Lover/Fighter

My body need to stretch today at the gym. For sure it was nice to have that feeling of being blue to support my own weight I was able to see my body on the mirror and I loved it :)

Then, I feel in love my myself again. After having a good conversation where I found myself again talking about me. I was not lost anymore. I have found my call and you did not get on the way this time. You experience my presence so do my absence. I was not obsessed I was not in love with you. I was in love with the idea of you I had created in my head because I knew it was a perfect story.

Yesterday, I attended a police meeting to learn about a case that happened 27 years ago. It appears the lady was killed for saying something disrespectful to her brother-in-law. What I take from this case is that not everyone is humane; some are prone to abuse due to factors like money, ego, and envy. It reminds me to be vigilant about sharing too much of my life. If someone lays a hand on you or disrespects you verbally, it's time to walk away, as your life is too valuable to trust with just anybody. Listen to your body, vibe, and soul; they'll alert you when you're in danger.

It's important for me to express that I deeply care about you, and my feelings for you remain strong. However, I believe it's essential for me to focus on my own healing and personal growth before making any decisions about our relationship. This self-reflection and healing process will allow me to approach our connection with a clear and healthy mindset, ensuring that any choices I make are in the best interest of both of us.

I feel like I have work so much on my emotional life that I can over come anything ibuprofen life with the help of God. I am human I do experience pain and hurt because people can be hurtful so have come to understand that I do not need to hurt other or evoke negative feeling among others to feel like I am of value. My life has given me some painful experiences but so to you have had those experiences in life. My worth is not based on the people praising me but on the values that I hold up. My life won’t be the same after my last heart break and how someone I care so much about decided to pick up a knife and stab me with it and cut my heart not only once but twice. There is a light in me that has not been stolen and that light is my life and faith in God. Even though the energy send me someone with the intentions to hurt me. I have become someone of more value and love

"I have been feeling a lot of anxiety, but I know the root cause. I opened a box of memories that triggered various internal wounds. I have to say that I need to heal these things in order to move on."

As of today I still keep finding my light. Eventually, I will learn to cope with last years situation.

Tomorrow I begin a new program. It is a self defense class from the police department, I did end up learning a lot of new fight moves. I never thought it was going to be fun to learn stuff.

Then I found myself again for that I will be forever happy.