lonely in the 6

          kaia smiled looking up at the boy, even though it was strange to her she loved waking up next to him & seeing his sleepy face in the morning.  ❝ no problem. ❞ if there was one thing she knew was that jesse wouldn’t like her to invade his personal space, he didn’t have to tell her what he was going to do. she was trusting him enough to believe he wouldn’t do anything to harm her & even though that didn’t mean she had her eyes closed she just wanted him to feel comfortable being in a relationship with her. they’d soon adapt to each other perfectly or almost perfectly, it was the beginning of everything & she sure didn’t want to ruin it.  ❝  you sure ? you know you should eat something  ❞ kaia raised an eyebrow at the boy. she listened what he had to say about his sister & someone else would probably assume he was being rude right away & maybe he was but she knew him & understood him.  ❝ i was surprised when i found out you were sharing the house in the first place  ❞ kaia said being completely honest. the girl covered her face with a pillow screaming into it before finally getting up   ❝ if it wasn’t for how hungry i am i wouldn’t have gotten up  ❞ she said lazily walking towards the kitchen & sitting on the kitchen counter.  ❝ so, what are you gonna make me ?  ❞ kaia asked with a smirk.

       watching the smirk on his face as the other male left just left her even more heated than she already was. why was he acting like this ?  — that was the question that kept popping in her mind, a question she was finding hard to answer. not only she had to deal with her feelings towards this guy who clearly only wanted her for her body but now she also had to deal with him not having someone around her that could maybe help her forget about how he made her feel. the friends with benefits deal seemed perfect until her emotions started getting involved. suddenly she didn’t feel lucky he picked her to fulfill his needs, she felt like she wasn’t enough for him to look at her as more than a fun time which deep down bothered a lot. zendaya watched as he spoke, he looked as relaxed as ever which was basically driving her crazy. how could he be so careless after how bothered he was acting just minutes ago ? the girl was never one that camouflaged her feelings easily so it was nearly impossible for her to understand how he could just act like everything was fine.  ❝ you did not do me a favor ❞ she replied with the most serious & low tone she had  ❝ obsessed with me ?  you know, maybe that’s what i need. someone who looks at me & actually appreciates me. you know, not just my body or how good i am at sucking dick.  ❞ she spat out not even thinking clearly before saying those words. after realizing what she had actually said zendaya looked down, she had agreed to be friends with benefits with him so she had no right to say those things but then again, he had no right to interfere in what was happening minutes ago anyway.  ❝ i’ll just leave  ❞ the girl said & turned around to open the door. after what she had said she was pretty sure he’d get that their little situation wasn’t enough for her anymore, something she had been trying to hide from him for weeks now. 

       it was all very confusing to him still but dylan could feel him slowly getting back to normal, extremely slowly though. the young male was satisfied once she finally gave in & let him stay but he was very confused to see how shocked she was when he took off his shirt. he just wanted to make sure he got rid of the piece of cloth that smelled bad & there she was acting like he had committed a crime again.  ❝ wha - what do you mean ? ❞ he stared at her genuinely confused by the way she was chuckling at him. ❝  why are you making fun of me ? ❞  he asked now looking at his own chest to see if he had forgotten to shave part of his chest or something but when she said the word alcohol it clicked to him. dylan quickly got up feeling a bit embarrassed by the situation & picked up his shirt from the ground almost falling due to his head’s weight caused by the drinks he had ingested earlier that night  ❝ right, alcohol  ❞ he chuckled before getting his shirt back on as quickly but also as clumsy as possible  ❝ my bad, do you have some gum or something ? ❞ he asked before collapsing on her bed again looking up at the girl. their eyes met for a second &  maybe it was because he was drunk or maybe it was because she was absolutely beautiful in his eyes but he didn’t look away. dylan carefully analyzed her features before his dark hues penetrated her own once again, a smile appearing on his face  ❝ damn girl, you a cutie  ❞ he commented. 

