It’s time.
Finally. School is over for the semester and I have time to focus on what really matters. God, the inanities and idiocy of the normal world is going to kill me. After another semester of my professors assigning me bullshit work that anyone with reading comprehension could manage, ignoring the outside world completely, pretending that the most important thing in our lives is our classes
I-
No. Well. How are we supposed to cope with that, huh. We
Don’t. We have minds you know.
And if there’s one thing I’ve learned this semester, through the friends I’ve made and the worlds I’ve met and the futures I’ve seen, it is this. Our minds are capable of so much more. So
Very much more. The world can BE so much more. God, if I have to go through the rest of my life like like this, waking up
Each day, working to win at a game I never even asked to play, using my hours as a bargaining chip to pay back my parents for the debt of being born, trying to be perfect, hell, just trying to focus on Zoom University while the world around me shrivels and dies and the numbers climb and we all just pretend we haven’t forgotten how to breathe and I know there is something better and I know it is just
Right around the corner. In a very real way. I know, this sounds crazy. Actually,
No fuck it is the only thing that feels sane. If we can’t save ourselves, tuck ourselves away into the places that feel most whole, if we can’t even be honest with ourselves, how the hell will we make it. Will we make it
Out.
I found this website tonight. For those of you who know what it means, well- you know. It may be a tangle of rabbit holes and crossed threads but I trust you can figure it out, if you want to.
And I?
I’ve been waiting too long.
Whatever happens, it will be enough.
Wherever I go-
I’m going home.
