Dearly Beloved

Life just doesn't feel quite right lately but I wish i knew what was missing. I've got family and friends, I've got a job, I've got my own place, my bills are all paid on time, I've got my two trusty furball sidekicks..yet everyday I feel like I've got nothing inside and I'm just floating among life. I'm too tired to capture anything, everyday it feels like I'm getting more and more lost and everyday I wake up questioning why i still do life. Maybe it's because I don't necessarily want to die or anything. I do want to live and find happiness but maybe I just want to check out for awhile. Find myself(yet theres so many things out here I can't leave or things I need to keep up on like my pets and bills and rent so...???) I want to find out how to let myself go into a relationship, find out how to be like that with someone and learn how it really feels to love like that. I want to feel happy with myself and with my life, make something of it. So what should I be doing first? Well Social Media, thank you for being there to let me write everything down so I can just sort it out in my head.