your lady of mercy

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I think Shane gets kinda sleazy with it, alcohol loosning his mouth, hes digging his fingers into Ilyas hips and grinding his cock against his ass with his face buried in his husbands neck, whispering filth about how tight Ilya always is. I solemly believe the erection this would give Ilya would kill him off via rapid blood relocation but I digress.

Not to mention, I think Irina was the ultimate boy mom about Ilya, in her depression and that he was in her eyes the one good thing in her life, and I do think she projected her own feelings onto him. Not in an incest-y way at all, but he was her "little man" and she was possessive over him. I don't think she liked it when Ilya talked about liking girls at school, because he was hers and not old enough for any of that yet. He probably became her caretaker when she was in the midst of her depressive episodes, like fetching her water and food and trying to convince her to get up and shower or lying down with her when that doesn't work. Alexei probably watched all this, and saw Ilya missing school when she was really bad and it made him resent her more, because how is it that he is getting almost no attention from her and she is smothering Ilya to the point of it being detrimental to him.

Controversially I do think it was selfish of her to commit suicide in a way that almost guarenteed one of her children would find her, depression and suicidal thoughts are hard to deal with, but she left Ilya with memories of one of the most traumatic things a child could experience when she had other options. I also agree when other people say that she was probably a very conservative woman who would not have approved of Ilya's bisexuality, and especially not Shane. I think it boils down to the fact that Ilya was so manipulated by her and the people around him, with her pitting him against Alexei especially that he has put her on this pedestal in his head because if he doesn't then he has to actually examine what his childhood was like and see her as a real woman with real flaws when she is the one tangible thing he has to hold on to from his childhood as "good".

I aware this is word vomit but I really think their is more to Ilya's relationship with Alexei than the show or book dives into. No one is born an asshole and Alexei definitely had just as shitty a childhood is Ilya's. And you bet your ass Ilya gets almost agressively defensive over the memory of her if anyone around him questions her actions. In my personal opinion the biggest fight, that almost ends their relationship between Shane and Ilya is when Shane questions whether Irina was fair to Ilya and expresses sympathy for Alexei and Grigori about her suicide. Ilya just point blank refuses to see Shane's point, and accuses him of siding with his brother and father. Idk people, just give me toxic boy mom co-dependant with her 12 year old, conservative and emotionally manipulative Irina who was a real and complex person but in the end just as detrimental to Ilya's mental health as his father.

I'm sorry but you cant tell me that someday after Shane and Ilya retired and they've adopted a couple kids, Ilya doesn't find himself laid out on their sofa, Shane asleep and curled into his side with their toddlers snuggled on top of him and a very grey Anya laid on his feet; and just starts sobbing. Like that's his family right there and actually this random tuesday afternoon might be the happiest he's ever been in his whole life. Like that's actually his whole world on the sofa with him and maybe it was all worth it in the end if he gets to have this.🦋