Ryan Lee. Interrogator. Titans. "i wish she had something savage coursing through her skin. God should have made girls lethal when he made monsters of men."
âYou really should meet my sisters sometime. I think youâd get along well with them, always trying to kill me one way or another.â Ben laughed, taking the sandwich and humming as he chewed. Of course, he hadnât spoken to his family since - well, since Rosieâs funeral, but it was still nice to think about the what ifs. And what better place to play pretend than at your enemiesâ wedding? âThatâs actually not a bad sandwich and I hate that I just said that. Anyway, fess up - how much did your dress cost? Assuming that you didnât steal it for shits and gigs.âÂ
Ryan smiled, bright and sincere. She linked their arms together, tugging him along the buffet table towards the dessert section. âItâs Godâs work, Ben. Our shoulders have been burdened with such glorious purpose.â Ryan filed Benâs life into three sections: before, during, and after. Before, of course, was Rosie and family and running on the high of love through the streets of New York. Ben barely talked about before, but Ryan never pushed as someone who didnât talk about hers either. Still, there was something about the wedding and the crowds and declarations of love that made it easy to play pretend that their beforeâs were tangible, reachable things. âWell, letâs just say, the term âcould feed a small nation,âprobably wouldnât be amiss in this situation. Donât I look absolutely fabulous?â
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The sun, almost as if it knew the unheavenly creatures it beamed down upon, dimmed. She might have shivered, but Kat had known colder days than these - true bleakness, true weakness. She liked to think of herself as inhuman now, unbound by the laws of nature. Why not? They had, after all, named her for a Titan. A sinister playfulness dancing on her lips, Kat turned to her companion, matter of fact.âSome pigs squeal faster than others. I donât waste my time with them.â Her craft was a work of art, a delicate brutality, to be treasured. âAll you have to do is flash a knife and itâs all - oh, please donât kill me, I have children.â As if that mattered. âTheyâre almost as bad as the ones who donât think a woman is capable of inflicting such pain. Itâs
Schwachsinn.â
Ryan turned to the other woman with a laugh, bright and lovely. Oh, to be so picky. She remembered when she liked the ones who begged, who pleaded and spilled secrets and stories with just the flash of a knife or gun. It used to be so easy, to be above it all, to be better when she never got her hands dirty. How quickly that had changed after the first, after the second, third, and countless others. âOnly the best for our sunshine, no? As if our fearless leader who bore you with someone so easy.â She tucked a strand of Katâs hair behind her ear, smiling sweetly. âWe do a very thorough job with people like that though, donât we? Nothing quite like sending my Louboutins through their throats.â
Love. Erik paused and gave Ryan a once-over, feeling more threatened than anything else. âIâm just not a big fan of socializing.â It wasnât entirely untrue - half the time, he did prefer the company of his own horses than to hang around a bunch of gunslingers. âLook, I donât want any trouble. If you want me to go, Iâll go, but Iâm not here on business.âÂ
Ryan leaned into the drug manufacturerâs space. âFunny place for an introvert.â She leaned back, covering her smile with a hand, sweet and demure as she glanced at the dealer for a brief moment. âStay, stay. Iâm hardly the one you should be scared of, anyways. Iâm only here as a friend after all.â
âThese areâŚinteresting.â The tiny hors dâoeuvres stared stared back at him from what seemed like a plate made out of marble. Heâd never really thought much about weddings before, but this - all of this seemed a little over the top, and he was almost glad heâd come, if only to quietly scowl at the Olympians. âHere, you try it and let me know if itâs actually any good.âÂ
Ryan tilted her head to the left, eyeing the itty bitty versions of food she probably wouldnât eat on a regular basis. Sheâd never been to a wedding she was actually invited to before (if one could say she was invited to this one), but she could appreciate the over the top dramatics and needlessly but wonderfully expensive clothing choices. Picking up one of the mini sandwiches, she attempted to stuff the entire thing into her mouth at once. Chewing happily, she picked another one up and motioned for the older man to open his mouth. âIâm not dead yet, but if Iâm going down because of a bad sandwich at this big fat Greek wedding, I need you to join me.â
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1. so lovely, all dark eyes and red lips and a laugh that sounds like the end of the world
2. set fires to feel alive, be careful not to get burned as well
3. half heaven, half hell
4. a cutie with a bat. a cutie with a gun. a cutie with nothing to lose.
