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I looveeed your story 9 Letters, 1 Goodbye.. but what happened to Lana in it at the end? Did Taehyung finally end it after seeing the letters oc sent him or was she the one that broke up for real that time?
hiiii thank you sm!!! i’m really glad you loved it 🥹🤍
i think you meant lina SHSHSH but in part one, it was already mentioned that they broke up before taehyung read the letters bc he was so done with her and tired of her bs 🙂↕️
synopsis: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
genre / warnings: 18+ content, nsfw, a bit heavy angst at the start, fluff, smut!!!, strong & vulgar language, reader is working at the louvre, taehyung finally locked in, dom!taehyung, brat!reader, breeding and praise kink, unprotected sex (wrap it before u tap it!!), oral (fem. receiving), teasing, dirty talk (tae is such a talker fr), grinding, tits sucking, and new characters #amelia&mannyfanclub!!
nini’s notes: the long awaited part two for 9 letters, 1 goodbye!! thank you so so much for the love and support i’ve received on part one, it’s genuinely insane to me how many people read, liked, commented, and reblogged!! 🥹🤍 i also haven’t written smut in so long so pls forgive me if it’s terrible 🥲
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main masterlist part one
Adjusting to life in Paris wasn’t an easy thing to do. French was hard to learn and become fluent in. The lifestyle customs in France were very different from what you were accustomed to, but you were able to conquer the challenge. Working at the Louvre though was difficult at first too. Your manager was hard on you and was very particular about how he wanted things which made you get frustrated a lot.
Over time, you got better and became the unofficial official star employee at the Louvre. You became an assistant manager and handled most of the art exhibitions held at the Louvre.
This month’s art exhibition will showcase a series of paintings by the artist named Vante. You've heard of Vante before and have familiarized yourself with his artwork when the business agreement was in its early stages.
Something about his art was so familiar to you but you couldn't quite put your finger on it.
Everyone on your team had already met him, but you hadn’t had the chance yet, since you were constantly in meetings with your manager to deal with potential artists who wanted to have an exhibition at the Louvre.
“I’m telling you, Y/N.” Amelia stated as she playfully fanned herself. “He’s genuinely the most handsome man I’ve ever met and I literally live in Paris where there are models everywhere.”
You stifled a laugh and glanced at her before you went back to sign some documents. Amelia was your first friend in France and one of the coordinators for art exhibitions. She, luckily, already spoke English so your friendship blossomed pretty quickly. She was your confidant in everything and sometimes reminded you of Jungkook.
“Well,” you chuckled. “I’ll let you know what my verdict is when I finally meet him.”
Vante was coming later in the day to finalize everything for his art exhibition that was due to be released tomorrow. You were nervous but it was nothing new for you, you’ve always been nervous before the launch of an art exhibition.
“You’re gonna faint.” Amelia gushed. “He’s literally your type down to a T.”
You raised an eyebrow, “Really? That’s a big statement.”
”Yeah, I know because you never like the guys I try to set you up with.” Amelia rolled her eyes with a laugh. “But I really think this guy is your type!”
You merely hummed in response, amused that she really believed that Vante would be your type. To be honest, ever since the day you left for France which was about three years ago now, you’ve never held a stable relationship. You’ve dated here and there, slept and kissed a few people, but at the end of the day, they never could compare to Taehyung.
In every guy you’ve met, the ghost of Taehyung would flash through their eyes. He haunted your every awakening moment.
You thought giving your letters to him would aid in moving on from him, and it did, but your heart still kept the door unlocked in case something would happen.
The hopeless romantic in you had hope and you knew that would be your downfall one day.
”I don’t know, Amelia.” You sighed. “I’m not looking for anything right now.”
Amelia drew in a breath. “I’m only teasing you, but if he does end up being your type, I think you should go for it. You deserve to be loved.”
Your chest twisted. You turned over to her and she gave you a small smile which you returned with a soft laugh.
“You’re too sweet.”
“Je t’aime, Y/n.” Amelia reached over to hug you.
You pouted and held her tightly, “Je t’aime.”
“Whoa! Where was my invite?” The two of you pulled away to see Manny, a coordinator like Amelia, and also one of your closest friends.
You snickered and rolled your eyes playfully at his statement. You were used to his shenanigans and he would always make comments like that.
“Ask one of your little boyfriends, Manny.” Amelia retorted which caused you to let out a shocked laugh.
Manny gasped dramatically and slapped a hand over his chest, “You bitch! Don’t get snappy on me because I’m getting more men than you.” Amelia simply responded by sticking up her middle finger.
“Ouch.” You jokingly winced.
“Don’t get me started on you.” Amelia pointed a finger at you, making you put your hands up in defense.
Manny snorted and waved his hand, “Anyways, I’m here to let you guys know that Mr. Sexy Pants is here.”
Upon seeing the confused expression displayed on your face, Amelia laughed and revealed to you who Manny was referring to, “Vante’s here.”
You let out an ‘Ah’ and nodded with a sheepish smile.
“Right!” Manny gasped with wide eyes, “You haven’t met him yet?”
You shook your head, “Nope. Amelia keeps telling me that he’s my type though.”
”Oh, he definitely is.” Manny affirmed. “Now, let’s go and meet your future husband.”
