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Heated rivalry

Freezing Point (Hollanov x M!Y/N)

Slipping Through my Fingers (Hayden x M!Y/N)

I’ve Got a Taste of the Glamorous Life (Cliff x FtM!Y/N)

Stranger Things

First time (Billy Hargrove x FtM!Y/N)

The Pitt

After Hours (Frank Langdon x M!Y/N)

Fandoms I’m in

Stranger things

Game of Thrones (including all shows)

Parings: FtM!Y/N x Billy Hargrove

Warnings: 18+ MDNI, WDNI, female anatomy but reader identifies as a guy, term t-dick is used as well as pussy, riding, pet names are used, Bottom!Y/N

Summary: Billy and Y/N have been dating for years and have only done things over the clothes

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Y/N and Billy had been dating before they moved to Hawkins, Y/N didn't have much family in California nor did they want him around, Y/N is trans and his family didn't enjoy learning about that information when he had tried coming out to them

When Y/N came out to his boyfriend, Billy. He was worried that Billy would be disgusted with him. but to his surprise Billy hugged him and told him he still loved him no matter how he identifies

Of course, Billy's father Neil would never learn about this information, he already called Billy a fag and he didn't want to risk Neil hurting Billy more than he already does

Before they had moved to Hawkins Y/N managed to (With a lot of work) get onto hormone therapy, so once Y/N had moved to Hawkins only Billy and Max knew about his identity.

Y/N had travelled to Hawkins alone to avoid suspicion from Neil, but now they were finally here together and settled into the new town. Y/N was staying in a small trailer house that his distant family was helping pay for

Billy would sometimes come over and the two of them would relax and watch movies together, Y/N wasn't ready to do anything more together. despite being together for nearly three years.

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Tonight Y/N was ready to go further, currently he was sitting on his boyfriends lap, grinding against his boner while they were making out, Y/N's hands began to move from Billy's biceps down to his pants where he started to unbutton them

Billy quickly pulled away and stopped him "Are you sure you're ready baby? i can wait" He looked at Y/N with those soft eyes that no one else would see due to the tough image Billy always maintained around others

Y/N smiled softly, kissing him again before parting slightly "Yes. im ready, i want this"

Y/N moved off of his boyfriend's lap and Billy quickly buttoned his jeans, tugging them and his underwear down to his midthighs while Y/N worked on taking his own pants off before climbing back onto Billy's lap

Billy reached for Y/N's shirt, but the man stopped him "I.. don't want to take my shirt off" he said quietly, worried this would turn Billy off, instead Billy moved his hands to the back of his boyfriends neck "It's okay, you're in control"

Y/N smiled before leaning down to kiss him again, their lips quickly finding their previous rhythm as they connect, Billy's fingers move down to Y/N's pussy, his fingers gliding through the wet folds

Billy's fingers began playing with his boyfriend's t-dick, causing Y/N to pull away from the kiss and moan letting his forehead drop onto Billy's shoulder

"You're so wet.. desperate for me to fuck you baby?" Billy whispered into Y/N’s ear, Y/N nods softly which causes Billy to shake his head softly "Words baby, i want to hear you beg for my dick"

Y/N groans softly before moaning again as Billy slips in a finger, then another "Fuck Billy.. Please fuck me" Billy hums slowly as if he was debating on it

"I think you can beg better than that sweetheart" Billy smirked as he hears Y/N whine in protest "Oh come on.. if you want me to fuck you then you're gonna have to beg better than that"

"Please Billy, i need your cock, I wanna make you feel good" hearing his boyfriend say this makes Billy's dick twitch and he pulls his fingers out of his pussy and wraps a hand around his dick, sliding it between Y/N's folds

"Come on baby, sit on my cock.. since you wanna make me feel so good.. ride me"

Y/N blushes and with his boyfriend's help, he sinks down onto his cock the pair moaning at the sensation. "Fuck baby, doing so good for me.. keep going" Billy groans out, holding onto Y/N's hips

After he bottoms out Y/N begins moving on Billy's dick, working hard to chase his and his boyfriend's orgasm, he starts to move a hand towards his t-dick but Billy stops him, rubbing it for him "I gotta help you feel good since you're doing so good for me.. im close baby"

Y/N moans as his boyfriends fingers stimulate his t-dick, he picks up the pace, his own climax quickly approaching "Im close too.. fuck!" He moans loudly as his orgasm washes over him, his hips slowing

Billy quickly makes up for the lost sensation, moving his own hips, chasing his own release before quickly pulling out and jerking off, his release spilling over Y/N's abdomen "Fuck baby, you were amazing" he quickly leans in and captures his boyfriend's lips with his

Parings: M!Y/N x Frank Langdon

Warnings: 18+ MDNI, WDNI, riding, P in A, cum eating, riming, two people obsessed with eachother, bottom!frank, size kink if you squint

Summary: Y/N and Frank often worked different shifts, meaning the pair barely get to see each other.. so when their schedule’s finally align, they take advantage of it

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Y/N went home, exhausted and not expecting his husband to be home.. whenever he was off work, Frank would be at work, and whenever they both were off work, one of them would get paged

So Y/N didn’t get too excited when he saw his husband standing in the kitchen making dinner for them, he simply plopped his bag on the ground before slowly walking over to the man in the kitchen and wrapping his arms around his torso

Frank continued to cook while Y/N hugged him “long day today?” Y/N just groaned and nodded, sighing heavily, his grip tightening around his husband “i wish we had more time together” Y/N mumbled into his back

Frank set down the utensil he was using to cook, turning around before pressing a kiss to the man’s forehead before hugging him back “well im not on call tonight, so we can spend the night together without any worry of the hospital pulling us apart”

Y/N leaned back, looking at his husband with a smile on his face “really?” This smile makes Frank’s heart melt, a smile growing on his own face “yes really.. now let me finish making dinner and then you can tell me about your day”

Y/N nodded, giving him a kiss before pulling away and walking to their bedroom to get changed out of his work clothes

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“And then Denis… his phone fucking went off while we were in the room dealing with a patient.. it’s funny thinking about it now but i was so pissed off because there was so much going on and that was the straw that broke the camel’s back for me… i may have yelled at him” Y/N rambled as the two ate their food, Frank happily listening to his husband while he ate

“I swear i have way harder shifts than you do.. its like the hospital gods have it out for me.. frank? Hey are you even listening to me” Y/N stared at him, a small smile on his face

Frank blinked slowly before locking eyes with his husband “no sorry.. i was.. distracted, you’re just so gorgeous” Frank smiles more as his husband looks down at his plate, face flushing from the compliment

“Hey.. don’t hide from me now” He reaches out and holds his hand, Y/N’s hand tightening on his “im glad you’re not on call tonight.. i really missed you” Y/N looked up from his plate as he spoke

“I’ve missed you too sweetheart, now finish your food, we’ve got a board game and movie to watch” Y/N chuckled and went back to eating the food his husband made, their hands staying linked as they ate

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Frank panted heavily as he slowly worked himself onto his husband’s dick, his hands planted on Y/N’s shoulders as Y/N’s hands gently massaged his hips

The board game was long forgotten now, replaced by the desire and need to be with eachother, closer together, inside eachother

They were on their second round, first it had been frank fucking his husband, and now Y/N was returning the favour

Frank bottomed out on Y/N’s cock, his head dropping down to his shoulder “fuck i forgot how big your dick was baby…” he mumbled into his husband’s shoulder

“You’re okay… you’ve taken it before…” Y/N kissed his neck, moving one hand to his back and rubbing a soothing motion

Frank slowly moves his hips up and down his husband’s length, moaning as the tip of Y/N’s dick rubs his prostate

Y/N moves his hand back down to Frank’s hips, holding onto them as he slowly moves his hips to meet Frank’s “tell me when i can go faster.. i don’t want your coworkers knowing what you got up to tonight”

Frank continues to moan into his husband’s shoulder “fuck! please go faster i don’t care!” God he probably sounded pathetic right now but he didn’t care.. not with his husband, if it were anyone else he would

Y/N started to snap his hips upwards, the sound of skin slapping against skin filled the room, Y/N moved one of his hands down to Frank’s cock, wrapping around the base before moving up and down his length

Frank moans loudly, clenching around his husband’s dick “im so close! Fuck please don’t stop” he moves to hide his face in the crook of Y/N’s neck kissing and sucking on the skin, leaving a mark that their coworkers would surely point out on Y/N’s shift in the morning

Y/N moans and bucks his hips upwards, his own release was approaching fast, he quickened his pace both with his hips and hand

“Shit shit shit shit!!” Frank lets out a guttural moan as his release spurts out of his dick and onto his husbands torso

Y/N brought his soiled hand to Frank’s mouth “clean up your mess baby.. im almost done” Frank quickly complied, mouth wrapping around Y/N’s digits licking his release off of them

After a couple more thrust, Y/N finishes inside of his husband, they sit together in silence, trying to catch their breath as they held eachother

After a few minutes, Y/N slowly pulled out before having Frank lay back on the ground, he quickly pulled his husband’s legs over his shoulders

“Hey what are you- fuck!” Frank moans and his legs shake from overstimulation as Y/N’s tongue started lapping at his entrance

Y/N’s tongue slips inside as he slurps his own spent out of his husband’s ass, Frank is a moaning shaking mess underneath of him and once he’s finished Frank climaxes for a third time that night

“Alright baby.. let me help you up and we can have a bath” Y/N help’s Frank sit up, giving him a moment to come down from his high before helping him stand up and bringing him to the bathroom

Once they’re in the bath together Y/N is leaning on Frank’s chest as Frank plays with his hair the two were enjoying the silence before Frank randomly states “we should get a dog”

Y/N looks at him confused “we just had sex and you came three times… and you’re thinking about getting a dog?”

