Published Works
ALiCE - Slasher Horror Novel
WHiTE RABBiT - Slasher Horror Short, companion to ALiCE
Like Falling Stars - Cozy Fantasy Novel
The Alliance Saga: Clouded Moon #1 - Shifting Roots - Xenofiction Fantasy
(Currently not available: Stellar Eclipse #1 and #2 - Dark Urban Fantasy Novels)
Currently Working On
The Alliance Saga: Clouded Moon #2 - Shaded River (First Draft)
Stellar Eclipse: Weathering the Storm Editions (Updated editions of books 1 & 2)
Stellar Eclipse #3: Echoed Thunder (Drafting)
Cinderella Boy Novelization Fanfiction (Drafting & Beta by Chapter)
Favorite Tropes in Fiction
Found Family/Happily Adopted; Fish Out of Water/Raised by Wolves; Unreliable Narrator; Hurt/Comfort; Soulmates (romantic or platonic); Gothic Horror; Mid-Level Fantasy; Body Horror; Psychological Horror; Idiots to Lovers; Anguished Declaration of Love; Established Relationships; First Crushes; Puns and References; Dom/sub Dynamics; Master/Servant; Dragons; Sanity Slippage; Character-Focused Stories with Lots of Dialogue; Big Battles
Favorite Books/Series
Percy Jackson and the Olympians; The Giver; The Haunting of Hill House; The Last Unicorn; My Best Friend's Exorcism (pretty much anything by Grady Hendrix); Lord of the Rings; Otomen; Dawn of the Arcana; Cinderella Boy; Deltora Quest; Fire Emblem; Vampire Kisses; Age of Arrogance; Silverwing; The False Prince; So This is Ever After
Some of my favorite writers on Tumblr
@abalonetea @adorhauer @aconstantstateofbladerunner
@josephinetaylorbooks @byjillianmaria @brianamorganbooks
@cwritesfiction @runner-owen @drchucktingle @earlronove
@gaslightwestern @incandescent-creativity @indecentpause @pens-swords-stuff @pirozhkiparty @radley-writes @tlbodine
@quilloftheclouds @dirtypawscomic @ink-flavored @willtheweaver @jaiscbstash @inc0mple
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ao3 is a house of the freaks and the perverts (affectionate). you ARE in the house of the freaks and the perverts. so don’t think about harassing or being rude to the freaks and the perverts who built this anti-censorship house and are kind enough to let you in.
ao3 is proship, profic, and anti censorship. being proship, profic, anti censorship, and hosting dark and taboo fics that were banned on other platforms are the main reasons ao3 was created in the first place.
you are welcome to join ao3. but you are NOT welcome to harass, act rude or be entitled towards the people who built this house. if the fact ao3 allows fics you find disgusting (even though it also allows you to filter out anything you don’t want to see) bothers you so much, you are free to go back to wattpad and have nearly everything censored and banned there.
here’s the list of things you should know if you’re new to ao3
There's this category of TTRPG where the seemingly only selling point besides maybe artwork is giving players permission to jerk off to their own moral purity as manifest from buying the TTRPG.
Candela Obscura is the strawman put forward in this post, but it’s a game that actually exists:
[This was partially written by @ashweather, another member of the A.N.I.M. team.]
Let me preface this by saying that I don’t think that the makers of Candela Obscura are morally evil, or that I think less of your moral worth if you’ve played or enjoyed this game. It’s just that, at best, the game has a really obnoxious and cowardly tone and at worst has a lot of shit in it that looks really bad if you think about it for more than 5 seconds.
If you think that tabletop RPGS are art (and we do), then they can be analyzed like art. They can have unfortunate implications or reflect unexamined reactionary politics. This post is going to be taking screenshots from both the quick start guide and the full rulebook to make this point - while the text between the two is broadly similar, the quickstart guide is more overtly finger-wagging and hostile, saying the quiet part out loud.
The thing about Candela Obscura is that it takes place in a fantasy 19th-century England/USA, but it really wants to pretend that it doesn’t. It wants the aesthetics of this setting and almost every trope that comes baked into it, but also wants to act like it’s above all that. It wants to have its cake and denounce it too. It’s so pants-shittingly terrified that it or the players might say or do something “problematic” that it loops back around to being incredibly offensive.
