To forget or not even realize to begin with that he has the ability to do anything at all about it now

ohhh Arthur who feels so guilty, can't change it. had to bloodily rip his way out of hell again and again and now it's blood getting on his partner in crime and asaa

Oh my god yes Arthur who resents John for that fear because he had no choice but to do those things to survive, and John who feels miserable for unintentionally giving him even more grief after it took so long for them to both decide that they weren't monsters for having to make imperfect decisions in impossible situations

Me when I'm Sisyphus but the boulder is learning to live with my own choices

A huge part of the horror of Malevolent that I think about all the time is that John is very often just stuck watching all this happen. Yes we're all listening to it but John sees *everything*. We talk all the time about all of Arthur's horrible injuries but John is just made to watch, time and time again, while the man he loves gets absolutely butchered and there's nothing he can do but shout and beg and plead. Arthur cut the stone out of Antione but John had to watch as he did it. And even outside of all the gore, Arthur heard the music played by all the other versions of himself but John had to look at all these men with the same face as his dear friend that Kayne had broken before them. We can only hear it but John has to watch it *all*.

Actually yeah give me John who has been thoroughly broken by all of these experiences. John who, after they separate, has to spend many many years learning that he can enact real change in his life because he's been trained to have no option but to sit there and let these things happen. Give me a John who is stuck in a mental birdcage because all of this watching terrible things happen over and over and over again has taught him subconsciously to freeze and compartmentalize and "this is fine" his way through everything. I wanna see John who experiences something awful once he's human and his immediate response is to go numb. To forget or not even realize to begin with that he has the ability to do anything at all about it now

ohhh Arthur who feels so guilty, can't change it. had to bloodily rip his way out of hell again and again and now it's blood getting on his partner in crime and asaa

Oh my god yes Arthur who resents John for that fear because he had no choice but to do those things to survive, and John who feels miserable for unintentionally giving him even more grief after it took so long for them to both decide that they weren't monsters for having to make imperfect decisions in impossible situations

A huge part of the horror of Malevolent that I think about all the time is that John is very often just stuck watching all this happen. Yes we're all listening to it but John sees *everything*. We talk all the time about all of Arthur's horrible injuries but John is just made to watch, time and time again, while the man he loves gets absolutely butchered and there's nothing he can do but shout and beg and plead. Arthur cut the stone out of Antione but John had to watch as he did it. And even outside of all the gore, Arthur heard the music played by all the other versions of himself but John had to look at all these men with the same face as his dear friend that Kayne had broken before them. We can only hear it but John has to watch it *all*.

Actually yeah give me John who has been thoroughly broken by all of these experiences. John who, after they separate, has to spend many many years learning that he can enact real change in his life because he's been trained to have no option but to sit there and let these things happen. Give me a John who is stuck in a mental birdcage because all of this watching terrible things happen over and over and over again has taught him subconsciously to freeze and compartmentalize and "this is fine" his way through everything. I wanna see John who experiences something awful once he's human and his immediate response is to go numb. To forget or not even realize to begin with that he has the ability to do anything at all about it now

This post BROKE me

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A huge part of the horror of Malevolent that I think about all the time is that John is very often just stuck watching all this happen. Yes we're all listening to it but John sees *everything*. We talk all the time about all of Arthur's horrible injuries but John is just made to watch, time and time again, while the man he loves gets absolutely butchered and there's nothing he can do but shout and beg and plead. Arthur cut the stone out of Antione but John had to watch as he did it. And even outside of all the gore, Arthur heard the music played by all the other versions of himself but John had to look at all these men with the same face as his dear friend that Kayne had broken before them. We can only hear it but John has to watch it *all*.

Actually yeah give me John who has been thoroughly broken by all of these experiences. John who, after they separate, has to spend many many years learning that he can enact real change in his life because he's been trained to have no option but to sit there and let these things happen. Give me a John who is stuck in a mental birdcage because all of this watching terrible things happen over and over and over again has taught him subconsciously to freeze and compartmentalize and "this is fine" his way through everything. I wanna see John who experiences something awful once he's human and his immediate response is to go numb. To forget or not even realize to begin with that he has the ability to do anything at all about it now

have you guys heard of noodles? that shit is thick or thin depending