Raskolnikov

You may call me Raskolnikov. (Yes! From Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoevsky)

I am a fellow writer and reader. I enjoy reading classics and dystopias. I am also extremely into politics, left-leaning (No liberal beliefs). I am also into psychology.

I like to explore darker topics in a non-romanticized way—preferring to show the gruesome parts of it—and sometimes indulge my whims. I will talk about PAFL here the most. Perhaps I’ll post my writings here as well.

1.5K words. Dead Dove.

Yura and Anya? Perfect for writing how unstable parenting can lead kids to finding refuge or comfort in older authority figures. I’m not saying everyone should agree with my views nor am I romanticizing/fetishizing them in any way or form. In this case, I think we could explore more the relationship between Olya and Anya, and how it could be as unstable as any other relationship the girl could have. Not to mention that kids that grew up with a certain absent parental figure or issues with their parents, could grow to catch crushes on older people that remind them of a parental figure. I believe this could impact their future romantic relationship views.

Now, let’s think about our fellow dissociative characters. Let’s begin with Sanya and Arthur. In my opinion, the one that can be read the most as dissociative in this case IS Arthur. Rough gives us an extended look on his character and even his childhood trauma backs up this reading, as dissociation usually stems from childhood coping mechanisms to escape abuse or too stressful situations. Rough it’s a painful yet realistic portrayal of how dissociation may feel or look like to some people. Now, Sanya. Sanya isn’t as explicitly stated to be dissociative as Arthur is, but it can still be seen mostly towards 100 Epitaphs and by this, I mean identity dissociation. I feel like Sanya could fit the most to DID criteria, to her apathy towards grief and how death could’ve impacted her childhood so much she learnt to desensitize from such emotions. Let’s say… dissociation!

Moving onto Yura Beletsky and a tad bit of his relationship with Sanya Kazarina: He has so much layers to uncover that I really want to see more people analyze him and his character. Other than gender, I really want a more closer look to his brain. The fandom doesn’t really address how dependent he is on a 13-year-old despite him being 17, or how he constantly believes Sanya wouldn’t see the real him when he himself hasn’t even seen the real Sanya. I think both of them idealize each other that they believe nothing can be wrong with them, therefore they must put up a facade to fit the other as long as they can keep whatever they have going on. I think Point Zero will explore Sanya’s hidden side more and reveal to Yura how idealized he had Sanya to begin with. Sanya and Yura could be or ARE codependent on the other, but Yura just can’t see how far Sanya would be willing to go as long as it’s for him. I’m sure Sanya would kill someone for Yura, and this will be shown through Point Zero.

Yura Beletsky uses drinking as a coping mechanism as well, on the aspect of his sexual life I believe that he would be impulsive and not be too careful in the matter. I think his depression could be more deep than that and have an underlining disorder, yet I haven’t been able to properly put my finger on it. At first I believed it could be a personality disorder, yet I couldn’t think properly of what criteria he could’ve fit. Perhaps Borderline Personality Disorder might be a good fit, but I could be wrong. I believe he also has low empathy yet still tries to provide for his sister and mother despite his lack of emotional bonding towards them. He also despises his dad for the conditions he has made his mother go under as long as she could feed Anya and Yura.

Regarding Dmitry, I think he’s also very worth of trying to peel off layer by layer of his character. I think he actually could fit the criteria for Narcissistic Personality Disorder if I could elaborate just enough—by the way, my blog doesn’t support any “npd abuse” believers—and if you squint hard enough. He sees most people as idiots or easy to get rid off thanks to the advantages he holds due to his mutation, yet he makes a few exceptions for Olya and Anya. The way they treated him in the facility played a big part in the developing of this disorder due to them needing to treat him properly to avoid having him consider escaping and for an easier containment of his persona. It is also explicitly stated that he was abused in the facility too, meaning this could’ve played part in the forming of the disorder as well.