skye

how does one come back to their tumblr account after 4 years of inactivity?

I don't think the only reason I lost myself in fiction was to distract myself from reality. I think it was easier to attached onto characters and talk about them like they were real without any consequences or risk of hurting them. But because they weren't real it could never feel as good as actual deep human connection. The real thing is most definitely harder but the hard parts only intensifies the good, easier parts. I am so grateful for finally being able to find the strength and motivation to work on my disassociation problem.

Hanging out with my sister and realizing she probably is nuerodivergent and has some kind of ADHD like how the doctor tried telling my mom when she was 9- but my mom stands by not getting her on medication or any other treatment because she "grew out of it"

okay i’m vibin with a popsicle now

i made a shared note of what we can do together and i might just cry tears of joy.

trying so fucking hard not to sob thinking about the stuff i want to do with my partner because i’m sitting next to my sister.

will i cry over my best friend’s mother’s facebook again? maybe. let’s see how things go.

ya know i went days without crying when i was with him and now i’m listening to “last kiss” and am trying to find the strength to get out of bed to shower.

just downloaded tumblr again so i can talk about my boyfriend to strangers on the internet

deleting all social media from my phone. i need help.

the amount of effort i’m putting into disabling my instagram account when i could just delete the app.

i can’t go to school tomorrow. i can’t do it. i’m not doing it. my parents fully support the reason why i want to as well.