You sighed and shook your head with a giggle. They were too much sometimes but you wouldn’t trade them for the world. You finished up signing the last of your papers and followed behind Manny and Amelia who started a conversation about space and aliens. You weren’t that interested so you kept quiet and scrolled through your phone to see the upcoming schedules and meetings that you’ll have.
“Ah, Mr. Vante! This is Amelia, whom you’ve already met, and this here is our lovely assistant manager who is the mastermind behind the organization of your art exhibition.” Hearing the professional tone in Manny’s voice made you look up from your phone.
As you locked your phone and put it away in your pocket, the smile that you were about to give ceased to appear.
Instead, your eyes widened and your lips parted in shock.
In front of you was Vante who stared at you with soft eyes and a small sad smile.
To everyone, he was Vante, but to you, he was Taehyung.
Your Taehyung.
“Hi.” The familiar deep baritone voice that you fell in love with flowed through your body bringing goosebumps to your skin.
Manny and Amelia both gave you a worried look seeing that you hadn’t spoken, which was not like you at all. You were always so professional, but right now, you looked like you were about to cry.
“Hi, Mr. Vante.” You swallowed thickly and flashed him the best smile you could’ve mustered. “It’s nice to finally meet you. I look forward to working with you.”
Taehyung exhaled sharply, his eyes ever so gentle, “I look forward to working with you too.”
”Great!” Manny clapped his hands making you flinch slightly at the sudden loudness. Taehyung’s eyes never left your figure as Manny spoke, “Now that the introductions are out of the way. Vante, could you let us know if there’s anything we need to fix or change about your exhibition?”
Manny and Amelia began to walk him through the exhibition that you had just finalized. He was attentive to them and the questions that they had, but every now and then, he would glance over at you.
You would chime in and give a comment on a particular section of the exhibition but it was Manny and Amelia who spoke the most.
“This is the end.” You stated and Taehyung was quick to look over at you. “Again, if there’s anything that’s not to your standards, let us know so we can deal with it.”
“Everything’s perfect.” Taehyung shook his head, a mellow expression visible on his face. “I loved it. You did great.”
You picked at the cuticle on your thumbs, “I’m glad.” You turned to Manny and Amelia, giving them a tight smile, “I have a meeting soon, I have to go.” You didn’t really wait for their response before you spun on your heels and began to walk away. You had to get away from there, from him. You felt suffocated.
“Wait, Y/N!” Your breath hitched at the sound of Taehyung’s voice calling out to you and you hesitantly turned around.
“Can we talk later?” Taehyung asked quietly, “Please?”
You had your eyes locked on your feet, “Why?”
”Y/Nie.”
You wanted to cry at the tenderness coming from Taehyung.
“Look at me.” Taehyung pleaded.
You swallowed harshly and glanced up to face him.
Taehyung's eyes were slightly glistening. His lips twitched into a small smile, “Talk to me, please?”
You stayed silent for a few minutes before slowly nodding, “Okay.”
Taehyung let out a sigh of relief. His eyes scanned your face like it would be the last time he would ever see you. “Your number’s still the same?”
“Yeah.” You muttered.
“Okay.” Taehyung breathed out. Your eyes caught sight of Taehyung’s hand twitching and you felt your heart clench. You could tell he wanted to reach out. “Text me when you’re free?”
“I will.” You whispered. “I have to go, but I will text you.”
“I’ll be waiting.” Taehyung’s lips curled into a faint smile.
You reciprocated his action before turning away, your heart pounding violently against your ribcage.
You were so fucked.
After your meeting, you didn’t text Taehyung immediately. Instead, you called Jimin. You knew he would know something about Vante being Taehyung.
“Hello?” The melodic voice of Jimin entered your ears once he picked up.
“You knew, didn’t you?”
Jimin was quiet for a moment, “Know what exactly? It’s a little late here, Y/N. My brain’s not really functioning at this hour.”
“Taehyung. Him being Vante.”
You were met with silence for a few minutes.
“You saw him?” Jimin muttered.
“That’s all you have to say?” You sputtered.
“Y/Nie.” Jimin sighed, “He didn’t want you to know. He wanted you to chase your dreams.”
“But—”
“Taehyung,” Jimin interjected. He inhaled sharply, “He read your letters, Y/N. When he finished them all, I watched him completely break down. I have never seen him so. . . broken. He was devastated and he never acted like that over Lina. He pursued art because of you. You’re the reason why he’s Vante. He never wanted you to know because he thought you were better off. . .” Without him. You knew what Jimin wanted to say.
”Fuck.” You tearfully laughed. You glanced out of your office’s window and sniffled, “I forgot how to breathe when I saw him, Jimin. He still has such a hold over me.”
“I know.” Jimin hummed sympathetically. “Have you talked to him yet?”
“Not yet.” You exhaled, “I just got out of a meeting and called you.”
“I appreciate the phone call but you should go talk to him.” Jimin chuckled, “Besides, it’s late here already and I have an early morning.”
“Okay.” You muttered and rubbed your eyes tiredly, “Night, Jimin. Thanks for picking up. Love you.”
“Love you too. Update me.” Jimin responded softly.
You smiled, “I will.”
