RodolfoなTumblr　

分かりやすい　意味での　成功……

世間的な　成功……！

金や　地位や　名声……

権力 賞賛……

そういうものに　憧れる……

けどよ……

ちょっと　顧みれば　分かる……！

それは　「人生そのもの」じゃない……！

そういう　ものは　全部……

飾り………！人生の飾りに　過ぎない……！

ただ…やる事……その熱……行為そのものが…

生きるってこと……！実ってヤツだ……！

分かるか……？成功を　目指すな…って　言ってるんじゃない……！

その成否に　囚われ… 思い煩い…

止まってしまうこと…熱を失ってしまうこと…これが　まずい……！

こっちの方が　問題だ……！

いいじゃ　ないか……！三流で……！

熱い　三流なら…上等よ……！

まるで　構わない…構わない話だ……

だから…恐れるなっ……！

繰り返す……！失敗を　恐れるなっ……！

I’ve already taken out the trash and recycling, started laundry, and ground up some of the delicious coffee that @unic0rnthe0ry sent me out of the blue (💕). Also broke the coffee grinder, but it still works well enough for now.

LOOK AT THAT SKY

I get to see this when I get home now!!

This week I started the 1700-0500 shift (again), because I finally have a partner on overnights. So stoked! She’s good, too. She came from another private ambulance company, one that uses the same computer system as us, so she knows more than we do in some ways. (The Mini Boss, our “subject matter expert” on the program, really isn’t one)

On top of that, she knows private ambulance. While all the less experienced people are rightfully freaking out because fucked up things are happening, her and I are like “Yep. This is fucked up, and it has happened at other companies before, and it is outside my sphere of influence, so I’m just gonna kick back and dispatch.”

I need to ask her how much she makes, btw, note to self. I’m planning on bringing up my pay in a “based on my experience and performance, and the salaries of other people in comparable positions*, I should be making $xx/hr.”

*I just won’t mention that the comparable positions are in the same company until my exit interview—at that point, all bets are off

First evening in London.

I spent most of the time playing in the kiddie wave pool with Caballero. I didn’t actually go on any rides; it was only 85F outside, and that water is COLD! Getting my feet wet was enough.

I got a sunburn, but not a bad one, and I’ll consider that a success.

Here are the things that Caballero (4) thought were important in the kiddie wave pool:

Thanking the wave whenever it gave him a particularly good push

Pointing out airplanes

Playing tag (slowly and safely, he doesn’t know how to swim so he was within arms reach at all times)

There was an interesting bug in the water, so I rescued it and put it on the side. After he confirmed that the bug wouldn’t hurt him, we watched it for a good 5-10 minutes.

Showing off his floatie

Getting wet in the fountains

After we got done with the kiddie pool and were ready to leave, we took some pictures. I will not be posting them because I forgot to get permission from the kids and their parents, but I will say that Caballero should be a model. Little man LOVES the camera. I got him to stop playing by offering to take his picture. He put himself in every group picture (which was fine, and adorable). He posed. He checked every picture afterwards and pointed himself out to say, “Awww, I’m so cute!”

On the way out, we saw a sign: BIERGARTEN

Husband said he was curious about it. I said, “curious about it meaning you’d like to check it out now?”

“Well, if you’re offering…”

So we went to the Prost Biergarten and had a wonderful time. (Their kolsch is amazing and their schwarzbier is also great)

In the middle of having this wonderful time, I got a message: “It’s time to check in for your therapy appointment with [Ms Therapist] at 1700”

FUCK

So my choices were to try to slam a beer and get home within 15 minutes (we live 20 minutes away) or miss the appointment. I missed the appointment.

Unfortunately, it was a *therapy* appointment. I don’t think I can lie to my therapist. So when I get asked about this in two weeks, I’m gonna have to say “I was drinking beer with my husband” as my reason for missing the appointment.