Frank chuckles and shrugs “what else would i be thinking about” but before he let’s Y/N get upset he quickly pulls him into a kiss “i was thinking about how much i love you and want a family with you”

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Part 6

Parings: FtM!HockeyPlayer!Hollander!Y/N x Cliff Marleau, Shane x Ilya, Ilya x Y/N

Summary: Y/N learns some upsetting information in 2018, which is how he ends up where he is for the 2019 season. After a good game they go out to celebrate

Tagslist: @arth33 @ilocuras24 @st4pley0ur3y3s

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Y/N and Marleau grew close, but he rejected going out to clubs with the man when he was in the city, after Y/N recovered in about a year, he was allowed to spend 2018 rebuilding his body and he'd be set to hit the ice again in 2019, he travelled back home to San Jose to announce the news to his coach in person

When he got back to San Jose and went to the stadium he walked into his coaches office, telling him that he'll be good to play in another year, that's when his coach broke the news to him, they couldn’t afford his loss in the 2017 season and so they cut him off of the team when the NHL deadline came up to try and recruit a new talented player

Y/N asked his coach what team he offered him to, and his coach shrugged and said "Any team that was willing to take a player that wasn't even confirmed if he'd ever come back" Y/N's shoulders sagged heavily, he felt like he was being thrown away like garbage

Y/N left the stadium with his head hung low and he travelled back to his house in San Jose and immediately began packing the rest of his belongings while he called his agent, he asked his agent what team picked him up, and Y/N had to sit down when he heard the news, Montreal. they had offered one of their rising prospects for Y/N, a player who still couldn't walk when the trade happened, but Montreal saw an opportunity to have both of the Hollander brothers, the top two players in the league, on their team

Eventually Y/N replied to his agent, he just said alright and hung up, he loved his family, but he didn't like how they smothered him, it was bad before the accident and it was worse now, at least a positive to this trade was that he was on a better team, other talented players that were more on his level

Y/N didn’t enjoy losing his title as captain, and being put on a wing position, but he figured it was better than losing his job and having to search for a job that he probably wouldn't even enjoy, also considering the fact that he was in his late twenties and didn't have any employment besides the NHL to his name, he didn't think he'd have a high chance of getting any job besides McDonalds anyways, so he'll take what he can get

Y/N spent the entirety of 2018 training and getting his strength and build back to where it used to be, and when the 2019 season started he was welcomed back to the ice with the new fans in Montreal shouting both the Hollander brothers names

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Montreal, 2019

Tonight, on the ice, was the night he’d be facing Marleau for the first time since Tampa, back in 2017. He wondered if Marleau changed at all, maybe a new hairstyle or he grew his beard longer?

Y/N shook his head and cleared his throat as he approached the right wing of the face off, it was Shane against a random member from Boston, the team seemed dull since Ilya left, and weirdly he missed hearing the chirps from the Russian man

When the puck dropped, Shane won, passing it over to Y/N, he began racing down the ice, and when he spotted Marleau coming into his usual defensive position, he passed the puck to Hayden

Y/N skated around the Raider’s defences, getting close to their net so he can try to hit the puck into the net, Hayden passed to Shane, Shane passed to JJ, and finally enough Raiders moved away from the net, letting JJ pass to Y/N and the puck slipping into the net

The Montreal horn blares at the sound of a goal, they were in the lead by two points and there was only two minutes left of the third period, Montreal had this in the bag

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Ciel Club, later

Hayden had convinced Shane and Y/N to go out, saying that it would be good for the two of them to not only celebrate tonight's win but also their first game together on the Metros

Now they were back in Ciel Club, last time Y/N and Shane were here, Shane was here with Rose and Y/N came along as moral support, funnily enough, Shane was still in a relationship, except this time it was with Ilya

Shane seemed much happier with Ilya than he did with Rose, sure he was happy but he didn't have the same smile with her that he has with Ilya, he's seen it up close over the last two summers, Y/N didn't mind Ilya either, he was the one who smothered him the least when he was recovering

Y/N noticed shane leaving the building, he was pulling his phone out of his pocket as he slipped out the back door, Y/N smirked to himself because he knew exactly what Shane was planning to do, Y/N moved quicker, pulling his own phone out of his pocket and opening his contact list

He scrolled down to Ilya's number, pressing the facetime button and letting it dial, Ilya's face came onto the screen when he accepted the call, Y/N smirked at his soon to be brother-in-law, and Ilya immediately knew why Y/N called

"Are you cock blocking me right now?" Ilya yelled at his phone, the music of the club making it hard for Y/N to hear him, he raised his finger up at the screen, a silent motion to tell Ilya to wait a second

Y/N stood from where he was sitting and began walking to the front of the club, unlike Shane he went out the front doors, he had no shame if the world saw him and Ilya on the phone, everyone would just assume its Shane's younger brother trying to annoy him by befriending his rival

when he stepped through the front doors and managed to get away from the loud music he spoke "Do you think my brother is still hiding in the alley waiting for you to reply to his text messages" Y/N smirked at his phone, using this opportunity to pull a cigarette and a lighter from his pocket

Shane and Yuna would freak if they knew he smoked, but his mental health had gotten really bad in late 2017, David and he were sitting outside together one night and they shared a cigarette, which eventually spiralled into smoking weed

Ilya raised his eyebrow at Y/N lighting the cigarette, he inhaled deeply before shaking his head at Ilya and exhaling heavily "You smoke as well, don't give me that big brother look"

Ilya rolled his eyes but he also lit himself a cigaret and the two smoked on facetime together, Y/N definitely preferred Ilya's company over Shane's, He'd enjoy spending time with just David and Ilya during the summers

"Shane is still texting me, wondering why im not replying" Y/N chuckled at his phone and he takes another drag of his cigarette before speaking "How's Ottawa?" he asked softly

Ilya shook his head as he took a long drag from the stick, slowly exhaling the smoke onto his phone screen "Its fine, its Ottawa" Y/N nodded, he looked around at his environment while he nursed another drag, inhaling the smoke into his lungs, holding the warm nicotine in his lungs for a beat before exhaling softly "How's mom and dad?" Ilya smiled at the question "They're worried sick about you but relived that you're with shane"

Y/N leaned against the building of the club "they need to cut me some slack, mom and Shane would lose their minds if they saw all the bad habits ive picked up" Ilya shook his head softly "I dont think they'd be upset Y/N, you went through some serious shit, and you just lost your team cut yourself some slack" Ilya swallowed, taking another drag of his cigarrete and exhaling softly before he continued "I know the media says that you took too long coming back, but the recovery you made is amazing, despite being in a coma for 5 months you're still able to do hockey"

Y/N smiled at the phone before he sighed annoyed "Why'd you have to go falling in love with my brother, how will i ever find someone as sweet as you" Y/N asked, Ilya smirked, he already knew the perfect person for Y/N, mostly because that perfect person was his bestfriend and he never shut up about Y/N "I know.. i am awesome, big dick definitely helps"

Y/N's face scrunched up in disgust "Okay ew Ilya.. Don't talk about your dick with me ever again" Ilya chuckled, taking a final drag of his cigarette before he leaned out of the camera view, putting the bud in the ash tray and then he leaned back into the view of the camera

Y/N flicked his cigarette away just as shane stepped out the front doors of the club "Y/N! thank god you're here, i think Ilya blew me off" Y/N glanced over at his brother who was taking a deep inhale, smelling the familiar scent of nicotine "were you smoking?"

"Uhh" Y/N mumbled, Ilya stepped in, shifting the attention away from Y/N to himself "Ah Shane, have you come to rescue me from your brother?" He asked as Y/N tilted the phone screen to face shane

Shane's eyes locked onto the phone, he immediately grabbed it out of Y/N's hands, a huge smile on his face as he stared at his boyfriend "Why were you on the phone with my brother and not me?" Shane asked softly Ilya smiled softly at him "He needed someone to talk to without getting smothered, now take me somewhere private, headphones on aswell"

Y/N reached for his phone "No! you're not having phone sex with my phone!" Y/N yelled and Shane pulled away smirking at his brother "Hey its pay back for all the times you told mom and dad about you walking in on us half naked" Y/N growled annoyed with him "maybe learn to lock your fucking doors and i wont have to see my brother taking dick up the ass!!"