          he knew that normally she would have rejected him more than once during this night but the young male also knew that deep inside she loved how affectionate he was towards her. it was a game he was already getting used to play, when she was sober he knew not to go over the top with the affections even though that was hard sometimes. tyler already knew the line she had drawn too well & he was hoping that, with time, he’d be able to erase it completely — for him and him only.  the truth was that she had grown in him, he felt something for her that was hard for him to even put in words which scared him due to how cold she could be at time. like the man he was tyler was not going to back down any time soon, he wanted her & he usually didn’t stop until he got what he want. it wasn’t like they were together because between the two they knew they clearly weren’t but a lot of people already knew they were hanging out & even though tyler has always been a chill kind of guy a lot of boys that hung around them knew not to even try anything with felice. the boy smirked at her light push, he loved how she always played a little hard to get around him, for some reason it made things more exciting for him  ❝ never say never ❞ he replied to her. his attention was stolen from her, at least part of it because when the boy was talking to his friend he made sure his hands were resting on her waist. tyler loved having her around him whether it was in public or not & despite the fact that he was doing his best to deny the feelings he had towards the blond it was getting harder & harder to do so. felice wasn’t ready for it, she wasn’t ready to hear about how the most apparently insignificant thing  about her made his stomach turn & he sure wasn’t ready to get rejected so he knew that at least for now it was better for him to keep his mouth shut. his friend finally left & next thing he knew felice was cupping his face. damn, there she was again driving him crazy. he knew exactly what she wanted & how this night would end & excused was to say that he didn’t mind one bit.  ❝ let’s go  ❞ he simply said & took her hand penetrating through the crowd to get to the exit. 

          his guy friends always mocked the fact that he would always be hanging out with alma with no action involved whatsoever but the blond would always ignore them & tell them to mind their own business because at the end of the day he knew his friendship with the girl was way more than that. the amount of times they have passed as a couple was countless by now, they would always be around each other & attend parties together so even though it didn’t make sense to them it was completely understandable the rest of the world doubting what kind of relationship they had. there was even this rumor someone made up once about them hooking up in a bathroom at the party when in reality all he was doing inside that room with her was hold her hair while she vomited her guts out. they were too close  & the friendship they had was too important for both of them to let lust or anything related to them ruin it. at least that’s how they both thought, rationally but noah had found himself having all these thoughts about things he’d do to her quite often as he watched her dance. other thing the young male didn’t realize was how he absolutely hated every guy she introduced him as her boyfriend, he didn’t have a good reason to despise the guys but for some reason he never thought hard about he did   — not one, not two, all of them.  ❝ oh trust me, i’m not trying to find any girl like you. ❞ he said side eyeing her  ❝ it is your fault for fucking around with pussies, a real man wouldn’t be threatened by a best friend.  ❞ he shook his head keeping his eyes on the road. hopefully he wouldn’t have to deal with none of that drama tonight, he was taking her to a bar they didn’t used to go  & he was hoping they’d just have some fun.  ❝ you probably traumatized all of them, they won’t be able to date another girl without thinking she’s hiding a secret best friend from them ❞ noah laughed at his own joke & parked the car. 

        even though she was trying to keep herself chill alexis was extremely annoyed with this whole situation. all she wanted was to lay in bed  & have her so badly craved sleep but nah  — instead there she was outside as the cold breeze sent shivers up her spine that were everything but welcomed. the highlight of everything that was happening that night was him, the cute boy standing next to him in underwear but of course even that had to be ruined, more concretely after he opened his mouth. for some weird, magicalm out of this world reason he thought this was a good moment to be sarcastic  ❝ stupid questions deserve stupid answers. if you aren’t deaf then why did you ask what the fuck was going on ?  ❞ the brunette asked stopping the urge to roll her eyes. alexis watched him scan her, it was not like he was even trying to be slick. it was obvious that the young man liked what he was seeing  & even though she felt the same way about him she was still annoyed by all the screams from people & the cold she was in. she had seen in around so many times before  &  a lot of them in the company of some girl so she knew he wasn’t exactly an angel. the petite girl furrowed her eyebrows as he looked around curious about what he was going to say next, his question only confirming her previous thoughts.  ❝ i have some short shorts, what about you ? do you even have anything underneath that or is it hiding because of the cold breeze ? ❞ she asked teasing him & smirked satisfied with herself.

