sadgeshenanigans

just the one he finished

I want to hug you until my arms grow weak and I’m forced to let go of you.

I want to drown you in love until it takes our breath away.

And when I do, I want you to know that every ounce of my affection was born from pain; raw, unguarded, and real.

I don’t want perfection; I want the chaos of us, the silence between words, the trembling pulse that reminds me you’re still here.

If love is meant to hurt, then let it be this; beautiful, unbearable, and ours.

But deep down, I know this love will never work, because one of us is a coward, and that’s me.

I was too afraid to love you loudly, too scared to shatter the boundaries.

I let fear speak louder than my heart. I hid behind silence when I should’ve spoken, behind the shade when I should’ve stayed.

And now, all I have left are words I never said and a love that never got the chance to live. I’m left loving you in the quiet;

Do you believe in choosing one person and staying?

Do you want slow mornings and long evenings,

walks without a destination,

silence that feels full because I’m there?

I have dreams, and I have days with none at all

I just know I want both with you.

So tell me, simply,

A girl too chaotic,

Him listening,

Her blabbering,

Him staring at her in peace,

Her touching him in comfort,

He hates coffee,

She loves coffee,

Two cups of coffee on the table,

Both empty!