Shane slapped a hand over his mouth, he had his brother pinned up against the building, Ilya was trying to defuse the situation but it's difficult to do so when you're only on a phone screen, Y/N was slapping at his brother's chest as a way of telling him to get the fuck off of him

Eventually someone stepped in, "Okay Hollanders, let go of eachother" Marleau spoke, Shane turned to look at him, his eyes narrowing at the man before he shoved himself off of Y/N but he didn't walk away right away, instead he pointed a finger in Y/N's face "Watch what you say in public"

Y/N crossed his arms over his chest "Fuck you Shane, give me my phone im going home, you can find your own ride home" Shane scoffed, he handed the phone back to Y/N, Ilya's face was still on the screen and Shane stormed back inside the club

Y/N smiled softly at Ilya "Bye Lya" a nickname Y/N uses for him, Ilya dips his head softly, smiling back at his future brother-in-law "Goodnight Y/N, take care of yourself" Y/N nodded before hanging up and letting out a long exhale

"So, want to tell me what that was about or would you rather catch up on lost time?" Marleau asked as he leaned against the building next to Y/N, this was the first time they were talking face to face in years

Y/N turned to look at him "I don't want to do any fucking talking, i wanna punch something" Marleau hummed as Y/N spoke "well, why dont we go to your place and if you're still feeling that way, i can help with some of your pent up anger?"

Y/N should've known Marleau would turn their conversation sexual, he's been doing it the last couple of months over text messages, and admittly Y/N did have phone sex with him once

Part 5

Parings: FtM!HockeyPlayer!Hollander!Y/N x Cliff Marleau, Shane x Ilya

Summary: Shane helps his parents bring Y/N’s stuff back from his house, Ilya agrees to go to the cottage, david interrupts when he has exciting news

Tagslist: @arth33

~~ San Jose, 2017

Shane and his parents travelled up to San Jose after Shane was cleared to leave the hospital. The three wanted to pick some stuff up for Y/N for when he woke up, they knew he wouldn't be back in this city anytime soon because he wouldn't be allowed to jump right back into hockey

when they arrive to Y/N's house they use their spare key to get inside, The house was relatively tidy besides the few things that were left out, Y/N had clothes sitting on the couch, some on the floor, which his cat was snuggled into, the space looked lived in, a stark contrast to how Y/N's state actually was

Shane tried to swallow the lump in his throat as he walked over to his brother's cat, scooping the small furball into his arms, Yuna and David gently pat the cats head as they walked by Shane, and headed to Y/N's room to pack clothes for him

Shane nuzzled his face into the cat's fur, the cat meowed softly before it began wiggling out of Shane's grasp, Shane knelt down to set the cat down on the floor and he watched the cat walk back over to the pile of clothes and nuzzling it's body into them

"You missing Y/N?" Shane asked softly as he stood up walking over to the kitchen, which had an easy view of the living room "I miss him too, I think his team is definitely missing him, no way are they making it to the playoffs without him" Typical Shane, turning the conversation (Which he was having with a cat) to hockey

Shane and Yuna had talked breifly about what this could mean for Y/N's career, it was mainly shane asking his mom if his brother still had a chance to come back and win a cup before he retired, his mother replied with uncertancy, the longer he was in a coma the slimmer his chances got

Shane had spent every moment he could with Y/N, they had him moved to a hospital in Ottawa so he’d be closer to home and rather than being two hours away, they’d be just a couple minutes away

Shane began packing up food from Y/N’s fridge so they could bring it back home and use it instead of throwing it away, and when Yuna and David came out of the bedroom with a suitcase of Y/N’s clothes Shane walked to the hallway closet

He pulled out a cat carrier from the closet, walking over to Y/N’s cat who was happily purring into the same clothes from earlier, Shane scooped the cat up, placing it in the cat carrier before closing the door of the carrier and latching it

Shane handed the carrier to his dad and his parents walked out to their new car, packing away Y/N’s stuff, Shane quickly grabbed the cats dry food and wet food, putting it in the other bags of groceries he packed up before he followed his parents out of the house

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Ottawa 2017, five months later

Shane and Ilya were at the cottage together, he had asked Ilya when he was high on pain meds to come to the cottage with him, it wasnt until they saw Scott kissing his boyfriend on live television that Ilya agreed to come

They had been out on the lake together, and they were coming back inside to make some food, Ilya had a different idea in mind than Shane, he had Shane pinned against the back door of the cottage, he was kissing the man one second, and the next he was staring at David

Shane sensed Ilya staring inside of the house, he turned to investigate only to also lock eyes with his father, he began to walk into the house but David was already taking off, Shane tried to follow him out of the house but it was useless, david was already gone

When David got back to the house, Y/N looked at him from the couch, his eyes furrowed with concern as he watched his father’s pale faced figure walked through the front door

“Dad?” Y/N called out for him, immediately Yuna and David were right next to him, their hands on his knees as they knelt infront of him “everything okay Y/N? Do you need me to call the doctor?”

Y/N groaned, he loved having the time off but he just woke up a few days ago and he already missed his freedom “god please don’t, you should be worried about dad right now. Look how pale he is, he looks sicker than me” Y/N joked softly, only to be met with harsh stares

“Take a joke guys, im fine” he sighed and leaned back against the couch, he wasn’t as fine as he tried to make it out to be, he couldn’t walk, his parents had to help him use the washroom, he still gets bad headaches and he’s suffering with short term memory loss

Y/N heard from David how much worse he was five months ago, which he couldn’t believe a whole hockey season flew by just like that, he felt like he blinked and suddenly he went from driving to being in a hospital bed

“Anyways, dad whats wrong? Where’s shane at, didn’t you say you were going to surprise him” Y/N asked softly, pulling himself out of his own thoughts

David shook his head softly, and before he had a chance to speak they heard the front door opening again, the three of them turned their heads to look at the front door

David stood up immediately and walked over to the entrance of the living room, using his body to hide Y/N from Shane “im sorry i didn’t..”

Shane shook his head softly, the two began talking before Shane heard Y/N’s familiar groan behind his father, he immediately furrowed his brows before he took a step forward

David stepped out of the way, revealing Y/N, who looked… pale and skinny, while he looked more alive he still didn’t look like himself, but Shane was thankful the man was at least awake and aware again

He walked into the living room, leaving Ilya’s side, Y/N opened his arms and Shane leaned down into them, hugging the man tightly “god you’re such a fucking idiot, i hate you” Shane mumbled into his brothers shoulder

“Love you too Shane” Y/N chuckled softly, he let Shane step away from the hug, but Shane didn’t wander far, he knelt infront of his brother, hands on his shoulders, he didn’t want to let go yet, worried that this wasn’t real

“Shane its going to take more than a stupid car accident to kill me” Y/N shrugged his brothers hands off of his shoulders, but he quickly held them so Shane wouldn’t get upset “Y/N you did fucking die, thank god someone called 911” Y/N shrugged softly and he smiled at shane’s disapproving frown

“Im here still arent i? You can’t rid of me that easily, im still your annoying younger brother” Shane shook his head “you’re not annoying” Y/N smirked like that was a challenge

He remembered very faintly about Ilya, he wasn’t sure that him and Shane were still together, so instead he opted for the safest option, he knew his father’s reaction to whatever he saw had to be something sexual, and from previous conversations, Y/N knew it was a guy

“Okay sure, show me the guy dad caught you tongue fucking with” that made Shane immediately wrench his hands out of Y/N’s grasp he stood up and his face began reddening “Y/N!!” Yuna shouted his name

He looked at his mom with innocent eyes and she immediately closed them and looked away “seriously Shane let us meet him” Shane looked at the front door, nodding for Ilya to come into the room

When Y/N saw him he smirked and immediately looked at shane, Shane shook his head with wide eyes, warning his brother to not say whatever filthy things were on the tip of his tongue

~~

Later that night

Ilya had given Y/N Marleau’s number, he said that Marleau had been wondering how you were and worried sick about him, Y/N shrugged and agreed to text him later

And now he was in bed, staring at his phone while he thought about what to say, this was the hardest part about waking up from a coma, not knowing what peoples lives were like because you weren’t around for it

Five months. Would Marleau even care anymore? Y/N groaned and he covered his face with his free hand, Y/N didn’t even look the same anymore, he was pale, skinny, couldn’t even walk, he wouldn’t be allowed back on the ice until at least a year from now, thats another season where he’d be out of the game, he didn’t mind but he wasn’t sure what he’d do in his free time, he still enjoyed hockey as a hobby afterall

