𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚂𝙰𝙲𝚁𝙸𝙵𝙸𝙲𝙴.

lastly, can i fall asleep thinking of you?

indie, private and selective yoosung kim from the otome mystic messenger by cheritz ♡ unaffliated with the mysme rpc and majorly headcanon based. written and loved by sara/berry, originally established on 09/11/16 and revamped as of 05/16/20 so this is the og <3    hit that  ♡  or  ↺  to interact!

        in the case of the   first main game.    obvious  CHAPTER 1 SPOILERS AHEAD  !!!

     joe unfortunately meets their death at the early start of the game, mainly the  first main game  that takes place via death by the wrigglers. his fate was already sealed by the  sacrifice card  that he had found in the bar on the first floor of the death game.  the main point of this meta was   joe already knew his fate and sealed it in immediately.   joe knew he was about to die, and it is a high possibility that   kai did tell him how the main game works,  considering kai himself is ( albeit a traitor ) associated with asunaro.  but he could have avoided this easily if he did know about the game, right? so he shouldn’t have picked up the sacrifice card in the first place.

    they did know about the consequences, and decided and they didn’t want anyone else carrying the burden of the either dying or killing everyone else. the former mostly. joe is as human as everyone else, he didn’t want to die and wanted to get out. he wanted to get out as much as anyone else, thus picking up the sacrifice card, he already had two scenarios in his head:

    01. ) fool everyone and get him and sara out of the game.   as selfish and sick as it may seem, joe had buried this thought deep down in his head but couldn’t help but act out and trick everyone so that he’d survive along with sara. ultimately, he’d admit that it’s less about himself and more of ensuring sara’s definite survival. he promised himself to take the burden of the massacre he had indirectly caused wholly and leave sara out of it. sara is the most important person to joe, so her happiness and safety is one of his top priority’s. that’s why …

   02. ) accepting his fate as the sacrifice and dying with whoever gets voted whilst everyone else, including sara, continues is what he clung onto more. it’s why there was no bitterness or anger in his face when they didn’t get any votes. there was only fear, which was a natural instinct for a human to feel on the verge of death. perhaps it was joe’s altruism ? his definite belief that all humans are good, that’s why he’d even let people like sou/shin and alice go despite their faults? one thing is for sure, he has heavy trust that sara can make it in the end, and that’s why he’s satisfied dying knowing his best friend can make it out alive.

    TLDR :  joe knew his fate, which was death, and welcomed it with open arms. as long as more people survive, and that sara is one of them, he’s wholeheartedly okay with being the sacrifice, as scared as he may be.

   a tragedy’s a tragedy no matter what happens. now close your close your eyes tight and imagine : everything/one you’ve ever loved is gone, gone, gone.

sara chidouin of the visual novel your turn to die / kime ga shine.  blog warnings for mentions death, blood, gore, and the likes. established on 04/24/2020. written and loved by berry.

❛❛ I shivered when the sun shone upon me. ❜❜

❛❛ Always gay and without sorrow. ❜❜

❛❛ The shores respond in song to the waves. ❜❜

❛❛ I dreamt of falling, and in the morning my body was sore and bruised. ❜❜

❛❛ Beasts dance and march so music in these streets. ❜❜

❛❛ It was just the tones of the clock striking three. ❜❜

❛❛ The garden is much bigger than possible from the outside. ❜❜

❛❛ What was that hideous sound coming from the dark? ❜❜

❛❛ The water… it’s all… dark? Dark and slimy, black. ❜❜

❛❛ The walking dead… they seem alive, but- ❜❜

❛❛ The doors mysteriously open and shut, the windows close.  ❜❜

❛❛ Don’t look into the painting’s eyes, it’ll… hurt you. ❜❜

❛❛ I can’t sleep, not now, I refuse. They’ll grab me from my fluttering eyelashes. ❜❜

❛❛ In the deserts hides an ancient colossus, yet no man has seen it. ❜❜

❛❛ Dreams are older than Egypt and Babylonia, did you know? ❜❜

❛❛ Death… desolating and horrific, but isn’t life worse? ❜❜

❛❛ The bottom of the sea, dead cities, hideous beasts. ❜❜

❛❛ The rank slimy vegetation suffocates me. ❜❜

❛❛ Determinism is just a prophecy. ❜❜

❛❛ We’ll move away from earth, more swiftly than light. ❜❜

❛❛ I can hear the voices from distant universes whose stars are too far to see. ❜❜

❛❛ This smell… it brings back childhood memories. ❜❜

❛❛ I feel like drowning at all times, undersea, it engulfs cities, ships, and the dead. ❜❜

❛❛ Drowning is a horrible death. ❜❜

❛❛ Can you hear that…? The music. I must follow it. ❜❜

❛❛ I don’t trust mirrors, who knows who’s watching through? ❜❜

❛❛ The moonlight makes monsters of those born living. ❜❜

❛❛ At midnight, it descends into the soft earth at the graveyard. ❜❜

❛❛ Those cities were wiped out by supernatural wrath, none may be built in those cursed grounds. ❜❜

❛❛ Hideous… Hideous name. ❜❜

❛❛ A river of liquid fire streams from the underground now. ❜❜

❛❛ They say that the moon reveals that and those unknown to the human eye. ❜❜

❛❛ The voice of your dead calls you from the living room… ❜❜

❛❛ It was terrible. They say the hand of the dead man wrote the will.  ❜❜

❛❛ Eventually, it disposed of its human shell, above us. ❜❜

❛❛ Your fears are nothing but an incomplete duplicate of yourself. ❜❜

❛❛ The catacombs don’t belong to the city, sadly. ❜❜

❛❛ The black mass lives under the old church now. ❜❜

❛❛ If you wish to steal, go ahead, but beware of the gargoyles. ❜❜

❛❛ A horrible, horrible secret eats at you. ❜❜

❛❛ Even nightmares die, they leave marks in one’s heart. ❜❜

❛❛ They told me that the organ caused the church’s heaven to cave in on the congregation. ❜❜

❛❛ Don’t read that terrible book if you like being sane. ❜❜

❛❛ We never know what hides in the lone lagoons and swamps, in the ancient abandoned homes. ❜❜

❛❛ Even brainless monsters can survive. ❜❜

❛❛ [ He / She / They ] died, but the corpse retained life. It stalks about, tries to conceal the odor of decay. ❜❜

❛❛ Change comes over the rising sun. ❜❜

❛❛ An overgrown gardener is always a bad sign. ❜❜

❛❛ The people here talk about unknown, dark fires dancing across the hills at night. ❜❜

   a tragedy’s a tragedy no matter what happens. now close your close your eyes tight and imagine : everything/one you’ve ever loved is gone, gone, gone.

sara chidouin of the visual novel your turn to die / kime ga shine.  blog warnings for mentions death, blood, gore, and the likes. established on 04/24/2020. written and loved by berry.