sare without a care

6am

This morning I blocked a "best friend". I said what I needed to say and I didn't want an explanation or excuses. There are none. My family members could've died in an accident recently... it was so bad... and this friend just... disappeared on me for almost 2 weeks. They always made situations about them, so I should've known they would abandon me. But this was too disrespectful to ignore. I don't care if you think it's childish for just leaving like that, but I honestly could not handle the confrontation after everything that's happened. It doesn't feel great because for years I really loved them... however, I have to think about myself at some point as well.

Is there something wrong with me? I just can create a disconnect and not feel as guilty as I should. I have never had a stable childhood and sometimes I think I'm comfortable with the separation. If someone has wronged me, it's so easy for me to just... move on. No closure, no messages, just silently drifting away from them. Does that make me heartless? I've just always grown up realising that people and situations are temporary. Not everyone is a lifelong friend, partner, and even family members don't get a pass. I do not do this to everyone, and no one is perfect, I give a lot of chances too. But sometimes, I just stop caring... Aren't I allowed to just... Protect my peace?