5. melts in your mouth saccharine sweet, goes down your throat like hard whiskey
6. what is it to be a conquerer? a magician? honey on your tongue, spin lies sugar sweet, sickly sweet
The first thing you ever learn is to stop asking for other people to save you.
Your mother is a wispy, pretty girl who feels alive with a joint between her fingers and white powder matted onto the seven dollar deep plum lipstick she wears when she is entertaining. The clients like her high and moaning and wanton, your father likes her worse. They think they are Romeo and Juliet, Shakespeare pouring between yellowing teeth and growls from a toddlerâs aching stomach.
Exit hope, pursued by a bear.
You learn the feel of your sisterâs hand wrapped around your wrist in the dark of the closet your parents forget exists. Money comes and goes, but food is never there and you are hungry more often than you are fed. Vanessa learns to hide food from school in her bag and use it over the weekends. You learn to devour food when it is presented to you, swiping extras from the cafeteria kitchen and abandoned trays in the lunchroom. Teachers look at you with an equal amount of pity and disgust. People love poor children on television, when they can coo and aw and talk about how they wish they could help. Being faced with the reality of poverty make people turn and walk away.
Hands do not like to be dirty in real life.
Your father laughs and laughs and laughs at the look on your face when he finds your sisterâs stash of food and swallows it early Friday night. Your father laughs and laughs and laughs when he gets high and starts undressing your mother before your sister can grab your hand and lead you out the door. Your father laughs and laughs and laughs, and he dies laughing, spit choked around a cigarette while he bleeds out in the belly from a gunshot hand delivered by his best friend.
You think, Augustus Ramsey freed you from an evil you knew from birth.
You think, Augustus Ramsey introduced you to an evil you sit in the bottom of your stomach and the back of your throat like a lesson to be learned, a medal to be worn, a fear to be swallowed and swallowed and swallowed.
He is kinder, at first. There is food on the table, at first. Your sister stops shaking at night in fear of what comes through the door, at first.
At first.
Isnât it the most tragic thing, âat first?â Isnât it the most terrible and terrifying betrayal?
Augustus Ramsey is not a bad man, at first, not the kind of bad man you know. There is more than one type of cruel, and he has a talent for embodying as many as possible.
He sits in the dingy apartment like a tyrant over his kingdom. Your mother is a haze of pills and drugs and empty eyes that stare blankly into yours until the blackness of them bleed out onto the floor.
You think, there is more than one way to die.
You think, there are fates far worse than death.
Vanessa learns hiding and fear and soft spoken words. She hides behind the curtain of her hair, although the hand she keeps wrapped around your wrist is always strong. The look in her eyes in the wake of drunk anger and high indifference is always strong.
You learn to stop crying out, because it makes him laugh.
You want to learn strength, but strength seems so far away in the face of fear.
Strength is a strange thing when youâre ten. Itâs knights battling dragons. Itâs your sister standing tall as you walk down the street to her friendâs house, one hand in yours and the other wrapped around a pocket knife. Itâs the calmness in which she walks into your classroom one morning and tells you youâre leaving.
You are fourteen years old, and your sister picks you up from the dirt and blood and muck and you find yourselves in Germany.
You donât ask. Sheâs eighteen now and fresh out of school. She doesnât speak German, but neither do you and, isnât it fun, Alex? An adventure in a whole new world. The apartment is still dingy but you share it with two laughing, dreaming girls who reach for the stars and go through German vocabulary lessons with you between shifts and restaurants and dates with equally laughing and dreaming boys. You donât ask, and you think, maybe I can be happy like this.