Y/N quickly typed out a text to Marleau, he can text the man to at least tell him he’s awake and alive, if he responds then Y/N can keep their conversations on the phone until he looks like his old self again and was ready to meet him face to face

Y/N

Hey Marleau, Rozanov gave me your number, said you were worried sick about me, you must be a really concerned fan

Part 4

Warnings: Angsty chapter, read at your own risk (i dont know how to tag this without spoiling)

Parings: FtM!HockeyPlayer!Hollander!Y/N x Cliff Marleau, Shane x Ilya

Summary: Y/N and Shane are back from Tampa, Y/N stays in Montreal to see his parents and cheer Shane on in his game against the Raiders, but right after the game begins disaster strikes the Hollander family

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Montreal, 2017

Y/N had flown back to Montreal with Shane, the metros had a game against the Raiders in a few days, and then the sharks and the metros had their game right after

So Y/N decided to stay with Shane to cheer him on and spend time with his parents and he’d meet up with his team when they landed in Montreal

Currently Y/N and Shane were in his car, driving to the skating rink, their parents drove straight from Ottawa to Montreal, they’d be getting their hotel room after the game

“Are you going to come to dinner with mom and dad or do you plan to go out with your team?” Y/N asked as he turned the music on the radio down “ill be with you guys for sure, im not a fan of the team hangouts, everyone is just looking for an excuse to drink” Shane spoke as he pulled into the parking lot

“Speaking of drinking…” Shane said, looking at Y/N quickly “lets not talk about it” Y/N responded quickly, he’d rather not bring up the problems he was dealing with, he’d rather just forget about them entirely

“Alright..” Shane shut the car off and they both hopped out of the car and walked into the stadium “just know you can tell me anything” Shane mumbled and Y/N nodded “i know”

Y/N and shane parted ways when they got inside of the rink, Y/N walked through the rows and rows of seats before he found his seat, his parents were already there waving at him

They stood up, Yuna hugged him, giving him a kiss on his temple before letting him go, david hugged him afterwards, squeezing him tightly

“Y/N have you been eating? You look like you lost a few pounds since i last saw you” Yuna asked as she ran her hand up and down Y/N’s arm

Y/N sat down, exhaling softly “im fine mom, im taking care of myself” Yuna sat down next to him, david was on the other side of him “maybe you should look at a team closer to home after this season, a team thats better and can pay you more money”

Y/N rubbed a hand over his face, of course his mom, who also managed both Shane and Y/N’s careers would be trying to tell him to make more money and get on a better team that would help him get more sponsorships, how would he be able to tell her that he doesn’t care about hockey that much

Y/N shook his head softly “the sharks aren’t great but they’re my family, im happy where i am” Yuna nodded, she placed her hand over his “i just worry about you.. at least call us more okay?”

Y/N looked at his mom and he smiled softly and nodded, not long after the metros and raiders came out onto the ice and began stretching and skating in circles on their respective sides

Y/N waved at Shane when he made eye contact with his family, he smiled and waved back which caught the attention of some broadcasters, they panned the camera away from the ice and focused it on Y/N’s face as the announcer mentioned that he was watching tonight

Y/N waved at the camera before he shouted “go metros!” Which caused half of the arena to cheer and the other half to boo, Y/N chuckled softly at their reactions

Everything was going well, Shane won the face off and he had the puck, he was flying down the ice but Y/N noticed Marleau chasing after the man, a little faster than he’d like

It happened within seconds of the game starting, Marleau hit Shane, he crumpled to the ice. Ilya stood horrified, Pike was ontop of Marleau moments after Shane fell to the ice. Y/N and his parents shot up from their seats

“Holy shit! Mom, dad” he turned to his parents “get down there, there will be an ambulance taking him to the hospital” His parents stood there for a moment “what about you? Come with us” Y/N shook his head “no you need your car, ill drive it there, i can stop by the hotel and get some stuff for you guys” they nodded, handing their keys to their younger son before the rushed off to be by their old son’s side

Y/N rushed out to the parking lot, quickly finding his parent’s car. He hopped in, starting the car and began driving to the hospital, planning his route accordingly so he could stop by the hotel on the way there

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David and Yuna arrived to the hospital, Y/N wasn’t there yet. They waited in the family room for awhile until the doctors gave them the all clear to see Shane

They walked into Shane’s room, smiling softly when they saw their son who looked relatively okay besides his arm being in a sling and his face was bruised

Shane smiled when he saw his parents, quickly and loudly yelling mom and dad, the shushed him softly, telling him to be mindful of the other patients in the hospital before asking how he was

They stayed by Shane’s side, and a few hours later, while Shane and Yuna slept, a doctor peaked their head into the room “David Hollander?” The doctor asked softly

David looked up from his phone, quickly pocketing it, finally Y/N must be here he was starting to get worried. David stood up and walked out into the hallway so he wouldn’t wake Shane and Yuna up

“I apologize for disturbing you Mr. Hollander, would you like your wife to be here while we talk?” David scratched his neck awkwardly, the doctors must want to bring up Shane’s treatments, he could tell Yuna later “no its okay”

The doctor nodded and began walking down the hallway, David followed “so Mr. Hollander, if you’ll come to my office please” the doctor pointed to a room

David walked inside, sitting down by the desk that was in the middle of the small room “what’s going on?”

The doctor sat down beside david, taking a deep breath before he spoke “tonight your son was in an accident” David looked confused “yes i know, but Shane is here he is fine”

The doctor shook their head “no, not Shane. Y/N Hollander, he was in a car accident, a drunk driver hit him. He wasn’t wearing his seat belt, which led him to be thrown out of the car” David felt his whole world get thrown off of its axis “what?”

“Listen your son.. he was dead when officials got to the scene, they managed to resuscitate him before they put him in an ambulance and brought him here” David could only focus on one thing, dead, his son had technically died tonight

“Well if he’s here then he’s okay right?” The doctor didn’t react, just continued to speak “your son is alive, but he is in a coma, and having trouble breathing on his own”

David’s ears began to ring, his hands felt clammy and the pit in his stomach only grew “let me see him, i want to see my baby” David said softly

The doctor nodded, standing up and guiding him to a room at the far end of a hallway “take as much time as you need” David nodded before he walked into the room

And there he was, laying on the bed, except he didn’t look like Shane did, no Shane was responsive, lively and laughing. Y/N was unresponsive, a shell of himself but David knew he was still in there somewhere

David quickly sat down next to Y/N, wrapping his hand around his son’s warm hand, good a sign of life “hey kiddo.. you must’ve been so scared when the accident happened, im so sorry i wasn’t there”

David couldn’t help but let tears slip from his eyes as he spoke to his youngest son, the son that was more like him while Shane was like his mother “you’re safe now, dad is here. Mom is just down the hall sleeping with you’re brother, he’s okay”

David gently rubbed his thumb on Y/N’s hand “i should’ve told you not to worry about the car, i should’ve pushed for you to come to the hospital with us.. speaking of the car, don’t worry im not mad, you’re alive that’s all that matters bud”

David kept talking to Y/N until the sun rose, he knew Yuna would wake up soon, and he couldn’t keep this from her any longer, so he stood up and left the room, but not before promising Y/N he’d be back

~~

Marleau came to the hospital with Ilya, he wanted to apologize to Shane for what he did, he felt sick to his stomach that he had injured the man, he was worried how Y/N would react when they saw each other, he couldn’t help but wonder if the man was here visiting his brother

Ilya told him to wait in the hallway until he was done talking to Shane, Marleau obliged and was standing in the hall, leaning against the wall as he scrolled through his social media

He stopped on a news article, the title said something about a hockey player getting in a car accident, he quickly clicked on it and thats how he learned Y/N was in-fact in the hospital, but not visiting his brother

He quickly pocketed his phone, he walked over to a reception desk and told the receptionist that he was here to visit Y/N Hollander, and when the receptionist told him the room number and gave him a visitor’s pass he immediately took off towards the room they directed him too

He slowly peered into the room, he didn’t see anyone inside besides Y/N so he walked in, quietly shutting the door behind him before he walked over to the bed “Shit little Hollander, what did you do” he quickly sat down next to the man

Marleau was hit with an even heavier sense of guilt, had he not injured Shane, Y/N wouldn’t be in this situation, he would’ve been safely in the arena watching his brother play hockey

“Im sorry Y/N… for hurting your brother” Marleau raised his hand up to Y/N’s face, gently brushing his hair out of his face “i promise when you wake up, ill make it up to you”

Marleau pulled his hand away from Y/N’s face, he gently wrapped his hand around the mans hand “my only regret from Tampa isn’t that we didn’t fuck.. it’s that i didn’t get your number, I’d ask your brother for it, but i don’t know if you’d want me to do that, and i don’t think he’s on speaking terms with me” Marleau chuckled softly