The familiar dial tone was heard and you placed your phone on your desk for a moment. You drew in a breath and searched for Taehyung’s contact as you haven't texted him in forever.
You: here’s my address, xxx
You: let me know when you’re here
Taehyung: okay :)
You sighed and closed your eyes.
You were so scared.
You hoped this conversation would end well.
You lived relatively close to the Louvre so it wasn’t a far drive back to your apartment. You managed to clean up your place fairly well, even though it was already pretty neat. You wanted to be nice and inviting so you decided to cook Japchae with some of the leftovers you had from the night you made Kimbap.
Japchae was also one of Taehyung’s favorite dishes and you wanted him to have a piece of home while he was over.
Your phone dinged and you placed down your chopsticks to check the notification.
Taehyung: i’m here!
As you read the text, a soft knock was heard on the door. You wiped your hands on the kitchen cloth hanging off the handle of your oven before making your way over to the front door. You took a deep breath and unlocked the door. You were met with Taehyung who held a bouquet of tulips.
“You still like tulips right?” Taehyung inquired with a timid smile.
“Uh, yes.” You let out a surprised laugh and nodded. “I’m shocked you still remembered.”
“I remember everything about you, Y/N.” Taehyung answered gently like it was the most obvious thing ever. You felt yourself stop breathing and the two of you held eye contact for a brief moment before you cleared your throat and stepped aside.
“Come in.”
Taehyung smiled at you and muttered a quick ‘Thanks’ under his breath as he took off his shoes. He neatly placed them beside your flats and you gestured for him to follow to the kitchen where the aroma of your cooking Japchae consumed his senses.
“Is that Japchae I smell?” Taehyung gasped.
“I wanted to make something close to home for both of us.” You smiled.
“You didn’t have to, but thank you.” Taehyung’s eyes softened, “Really.”
You merely brushed him off with a wave of your hand and began plating his portion. You made sure to give him a lot because you knew he had a big appetite.
“I‘ll eat well.” Taehyung placed his hands together and smiled.
You chuckled and placed some of the Japchae in your bowl. You blew on the noodles to cool them down a bit before slurping some up.
A content hum was heard from Taehyung as his eyebrows scrunched in satisfaction, “This is really good, Y/N.”
“Thanks.” You beamed. “I mean, I was always the better cook between us.”
Taehyung gasped and gave you a faux hurt look, “Ouch!”
You giggled and his lips twitched into a grin at the sound.
You guys made small talk updating each other on your lives as you ate. When the two of you finished, Taehyung insisted on washing the dishes since you had cooked. You knew how stubborn Taehyung was so you allowed him to do it.
“So.” You drew in a breath, “What did you want to talk about?”
Taehyung was finishing up on cleaning the last bowl and gave you a nervous smile, “You. Us.”
Your heart stopped.
Taehyung placed the bowl into the rack with dishes next to your sink and wiped his hands dry on the kitchen cloth.
“I read the letters,” Taehyung muttered. You stayed quiet, but your hands were shaking against your thighs. “I had no idea you felt that way about me and it was really hard on me when I read your letters.”
“Tae—”
Taehyung shook his head and placed his hand on top of yours, “Let me finish.”
You pursed your lips.
Taehyung gave you a faint smile and walked around to sit in the empty stool beside you. He grabbed your hands and placed them in his. “You were my biggest supporter and were always there for me when I needed someone. I never felt so seen by someone before. I think a part of me always felt a type of way about you but the other part of me denied it because you’re Namjoon’s younger sister and I felt like I would betray him if I ever thought of you in that way.”
You felt your eyes sting with tears.
Taehyung laughed wetly, “I stayed in denial of my own feelings and as a result lost the chance of something that would’ve made me so happy.” He peered up from his lap where both of your hands were and your chest tightened, his eyes shone with tears, “I felt like a complete failure when I wasn’t there for you on your big day, and finding out from Jimin that you left before I could fix things between us gutted me.”
Your lips quivered and a tear fell down your face. Taehyung’s lips twitched and he reached up to wipe it away.
“The only thing I thought I could do was to pursue art like you’ve always wanted me to and maybe my artwork would be displayed at the Louvre, giving me the chance to rekindle with you.”
”And you achieved that.” You whispered. You gave him a soft smile and squeezed his hands, “You made your dreams come true. I’m really proud of you.”
Taehyung smiled sadly, “All of my dreams haven’t come true yet.”
Your breath hitched as Taehyung moved closer. His eyes scanned your face intensely, “I missed you, Y/N.” he let out a choked laugh, tears falling down his face, “And I love you. I am completely and irrevocably in love with you too. I’ve always been but I was a coward.”
Hearing the familiar words that you wrote down in your letter to Taehyung made you break. A shaky gasp left your lips as you leaned your head down to cry. Your shoulders shook with each sob. Taehyung pulled you into an embrace and placed his cheek on top of your head. You felt numerous tears fall on your hair which made you believe that he was crying too.
“I’m so sorry.” Taehyug sniffled. “I love you. I’m sorry it took me so long.”
You cried against his shoulders and gripped his shirt tightly. Your heart ached in agony and love because this moment was something you’d always dreamed of happening, and now that it was, it broke you.
You pulled back and your teary eyes met his own. Your lips wobbled, “I hate you.”