To take just a few examples, the text is absolutely riddled with this kind of sentiment:
(What the fuck do they think an “explorer” is? Also, I think I have some bad news about 19th century doctors.)
Okay. Look. A lot of this is gesturing at principles that are unobjectionable or even useful to keep in mind when writing a setting like this. Yes, it’s ideal to have a non-Eurocentric historical understanding of technology and culture. Yes, refugees are human beings with their own valuable skills and perspectives. Yes, if you uncritically write an expy of Victorian England or late 19th-century New England, you’re gonna end up with a bunch of insane stereotypes (especially Orientalist ones) that you probably shouldn’t just blithely put to the page without thinking about them. And yes, bigotry is a bad thing, obviously.
The problem is twofold: The first is that Candela Obscura feels the need to take a patronizing tone towards its own readers, as though they were incapable of engaging critically with the setting or subject matter on their own terms. The second is that despite all of this finger-wagging, Candela Obscura absolutely does not present a setting with any critical thinking put into its basic construction. (We checked, by the way. None of what we are about to present is supposed to be in-universe propaganda. If it is intended to be, this is not made clear at all in the text itself.)
The game takes place primarily in the city of Newfaire and its surrounding environs - the Fairelands. The Fairelands are prosperous and idyllic, and all but outright stated to be “the good guys.” All of the “problematic” aspects of the societies the game is emulating are either scrubbed without thinking about the implications of scrubbing them..
(Don’t worry guys there’s no colonialism here, this version of fantastical New York was settled on a Terra Nullius where nobody lived, right over the ruins of an ancient society with a mix of Egyptian and Mesoamerican coding who practiced strange and corruptive magicks. Remember, reader, this game wants you to go out of your way to avoid reproducing any harmful stereotypes from the era.)
..or are present without any historical or structural reasons for them to be present:
(Don’t worry guys, sex work is lawful, profitable, safe, and socially acceptable! Oh yeah all the sex work happens in shady, spooky-looking crime districts that cops monitor, filled with drug-filled dens of illegal vice, though. By the way, there is no brothel listed in this district’s points of interests, or any further discussion of what sex work in Newfaire is actually like.)
There are so many examples of this that we could spill a novel’s worth of digital ink talking about it. (We just don’t have time to get into, for instance, their adventure inspired by the “radium girls” where the primary victim of the dangerous substance in question is a customer who is already dead when the adventure starts and not the workers who make the products.) Honestly though, this paragraph says more than we could in a hundred pages:
Here we find out that we are reading a TTRPG setting that has the same understanding of bigotry as the movie Crash. No institutionalized bigotry, just “bad actors who hold terrible beliefs.” Just bad apples, with no personal history or cultural roots to their ideas, who presumably sprung out of the ground one day declaring themselves Republicans. Not only do these bad actors come from nowhere, they don’t go anywhere either. They don’t belong to any social movements, they don’t get organized, they don’t push for regressive political changes, and if they ever do, they certainly never succeed at those goals.
You see, despite these bad apples, the soil they grew from is pure. And you know something else about the idyllic, almost utopian Fairelands? They’re under assault.
That’s right! Hale (which the Fairelands is a part of) is under assault from the dastardly, corruptive forces of… uh, “Otherwhere.” (Yeah, do they all have hooked noses and recessed chins too?) That’s where all of the dirty foreigners invaders come from, who want to take away the prosperity of the Fairelands!
Oh, or maybe their whole culture were all coerced into doing it by an evil rock or something, which is definitely less xenophobic. But whatever, who cares what the reasons were. The Fairelands are under attack, and as the dominant power in the world, they need to defend themselves. Against the “colonists.” With nukes chain lightning.
(That last sentence continues on “tens of thousands..” You get the picture.) So, whew, glad that’s over! Otherwhere is still really dangerous, though. They might even be developing weapons of mass destruction of their own:
You know, if Candela Obscura were a person, I have a feeling I wouldn’t want to hear its thoughts on Israel.
You might be asking, where do the PCs fit in this? Well. The PCs are members of the in-universe organization Candela Obscura. They are an enormously powerful and widespread secret society of sometimes-cops sometimes-vigilantes who fight against the corruptive forces of magick to keep humanity safe. They keep dark secrets, “perform questionable acts in the name of the common good,” and operate entirely without oversight or responsibilities to anyone other than this organization. We are assured that this organization has the best interests of the regions they operate in and of all humanity in mind.