“Anyways, i enjoy your company Y/N, so get better soon so i can enjoy it again, no offence little hollander but i’d like it a little better if you were sassing me right now” he smiled when he thought about something Y/N would say if he was awake and more… alive “you’d say something stupid like your not made of sugar, and you’d try to walk to prove your point”

Marleau heard the door opening, he pulled his hands away from Y/N’s, looking over his shoulder to see who was coming in, it was Ilya “Is he okay? I overheard his parents talking about him” Ilya asked

Marleau shrugged “he’s alive, so that’s a win” Marleau stood up, walking to the door and pushing Ilya out, following the man “what about Shane? He’s okay?” Ilya nodded “he’s high but yes.. he’ll be out of here soon, his parents have not.. told him about Y/N yet”

Marleau nodded as he listened to Ilya “had i just let Shane try to score a goal neither of them would be here right now” Ilya stopped in his tracks, he turned around and placed his hands on Marleau’s shoulders “listen, what happened to Shane is your fault” Marleau winced at the fact “but what happened to Y/N was not, you didn’t hit him” Marleau opened his mouth but Ilya raised his hand to his lips “no buts Marleau, it could’ve happened to anyone, it just happened to be Y/N, thats not your fault”

Marleau deflated and he wrapped his arms around Ilya, the man just stood there not hugging him back “just accept the hug Roz we both need it” he heard Ilya groan but he hugged him back

Ilya whispered in the mans ear “so you and Y/N huh?” Marleau shoved him away “shut it Roz, you don’t see me saying anything about you and Shane”

Ilya smirked as he watched Marleau walk away before he quickly followed after him, the mood felt slightly lighter

Shane x Ftm! Reader who’s the first person he feels comfortable with and actually wants to top. (Future stuff with Ilya)

I can totally write this, i wont write it right away as i have a lot of assignments and midterms coming up at my uni, hence why i paused my Hayden x Y/N fic, but i can make sure i write it eventually!!

Part 3

A/N: there are like zeros gifs of Cliff so i just made a banner that i can use on every post instead

Parings: FtM!HockeyPlayer!Hollander!Y/N x Cliff Marleau

Summary: Y/N and Shane are at the all star game and Y/N catches how close Shane and Ilya are, he decides to confront his brother about it

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Tampa, 2017

Y/N arrived to Tampa with Shane, they were staying a resort with a bunch of other hockey players, including JJ, Marleau and Rozanov

Shane had quickly parted ways with Y/N, patting him on the back and telling him that they can meet up tonight for supper together, none of Y/N’s teammates were invited since he basically carried that team on his back

So since he was alone, he decided to just stay in his room, the pool interested him, but there were too many people, hockey players especially, he couldn’t run the risk of getting outted to a bunch of hockey players, so instead he stuck with watching tv while he laid in bed

They had their all star game tomorrow morning, where their main lineup would be Shane as the centre, Rozanov on the right wing and Y/N on the left wing, a good trait about Y/N was that he could adapt to any forward positions but his left was his weakest position, Marleau would be one of the defence men along with another player he didn’t know

Y/N and Shane were sharing a room, it made sense since they were siblings and got along relatively well, when Shane came back to their room, Y/N slowly looked away from the tv and at shane

“Ready for dinner?” Shane smiled and nodded, Y/N got up from his bed, shutting the tv off quickly before he walked over to the entrance of their hotel room, putting his shoes on

The two went down to a restaurant that was on the resort, and they (mainly Shane) talked about hockey together and strategies, Shane always centred Y/N because that position was Shane’s strongest, so naturally that’s why Y/N learned to play both Right and Left wings, and now he that he was on his own team, he was the centre forward

After dinner the two go back to their rooms, getting ready for bed before they shut all the lights off and tucked themselves into their respective beds

Shane turned the tv on and Y/N groaned softly, but he didn’t yell at him, he just mumbled into his bed telling Shane to turn the tv down

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The all star game

They were winning, Y/N passed the puck to Ilya, he passed it to Shane and then Shane shot it into the net scoring them another goal, usually Shane would come up to Y/N to celebrate, but he watched Shane stop by Rozanov, the man kiss Shane’s helmet and pat his back before the two began to talk

To others that would just look like Rozanov being.. well Rozanov, but Y/N knew shane better, he wasn’t that close with people, not even his now ex girlfriend

Y/N watched Rozanov kiss his glove before patting Shane’s back as Shane skated away, he watched Rozanov stand there watching Shane skate away before he quickly followed after

Y/N reluctantly joined the duo, suddenly feeling like a third wheel on the ice, his mind was a cluster fuck now as he tried to make sense of the two, if they were together why wouldn’t Shane tell him? Shane should know Y/N is someone he can talk to about his identity, so why didn’t he?

His gameplay gets sloppy, he begins missing passes and failing to get goals in the net, Y/N could see Shane’s concern on his face when they made eye contact, but he just smiled softly

After the game, their team won. The team headed into the change rooms, Y/N quickly changed out of his gear and into a hoodie and sweatpants, quickly leaving the change room with his bag slung over his shoulder

Shane quickly followed after him, still pulling his shirt over his head as he left the change room “Y/N!” The man didn’t slow down “Shit Y/N wait!” Shane finally caught up to him, stopping his movements when he grabbed his shoulder and stepped infront of him

“Whats wrong? Your mind seemed to be somewhere else during the last half of the third period, everything okay?” Shane asked softly, visibly worried for his younger brother

Y/N smiled softly “i think we should talk when we’re back at the resort” Shane nodded “yeah of course, just wait for me and we can go back together” Y/N nodded softly “alright, ill wait in your car”

Shane looked pleased with his reply, he gently patted his shoulder before he jogged back towards the change rooms, Y/N walked out to the parking lot, finding the car that shane was renting during their stay here

He hopped into the car and not long after he got in, shane showed up, he drove them back to the resort in silence, Y/N didn’t speak until they were in the safety of their hotel room

When they got back to their hotel room, Y/N quickly took a shower and put a fresh T-shirt and shorts on before he was finally ready to confront shane

He sat on the bed, his fingers fidgeting with the fabric of his shorts as shane put his phone down and sat next to him “shane..” Y/N said softly, looking up from his lap to make eye contact with him “you do know you can tell me about anything right?”

Shane’s brows furrowed in confusion, slowly nodding “shane i wanted to tell you, im pansexual, i haven’t told mom or dad, or anyone really. But.. i dont know i felt like maybe if i told you..” he paused, letting out a soft sigh

“Shane if you like guys you can tell me.. you dont owe me anything but i just want you to know i am a safe person you can talk to” shane’s eyes widened, shocked that Y/N figured him out

“Shit i..” Shane mumbled, covering his face with his hands “no shane.. you’re safe with me, i would never judge you” Y/N put his hand on shane’s back and when shane turned to hug him he hugged him back

“I honestly don’t know what i am Y/N.. i thought that i liked girls and that maybe i hadn’t met the right one, but when i dated rose, she helped me realize that.. it’s better with guys” Y/N nodded softly as he listened to shane, his hands rubbing his brothers back

Y/N didn’t say anything about him admitting that he has experienced with guys, maybe Rozanov, but it wasn’t his place to say anything

“You dont have to label yourself shane, just know that you aren’t alone, there are other queer men in the league, you know im one of them” Y/N pulled away from shane, his hands held Shane’s shoulders firmly

Shane nodded at what Y/N said “now that that is out of the way, JJ was talking to me earlier in the change rooms, he said something about you two celebrating since you were on the same team”

Y/N wanted to offer shane an excuse to leave the hotel room, whether that be to hangout with his teammates or to go visit a certain guy friend of his

“Alright.. yeah, ill go check on him” Y/N nodded and Shane stood up, walking to the door of their hotel, and before he left he smiled “thank you Y/N, you’re the best brother anyone could ask for”

Y/N smiled at him softly, whispering a goodbye as he watched Shane leave the room, he laid on his bed, staring at the ceiling as he replayed the last couple of weeks in his head

And he realized someone had been waiting around for him all weekend. Marleau. Shit he’d been so focused on Shane and the game, he completely blew Marleau off. Y/N sat up from his bed, walking over to the door of the hotel room and putting his shoes back on

Would Marleau be angry at him? Would he have found someone else to hook up with? If so then why would he put so much effort into getting his attention, he did win his game before they came to Tampa like he promised he would

Y/N sighed heavily before he opened the door and went to the lobby of the resort. He wasn’t sure where he’d find Marleau, but after looking around for awhile and not seeing the familiar face he decided to go to the bar and get himself a drink

A drink turned into multiple and Y/N was beyond tipsy, he had so much on his mind that he ended up drinking away his thoughts, eventually Marleau found the man slumped against the table of the bar

He approached the man, gently placing his hand on his back, causing Y/N to hum softly “little hollander? What are you doing here?”

