It's finally time, for myself to admit, that I'm not mentally ok. Its time for me to stop pretending and putting on this make believe facade, and accept defeat.

I could leave it at that, but I'm not, cause that's the easy way out, I'm a fighter, I'm strong, and if I keep focused I will be ok. Just have to get back on track and start surrounding myself, with positive people.

I have to be grateful for where I am today, Yes I'm going to have bad days, but tomorrow is always a new day. I have a great support system and family, behind me every step of the way.

Have a great night.

I hate the world sometimes, people can be cruel soulless creatures. My so called friend belittled me and called me names, then laughed about it. What kind of friend does that to another friend.

Im so hurt, so upset, now my mental health is worse, not like it was good to begin with.

I hate this world, this society we live in. I hate social divide. I hate bullies. I hate being different.

Dealing with mental health challenges, on the daily is tricky to say the least. My moods can change just like that from one extreme to the next.

I struggle with, adhd, tourette syndrome, severe anxiety and borderline personality disorder. Some days I'm happy and some days, I can't function and every little thing will set me off.

I will get these thoughts in my head, saying im not good enough, I'm a failure, I feel unwanted and at that point my, day is a write off because I seclude myself in my bedroom, at that point

I also deal with a lot of anger that I keep bottled up to the point I snap. Thankfully I have my DBT skills which help ease some of my mental health issues, just have to get better at practicing them.

To all my readers who struggle mentally, I'm here for you, you got this.

Cheers

Power of Positivity Video- Best Affirmations.

Lately I haven't been taking care of myself. I started to for the past 2 weeks. I was maintaining a clean home. And was starting to go down the right track.

But this past week I've been slipping a lot. My moods have been filled with anxiety, and I'm been falling back into my old habits. Maybe I need to start surrounding myself with positivity and not negativity, but it's hard when you are not always in a positive environment.

Ive been procrastinating alot recently. Not keeping up with my cleaniness in my surrounding environment. I think I might be getting depressed again, which isn't good for me.

If I can just stay focused and positive I'm sure I can get myself out if it I have before.

Cheers

Ive lived on my own, for about a year now. I absolutely love it. I love having my independence and being able to do what I want, when I want. I love my cute modern bachelor, my building is ran by indwell a christian organization that houses people, who are low income and struggle from, mental health challenges and addiction. I also love the programs they offer at my building.

But I do have my struggles, living on my own sometimes I feel lonely which is the reason I got two beautiful cats. They help me with my mental health challenges, I face on a daily basis. Another great part about my building is we get one free meal a day cooked my a professional chef :)

Living on my own is great. I love being independent.

Here is some pictures of my apartment.

Russell Amirault.