“I know.” Taehyung muttered, reaching up to brush your hair away from your face.
“I hate you.” You weakly punch his shoulder, “I hate that I was never able to shake you out of my system. I hate that every guy that I met and tried to date could never meet my expectations because I always thought of you. I hate how even after three years, you still consume my every awakening thought. You are in my blood and I will never be cured of you.”
Your voice cracked, “I hate you.”
Taheyung’s lips tugged into a tragic smile, “And I love you.”
A shaky exhale left your mouth and you turned away from him. You reached up to wipe away any tears that fell.
“Look at me.” You hear Taehyung ask faintly.
“Baby.”
Your hand clenched into a fist.
“Look at me, please?”
You swallowed and turned to face him. Taehyung gave you a weak grin and reached for your hand.
“What now?” You questioned quietly.
“Now?” Taehyung replied softly. “Now, you can do whatever you want. I said my piece and if you want nothing to do with me, I’ll walk out right now.”
You were quiet for a few minutes before you shook your head. You held your pinky up to him and Taehyung stared at it in surprise, “Promise me you’ll stop being a coward?”
Taehyung laughed bashfully and linked his pinky with yours, “Promise.” This time, he brought your intertwined hands to his lips and kissed the back of your hand.
You felt your skin burn.
Taehyung took the chance to scan your face again before a small grin broke out on his face.
“Can I kiss you?”
You froze.
“What?”
Taehyung laughed, “Can I kiss you?”
You slowly nodded your head and Taehyung’s grin grew wider before he pulled you into a breathtaking kiss.
The moment your lips met his, your whole body relaxed into his hold and he took that chance to pull you closer. You felt him let out a relieved sigh against your lips and you almost wanted to combust. The tip of his tongue teased your bottom lip which made you part your lips for him. A satisfied moan left him as your tongues made contact.
His leg made its way between your thighs and you whimpered as Taehyung pushed his thigh up into your heat.
“Bedroom.” Taehyung whispered huskily against your lips. You were at a loss for words so the only thing you could do was point to the other side of your apartment where your bedroom is.
Taehyung pulled you back into a kiss and this time he did not hold back. Your tongues tangled with each other and you both stumbled across the apartment to try to get to your bedroom. The door slammed loudly against the wall as Taehyung blindly opened it. He gripped your thighs and hauled you up into his arms which caused you to moan.
You felt your back fall back onto your mattress and you watched as Taehyung hungrily eyed you.
“Fuck, I've dreamt of this for so long,” Taehyung muttered, his fingers trailing up your exposed legs. You slightly arched your back with a whine which caused him to laugh, “Patience baby. I need to savor you.”
“Hurry up.” You grumbled.
Taehyung chuckled darkly, “You’ve always been such a brat.” He leaned down to lick your neck up to your ear. You moaned loudly at the dirty action. Your back arched into his chest and you felt your panties sticking to your heat already.
“Taehyung,” You whined.
“What do you want, sweetheart?” Your eyes rolled back at the pet name. “Tell me what you want.”
“Your mouth.” You gasped. “Please.”
Taehyung chuckled and his hand trailed down your stomach to your aching core. He cursed loudly at the wetness and you whimpered at the light touches of his fingers.
“You're already so wet for me, huh?” Taehyung teased. You tried to push your heat closer to his fingers but his other hand was quick to push your hips down on the bed. “Ah, ah, not so fast. I'm going to take my time with you and you're gonna be a good girl and lie there all pretty for me, okay?”
You trembled. Taehyung left your heat and he gripped your cheeks softly with a raised eyebrow, “Words.”
“Yes, sir.” You swallowed thickly.
Taehyung gave you a satisfied smirk, “That’s my girl.”
Your core clenched at the comment. My girl. You were his girl. Fuck, if he wasn't going to start anything soon you were going to pounce on him, damn the consequences.
Taehyung pushed your legs apart again and you closed your eyes with a whimper but the sound of his tongue clicking made you open your eyes again. He gave you an approval hum and you cursed under your breath. He was so undeniably sexy right now.
He reached the hem of your shirt and you lifted your arms up to allow him to take off the clothing. His eyes darkened at the sight of your bare chest, “No bra?”
“I don't wear one when I'm home. It's uncomfortable.” You murmured breathlessly.
Taehyung huffed before he leaned down, trailing kisses on your sternum. You watched as he licked and sucked around your tits but he never placed his mouth where you so desperately wanted him to. His eyes flickered up to yours, and he smirked before his lips encircled your right boob.
You threw your head back with a noisy moan and your hand flew to the back of his head, gripping onto his hair tightly which caused him to groan against your chest.
His hand reached up to intertwine with yours and he pushed it into the mattress, sucking on your nipple hungrily. He swirled his tongue in circles making your eyebrows furrow in pleasure.
“Taehyung.” You gasped. He hummed before switching to your other boob, giving it the same treatment. He sucked harshly resulting in you arching your back. He grinded against your core and moaned loudly as you gripped his hair harder.
Taehyung let go of your tit with a pop, his lips were red and swollen from the intense act.
“You’re divine.” Taehyung groaned before pulling you into a sloppy kiss. You groaned against his mouth and his tongue danced with yours as he grinded against you again.