       zendaya was extremely conflicted, so much that she didn’t even know how she should exactly react to the boy’s actions. part of her wanted to simply go off on him & tell him about how he had absolutely no right to cause this whole entire scene. but other part of her just wanted to hug him & lt him know that —  in reality —  he was the only one she wanted.  the girl looked down at the floor trying to think what was the best way of handling the situation but she couldn’t be that rational, not right now. zendaya just stood there looking at him as she carefully listened to his words, she wouldn’t have done it any other way because everything that came out of his mouth even if it was the stupidest thing was important to her. his last words made some anger she had build up inside come out. the first thing she’ll do is ask jamal to leave before he would get aggressive, she would talk to him later to apologize for this whole situation because he didn’t have to hear any of it. the girl locked the door after he left & faced denzel looking right into his eyes  ❝ see i have a little fucking question for you  — what will you do for me ? ❞ he had no right to say such things about the other boy seeing all he was willing to offer her was sex.  ❝ i don’t understand how you can just come here acting like you do so much for me. the only thing you give me is good dick  & and you have stated several times before that that’s all you want to give me so why are you tripping now  ? ❞

       it was obvious that the boy was out of it, he did not only decide to spend a friday night drinking his brain away but he had also thought that going around town all by himself was a good idea. no wonder he was in some strangers house, that night was made of bad decisions — a complete mess. despite his current state dylan could tell how innocent & pure the girl was just by looking into her eyes. in other situation he’d be mad at himself for disturbing someone as sweet as her but at that moment all he wanted was her company, for some weird reason he wasn’t sure himself. she was so beautiful, her natural beauty was almost impossible for the boy to take in. there she was standing in front of him in her pajamas with her little cute hair, he wanted to hug her as if she was a stuffed bear and never let go.  ❝ hasn’t anyone called you beautiful before ? ❞ he questioned since the girl seemed to not know how to react at his sudden compliment. but then again, who would ? after all this boy had just climbed up a tree to sneak in her room & she didn’t have a clue who he was. all of a sudden things took a major turn in his little head. did she hate him ? he just wanted to see if her hair tasted as sweet as it looked but the girl seemed to be so offended. dylan looked at her puzzled not sure what to say.  ❝ but i’m gonna sleep here❞ the boy said, a hint of innocence in his voice because in his little drunk head what he was saying was pretty damn reasonable. when the cotton candy haired girl hugged him back he felt instantly better, maybe she had forgiven him for whatever he had done wrong. dylan was gonna tell her how good she smelled again when — what ?! he smelled bad ? all of a sudden the boy pulled away from their hug  &  started freaking out smelling his own armpits  & taking off his shirt quickly throwing it to the ground.  ❝ my bad, i must have forgotten to put some deodorant on. do you have some i can borrow ? i don’t mind if it smells like a fairy princess ❞ dylan was honestly so embarrassed that the girl had pointed out his bad smell not for a second thinking it came from all the alcohol he had ingested that night ❝ i promise i wash myself every single day, i don’t know what’s wrong. i even wear cologne ❞ the young male added trying to explain himself.

         to say zendaya was confused by all that was happening was an under statement. at this point she had blocked whatever was going on in the room  & started to think to herself trying to find answers. the brunette had felt tempted to tell him about her feelings so  — oh so many times before but knowing denzel & his thinking she figured it was best to just keep those to herself. the thing was, nothing added up. he was the one always preaching about how he did not want to waste his time in a committed relationship ( something she was entirely convinced that was motivated by fear of getting hurt ) so why was he so bothered that she was with someone else ? even though to most people the answer could be quite obvious to zendaya it still was a big blur only because she was entirely convinced he would never wanna keep her around like that. he should though, something she acknowledged perfectly. zendaya was so good to him, she would do anything to make sure he was in a good mood  & she knew that she could find herself in a better place than in what she was at the moment. the girl knew she could do better than being in a situation where she had to hide her feelings  & pretend his words  — even seeming completely harmless to him  — didn’t hurt her. zendaya’s little bubble only burst when denzel used his force to get the other male off her. brown dark hues pierced on denzel as he threatened jamal. she didn’t say a word, she kept quiet just wishing this whole thing would stop until the clearly bothered male put her in a position to.   ❝ why are you doing this ?  ❞ that was the only question that popped in her mind. of course, she’d rather leave with him but she wanted to understand his actions.  ❝ i just don’t understand  ❞ the young woman shook her head hoping he’d explain himself. 

