Vissi d'arte

My email was hacked in 2014 and I can only log in via my phone but I'm anticipating the day the app on my phone updates. With that being said, this may be the last of this SarahOfTheRose Tumblr. But that's not what I came here to talk about. It gets kind of lonely. Well maybe lonely isn't even a great word to describe how I'm feeling. I'm feeling lost. But not like the kind of lost where I'm desperate or don't know who I am. Just the kind of lost where I don't know what will become of me. I know everyone comes to this moment in their life where they're feeling this. It's almost like the days are just passing and the only thing I can do is wait. And I know that's lazy but I'm not inspired to move. Not physically. But mentally. More than anything I want to move. I don't know why I wait but I do. Well, I don't have enough money saved or a well thought out plan. But I'm so desperate to free myself of the familiarity of this city. I think once I physically leave I will mentally move. I'll become awake again. I'll try harder. I'll have passion. But until then I'll just do what I always do. I'll wait.

It's been awhile.