You whimpered and tightened your legs around his waist. He pulled back and a string of saliva connecting your lips was visible, “Fuck, baby.”
“I need more, Tae.” you mumbled, voice laced with complete desire. Taehyung didn't respond. He began to trail kisses down your chest before he finally came to your core. He slowly pulled down your shorts and a small groan left his lips at the damp spot that was evident on your panties.
“Fuck, I bet you taste as sweet as you smell.” Taehyung grunted. You whimpered and you felt your core pulsing. He leaned closer and his hot breath was against your covered heat and your stomach clenched in anticipation. His arm circled your waist to hold you in place while the other one intertwined with your left hand.
He licked a stripe up your clothed heat and the feeling of his wet tongue against the most sensitive part of your body made you shiver heavily.
“Tae,” You whined loudly and he chuckled. His fingers looped into the bands of your underwear and he pulled them down, revealing your wet cunt.
“Look at you,” he mumbled in complete admiration, “You’re so fucking pretty.”
Taehyung wasted no time and his tongue was quick to lick between your slick folds. Your hips bucked into his mouth, and you arched your back letting out the most pornographic moan that caused Taehyung to groan loudly against your heat. The vibrations of it sent shivers down your spine.
He latched onto your clit and sucked harshly. A loud gasp left your lips and you felt yourself arching again before Taehyung pressed you back down onto the bed roughly. You whined and he pushed his tongue into your cunt, flickering it up and down. Your eyes welled up with tears as your body shook with pleasure.
You glanced down and Taehyung peered up at you with hooded eyes, his hair completely disheveled from your constant gripping and you've never seen such a beautiful sight. He looked so fucking good that it was enough to make the tension in your stomach reach its endpoint.
“I'm gonna cum.” You moaned but you cried out when he suddenly pulled away. You opened your eyes to see him moving away from between your thighs. Taehyung locked his lips and he rolled his eyes back at the sweet tangy taste of you.
“You're not cumming yet.” Taehyung shook his hand as he tugged his shirt over his head. “You're cumming around my cock.”
Fuck. Whatever he wants.
You gawked at his chest, his abs clenched every time he moved an inch and you felt yourself get even wetter. You were quick to help him pull his pants and boxers down and he laughed at your eagerness.
“Shut up.” you grumbled.
He tapped your nose and smiled at you, “You’re cute.”
“Just fuck me already.” You rolled your eyes and he raised an eyebrow at that.
Taehyung let out a dark chuckle, “You’re such a fucking brat, but you're my brat.”
You swallowed thickly and stared at him with wide eyes.
“Are you clean?” Taehyung asked but you were distracted by the sight of his cock. He was big, definitely bigger than all the guys you've ever slept with. The head was pink and leaking with precum already as he stroked it. He was so fucking gorgeous.
“Baby?”
You looked away to see Taehyung staring at you in amusement.
“I—um—yes, I’m clean.” you stuttered.
Taehyung laughed and he leaned down to pull you into a soft kiss, “You’re the cutest.”
“Stop it—” You began but were cut off with a moan as you felt him teasing your entrance, lubricating his cock with your slick. Taehyung grunted and his hands fell between the sides of your head. Your hands flew to his wrists and you gripped onto it tightly as your stomach clenched.
“I'll go slow, okay?” Taehyung assured you softly. You nodded and whimpered as he slowly pushed into you. Once he was finally nestled inside your walls, a low moan left his mouth. The rawness of your gummy walls gripping him so tightly made him want to ram into you so roughly, but he held back. He used all of his power to hold himself back.
“You okay, sweetheart?” Taehyung asked worriedly and you gave him a quick nod.
“You can move now.” you breathed out.
Taehyung growled and immediately rocked his hips into you. A loud moan left your mouth as you arched your back into him. His hand moved toward yours and he intertwined it, pushing it into the mattress.
“I know, baby. I know.”
You whimpered at that. He continued to thrust, each one harder and more intense. Taehyung's breath was uneven and every now and then, a soft moan would leave his lips whenever you would grind down onto him. “My girl. You're all mine. Jesus, you're so fucking tight.” You moaned, hearing his comments.
When he reached a particular spot, a trembling whimper left you. Taehyung panted against your ears and a low deep chuckle came from him, “Right there?”
“Fuck, please, please, please.” you babbled.
His fingers reached down to your clit and he began to rub it aggressively. Your lips parted and your eyebrows furrowed as your toes curled in euphoric pleasure. The tension in your lower stomach was close to bursting.
“Fuck, you feel like heaven,” Taehyung grunted as he slammed into you with another harsh thrust. “Cum. I wanna feel you.”
His circular motions on your clit intensified and your back arched into his chest as you felt yourself release. Your legs shook uncontrollably as waves of pleasure washed over your entire body. Your walls clenched around his cock causing Taehyung to moan.
Despite being overstimulated, you still wanted to make sure Taehyung cum as well. You started to rock your hips against him which made him gasp loudly, his cock throbbed inside of you.
“Baby—” Taehyung started but you cut him off with a kiss. He groaned against your lips and your tongue made its way into his mouth, sucking on the muscle roughly. He whimpered and began to thrust as he tried to reach his climax.
