Akemi Homura is transfem lesbian
regular lesbian shame but with the additional feeling of responsibility to madoka whom she believes is Ontologically Purer than herself
"I'm not human" (In addition: "Because I have chosen to become a (magical) girl.")
Originally extremely shy, tries to make herself as small as possible -- eventually is forced to become bitter and jaded through being afforded the unique perspective to see how the agents of Patriarchy (kyuubey) violently subjugate herself and the other girls, who are themselves unable to see the state of affairs, and who are thus Enlisted by Patriarchy to destroy her and each other.
This Pattern Is Destroying Me But To Change It Means I Must Acknowledge That Continuing It Was Meaningless And Immediately Fall To Despair
I have invented such a newfound way of hating myself that I have somehow innovated an entirely new form of selfhood, which both skirts the boundaries between (magical) girl and beast (witch), but which transcends both. I did this because I am so profoundly desperate to be loved, and have had such a vacuous lack of it in my life, that I latched onto the first woman who showed me the remotest amount of kindness, and upon whom my desperate affections have literally Imbued Godhood Into.
Hated By The Cosmos, Spiritually
Considered "shittier than other magical girls" by Nature, and has to work eight billion times as hard as other magical girls to be considered their equal
Is still reviled as an outsider and rejected from the fold, and regarded with immediate and visceral suspicion by all the other magical girls who meet her
Willpower which transcends multiple universes to keep staying alive despite all of the cosmic burden and the forces of Patriarchy Embodied (kyuubey) aiming all of their power at her Cessation.
Grieving the loss of something that the other magical girls literally are fundamentally incapable of comprehending.
Weird-Ass Chuunibyou Name That Fucks Extremely Hard
Is the only one who sees The Patriarch for what he is, and is therefore maligned by the Other Magical Girls for shooting him with a gun.
Uniquely selected by The Patriarch for freakish, violent laboratory study, where she is tormented and forced to live a hellish nightmare for unknown years.
believes "My Capacity For Love Is What Makes Me Bad, Because I Am A Spiritually Corruptive Force."
Considered by the Patriarch to be a failed, degenerate form of Magical Girl, which, rather than fulfilling her purpose as a tool of his designs, interferes with his plans.
Was Not Naturally Made with a magical girl weapon (Sayaka's sword, Kyouko's spear, Madoka's bow, Mami's rifle) but was rather given an entirely different kind of tool -- a shield -- and therefore has to innovate the technology to manufacture her own artificial weapons, which are notably symbolically associated with "male violence" (yakuza)
Is the only one fighting the actual fight that matters (against the Patriarch Himself), rather than fighting the false battle that the Patriarch has convinced the other Magical Girls is the real battle.
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