ScaredOfLonely

I no longer want to be with you

My heart has accepted that fact

You are now in my past

Why is it that I am thinking of you alot these days

Are you okay?

Is there something wrong?

Why is it that you have been on my mind alot lately?

Should I reach out?

This is just not making sense...

I don't want to reach out at all... my mind is telling me no

But my heart is saying that something is up...

I'll reach out for I need my heart to be at ease.

I had my back to you...

You drove a sports car, parked it and got out

You saw me, said hello and walked by

I turned and I could only see your back

Walking away...

I called for you but you were too quick to leave

How did your legs start working again?

I knew you could not walk anymore

How did it happen?

It looked real...

I could still smell your cologne in the wind

Your energy was present

Afternoon came and I jumped on a bus

I left my phone in the car and you called me twice

My best friend was excited about your call

I was elated inside, but tried to play it cool

Like I always did...

Butterflies in my tummy... I got my phone to check back on you

...the rooster crows

And I wake up from this sleep

I want to shut my eyes and go back to you

How we used to be

I know I can never be with you

But I miss you terribly today

I want to forget you

I don't want to dream of you

Why is it that I woke up with a heavy heart longing for you?

We are history...

I pray to forget you... today will be just another one of them prayers

Everyone has been given the same chance of life on earth.

Its how you use it or make of it...

So don’t say that or think that another person owes you anything... its up to you to make it your own...

If they wanna talk to you... they will

If they wanna be with you... they will

If they wanna make things work... they will

Some women go through worse problems worse than you.

They physically fight, are verbally abused and face rejection even when they have or share children with their partners.

They don’t complain about it but bottle it up... they seem fine, they are smiling, laughing and joking. They always hide their sadness.

Women are strong, women are courageous, women are loving, women are kind...

You don’t have to hide

Life is simpler

Honesty with yourself radiates to others

Attractive

You are always at peace

Leaves you with no burden to crry