not to sound like a ray apologist but thinking about his behaviour after remembering he is in love with his best friend and everyone knows it and also knows he'll never be good enough for it to be reciprocated, hes a shit ton of poor decisions in a trenchcoat and no one cares, he has the glossiest poutiest lips that go chronically underappreciated and unkissed, he lives only because nothing has killed him yet, he's given up on receiving his fathers love to the point that even feeling his anger and disappointment is just a stale experience and a chore, he sleeps one room away from where he found his moms dead body- having chosen to make a home for himself in the same place she caged her misery, and he is 22 years old. all things considered id personally be so much worse.