Maybe I can love this.
Itâs a mess, but itâs good. Itâs your sister breathing easy and smiling with dimples. Itâs not looking over your shoulder for the first time. Itâs not hiding in the closet with every slamming of the door. Itâs not makeup routines designed to cover bruises instead of pimples.
Itâs happiness, a strange kind, but youâve already given up on the ones shown in the movies.
You were not made for soft, lovely things like happy ever afterâs, but you think this is close enough. This, this can last.
Of course, youâre wrong.
You are fifteen and your sister dies in a car accident on a sunny day that stinks of intent.
You live with the two laughing, dreaming girls for another year before you move in with your boyfriend and follow him to Berlin. The old apartment is filled with the empty spaces your sister left. You feel like there are gaps in the expanse of your skin. Your wrist is empty and cold and thin and you never knew how breakable it was without your sisterâs hand like armor around it.
Funny, how you realize things when itâs too late.
Your boyfriend has a dimple on his left cheek when he smiles and curly blonde hair and dark brown eyes that you can lose yourself in. He always carried flowers in his left hand and pulled you in for a kiss with his right. You donât love Grant, not really, but the gleaming look in his eyes when trouble starts and the infectious sound of his laughter when he wins board games and pool is enough to make you think you could learn to trust him.
And baby, isnât that something else?
He starts running with a gang in Berlin, some boys stirring up trouble and running on the high of luck. You smile at their antics and you keep your pocket knife on you at all times. You start running with them too after a few months. You canât pinpoint why: maybe itâs the rush, maybe itâs because youâve known for a while now that you were born to die young and you want to go out with a bang.
Your hands shake slightly the first time you use that pocket knife. You leave a trembling cut across a grabby manâs throat and Grant leans in and whispers in your ear:
Inhale courage.
Exhale fear.
The next time you cut someone, you do it like you mean it. There is a rush there, over the look in their eyes, that stark fear when they realize theyâre bleeding out. It feeds your courage.
Inhale courage. Exhale fear.
Youâve always wanted to stop fearing the monster in the dark, so that is what you become. Â
And damn, you look so good as the devil. Walk into the club like trouble dressed as an angel. Your dark hair and dark eyes, a smile like you know exactly when the world is going to end. Youâre a thief stealing hearts and charms and money, your red lips an imprint on their skin as you leave. Your little gang gains notoriety, and your own hand escalates. It feeds on you like an addiction, and itâs the closest you ever come to understand the high your parents chased to their graves.
How unforgettable this is.
How wonderful this is.
The world may think your boys are the ones to fear, but you and your little knife are the punishment people face when they cross you. The little one. The pretty one. You are the last one standing when they are all taken, one by one, for crimes they have and havenât committed.
People underestimate you because you are young and pretty, and the world has always coveted young and pretty things to be glass and porcelain. Lovely, wonderful, breakable.
How wrong they are.
Richard Johnson walks into your occupied warehouse on a Tuesday night in a bespoke suit and he smiles as you turn to face him. There is something terrible in that smile, something earthshaking. In hindsight, you canât be blamed for the way you smiled back. There sits something earthshaking in you too.
He asks for you. Not by name, no. No one has called you your name since you were sixteen and still breakable. He asks for you by reputation.
âDer kleine MĂśrder.â The little killer.
You step forward, little pocket knife in your right hand, and you ask this well dressed man what he wants.
âYou.â
It is almost like wooing, after that. You learn about his reputation. His story. The King. The King wants you for his court, and for a moment you think he wants a pawn. A knight.
No. He wants a magician.
And havenât you always been magic, learned charm and ease? Ruby Woo lipstick and smoky eyeshadow and everything the world has ever wanted? People feel at ease with you. You can shift and change shape. A cutie with a yellow hair ribbon and a heart too big for you not to trust. A beauty with winged eyeliner and high heels and a body they want to pray to. A terror with a knife and a wild smile and wilder eyes.
