head clam. no brain

i think the only thing truly stopping me from finding a bridge to jump off rn is the fact that i’m at work LOL really thought i was over this already but ig not <3

another day another urge to say something in my own servers held back bc i never get a response

i can feel myself getting more self destructive like i knowww i’m gonna end up fucking up all my friendships in a vain attempt to protect myself from getting hurt again LOL

pulling up a new microsoft word document like i am going to vent so bad .

whwn you say something in your own server that gets ignored and you’re like ok ♥️ i’ll never talk again

been thinking a lot about like. what if i go to a therapist and i don’t get diagnosed with anything like what if there isn’t a reason that i am this way and i’m actually just stupid LOL

having to tag w*ndavision spoilers makes it look like i’m trying to avoid spoilers but in reality i don’t want to see any of it and my mutual doesn’t tag it any other way

why is there so much marvel on my dash now wtf 😭😭😭

pinning my fight club eeby deeby post so i can look at it every day <3

honestly getting bored making posts that definitely would’ve gotten notes had anyone else made them

hate that tumblr recommends you your own posts when you click on a reblog in your activity like thanks but i didn’t need to see posts from 2017 involving a friend who dumped me out of nowhere <3

mothers be like leeches vibe arsenic into your bones

6am is like well time to make mobile themes