Y/N sat up slowly, his hands coming up to his face to rub his eyes “i dunno, i wanted a drink” Marleau looked at the multiple glasses that sat on the table around him “this looks more than just a drink hollander..”

Y/N exhaled softly, taking in the sight infront of him “shit yeah.. i must have gotten carried away” Marleau sat down next to Y/N, keeping his hand on the mans back “are you okay?”

Y/N shrugged, was he? “Let me help you to your room” Marleau began standing up, but stopped when Y/N started talking “i feel like I’m under so much pressure to be perfect because Shane is perfect, and while i love Shane, i don’t love hockey like he and my mom do, it’s just a hobby for me and i feel bad that i don’t care as deeply about it because Shane really enjoys playing with me and i know my mom really loves having two star hockey players”

Marleau nodded along, listening to the man explain everything that was on his mind “and.. shit i feel so much pressure to maintain a perfect image and I’m constantly paranoid that somehow some way.. the league will figure out my secrets”

Marleau knew exactly what he meant when he mentioned his secrets, hell whatever they had between them was a secret “lets get you to bed hollander..”

Y/N nodded, standing up from the bar with Marleau’s help “whats your room number?” He asked softly as he walked Y/N over to the elevator “1301” Y/N mumbled and the two got into the elevator, getting off at the 13th floor and walked back to Y/N’s room

Marleau dug in Y/N’s pocket but didn’t find a key, he knocked on the door, hoping his roommate would be inside, a few moments later, Shane opened the door

“Hey hollander, i found your brother passed out at the bar..” shane looked at Y/N with concern, he reached out to grab the man from Marleau “thanks for your help bringing him back” Marleau nodded before walking away

Shane helped Y/N to his bed after closing the hotel door, he sat Y/N down on his bed before kneeling down to pull his shoes off “did you party too hard Y/N?” He asked softly

“Something like that, how did your celebrating with JJ go” Y/N asked, his words slurred slightly

Shane closed his eyes tightly, he didn’t celebrate with JJ, he went to talk with Ilya, and well.. he’d rather forget about his conversation with him, the man had practically told him they could never be together, and he didn’t want to bring that up to Y/N, that’d be another thing his brother would worry about

Instead he just smiled “it went well” Y/N nodded softly “good, I’m glad” Shane helped him lay down, and when his head hit the pillow he was fast asleep “goodnight Y/N” Shane said softly before shutting the lights off and getting into his own bed

Warnings: Mature content, FDNI, MDNI, otphj, hj, p in a, fwb

Summary: when Ilya and Y/N come back home from Russia, the two are looking for comfort from the abuse they went through during their visit, Ilya makes sure Y/N keeps his promise

A/N: Y/N and Ilya’s conversations are in russian, unless stated otherwise, i know in the beginning of the series i was writting the russian, but i felt that it was easier for the reader and me if it was written in english but we knew they were speaking in russian

Tagslist: @ilocuras24 @kalicamyepyep @needjoekeery @skzoo97 @antobooh @barnes70stark @arth33

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Boston, 2014

After the Olympics, Y/N and Ilya flew back home, this time together rather than separately, the two grew close again after dealing with the familiar abuse from their respective families, the two always found comfort in one another when they were younger, and now they were on the plane together, seeking that familiar comfort from the other

Ilya’s hand was resting on Y/N’s thigh, the two were sharing earbuds as they listened to music together, neither one speaking, Y/N’s head was resting on Ilya’s shoulder as he rested his eyes and focused on the music

Ilya’s head rested against Y/N’s as he began to doze off, and when he awoke again, the plane had landed. He looked over at Y/N, whom was stretching in the seat next to him before he stood up

Ilya followed, standing up after him. The two stepped out into the isle of the plane, grabbing their bags from the overhead bin before following the line off of the plane

Once they got through security and got their luggage, Ilya led Y/N out of the airport and to a parking lot, where his car had been parked while he was away

The two got into Ilya’s car, and Ilya started the car before shifting it into drive and driving out of the airport parking lot, the drive to Ilya’s house was silent, besides the music playing on the radio

And when Ilya pulled into the garage of his house, he shifted the car into park before shutting the engine off and hopping out of the car, Y/N followed after

“Should i ask why you brought me to your house or should i know why im here” Y/N spoke as he grabbed his bag and suitcase from the trunk of Ilya’s car

“Im making good on that promise you made me back in Russia” Ilya smirked as he looked over at the man while grabbing his own luggage from his trunk before closing it

The two walked into Ilya’s house, Y/N left his stuff by the door and followed Ilya to his bedroom “what exactly did i promise you” Y/N asked innocently as he sat on Ilya’s bed

Ilya set his bag and suitcase by the foot of the bed before he climbed onto the bed, sitting behind Y/N and wrapping his arms around the man “I can help jog your memory” he kissed Y/N neck softly

Y/N hummed before he twisted his body around so he was facing Ilya “i still can’t seem to remember.. you might have to do more” Ilya smirked, wrapping his hand around the back of the mans neck and pulling him into a kiss

Y/N tries to push his tongue into Ilya’s mouth, trying to take control of the moment, but it’s short lived when Ilya pulls away “if i remember correctly, i told you that your only job was to look pretty when we have sex”

Ilya pulls Y/N’s shirt off, quickly tossing it over his shoulder before he placed his hand on Y/N’s chest, pushing him down to lay flat on the bed, Ilya climbed over top of him before dipping his head down to kiss the man’s chest

Y/N’s fingers gently lace in the man’s hair, playing with the soft blonde curls as he savours the moment, usually his brain would be spiralling, telling him this was a bad idea, but oddly, his brain was calm, not a single alarm bell was going off in his head

Ilya pulled his face away from Y/N chest, looking at the gorgeous man that laid underneath of him, “you’re so pretty Kotov, shame you’ll have tears staining your face when im done with you”

Y/N rolled his eyes at the cocky man “are you that confident in yourself Rozanov?” Ilya didn’t respond, instead he leaned down and wrapped his mouth around the man’s nipple, his fingers gently pinching and rubbing the other

Y/N quietly gasped, not giving Ilya the satisfaction of a moan, if that man’s ego got inflated anymore he may just float away

Ilya’s free hand gently slithered down to the man’s pants, his hand gently cupping Y/N’s erection, he pulled away from Y/N’s chest again, watching the man’s face as he grind’s his palm against his erection

Y/N groaned softly, his eyes closing as he dropped his head down against the pillows, Ilya smirked before moving his hands to the hem of Y/N’s pants “may i?”

Y/N nodded, but remembered that consent was something that had to be verbally stated “yes, fuck please Roz”

Ilya slipped Y/N’s pants and boxers down to his shin’s and Y/N kicked them off, he sat up resting his weight on his elbow as he looked at Ilya up and down, taking in the fact that he was still fully dressed

Ilya noticed the man staring, he quickly shuffled off of the bed, pulling his shirt then his pants and boxers, leaving the clothes to sit on the ground while he climbed back onto the bed

Ilya wrapped his hand around the base of Y/N’s cock, gently stroking his length “have you ever had sex before?” Ilya asked, Y/N nodded softly “just with girls? Or have you experienced with guys?”

Y/N shifted his gaze away from Ilya’s hand, looking up at the man who was staring back at him “i had oral sex with a man, nothing more” he whispered softly

Ilya nodded, removing his hand from Y/N’s cock and leaning over to the nightstand, he pulled out a bottle of lube and a condom from the drawer of the nightstand

“Are you interested in.. something more than oral?” Ilya asked as he opened the bottle of lube, pouring some of the contents out onto his hand before he closed the cap and set the bottle on the bed beside the two

Ilya wrapped his slicked hand around Y/N’s cock, the lube making Ilya’s hand glide better along the length, pulling soft grunts out of Y/N’s mouth

“Please” is all he whispered before letting his head drop back down to the pillow, Ilya moved his hand away from Y/N’s cock once more, bringing it down to the man’s entrance

He slowly circled his index finger around the tight ring of muscles, using the lube that was still on his hands to slick his entrance

Ilya slowly pushed his finger past the tight ring of muscles, causing Y/N to tense at the intrusive touch, With his free hand, Ilya rubbed soothing circles on Y/N’s thigh “relax, you’re okay”

Y/N exhaled softly, feeling his muscles loosen. Ilya slowly pushed his finger in and out of the man’s entrance, adding another finger when Y/N began moaning in pleasure rather than hissing in pain

When Ilya curved his fingers in the right way, he touch Y/N’s bundle of nerves, causing the man to let out a loud moan “fuck right there please rozy” his eyes were shut tight as he relished the feeling of Ilya’s fingers

“Don’t worry, ill make sure you feel good” Ilya mumbled, slowly pulling his fingers out of the mans entrance, Y/N whined softly at the lost of contact

