The truth about ASC Scorpio
is that you are only a mystery to others because you are a mystery to yourself. You write Tumblr posts (public journal entries) in the second person. The Scorpio question is emotionally, what is mine and what is yours? Everyone experiences this question somewhere in their charts, but for you, it is in the very way you are perceived.
Personally I don’t like being perceived.
(Mind you I have Neptune in 3h Aquarius square ASC. All words should be enjoyed with a grain of salt.)
To your peers you are a subconscious threat. Or maybe you made that up because you have become so jaded. There is something dark, twisty, and subterranean about you — and people fear the unknown. In their posture, Scorpio risings are described as “hook-like”: tall, a prominent nose, hunched shoulders, and oh the eyes… what lies in their depths? In most lights, mine are pools of black. But at golden hour they glow golden-brown. I am learning to stare unabated.
Aquarius rules the IC, your roots and your very core. Mommy Cancer, the fourth sign, is the traditional ruler here but I think the fourth is distinctly not-maternal: it’s the home and foundation you inherit from your ancestry, ie your forefathers. In contrast we are nurtured (mothered) into the people we become, ie the legacy you leave behind, ie the tenth house traditionally ruled by Daddy Capricorn. Your MC is in Leo. You are, in fact, meant to be perceived.
something is fundamentally different about you and from where you come. Among your peers, you exist on the periphery. 3h Capricorn: in childhood you are silenced in someway, either by your siblings or classmates or culture. Within your family you are the Aquarian outsider: the black sheep forced to be impartial. Belief in common good becomes your coping mechanism.
With 8h Gemini (home of my Saturn) transformation is found in expression; I, you, we, me. How do you feel? That feeling… is it even yours or did you borrow it? More often than not someone projected it onto you. In you, people see what they most dislike about themselves. Remember: their inner alchemical gold is not yours to give. They must learn to get it back themselves.
6h Aries: the sex planet rules your self and your routine. Your daily life is warfare. Where is Mars? — his burden is a heavy one. Find him and take note of what aspects afflict him. His energy is going to be in your life one way or another and it is better used constructively. 12h Libra: peace is your undoing. For you it is a foregone conclusion that you will never achieve it. Try anyway.
I am actually in the bath as I write this. I fucking love bathtime. I float, I wash, I am baptised.
When I was very young I remember waiting for my mother to come wash my hair. I waited and waited until I was shivering, listening to the sound of her vacuuming, knowing she would come eventually. After maybe an hour she finally walked in and said, “oh, Juju! I am so sorry! I completely forgot!”
All-knowing I am hidden but always watching. I am a snake, a scorpion, a butterfly, an eagle, a phoenix. I am earth to earth, ashes to ashes, dust to dust. I am fixed water, autumn at its height, death in bloom. Can the child in my heart rise above? Can I sail through the changing ocean tides? Can I handle the seasons of my life?
Well I have been afraid of changing. Nowadays I am just tired.
What is left but to lay down your arms?
