AS I KNEEL BEFORE YOU

I probably deserve more grace than I am given and I have a gun

i like to think i'm the dead horse that everyone keeps beating

i'm still annoyed over basically being told my sexual politics are suspect bc i'm a pleasure seeker above all else... it shouldn't really annoy me. but it does... as tho it is so wrong to seek pleasure! "the ethics and praxis this requires" ... fine, you can think that i am ethically incorrect for what i get off it. i know it's fine. i shouldn't post on tumblr.com if i don't want ppl calling me unethical. but when i have finally found peace with my sexual desires, the ways in which my innate desires have interacted with a decade of sexual trauma to create an incredibly fixed sexual landscape, i do get a little like. ughhh. abt responses like that

also ppl on my posts going "the next step is to get rid of the response of thinking rape is hot" ... i can't get ride of the response sorry... that's pretty much all i have in terms of a sexuality and since i'm pleasure-seeking + unethical i will never try to change this response