You are eighteen, almost nineteen, when you say yes to the King.
You are eighteen, almost nineteen, when you say yes to the rest of your life and the first group of people you will ever call family and mean it.
He gives you a test run when you are still new and you both donât completely trust each other. He spent six months wooing you into this job. Now is time to prove you were worth it. You are a killer first, not his, but just a killer. It take adjusting, but your talent has always been in getting people to tell you things. Perhaps itâs because you understand fear and want and pain and need. Itâs a power you keep close to your chest that makes you smile.
Itâs not that youâre power hungry, no, but you understand the complete lack of it and you never want to go back to it again.
They name you interrogator. Hitman. Executioner. You are the truthmaker. Truth teller. Everything about you is a truth, even when it isnât. The name you have Richard is a lie, but it is also your new truth. (âRyan. Ryan Lee.â) The mask you wear is a lie, but itâs the truth others need to see to love you. To trust you. To fear you.
He names you Styx. Deity of the sacred river in which all oaths are sworn. Promise keeper. Maker of the immortal. Miracle worker.Â
So work your miracles as you whisper lies like they are the most honest words to come between your lips.Â
It takes so long, but, you find yourself caring about this. Caring about them. Trusting them. You whisper your real name to Richard in the dark of the night. You hold Orpheusâs hand when it shakes with grief and pain and you are starkly reminded of your sister because like her they see you. They see you.
You are anger and pain and terror.
Inhale courage.
Exhale fear.
You, like all wolves and witches and monsters before you, bleed. Bleed. And bleed. And bleed on everything the world loves. They love you, anyways. They trust you, anyways. They encourage this, anyways. Power feeds you like blood feeds the gods. And you hold power over your enemies. Over their enemies. Over Berlin.
You will never have history books printed in your name, no statues erected in your honor, no priestess on a pedestal regaling your honor, but in the moment with your gun in your hand and your finger on the trigger, you let yourself think this: I am a God.
You are young and beautiful and terrifying, and hasnât the world always trembled before such things? Before glorious things?
You are ready to be unleashed and Richard points the Titans to New York.
âTell the world, âHere I am.ââ Richard tucks the request under a smile like family, holding it above you like a challenge he knows you are dying to conquer.
The Titans are coming for war, for revenge, for chaos, for the throne.
Are you ready?
Youâve always been half heaven, half hell. Give them a crimson smile, my love, they will never be prepared for you.
Kat had always liked nursery rhymes, catchy little phrases she could dangle from her lips. But most of all, she loved their sinister origins. It was darkness masked by poetry. Just like her. The words rang in her mind - Ring-a-ring oâ roses, a pocket full of posies, A-tishoo! A-tishoo! We all fall down , the old man bumped his head, went to bed and couldnât get up in the morning and âEeny meeny miny moe.â That one she said, words exhaled to the air, her lone witness. Soft speech under rosebud lips, she rose her gaze to survey the landscape, the ships passing in without comment. Trespassing on what had been declared Old Olympus ground, she felt rebellion hum underneath her veins. Sharp ears picking up on a disturbance to her left, Katâs expression of indifference melted into a faux-tamed smile. âCatch a mobster by its toe. If it hurtsâŚâ Drawing out the words, she inhaled sharply. âLet it go?â
It was a question.
