After hearing about the tragedy i spent multiple days crying to myself, asking why? I prayed in the shower and at night that Jonghyun was finally at peace in heaven and that everyone who was hurting could heal, all i wanted was a sign that Jonghyun was up in heaven.

The same day of Jonghyun’s funeral, an aqua moon appeared corresponding that of the SHINee’s color. The moon want predicted until later in the year with a different shade of blue. Yet, my prayers had been answered. God has sent a message tht Jonghyun is okay.

I had finally gotten my sign that Jonghyun was finally at peace and was now truest sedated. He was no longer hurting. That little sign helped lifted my gloomy mood and lightened my heart. Things are going to get better, we just have to remember the good times that Jonghyun had.

I see that a lot of people—including idols because idols are also people—are hurting. Leave kind messages to each other and even to idols, seeing one kind message can better someone’s days. It shouldn’t take this eventfor people people to wake up. End these pointless shipping wars and fan wars. Watch your words, don’t bash idols for dating or what nots. They are PEOPLE we all bleed the same color blood, we all are the same, human. Love your idol while they are here, because mine is gone.

Jonghyun, i want you to know that you did very well. You are finally at peace and fully sedated. I will always adore you and cherish you in my heart, 12/18/17 🕊💙