Today has been nice and tranquil. I feel pretty relieved to have a quiet day by myself.
I had an omelette and a kiwi for breakfast. For lunch I pan seared a ribeye steak and dressed it in garlic rosemary-infused butter. I also baked a sweet potato and ate half of it on the side.
I was craving something sweet after so I drove to a nearby local bakery. I picked up a slice of tiramisu cake as well as a loaf of whole wheat sourdough bread since I was already there. I kind of wish I’d picked up the whole cake because their tiramisu is S tier.
In the afternoon I tried to purge my closet again to distract myself from this sudden feeling of sadness I got but I was in of in one of those moods where I want to lowkey throw 99% of my things out, so I quit after a few minutes of putting a few items inside of a box. Quit right before I could have an identity crisis.
I’ve been attempting to be more in the moment and I was definitely in an absolute flow state this morning but when I got a little moment of boredom after I got this feeling of… grief and sorrow. I’m sipping on some coconut water just to make sure I’m not dehydrated. The emotional burnout that I have is very palpable sometimes.
All I can do is sit with the feelings and let them pass. I reheated some leftover spaghetti pomodoro and that’s what I had for dinner, even though I would’ve preferred a slice of pizza, I have no more energy to drive to the pizzeria. Maybe I’ll do it later though. I don’t have to restrict myself by any means.
Maybe I’ll go on a walk and then get a slice of pizza after. I haven’t had pizza in ages. Could turn my weird afternoon into a pleasant evening.