        knowing her as well as he knew her at this point tyler knew she wasn’t one to express feelings easily nor even talk about things too deeply. her going with the flow ways were extremely attractive to him even though sometimes he did wish they’d really talk about whatever was happening between them, just to be able to call her his without having to think twice about approaching the two like that. regardless of having a title or not he knew that they both had respect for each other & she wouldn’t just kiss someone else in the same building as him like the rumor the girls she had fought earlier spread around that night. the young man didn’t care much about what people thought, he was too focused in minding his own business  & even being lost in his own little world to. he was at a point with her that he wouldn’t even waste his time with someone else, he’d always been one that knew what he wanted  & after that target being set he’d just fight for it until he finally got it. after her friends walked away he watched as the blond examined his arm letting out a soft chuckle at her words  ❝ i have to admit that imagining you dressed as a nurse doesn’t make me picture a bad image in my head  ❞ tyler smirked, acknowledged she was a bit tipsy & her joke didn’t come from a state of sobriety which made it even cuter.  ❝ also, why the fuck would i shout ? you’re right in next to me, dumbass  ❞ he laughed shaking his head at the petite girl in front of him. tyler loved how her skin felt — against his lips, against his own — he just loved touching her & feeling close to her, it was something he missed quite often when alone. felice gave him a quick kiss causing tyler to lick his lips looking at her when she pulled away just craving more of her, he scooted closer slowly & very gently  placing his hands on her legs only to part them & and get in between them. his hands slowly slid to felice’s waist as he stood in front of her.  ❝ have i told you you look really good tonight ? ❞ he asked even though he was really making a statement. tyler felt someone touch his shoulder and turned his head to his right finding one of his friends asking him if he wanted to go out the building with his squad to smoke a little something.  ❝ nah man, i’m good.  ❞ he did his handshake with his friend with a smirk on his face as the other male just laughed in front of him understanding exactly why he didn’t want to go with them. his friend left and tyler concentrated on the girl in front of him again scooting closer & kissing her cheek once again before proceeding to talk next to her ear   ❝ do you wanna stay or do you wanna leave ? i got some smoke if you wanna get high with me. if not, we can just go to the car & kick it like we do. your decision babe.   ❞ the boy said &  stepped back a bit to take a good look at her face.

         his head was a mess, he just wanted everything to stop spinning so for a moment dylan just stood there laying in bed hugging her pillow with his eyes closed. the boy wasn’t even listening much to what she was saying, all he knew was that she let him stay that was a huge relief to him because being honestly with himself  — he had no idea where he was. if dylan knew that that last drink would do this to him he probably would have thought twice about it but now it was too late & he was in a stranger’s house completely wrecked. ❝ have i told you this pillow smells really good, already ?  ❞ he asked when he finally felt like he could open his eyes again. dylan slowly opened them to look at the girl properly for the first time. for an instant their eyes met & he only broke the eye contact to examine the rest of her body. by now the girl was probably very freaked out, he was taking a very long time to take her in. it was like the information arrived to his body in slow motion.❝  you’re so much cuter than mila ❞ he finally said &pulled her closer to him only to do the most unpredictable thing ever. the drunk dark haired boy licked the girls hair& made the ugliest face after doing so  ❝ i thought it tasted like cotton candy but it just tastes like hair  ❞  he said in a disappointed tone and laid his head back on the pillow.  ❝ are you gonna sleep here with me ? ❞ he asked in a casual tone ❝  there’s still plenty of room in my bed, we can share ❞ dylan shrugged like he was saying something with a lot of logic. it could be four in the afternoon that he’d have no idea what time nor where he was.❝ i don’t bite and i could use a hug after what that ugly raccoon did to me ❞ he said. it was almost impressive how he could remember that detail about his night because the young boy was extremely confused about everything in general. he opened his arms to her with a smile on his face almost as if he was a big teddy bear  — of course teddy bears don’t smell like beer but if they did they’d be a lot like dylan was at that moment.