“Shit, you're too fucking good for me.” Taehyung babbled, “You want me to fill you up?” You moaned intensely at his dirty words, “Fuck, yeah you do. Want me to fill you up and make you round with my baby?” The thought of carrying his child made you clench around him which caused his eyes to roll back as he continued to chase his release.
“Fuck, I'm cumming.” He groaned as he gave one final thrust before his hot seed coated your walls. Taehyung’s head fell onto your shoulders and he breathed heavily against it, eyes shut in content. Your fingers reached up to brush through his hair.
“Let me clean you up,” Taehyung murmured, and he slowly started to pull away, causing you to wince at the sudden loss. “I know, I know. I'll be right back, okay?” You watched tiredly as he walked to your bathroom before coming back with a wet cloth and he kneeled to wipe away your mixed cum that was still leaking out of your cunt.
Once he was finished, he grabbed you a new pair of underwear and his shirt. He helped you put it on and he grabbed his boxers from the ground and put them on before climbing into bed with you and enveloping you in his arms.
“I can't believe this is real.” you whispered and Taehyung chuckled before nuzzling his face into your neck. His arms were snaked around your waist tightly and he had no desire to let you go.
“Well believe it because I'm never letting you go now.” Taehyung placed a kiss under your jaw. “You're mine forever.”
You laughed and leaned down to face him, he gave you a wide smile which made you scrunch your nose, “I love you.”
“And I love you.” Taehyung muttered softly with sparkling eyes.
synopsis: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
genre / warnings: 18+ content, nsfw, a bit heavy angst at the start, fluff, smut!!!, strong & vulgar language, reader is working at the louvre, taehyung finally locked in, dom!taehyung, brat!reader, breeding and praise kink, unprotected sex (wrap it before u tap it!!), oral (fem. receiving), teasing, dirty talk (tae is such a talker fr), grinding, tits sucking, and new characters #amelia&mannyfanclub!!
nini’s notes: the long awaited part two for 9 letters, 1 goodbye!! thank you so so much for the love and support i’ve received on part one, it’s genuinely insane to me how many people read, liked, commented, and reblogged!! 🥹🤍 i also haven’t written smut in so long so pls forgive me if it’s terrible 🥲
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main masterlist part one
Adjusting to life in Paris wasn’t an easy thing to do. French was hard to learn and become fluent in. The lifestyle customs in France were very different from what you were accustomed to, but you were able to conquer the challenge. Working at the Louvre though was difficult at first too. Your manager was hard on you and was very particular about how he wanted things which made you get frustrated a lot.
Over time, you got better and became the unofficial official star employee at the Louvre. You became an assistant manager and handled most of the art exhibitions held at the Louvre.
This month’s art exhibition will showcase a series of paintings by the artist named Vante. You've heard of Vante before and have familiarized yourself with his artwork when the business agreement was in its early stages.
Something about his art was so familiar to you but you couldn't quite put your finger on it.
Everyone on your team had already met him, but you hadn’t had the chance yet, since you were constantly in meetings with your manager to deal with potential artists who wanted to have an exhibition at the Louvre.
“I’m telling you, Y/N.” Amelia stated as she playfully fanned herself. “He’s genuinely the most handsome man I’ve ever met and I literally live in Paris where there are models everywhere.”
You stifled a laugh and glanced at her before you went back to sign some documents. Amelia was your first friend in France and one of the coordinators for art exhibitions. She, luckily, already spoke English so your friendship blossomed pretty quickly. She was your confidant in everything and sometimes reminded you of Jungkook.
“Well,” you chuckled. “I’ll let you know what my verdict is when I finally meet him.”
Vante was coming later in the day to finalize everything for his art exhibition that was due to be released tomorrow. You were nervous but it was nothing new for you, you’ve always been nervous before the launch of an art exhibition.
“You’re gonna faint.” Amelia gushed. “He’s literally your type down to a T.”
You raised an eyebrow, “Really? That’s a big statement.”
”Yeah, I know because you never like the guys I try to set you up with.” Amelia rolled her eyes with a laugh. “But I really think this guy is your type!”
You merely hummed in response, amused that she really believed that Vante would be your type. To be honest, ever since the day you left for France which was about three years ago now, you’ve never held a stable relationship. You’ve dated here and there, slept and kissed a few people, but at the end of the day, they never could compare to Taehyung.
In every guy you’ve met, the ghost of Taehyung would flash through their eyes. He haunted your every awakening moment.
You thought giving your letters to him would aid in moving on from him, and it did, but your heart still kept the door unlocked in case something would happen.
The hopeless romantic in you had hope and you knew that would be your downfall one day.
”I don’t know, Amelia.” You sighed. “I’m not looking for anything right now.”
Amelia drew in a breath. “I’m only teasing you, but if he does end up being your type, I think you should go for it. You deserve to be loved.”
Your chest twisted. You turned over to her and she gave you a small smile which you returned with a soft laugh.
“You’re too sweet.”
“Je t’aime, Y/n.” Amelia reached over to hug you.
You pouted and held her tightly, “Je t’aime.”
“Whoa! Where was my invite?” The two of you pulled away to see Manny, a coordinator like Amelia, and also one of your closest friends.
You snickered and rolled your eyes playfully at his statement. You were used to his shenanigans and he would always make comments like that.