It’s actually fine - cool, even! - that PCs are secret police/CIA agents who engage in morally dubious acts for the purported common good. Newfaire’s society being deeply flawed is fine! The Fairelands as a political entity furthering an explicit narrative of being persecuted is fine! The problem is not that any of these elements exist, the problem is that Candela Obscura is utterly allergic to examining them. The text seemingly does not understand the setting it has presented at all.
The game wants to be anti-conservative, but the only kind of story it can produce is one of heroes who are ultimately aligned with the dominant power of the world, preserving the good and righteous status quo by fighting against corruptive, foreign, magical forces. “Gay transgender women of all races can be holy knights secret police fighting to protect the good kingdom democracy from the endless hordes of the evil dark race that has threatened its borders for a thousand in recent years!”
On a first read a while back, I said Candela Obscura’s gameplay mechanics make it sound like a game more meant to create “actual-play” shows than to be actually played. On examining the text more closely, that’s more true than I even realized at the time. The reason the game has all these bits about how not to be problematic - all of these instructions for avoiding engaging with the more controversial aspects of the setting - is because it’s not really intended as a game to be played in a private environment. It’s intended as brand guidelines for putting on an actual play show. If you google Candela Obscura, the IMBD page for the actual play series appears before the store page for the rulebook.
It seems like the game really doesn’t want you to play a character outside of your own culture. And sure, as stated earlier, it is a good idea not to have a mysticized idea of other cultures, or represent them in a callous way. For a private game played at home, though, this is not really something you need to dedicate pages accounting for. Nobody outside the table has to hear a poorly-done accent or contend with a less-than-perfectly researched religious portrayal - and if there is a pervasive issue with someone being bigoted or leaning on stereotypes at the table, frankly, that is a problem that is outside the scope of a TTRPG to address.
However, if you are an actor on a show, portraying people from different cultures comes with a whole different set of (much more justified) baggage. Candela Obscura’s approach to player attitudes on the setting makes so much more sense as brand guidelines than it does as a codification of how to play a game. "Don’t have actors appear in insensitive costumes on camera." "Don’t have actors say foreign words they don’t know how to pronounce on camera." "Remember not to have your white actor do a Romani 'fortune-telling' scene on camera." "Don’t show anything that could negatively affect the perception of the brand."
We’d like to end this by contrasting this attitude with Coyote & Crow, a game made by indigenous Americans, and one that is also actually meant to be played. Coyote & Crow invites all players to (respectfully, in good faith) create characters from indigenous cultures. The creators have challenged those who avoid their game on the basis that “they don’t want to be disrespectful by playing it” because that would involve portraying a Native character - in the end, who is that helping? That attitude results in potential players who remain just as ignorant of Native American cultures and - more importantly - don’t buy or support their game!
I have encountered this firsthand. I'm a massive history nerd, especially about pirates (among other things, but pirates are relevant to the story). I was hanging out in a system agnostic TTRPG server and Pirate Borg was mentioned so I talked about my idea for a historical fantasy campaign set around historical pirates and the Nassau Pirate's Republic. Started explaining some basic ideas, how it's basically about trying to keep this rogue nation together amid external hostility from England, France, and Spain and internal strife caused by a lack of trust and Edward Teach's descent into madness. Naturally this brings up Blackbeard and his crew, which contained several escaped slaves, and that the Queen Anne's revenge was a former slave ship. I immediately get the *several people are typing...* and am welcomed with several messages that Pirate Borg takes place in an alternate history where slavery never happened. I end up trying to have to defend myself, explaining the *true facts* that most pirates were escaped slaves, both native and black, and that a lot of pirate ships were captured slave ships because they had thicker hulls and could take more punishment in a fight. They were like "But you can have diverse crews and sturdy ships without bringing slavery into it." My response was "you *could*, but then you lose valuable historical context and systemic evils to fight against, I like running stories about making the world a better place." Some people understood that, but many of them *literally* shot back "But thinking about slavery makes me uncomfortable, so maybe just write it out of the setting?" That's when I shut up but I was just screaming in my head "YES, THE POINT IS IT SHOULD MAKE YOU FEEL UNCOMFORTABLE AND WANT TO CORRECT IT"
When it comes to worldbuilding advice, I do try to steer people away from the old flat tropes of making any singular people group "good", "bad", "more civil", or "primitive", or whatever. It's important that you, the writer of a fictional world, don't just rehash the same problems that have been present in the genre for decades and which are heavily tied to racism and other forms of bigotry. And no, just flipping the script on which group gets to be "good" and which group is now "evil" is not subversive and it does not solve the problem.
