BEAUTY.

Jay: If I had to describe our relationship with a song... Without a Fight ft. Demi Lovato by Brad Paisley would be it... at least near the end

Jay: I'm almost not sorry, because I am amused by this.

Jay: Of course.

Jay: I'm aware, but moving is currently a challenge...

Rocky: I haven't heard it but now I'm not sure I want to be BLEH.

Rocky: That's like me telling you about my sex lifeeeeee

Jay: I'm just happy there wasn't hate sex. Cause that used to be how we dealt with that...

Jay: sorry, tmi.

Jay: Sorry, Rocky. But I figured I owed you an explanation anyway. Whether you were being a big baby or not.

Jay: I am hungover and missing Riley, but yeah, I'm fine.

Rocky: Ewwwwww

Rocky: (/.\)

Rocky: Well thank you for telling me

ETHAN: I'd be more than anything to keep you company since Parker has been over here.

ETHAN: Its like they're dating or somethin'

ROCKY: Then come on over and do that :P

Parks: Of course not, I've been upset with Q and Ethan, not you love.

Parks: I've been just hanging out with Dom since he's been taking care of me and my hand. Im also at the Jones' tonight since Im watching Riley for Jay.

Parks: Good

Rocky: What did Ethan do? I know why you were upset with Q.

Rocky: Oh okay, that makes sense. Yeah Jay told me you were watching the nibling.

[next morning]

Jay: God, I haven't drunk-cried myself to sleep in ages...

Jay: So, what drunk me was trying, and failing, to explain last night was that...

Jay: I got angry, but not like I usually do. You know me, I'm boom and done, but I wasn't. It's rare I get any sort of long term angry, but when I do, I get violent.

Jay: Saul had texted me, asking if I was okay, and the state I was in, he worked. He's seen me like that before. He's dealt with it. I knew if I hurt him, in any way, I wouldn't feel bad. I wouldn't be upset with myself. Like if I'd gone to you and hurt you.

Jay: So, I went. I went and I got drunk and I admitted things to him I haven't admitted to anyone. About how bad off I was when I was with him while I was pregnant. Stuff I wasn't ever going to admit sober because I'd sworn I wouldn't. But I needed to tell him.

Jay: So... yeah. I didn't mean to upset you, make you feel like you weren't important to me, like I couldn't talk to you. Because I can, I was just terrified of physically hurting you. I wouldn't have forgiven myself if you'd seen me in that state, much less if I'd hurt you. I love you too much.

Rocky: I can understand why you'd go to someone especially if you feel like you wouldn't be upset hurting them.

Rocky: What I don't need is crying first thing in the morning.

Rocky: Which is what you've succeeded in making me do :P I love you too. And I was just being a big baby that's all.

Parks: I, Parker Gwen Fabray has been sucking as a best friend and a roommate.

Parks: I offer a girl's night as a truce. I also miss you.

Rocky: It's okay, silly. I figured you were just upset with me or something.

ETHAN: Hey you

ETHAN: No, I am not. Im actually free right now, what's up?

ROCKY: Nothin' really.

Jay: WOULD RATHER HURT HIM THAN YOU

Jay: tols of anger. won't go yaway. violent kyind. scared to hit people.

Rocky: I guess...

Jay: don't wpanna hurt anyone. scared to. bear cna take it.

ROCKY: hey

Jay: not jbad idgeas... weird ideas. bnee very angry. he asked if okayy, not okay. not okavy. so angry. parerk asked fnor bean. sorry, wognt text fnext time.

Rocky: You don't have to be sorry, Jay. I don't mind you texting me. Just seems like you got all the people you want around you.

Jay: lil bean ios with parker and mama jones. i'nm wiht bear.

Jay: why are his ieyes so fucinekg prketty? why does he have to bge aqn asshole? why rdo i still lovle him? swhy did i decidde tto get angrny and drikn with him? this iys smuch a bad idea. but feels swo good.

Your concern is noted and appreciated. My thoughts exactly. Plus how many people can claim to be in possession of one of those? …I mean, approximately 20 after I hand these babies out but in a world where I don’t meddle with statistics, odds would’ve been a lot lower. 

I didn’t even know they existed so probably not many before you hand them out of course but even then, still not that many. And if you ever feel like you want more sustenance than ramen or ice soup, I’m your gal! I can whip up just about anything you ask for.

Pleasure to meet you. Cool, cool. Nice color. I don’t think anyone does? Except for maybe her and I? My face hurts and is some fun colors, but I cover it up well.

Pleasure to meet you as well! I’m still confused about it all to be honest but I guess if it’s how things get resolved then oh well. Do you need anything? Ice cream almost always distracts from a hurt face.