“Ask one of your little boyfriends, Manny.” Amelia retorted which caused you to let out a shocked laugh.
Manny gasped dramatically and slapped a hand over his chest, “You bitch! Don’t get snappy on me because I’m getting more men than you.” Amelia simply responded by sticking up her middle finger.
“Ouch.” You jokingly winced.
“Don’t get me started on you.” Amelia pointed a finger at you, making you put your hands up in defense.
Manny snorted and waved his hand, “Anyways, I’m here to let you guys know that Mr. Sexy Pants is here.”
Upon seeing the confused expression displayed on your face, Amelia laughed and revealed to you who Manny was referring to, “Vante’s here.”
You let out an ‘Ah’ and nodded with a sheepish smile.
“Right!” Manny gasped with wide eyes, “You haven’t met him yet?”
You shook your head, “Nope. Amelia keeps telling me that he’s my type though.”
”Oh, he definitely is.” Manny affirmed. “Now, let’s go and meet your future husband.”
You sighed and shook your head with a giggle. They were too much sometimes but you wouldn’t trade them for the world. You finished up signing the last of your papers and followed behind Manny and Amelia who started a conversation about space and aliens. You weren’t that interested so you kept quiet and scrolled through your phone to see the upcoming schedules and meetings that you’ll have.
“Ah, Mr. Vante! This is Amelia, whom you’ve already met, and this here is our lovely assistant manager who is the mastermind behind the organization of your art exhibition.” Hearing the professional tone in Manny’s voice made you look up from your phone.
As you locked your phone and put it away in your pocket, the smile that you were about to give ceased to appear.
Instead, your eyes widened and your lips parted in shock.
In front of you was Vante who stared at you with soft eyes and a small sad smile.
To everyone, he was Vante, but to you, he was Taehyung.
Your Taehyung.
“Hi.” The familiar deep baritone voice that you fell in love with flowed through your body bringing goosebumps to your skin.
Manny and Amelia both gave you a worried look seeing that you hadn’t spoken, which was not like you at all. You were always so professional, but right now, you looked like you were about to cry.
“Hi, Mr. Vante.” You swallowed thickly and flashed him the best smile you could’ve mustered. “It’s nice to finally meet you. I look forward to working with you.”
Taehyung exhaled sharply, his eyes ever so gentle, “I look forward to working with you too.”
”Great!” Manny clapped his hands making you flinch slightly at the sudden loudness. Taehyung’s eyes never left your figure as Manny spoke, “Now that the introductions are out of the way. Vante, could you let us know if there’s anything we need to fix or change about your exhibition?”
Manny and Amelia began to walk him through the exhibition that you had just finalized. He was attentive to them and the questions that they had, but every now and then, he would glance over at you.
You would chime in and give a comment on a particular section of the exhibition but it was Manny and Amelia who spoke the most.
“This is the end.” You stated and Taehyung was quick to look over at you. “Again, if there’s anything that’s not to your standards, let us know so we can deal with it.”
“Everything’s perfect.” Taehyung shook his head, a mellow expression visible on his face. “I loved it. You did great.”
You picked at the cuticle on your thumbs, “I’m glad.” You turned to Manny and Amelia, giving them a tight smile, “I have a meeting soon, I have to go.” You didn’t really wait for their response before you spun on your heels and began to walk away. You had to get away from there, from him. You felt suffocated.
“Wait, Y/N!” Your breath hitched at the sound of Taehyung’s voice calling out to you and you hesitantly turned around.
“Can we talk later?” Taehyung asked quietly, “Please?”
You had your eyes locked on your feet, “Why?”
”Y/Nie.”
You wanted to cry at the tenderness coming from Taehyung.
“Look at me.” Taehyung pleaded.
You swallowed harshly and glanced up to face him.
Taehyung's eyes were slightly glistening. His lips twitched into a small smile, “Talk to me, please?”
You stayed silent for a few minutes before slowly nodding, “Okay.”
Taehyung let out a sigh of relief. His eyes scanned your face like it would be the last time he would ever see you. “Your number’s still the same?”
“Yeah.” You muttered.
“Okay.” Taehyung breathed out. Your eyes caught sight of Taehyung’s hand twitching and you felt your heart clench. You could tell he wanted to reach out. “Text me when you’re free?”
“I will.” You whispered. “I have to go, but I will text you.”
“I’ll be waiting.” Taehyung’s lips curled into a faint smile.
You reciprocated his action before turning away, your heart pounding violently against your ribcage.
You were so fucked.
After your meeting, you didn’t text Taehyung immediately. Instead, you called Jimin. You knew he would know something about Vante being Taehyung.
“Hello?” The melodic voice of Jimin entered your ears once he picked up.
“You knew, didn’t you?”
Jimin was quiet for a moment, “Know what exactly? It’s a little late here, Y/N. My brain’s not really functioning at this hour.”
“Taehyung. Him being Vante.”
You were met with silence for a few minutes.
“You saw him?” Jimin muttered.
“That’s all you have to say?” You sputtered.
“Y/Nie.” Jimin sighed, “He didn’t want you to know. He wanted you to chase your dreams.”
