s a d p u b

And just like that. I feel like a stupid sack of shit again.

Just a place where I can type my thoughts and no one I know see it...

I’m so numb inside. Fuck I hate this feeling. Everyone says feeling too much is the worst. But I think feeling nothing at all is absolute hell. At least the other way around you can experience joy between the lows.

Been trying to get my life together. Waiting for colleges to email me back. Friend got in . I didn’t get anything yet..so much happened to me during senior year of highscool and past college (r@pe, harassment , physical abuse, dealing with a narcissist, getting the police involved more than once over the years..) it was just shitty. My grades were so bad because I was barely keeping my head above water...but they’ll just see a lazy student....I really hope I can get in and restart now that I’m safe and free.....

It’s been a long time since I’ve been active. Just glad to know I’m still here I guess.