If Ryan had to rank the Titans, Kat would definitely find herself in the top five. They were closest in age, two girls with talented fingers and bloody hands and a childhood so tragic it could come out of a âwrong side of the tracksâ Lifetime movie. Ryan stepped next to older girl, humming along to the familiar nursery rhyme as they walked. Enemy territory was always a fun place to be, with the rush of adrenaline that came with danger. Still, she liked the docks, with its salty sea breeze and little secrets hidden on little boats with little men.Â
She pursed her pink lips into a pout at the question. âWouldnât that be boring? I donât like finishing things that...quickly.â
âCrap. Iâll fold.â Tossing his cards onto the table, Erik leaned back against the chair, watching the rest of the players in annoyance. He turned his head to the side for a breath and saw someone a little too familiar, expression falling. â - and I thought Iâd get some alone time here.â
Ryan liked the casino, for what it was worth. Never a boring night, even if she had to discipline more than few patrons for their less than ideal behavior. Noticing a familiar face losing almost tragically at poker, she waltzed over with a smile sharper than her favorite knives. âSo cruel, love. Youâre breaking my heart.â
One of the most difficult parts of the month had finally arrived, and Henry wished it could wait another day â but alas, dusting couldnât be ignored when the flecks danced in the sunlight and threatened sneezes.Â
Moving about the shop with a duster in hand wasnât the most threatening appearance, and though they wouldnât want to dissuade genuine customers, they did have to work harder than most others to be taken seriously. Reaching for the top shelf on their tip toes â and failing more than once due to adjusting their stance on the prosthetic â wasnât the best approach.Â
Still, cleanliness was important, and it had to be done. Their father had done this type of work beforehand, and they would follow his footsteps, no matter if it was meager work. Though there was nothing to be said about a few sighs slipping through their lips every ten minutes or so.Â
But then, a flicker of a shadow snatched their attention, and Henry stepped from the corner of the room, clucking their tongue with almost every step.Â
âOh câmon, you know better than to do that here.â
There was something to be said about brand loyalty. Olympus, both old and new, found themselves at Etna Weaponryâs front door when in need for fire power. Itâs as Mom and Pop as a gun shop can get, passing down its keys from generation to generation for longer thanâs sheâs been alive. New York Cityâs favorite NRA wet dream wrapped in a tidy little package to block out the amount of mobsters it supplies.
Mallie would throw a fit if he knew she was here. The older man didnât want to admit to it, but he wasnât pleased with competition of any kind. Even just mentioning the shop had him gritting his teeth. It was hilarious.
She entered the shop with a sugar sweet smile, flicking her hair over her shoulder as she stepped out of the cold. Sheâd been to a fair share of weaponries and gun shops, but this was probably the first time sheâd seen someone dusting all the shelves. They were even on their tip toes. Covering her smile with a hand, she pulled her phone out to take a selfie to tease the others with later, only to pause when the owner spoke.
She giggled behind her hand, tucking her phone back into her pocket.
Even with his own sisters, Ben always tried to be the good brother. Not too strict, not too overwhelming, but not irresponsible, either. Of course, heâd completely fallen out of touch with Sara and Tiffany a long time ago, but  he never quite stopped being a brother. Especially not with one Ryan Lee around. Heâd tried to keep things light-hearted when he was texting her, but it was impossible to shake off that dreadful feeling of what if. What if itâd been worse? What if sheâd died? He tried to keep his mind from going to those places as he picked up the boxes of Chinese food from their favorite place around the corner, heading straight towards the familiar apartment and knocking at the door without hesitation.
âHey, Ry-Lee, I brought you something,â He said, trying to sound as nonchalant as possible though he was just about two seconds away from knocking down the door himself so he could see her face. âCâmon, let me in. I know youâre hungry because last I checked, someone was feeling a little bitâŚmurdery, and I know how much energy youâve wasted being mudery. So let me see you and fix you up, okay?â
It had been a long time since she had been a younger sibling. Vanessa was gone, dead in the ground and buried with the ruins of a girl who had once been Alexandra. Shedding her past and her name had been horrifically easy when she took Atlasâs hand and joined the Titans, but she couldnât stop the way she looked at Ben and saw a reflection of her older sister. They were different people, from different worlds, but the steady hand and the way he took everything she was without hesitation made her stop and wonder. That was why she texted him, why she wanted him to come. She had never liked the feeling of needing another person, but she thought she could eventually deal with needing Ben.
