21- Active 02/22

im never really active anymore for multiple reasons, none of which are that i’m dead or that im going into recovery, which are the only reasons that anyone cares about

the thing about having a wide ribcage is that im literally OBESE (not just mentally like BMI and body fat percentage) and i can STILL always feel my ribs. like i’ll be laying down after binging and my ribs are still pokin out

im trying to find a pic of me at my highest weight but every pic/video is of me smoking so I guess I need to take another smoking vid to compare

IM OFFICIALLY UNDER MY OLD LW. im not actively restricting so it’s very slow but the joy of seeing a new lowest number on that stupid scale is intense

my brother, who’s always been way fatter than me, got a gastric bypass a few months ago and now he’s lost more than i did when i was in my honeymoon phase. I can’t be the fat sibling, I just can’t do it

im less than three pounds from beating my LW, which is still obese but still

my mom made me measure myself last night to make sure she was buying the right size online and it obviously triggered the fuck out of me and now she’s mad at me for being triggered. literally how is this my fault

had way too much nicotine in a bong in an attempt to purge (it usually makes me barf) but now I just have a headache and the same amount of food in my stomach