Sare Bear

im so stressed finals are in a few days, my senior trip is in 2 days and i graduate in 2 weeks. i have a TEAS in a week, and im in my illie eilish conan phase even tho i thought i was happy in my relationship. i really am tho i love him so much more then i could ever explain but i dont know whats keeping me from telling him. his friends says he loves me as well so why wont he tell me. we cant stop fighting i dont know why he says im doing nothing wrong and its fine so why do i keep feeling like i cant do anything right. i love him so much but i feel hell never understand me, understand why my brain works why it does, but at least he knows i love dinosaurs.

Highschool halls haunt me, the words written on the stalls are an obituary for all the lost people. The football feilds are a graveyard for all the girls the boys hurt and got away with. The kids stare in the halls like they know all your secrets without even knowing you. Theyve carved your headstone before youve even passed your exams. You turn your tassel as your lowered into the ground for your burial. They say life starts after highschool but i feel as mine has ended before i even got to walk.

i will always be her she is me we are one

i dont want to post to instagram or twitter this is my last option