Ilya ripped open the condom wrapper, slipping the latex onto his length before he grabbed the bottle of lube, cracking it open again and pouring some onto his cock

Ilya gave himself a few strokes before he shuffled towards Y/N, wrapping the mans legs around his waist, his hand wrapped around his cock, the tip almost pressed against Y/N’s entrance

“Take a breath, this might hurt for a moment” Ilya said softly before he gently pushed the tip of his cock in Y/N’s entrance, Y/N softly hissed and Ilya began to softly rubbed the man’s hips

After awhile of Ilya slowly pushing his cock deeper, he finally had his hips flush against the back of Y/N’s thighs, he stayed still for a beat before he began to test the waters, shallowly thrusting

When Y/N moaned, tightening his legs around Ilya’s waist. He moved faster, thrusting harder. Y/N was in pure ecstasy, the man’s cock was hitting his prostate every time he thrusted back in

Y/N wrapped his hand around his cock, moving his hand to the pace of Ilya’s thrust. Warmth was beginning to pool in his stomach

Ilya could tell Y/N was close with how his entrance clenched around his cock, and his abdomen flexed, Ilya himself wasn’t far from his climax either

“Roz im gonna cum, ah fuck!” He moaned loudly, spurts of hot white ropes coated his hand and abdomen, “Fuck Kotov, keep squeezing my cock like that” Ilya started thrusting faster, his hands were gripping harder onto Y/N’s hips

When Ilya reached his climax he buried himself to the hilt inside Y/N, he moaned loudly as his release spilled into the condom

The two stayed intertwined for a moment, breathing heavily. Ilya slowly pulled out, discarding the condom into a nearby trashcan and he laid down next to Y/N, kissing the mans shoulder and rubbing his thigh

“That was good yes?” He mumbled against Y/N’s skin, Y/N nodded softly, Ilya sat up, getting off of the bed and walking to the bathroom, he quickly turned the water on in his tub before he came back to the bedroom, where Y/N was now laying on his side, cum still smeared against his abdomen

Ilya walked over to the bed, helping the man stand up before guiding him to the bathroom, helping wiped the man’s stomach before he helped him into the water, getting in after him

Y/N leaned against the wall of the tub, his eyes were lidded and his body was spent “looks like you failed your challenge” ilya hummed in confusion as he looked at the exhausted man

Part 2

Paring: Male!Childhoodfriend!doctorY/N x Hayden Pike

Summary: after Hayden receives Y/N’s number, he reaches out and make plans to hangout during his recovery

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Montreal, 2023

Hayden was released from the hospital the next day, the nurse’s told him not to spend much time on his phone as the blue light wont help with his concussion, he was also told to drink lots of water and rest as much as he could

Once he finished talking to the nurses and he signed the paperwork, he got a drive back to his house. When he got home he sat on the couch, and he pulled out the note from his pocket with Y/N’s number scribbled on it, using his other hand to pull his phone out of his other pocket and input the digits into his phone

When he finished typing the digits he set the crumpled paper down and used both hands to text Y/N

Hayden

Hey, its Hayden :)

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A couple hours later

Y/N had gone home a couple hours after seeing Hayden, and as soon as he arrived home he was slumped, he crawled into his bed and let the exhaustion wash over him

When Y/N woke up it was roughly noon now, he gently rubbed his eyes before grabbing his phone, seeing a message from an unknown number

He clicked on the notification, smiling when he saw it was Hayden, he saved the number before typing back a response

Y/N

Hey Hayd. How are you feeling this morning?

The reply was instant, as if he had been waiting for Y/N to text him back

Hayden

Im alright, I’m feeling better today

Y/N

Considering that you’re on your phone texting me, I’d say you ignored the nurses telling you to not stare at a screen all day

Hayden

No i wasn’t staring at my screen, i was just waiting for you to text me back

Y/N

Yeah sure, maybe if you invited me over you wouldn’t have to worry about that

Hayden

Oh shit, yeah if you want to come over you can

Y/N

Do you want me to come over?

Hayden

Yeah i’d like that

Y/N

So Ill come over, and ill bring food

Hayden

Awesome, my address is —, see you soon

Y/N smiled at his phone and set it back down on his nightstand, letting himself get up and stretch before he tossed the covers off of his body and got off the bed

Y/N walked to his closet, grabbing a plain t-shirt, jeans and of course underwear and socks. once he grabbed his clothes he walked to the bathroom, setting his clothes aside on the sink before he stripped himself of his underwear before he got into the shower

When he finished showering, he brushed his teeth and got dressed before he went into the kitchen to make himself some breakfast, he had a simple but healthy breakfast. He made eggs, toast and some bacon

When Y/N finished getting eating and he washed his dishes, he grabbed his phone, car keys, and jacket before leaving his house

He stopped by the grocery store to pick up some groceries to bring to Hayden's place, Y/N wasn't a fan of fast food, he already ate pretty disgusting food at the hospital, and he knew how unhealthy fast food was, besides he enjoyed cooking

After Y/N got groceries, he drove to the address that Hayden texted him, it was a relatively big house but nothing flashy for someone making the amount of money that Hayden does, it's a large family home, if anything he'd assume that he kept the house in the divorce

Y/N texted Hayden that he was here before he got out of the car, which he parked in the driveway beside Hayden's mini van. he grabbed the groceries out of the trunk before he walked to the front door. Hayden opened the door just as Y/N walked up to it, quickly reaching to help Y/N carry the groceries in

"Ah-ah" Y/N pulled away from Hayden, shaking his head at the man "You have an injury mister, I'm here to be your personal doctor for today, meaning your job is to sit down and recover"

Hayden groaned softly "It's not broken bones i don't need to be babied N/N" Y/N smiled softly at him before he walked past him and into Hayden's house "Well when you invite a doctor over to hangout with their injured friend, the friend is going to get taken care of. It's my job Hayd. just relax"

Hayden closed the front door before following Y/N into the house "Fine, only if you dont police me on my screen time anymore" Y/N was putting groceries away in his fridge before he turned to face the man "Uhh no, ill most definitely be policing your screentime"

Hayden scoffed before he turned away from Y/N, walking to his living room and plopping down on his couch, he stayed silent until Y/N appeared in the living room, sitting down next to him. Hayden looked over at him and sighed heavily "Well how am i gonna escape boredom?"

Y/N chuckled softly before he turned to face the man who was staring at him, leaning forward and his elbows rested on his knees "Well Hayd. you could sleep, or play board games…" Y/N held his fingers up as he listed stuff off

Hayden listened but his mind wandered off to yesterday, where Y/N basically spelled it out for Hayden that he wasn’t exactly as straight as he thought he was, he had been thinking about it all night and all morning

Hayden propped his head onto the palm of his hand "Hey Y/N?" he asked, cutting the man off from his rambling "Yes?" he asked softly "Have you ever.. slept with a guy? i know when we were kids you said that you were gay but.. did you ever, i dont know. do anything?"

Y/N was taken aback by the question, but he assumed that Hayden was looking for someone to talk to about it, considering that he was just figuring out his sexual orientation, and he wasn't exactly in a career that was very accepting of it "Yeah i have, are you looking for an opportunity to experience that? i know a few safe spaces you could go visit to try and meet someone" Y/N wasn't going to offer himself to Hayden, despite having a crush on the man his entire childhood he didn't want to seem desperate or ruin their rekindling friendship

Hayden blew out a shaky exhale "I don't know if i'd be comfortable hooking up with a stranger" he paused, staring at Y/N, hoping he'd get the message

Y/N leaned back against the couch, looking at Hayden closely "You'll have to take the time to get to know someone, you can't ask Shane because he has a boyfriend" Y/N knew Hayden had a crush on Shane based on the way the man talked about him, so he was a safe person to list

Hayden nodded "And what about you? would you want to.." he paused, his face getting hotter "would you want to fuck me?"

