Stay | Jaehwan
genre: fluff
member: jaehwanÂ
requested: yess!
summary: jaehwan have never thought of confessing to you until he found himself in a dangerous situation.Â
side note: thank you so much for requesting đ iâm so sorry i took such a long time to finish this ă ă i hope this makes sense and it isnât too boring :/ altho it is a bit short but i really hope it meets your expectations :>
âso when is jaehwan ever gonna confess to you? the both of you should get together!â your best friend nudged you as jaehwan leaves the table
you groanedÂ
you have actually been hearing this question for quite some time nowÂ
be it your friends or jaehwanâs friends, they have all been asking this questionÂ
you clearly donât see what is going onÂ
everyone claims that jaehwan have a crush on you
but⌠you donât see itÂ
i mean if he does, he would at least tell you right?
and you believe the only reason why your friends or his friends constantly tease you about this because you and jaehwan grew up together
just like those clique childhood friends
you and jaehwan are no different
you guys started off as neighbors
and since youâre the only child, you would get bored easilyÂ
you always wish you have someone to play with while your parents are at work
and jaehwan is that someone that kept you accompaniedÂ
you guys treat each other houses like your ownÂ
and you would invade his room more than you shouldÂ
even though you guys are just kids, jaehwan doesnât act like oneÂ
in your eyes, he is just like a brother to you
if he sees you hungry, he is more than willing to give up his last piece of pizza for youÂ
when you fall and scrap on your knees, jaehwan would always be there to wipe your tears and give you banditsÂ
basically, even before calling for him, jaehwan is already there beside youÂ
just like that, the both of you grow up togetherÂ
you thought your friendship would drift apart after knowing that you wonât be going to the same middle school as jaehwanÂ
but jaehwan still made the effort to find you
this time round, when he goes to your house, he brings his guitar alongÂ
he would entertain you with his singing
and you enjoyed it so muchÂ
you have no idea that your best friend has such a talent for singingÂ
and even until now, when you guys are in the same high school
no changes
jaehwan is still your close friend
he is still going to your house like it is his
and he is still singing to keep you accompanyÂ
honestly, you donât see anything wrong with thatÂ
isnât that what best friends should do?
you donât understand why is everyone taking this another wayÂ
and claim that the both of you are an itemÂ
thatâs what you thought
but little did you know, thatâs the truth
jaehwan have actually been crushing on you
but you being a dense person, couldnât realize the fact
when you guys are still young
jaehwan thought it is normal to have his heart beating so fast around you
he thought this should be the feeling he gets when he is around girls
but when jaehwan told his friends, thatâs when he knows he is in love with you already
thatâs when he started taking notice whenever he is around youÂ
there is just something about you that made jaehwan feel weird insideÂ
you could effortlessly make him happy
whenever youâre not around, he finds his mind drifting off to you naturallyÂ
and if he doesnât see you, he couldnât function well
although you can drive him nuts at times, but jaehwan has never considered once about telling you his true feelings for youÂ
to put simply, jaehwan is afraid
what if you donât like him?
what if he isnât good enough for you?
or what if because of his confession, everything between you and him ends?