but also!!! attempting to write a shiny utopia of a world where all the inequality is just magically non-existent and everyone gets along without any issues will often get you the problems illustrated in this post. you still have to actually understand why the world is the way it is, and what it really takes to create peace and equality. People are people. there will always be some trouble between them. You can tackle that trouble in unique and interesting ways in your own fiction!
I've found in my own worldbuilding, that trying to just make things Fine And Good actually makes it a lot harder to build a coherent world with stories that feel alive and have believable conflicts. For example, the ttrpg setting described above here, where there is somehow a whole world of people who have fled to this perfect little utopia country where everyone is free of all bigotry ever... but also somehow there are still other people in the world beyond that are super mean and want to conquer the good country (for their resources. which... previously they seemed to be sharing just fine as a population built primarily of global refugees. why is it suddenly a problem that other people want their resources. is this the only place with bountiful resources? why? how? I don't want to make this post too much longer but man are my analytical gears spinning.)
tldr: turns out systemic problems are actually kind of better for worldbuilding than trying to just avoid being Problematic. If you do your research and actually understand why the real world is the way it is, you'll have an easier time building a fictional world that makes sense, with conflicts that are actually organic.
genuinely I'm so sick of people wanting all fiction to be ethical. can we all just get a little gross with it. the point of fiction is that it's not real. we can be unethical in fiction; same goes with being perverted with fiction, being unrealistic with fiction, and being grotesque with fiction. not all fiction has to be ethical, not every character has to be ethical, and that's okay. can we stop with the puritanism. be gross. be unrealistic. be whatever. if I don't like it it's not my business as long as we're all clear that its fictional.
via ered.bsky.social, the only kinds of unethical fiction:
people in the replies are going "what about books glorifying unethical things" and "what if it's propaganda" and you, my friends, are who this comic was made for
Some nerds for a game I'm working on (for now, anyway)! Faye & Arte and their story have been with me for a long time, and it's nice to be tinkering with them again! The story's always been essentially the same, but I really feel good about this attempt!!
Next up is pixeling their portraits to match the overall game graphics which will be a little more time consuming… but then I get to see them IN the game and I'll get to further tinker!
I pixeled their portraits! Since I'm using a very specific palette for the game, Faye's sweater had to turn vibrant red (like her little sprite!), although Arte came away mostly unscathed color-changing wise. I went through 3 different blondes before I said screw it and just brought over his original yellow form his original portrait.
I know technically, I cheat when pixeling portraits (I draw them first, then resize them, force them into a limited palette to pixel them with asesprite, then fix it up from there), but I genuinely like doing it this way. It works for me!
Now I get to make their mouths move, their eyes blink, and make a bunch of expressions to get some basic ones out of the way.
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Some nerds for a game I'm working on (for now, anyway)! Faye & Arte and their story have been with me for a long time, and it's nice to be tinkering with them again! The story's always been essentially the same, but I really feel good about this attempt!!
Next up is pixeling their portraits to match the overall game graphics which will be a little more time consuming… but then I get to see them IN the game and I'll get to further tinker!
I pixeled their portraits! Since I'm using a very specific palette for the game, Faye's sweater had to turn vibrant red (like her little sprite!), although Arte came away mostly unscathed color-changing wise. I went through 3 different blondes before I said screw it and just brought over his original yellow form his original portrait.
I know technically, I cheat when pixeling portraits (I draw them first, then resize them, force them into a limited palette to pixel them with asesprite, then fix it up from there), but I genuinely like doing it this way. It works for me!
Now I get to make their mouths move, their eyes blink, and make a bunch of expressions to get some basic ones out of the way.
This is a reminder that your work's popularity has nothing to do with it's quality!!!! Just because you might not have a lot of readers doesn't mean your work isn't amazing.
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It's Dracula Daily season again! Did you know I'm reading it day-by-day on my channel AND voice acting the entire cast? You can listen to it all here on this handy playlist!