Y/N's eyes widened, not only because Hayden offered himself to Y/N but also because he never expected Hayden to be so straight forward like that

Hayden took Y/N's silence and reaction as a negative thing, he quickly sat up from the couch "Shit um.. forget i said anything" Y/N smiled softly at the man "as much as id love to fuck you, you're injured and i doubt you have the right supplies to be having sex anyways"

Hayden covered his face with his hands before mumbling into them "what would i need for supplies, and when would i be recovered enough to have sex?" Y/N leaned forward, pulling Hayden's hands away from his face, he gently tucked one finger under Hayden’s chin making the man look at him

"For supplies you'll need condom and lube, a maybe in a few days if your headaches start getting better" Y/N moved his hand away from the man’s chin held Hayden's hands as he maintained eye contact with the man while he spoke

Part 2

Parings: FtM!HockeyPlayer!Hollander!Y/N x Cliff Marleau, a pinch of Ilya x Y/N

Summary: Y/N ends up not texting Marleau, coming to the conclusion that the two were just being two drunken idiots, he goes back home and a week later the sharks have a game against the raiders, where the familiar hockey player confronts him about being stood up

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Montreal, 2017

Y/N had chalked up the events that happened between Marleau and himself as the pair being too drunk to think properly, i mean he was in a public bathroom with a hickey on his neck for crying out loud, definitely was a mistake

This lead to Y/N leaving the bathroom, shirtless. He’d rather awkwardly hold his soaking shirt to cover his chest than to actually wear it and have the wet shirt clinging to him

When Y/N finally got out of the club, he walked to the parking lot, easily finding his car, he didn’t have anything fancy but definitely an above average car, when he got into his car he tossed the soaking shirt onto the floor on the passenger side, not wanting to put it on the seat and getting the seat wet

Y/N quickly texted Shane, telling him he was going back to his hotel, which he was sharing with their parents. Shane obviously wouldn’t see it right now since he was busy dancing in the club with rose, but he didn’t want him worriedly looking for him later

Y/N tossed his phone onto the passenger seat before quickly buckling himself and pulling out of the club’s parking lot, driving to a nearby hotel that him and parent’s were staying in for the night before they drove back to Ottawa tomorrow and he drove back to San Jose, usually he’d fly but then he wouldn’t have had his car and would’ve needed to use public transportation

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San Jose, 2017. A week later

Y/N ended up not contacting Marleau, at first he was going to then he realized how desperate he may look, not only that but the fact that Marleau didn’t know he was trans, and he’d rather avoid those complications if he could

But today his team, the sharks, were set to play against the raiders. He knew there wouldn’t be any avoiding the man, but he hoped since the space was even more public, and more eyes were on them, Marleau would think before he acts this time around

Y/N was in the locker room getting ready, he was the captain of his team, and he definitely enjoyed the job but he knew he wasn’t as close with his team or as loud as they were, but Y/N still lead the team very well with his quiet but stern attitude

Y/N went over the starting lineup, listing some strong players that included himself. And when the boys cheered he smiled before tossing the paper into the garbage and pulling his jersey on

And then they headed to the ice. They were playing at home today, they always performed well when they were home, the stands were mostly filled with shark fans, but there were a lot of raiders fans here tonight aswell

When they got onto the ice, the teams began warming up on their respective sides, the goalies were stretching and the players were skating around the rink, some stretched alongside the goalie

And when the refs announced that it was time, Y/N approached the faceoff, he’d be facing off against Ilya, His brother’s rival, which made the internet paint you guys to have a small rivalry since shane was your older brother

“Y/N Hollander” Ilya said as he slowly approached the face off, leaning forward slightly with a small smirk on his face “are you as good as your brother?”

You smirked back, bringing your stick down to the ice to get ready for the faceoff “With the fact that we’re both Olympic gold medalists and you’re not, i’d say me and shane are pretty similar and you’re worse than us” and with that Y/N won the faceoff

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After the game

The Sharks had won, 5-3. Y/N had scored most of those goals, Ilya and a couple other raiders, especially Marleau did put up a good fight. But Y/N was able to get past their defence better than Rozanov could, which ultimately led to Y/N and his team winning the game

The Raiders sulked off of the ice and the Sharks jumped on the ice together, cheering for their win. They’d be flying to New York early in the morning to play against the Admirals tomorrow

With that, the guys headed into the locker rooms, Y/N was stopped to do an interview before he could follow behind, he didn’t get in the showers, he just untied his skates, took his gear off, and put a hoodie on before tossing his bag over his shoulder and getting up to leave

His teammates quickly stopped him, asking if they’d like to go out and celebrate, to which he said no, he’d rather get to bed now so he isn’t exhausted and hungover on the flight to New York

Y/N left the locker rooms, walking towards the front of the building, all of the fans were mostly gone now and there were still a few reporters talking to some of the Raiders

Y/N kept his head down to avoid capturing the attention of more reporters and he walked towards the front doors, he held the door open for someone who was right behind him and when they stopped in front of him, he looked up to see who it was and what they wanted

“Rozanov blamed his poor gameplay on the comment you said to him during the faceoff” Marleau spoke as he looked at Y/N, hands in his pockets and a bag hanging off of his shoulder

Y/N scoffed and let go of the door, walking away. He knew Marleau would follow him which is why he spoke without looking at him “maybe he just cant accept that he isn’t as great of a player as the league makes him out to be, his whole thing is injuring players afterall, but you’re no different are you”

Marleau chuckled beside Y/N, shaking his head slightly at the man “wow you’re extremely different from shane, he’s no bark and no bite, you’re all bark, but do you bite?” He asked before stepping in front of Y/N, halting his movements. they were in the parking lot now, the sun was still shining and there were still plenty of people around

Its fine, they’re being platonic, the media will just think they’re friends if anyone saw them talking together, “just because i don’t injure players after a snarky comment doesn’t mean i don’t bite, i did beat your guys asses after and it made my point didn’t it?”

Marleau huffed and he nodded, “thats not what i meant Y/N, i gave you my phone number and i don’t hear from you at all, i tossed you a bone and you don’t bite at it, am i not your type?”

Y/N’s eyes widened, what was this lunatic doing saying this stuff in public where anyone could hear, Y/N quickly grabbed his bicep, dragging the man to his car before stopping in front of it “get in.” Y/N barked harshly at him before he got into the drivers seat

Marleau swiftly followed, happily complying. He got into the passenger seat of Y/N’s car, closing the door behind him before he turned to look at Y/N “you gonna drive me to my hotel?”

Y/N turned to look at him, annoyed with the man’s behaviour “god what is your problem man, do you want to lose your job or something?”

Marleau looked at him for a moment before breaking into a laugh, Y/N looked at him confused for a moment, his annoyance building “whats so fucking funny Marleau” Marleau wiped tears from his eyes as his laughter slowed down “you’re too paranoid little hollander, no one is magically going to know I’m trying to fuck you”

Y/N stared at him, taken aback by that comment “wait, you actually meant that?” He asked dumbfounded, this made Marleau laugh more, which lead to Y/N crossing his arms and staring at him with that annoyed expression

“Yes Hollander, i want to fuck you” Marleau stated as if it was the most obvious thing in the world, Y/N blushed softly before turning to stare at the steering wheel “even if.. fuck if i tell you this do you swear to keep it a secret?” God what was Y/N doing this could cost him his career

Marleau’s brows furrowed, he leaned forward towards Y/N putting his hand on the man’s shoulder “Yeah of course, Whats wrong Y/N?” He asked softly

Y/N closed his eyes, exhaling a shaky breath before he spoke softly “I’m trans” the silence was loud for a moment, slowly he cracked open his eyes and glanced over at Marleau, just to find him smiling softly at the man

“Okay? Thats fine, i don’t mind. But i don’t start expecting me to be gentle on the ice” Y/N chuckled before turning to face Marleau “i wouldn’t dream of it, now where is your hotel”

Marleau smirked, “you gonna let me fuck you if i tell you?” Y/N shrugged “i dont know.. i got a lot of guys waiting around to get in my pants” Marleau leaned forward more, as if he was going in for a kiss

Y/N pulled back because they were still in public “jesus, we need to work on your PDA” Marleau leaned back into his seat, putting his seatbelt on after Y/N did “so is that a yes Hollander?” Y/N rolled his eyes before starting the car “Maybe win your next game before we’re on the same team at the all-star game, gotta know who i can rely on after all”

Marleau stared at him dumbfounded, he was just flirting with him a second ago and now he’s gonna leave him hanging dry? “Hollander” he whined

Y/N smirked as he shifted the car into drive before he drove out of the parking lot and onto a busy road “you need to work for it, learn that flashing a pretty smile doesn’t always work”

Marleau groaned in the passenger seat, rubbing his hand over his gruff stubble “Hollander you’re gonna give me blue balls”

“So find someone else to fuck, im not the only person in the world. Unless, you’re trying to go around telling people you fucked a hollander” Y/N glanced over at him quickly before looking back at the road

“You think too little of me, just watch ill have you begging for it, by the time we’re in Tampa you’ll come to my hotel room looking nice and pretty, begging for my cock to fill you where you need it most” Marleau leaned over towards the man, placing a hand on his thigh

Y/N’s face flushed, he pulled one hand away from the steering wheel and pushed Marleau’s hand off his thigh “okay so win your next game and we’ll see what happens”

Y/N pulled into the parking lot of the hotel, shutting off his car but not getting out. Marleau unbuckled himself and leaned towards the man “okay deal.” He turned to open the car door and he stepped out of the car

Before he shut the door he turned around and leaned down to stick his head back through the door “see you in Tampa little Hollander” he winked before grabbing his bag standing straight and closing the door, leaving Y/N in his car watching him walk inside

Y/N turned his car back on and then put it into drive and he pulled out of the parking lot of the hotel and began driving back to his house