She pushed herself up from where she had lain down on the couch, groaning softly. Experience made her good at first aid and pain wasnât new, but she still hated the soreness that came with injury. The bubbling anger that couldnât be let loose here. Opening the door, she plastered a carefree smile on her face. âRight as always, I am ravenous and I smell Chinese food. You really are spoiling me, Benjy.â
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It was so easy to loop his arm around Ryanâs waist, look up at her with eyes that were both adoring and untrusting. He wasnât another one of her marks or toys. Heâd seen the cruelty under her sweet beauty more than once, and even if heâd trust her with his back in a fight and trust her to keep him alive, he truly didnât trust her as far as he could throw her. âOh, Ryan, my darling, you caught me. I am absolutely lost in your eyes and never want you to leave my side- Please, donât ever leave me. Itâd kill me.â His voice was completely monotone, and when he finished speaking he blinked at her once as if he were batting his lashes.
It didnât take much to make the hitman bubble with laughter however, and soon enough he was chuckling at his own jokes. âYou just like them because theyâre easy targets and theyâre fun to fuck with. Not exactly confidence inspiring or making me want to like them.â
Ryan smiled sweetly, twisting her fingers into his hair gently. She liked Bastien, she truly did, even despite his clear disdain for the darker parts of her personality. A bit hypocritical, considering his job, but she liked him still. Trusted him as one of her best friends and one of the few people who havenât tragically disappointed her yet. And wasnât that sad, one of her best friends hated something she could never and will never change?Â
âSweet, sweet Bastien, how your words set my soft heart a flutter. Your love is but the sole reason my lungs continue to breathe and my heart to beat.â
She laughed, flicking her hair over her shoulder as she turned her eyes to the crowd milling around them. âWell, you know, eat the rich. Just think of us as cuter Robin Hoods with better clothes and more ammo.ââ
âMaking play a synonym to handle is dangerous.â Sebastian responds, choosing to ignore the commentary on family. Family had been nothing in Sebastianâs life - a tumor, a virus. A mistake. This was different, better.Â
He would not call it a family.
âBut I suppose Iâve got a thing or two for your perusal.â
âHandle sounds so boring. It makes me sound like a fifty year old whose on one last joy ride before I kick the bucket in a spectacularly boring and underwhelming fashion. Besides, danger is our business, donât you think?â
She smiled at his last comment. âWow, Sam, you really know how to entice a girl. âA thing or two for my perusal.ââ
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He took a drag from his cigarette, blowing the smoke away from the both of them before taking another sip from his drink. He felt a little bad about essentially pushing the other girl away, but he knew sheâd find somebody to talk to quickly enough. His attention returned to the woman before him.Â
He reached up with his cigarette-holding hand and scratched his chin, his smirk growing back into a smile, white teeth peeking out from behind his lips. âWell, Iâm glad I could help with that,â he said before he sipped the last bit of his drink from his red cup.
Taking another quick drag from his cigarette and blowing the smoke away over his shoulder, Russ cleared his throat before speaking. âCanât let a pretty lady like you suffer boring conversation in a place like this. By the way, Iâm Russ.â
He looked better smiling than smirking, although smoking was a nasty little habit. Alas, New York City was thriving with bad habits and this was hardly amongst the worst. Some might say murder was a nasty little habit too. She smiled sweetly up at him, watching him through her lashes. He got rid of boring company, at least, and seemed to be decent enough to not try to pull a power move and blow smoke in her face.Â
âMy knight in shining armor. Sheâs lovely, but unfortunately not the best conversationalist.â Ryan laughed, swirling her drink around in her cup. That was an understatement, the girl had been absolutely dull and almost a complete waste of time, but the exceptionally bitchy part of her felt nice for once. Maybe it was the lights. Maybe it was how much she actually had a good time tonight. Maybe.
âRuss.â Her smile grew. âIâm Ryan. Iâd say Iâve never seen you around before, but that brings me back a little too close to high school and the really bad pick up lines we all thought were really smooth.â