          as the boy kissed up her neck zendaya bit her bottom lip, her rational side slowly vanishing &  as she just got determined to enjoy her night. even though he was still a stranger to her she knew exactly who he was - that boy that had been trying to talk to her for the longest time. the boy she had been ignoring and not acknowledging his existence was the one right there in front of her. their lips met again, moving in a sloppy sync showing exactly what they wanted from each other. she wasn’t sure what she was looking for but she knew that this random hook up had a deeper meaning to her, it was like she was missing something &  she was hoping this would fill the percentage of emptiness she felt. at that moment she wasn’t thinking about him, it was only her and her blurry thoughts about how good she was about to make this boy feel. maybe he’d see in her what denzel didn’t, maybe he’d think she was worthy of keeping. the two young adults were now lost in a make out session, her breathing fastening as she felt his strong hand ran up her thigh & lifting her dress to have free access to the area the other wanted to squeeze. this felt right, probably because she didn’t feel like something was wrong but her little trip away from reality was about to end. just when things were getting very heated between the two someone walked in. at first she thought it was just someone random who came upstairs in hopes to find an empty room like her and jamal had some minutes ago but that voice - she never failed to recognize it. zendaya looked at denzel with a confused look, wondering why everything she did &  everything she thought about ended up going back to the same place, to the same someone. she listened to his words and was unable to speak, what was this ? maybe there was something important he had to talk to her about. never for a moment ocurred to her that denzel could actually be jealous of jamal, i mean - why would he ? she looked at jamal seeing how he would react. as she was expecting he didn’t take denzel’s words too seriously, after asking him to leave them both alone cause they were clearly busy jamal proceeded to kiss her neck again &  telling her that he was gonna take her to his place so no one else could bother them. this was all to quick for her to even react properly, she was still asking herself why denzel went out of his way to come upstairs to talk to her.  

       noah knew alma for some years now, ever since she came into his life he just felt like she wouldn’t live it any time soon. they had a great friendship, that kind of friendship where they would tell each other everything & be there for one another through thick & thin. even though they were always constantly teasing each other they both knew, deep down, that they needed each other. the only time noah would feel uncomfortable talking to the girl was when she would speak about other guys. for some reason, one he couldn’t figure out himself he didn’t like to know other guys messed around with her like that - he liked to assume it was just because he’s protective of his oh - so dear friend. when alma spoke he rolled her eyes, she loved to act like she knew it all around him & the truth was that she knew in fact a lot but he did feel like he could still teach her some things. ❝ don’t be a smartass with me, missy. don’t need it. ❞ noah shook his head at the satisfied expressing she had on her face &laughed. ❝ girl, you’re wrong and you know it. tell me when & where and i’ll handle you and ten others like you. ❞ it was his time to raise an eyebrow at her. honestly, when it came to this their relationship was a bit strange. they would always tease each other and flirt around, if it came down to business one day noah wouldn’t back up too.  he watched as she walked to the door not bothering getting up for a few more seconds just to tease her  ❝ i have time to where i’m going ❞ noah said before actually getting up from the couch & following behind her. his eyes involuntarily fell to her butt examining it carefully like he often did. the blond licked his lips before unlocking his car and getting in. he looked outside the window looking at her getting in  ❝ i honestly hope i don’t have to fight yet another one of your exes tonight ❞ he shook his head. noah started the car & drove off doing his best to focus his eyes on the road instead of focusing on her.

         all dylan could hear at this point was the rocks hitting loudly against the window &his own voice screaming indelicate words ❝ i hope a bee fucking stings you in right in the vagina because i know you’re allergic to them, you stupid raccoon.  ❞ he screamed as loud as he could convinced his now ex girlfriend was standing behind that window. the drunk boy kept mumbling words to himself, words that didn’t even make any sense at this point. when he heard a girl’s voice he was about to go off thinking it was the girl who had just broken his ego but when he looked up saw & something pink he put a hand on his forehead attempting to see better than he was. ❝ you aren’t mila. what the fuck ?  ❞ he gasped as if he had found out about the ocean’s deepest secret & proceeded to freak out when she mentioned her dad would shoot him. ❝ no, please. i have so many years to live still. i’m young. tell your dad to not shoot me ❞ he said covering his face. in his head the man was already pointing the gun at him. once the girl spoke again he peaked through his fingers to find no gun  ❝ i know you don’t know me but i have to go up there. ❞ dylan said & started to climb a tree almost falling backwards. ❝ you need to let me in because this girl broke up with me & i need a nap. ❞ of course, due to his state dylan didn’t know how incoherent & somehow scary he was being but all he wanted was to lie on a bed. he managed to climb to her window & getting in her bedroom. ❝ where’s the bed? ❞ he looked around barely acknowledging the girl. after finally spotting the bed dylan ran towards it &basically jumped on it  ❝ i don’t like your bed, it spins around but it does smell really good ❞ the boy said with his eyes closed hugging her pillow.