jaehwan have never thought of losing youÂ
and he doesnât want to know how it feelsÂ
even though youâre just his childhood friend, but you mean the world to himÂ
he would rather not take the risk to confess and lose youÂ
and jaehwan thought he has been doing a good job in hiding his feelings
but guess what
almost everyone could see through himÂ
everyone could tell that he has heart eyes for youÂ
no matter how hard jaehwan denies, everyone could still point out the truth
âseriously jaehwan! just tell her your feelings, iâm sure she feels the same!â that is what everyone says
âi⌠i just canât!âÂ
he thought if things stay the same between the both of you, everything would be fineÂ
âas long as iâm beside y/n, taking care of her, everything will be okayâ jaehwan convinced himself
jaehwan continued having that mentality until a day where he found himself in a dangerous position
âclass, please welcome junyoung into our classâÂ
âyou may take a seat beside y/nâ
at first, having a new classmate didnât bother jaehwan until he sees youÂ
the moment junyoung took a seat beside you, that smile on your face have never faded even for a second
when junyoung greeted you with a smile, you immediately got a good feeling about himÂ
and just within 5 minutes, junyoung effortlessly kept your smile thereÂ
you guys talked as if you known each other for yearsÂ
ây/n and junyoung, please pay attention in classâÂ
which made you almost forget that youâre in classÂ
even during break time, you carried on talking to junyoung to a point where you totally forgot about your daily break time with jaehwan
ây/n! arenât we gonna have break time together?âÂ
âsure! junyoung, you can join us too!â you invited junyoungÂ
even before jaehwan could speak another word, he sees the both of you walk off alreadyÂ
ây/n wonât forget about me⌠right?â jaehwan wondered
and as time passes, he found himself doubting
even though jaehwan is there with you, it feels as if he is invisibleÂ
you talked to junyoung as if jaehwan isnât there in the first place
you paid attention to junyoung to a point where you didnât realize jaehwanâs dull expressions
jaehwan probably sighed so many times but you still wouldnât hear itÂ
jaehwan secretly prayed that this would only last for a dayÂ
but turns out to be weeksÂ
even when weeks have passed, you and junyoung started getting closer and closer
while you and jaehwan started getting further and furtherÂ
not only that, you also realized jaehwan stopped coming over to your house over the weekends
although you have junyoung now, but you would still have that empty feeling bugging youÂ
as if something is taken away from youÂ
whenever you hang out with junyoung and you hear him sing with his guitar, it would inevitably remind you of jaehwan
jaehwan would always sing to you during the weekends
and now that junyoung is the one singing, you couldnât get used to his voiceÂ
and by the time you realized you havenât been with jaehwan lately, guilt started creeping into your heart
âi must have neglected jaehwanâŚâÂ
just when you are about to make up for jaehwan, thatâs when you realized how different things are nowÂ
jaehwan is much quieter as compared to the past
even when he replies you, you couldnât help but feel that coldness in his toneÂ
as much as you want to ignore and brush this off your mind
but you just couldnâtÂ
just when you thought by reaching out to jaehwan through text would be a good choice
but turns out to be wrong as wellÂ
never for once that jaehwan would reply late to your text
on top of that, cold reply is something jaehwan will never do
you wondered why have things turned this wayÂ
you blamed yourself for paying too much attention to junyoung that you never noticed jaehwan leaving youÂ
with that, you felt something warm on your face
why are you even crying?
you regretted so much so that youâre suddenly afraid that you might lose jaehwan just like thisÂ
how can you ever lose your childhood buddy?
with that, you planned to talk to jaehwan face to face the next dayÂ
surprisingly, this bugged you more than it shouldÂ
you couldnât sleep wellÂ
you couldnât eat wellÂ
all you wanna do is to talk to jaehwanÂ
just like any other days where you would walk home with jaehwan, you decided to break that silence
âjaehwan⌠why are you avoiding me lately? why are you so cold to me?â you bit on your lips as you wait for his replyÂ
âno, iâm notâÂ
âyou are! in fact, you changed after i got closer with junyoung. whatâs wrong, jaehwan?âÂ
even after saying so much, jaehwan continued acting cold towards you
you had enough
âfine, jaehwan. i have enough of this!â
just before you storm off, jaehwan pulled you by your armÂ
âi-i like you okay! i was all jealous when you started getting closer to him and seeing the way you smiled at him makes me scared⌠that i will lose youâÂ
âwhat did you just say?â you stared at jaehwan who is busy blushingÂ
âstop making me jealous and just stay by my side, y/nâÂ
instead of feeling relief, you actually got angryÂ
âyou should have said it earlier! you know how worried i was when i see you in this cold stateâ you hit him hard in his chest
but your hand soon got stoppedÂ
âyou donât have to worry anymoreâÂ
and finally, after such a long time, you finally see the same old jaehwan that you knew for years
you could finally see that smile that you miss so much
a smile that strangely brings so much warmth to your heartÂ
i guess you can say itâs a feeling that no other person could make you feel this wayÂ
a feeling of love
a feeling that only jaehwan could bring âĄ
