Lately Thoughts

hard, but there's certain reassurance in knowing someone will fight for space in your life.

One day I found you without looking for you, and the chaos of the world became clear. One day I lost you, And my world stopped making sense. Today I contemplate the beauty that surrounds me, because there, I can still look for you.

Maybe that's all the love I deserved in my lifetime. Maybe that's all the kindness the universe had put out for me. Maybe I ran out of good things to receive. Maybe everything nice left when you did.

You know the color you're looking for and you mix it all up hoping it will become what you want... But somehow the shade is always off

off a cliff. Or a really nice bridge.

And i cry it out to myself cuz no one is there to cry it out with me

Maybe people aren't meant to be held on to. Perhaps everyone is just really a star awaiting implosion.

Currently unable to "glue" myself together. Perhaps opening a window for air might make the glue easier to dry.