“But—”
“Taehyung,” Jimin interjected. He inhaled sharply, “He read your letters, Y/N. When he finished them all, I watched him completely break down. I have never seen him so. . . broken. He was devastated and he never acted like that over Lina. He pursued art because of you. You’re the reason why he’s Vante. He never wanted you to know because he thought you were better off. . .” Without him. You knew what Jimin wanted to say.
”Fuck.” You tearfully laughed. You glanced out of your office’s window and sniffled, “I forgot how to breathe when I saw him, Jimin. He still has such a hold over me.”
“I know.” Jimin hummed sympathetically. “Have you talked to him yet?”
“Not yet.” You exhaled, “I just got out of a meeting and called you.”
“I appreciate the phone call but you should go talk to him.” Jimin chuckled, “Besides, it’s late here already and I have an early morning.”
“Okay.” You muttered and rubbed your eyes tiredly, “Night, Jimin. Thanks for picking up. Love you.”
“Love you too. Update me.” Jimin responded softly.
You smiled, “I will.”
The familiar dial tone was heard and you placed your phone on your desk for a moment. You drew in a breath and searched for Taehyung’s contact as you haven't texted him in forever.
You: here’s my address, xxx
You: let me know when you’re here
Taehyung: okay :)
You sighed and closed your eyes.
You were so scared.
You hoped this conversation would end well.
You lived relatively close to the Louvre so it wasn’t a far drive back to your apartment. You managed to clean up your place fairly well, even though it was already pretty neat. You wanted to be nice and inviting so you decided to cook Japchae with some of the leftovers you had from the night you made Kimbap.
Japchae was also one of Taehyung’s favorite dishes and you wanted him to have a piece of home while he was over.
Your phone dinged and you placed down your chopsticks to check the notification.
Taehyung: i’m here!
As you read the text, a soft knock was heard on the door. You wiped your hands on the kitchen cloth hanging off the handle of your oven before making your way over to the front door. You took a deep breath and unlocked the door. You were met with Taehyung who held a bouquet of tulips.
“You still like tulips right?” Taehyung inquired with a timid smile.
“Uh, yes.” You let out a surprised laugh and nodded. “I’m shocked you still remembered.”
“I remember everything about you, Y/N.” Taehyung answered gently like it was the most obvious thing ever. You felt yourself stop breathing and the two of you held eye contact for a brief moment before you cleared your throat and stepped aside.
“Come in.”
Taehyung smiled at you and muttered a quick ‘Thanks’ under his breath as he took off his shoes. He neatly placed them beside your flats and you gestured for him to follow to the kitchen where the aroma of your cooking Japchae consumed his senses.
“Is that Japchae I smell?” Taehyung gasped.
“I wanted to make something close to home for both of us.” You smiled.
“You didn’t have to, but thank you.” Taehyung’s eyes softened, “Really.”
You merely brushed him off with a wave of your hand and began plating his portion. You made sure to give him a lot because you knew he had a big appetite.
“I‘ll eat well.” Taehyung placed his hands together and smiled.
You chuckled and placed some of the Japchae in your bowl. You blew on the noodles to cool them down a bit before slurping some up.
A content hum was heard from Taehyung as his eyebrows scrunched in satisfaction, “This is really good, Y/N.”
“Thanks.” You beamed. “I mean, I was always the better cook between us.”
Taehyung gasped and gave you a faux hurt look, “Ouch!”
You giggled and his lips twitched into a grin at the sound.
You guys made small talk updating each other on your lives as you ate. When the two of you finished, Taehyung insisted on washing the dishes since you had cooked. You knew how stubborn Taehyung was so you allowed him to do it.
“So.” You drew in a breath, “What did you want to talk about?”
Taehyung was finishing up on cleaning the last bowl and gave you a nervous smile, “You. Us.”
Your heart stopped.
Taehyung placed the bowl into the rack with dishes next to your sink and wiped his hands dry on the kitchen cloth.
“I read the letters,” Taehyung muttered. You stayed quiet, but your hands were shaking against your thighs. “I had no idea you felt that way about me and it was really hard on me when I read your letters.”
“Tae—”
Taehyung shook his head and placed his hand on top of yours, “Let me finish.”
You pursed your lips.
Taehyung gave you a faint smile and walked around to sit in the empty stool beside you. He grabbed your hands and placed them in his. “You were my biggest supporter and were always there for me when I needed someone. I never felt so seen by someone before. I think a part of me always felt a type of way about you but the other part of me denied it because you’re Namjoon’s younger sister and I felt like I would betray him if I ever thought of you in that way.”
You felt your eyes sting with tears.
Taehyung laughed wetly, “I stayed in denial of my own feelings and as a result lost the chance of something that would’ve made me so happy.” He peered up from his lap where both of your hands were and your chest tightened, his eyes shone with tears, “I felt like a complete failure when I wasn’t there for you on your big day, and finding out from Jimin that you left before I could fix things between us gutted me.”
Your lips quivered and a tear fell down your face. Taehyung’s lips twitched and he reached up to wipe it away.
“The only thing I thought I could do was to pursue art like you’ve always wanted me to and maybe my artwork would be displayed at the Louvre, giving me the chance to rekindle with you.”
”And you achieved that.” You whispered. You gave him a soft smile and squeezed his hands, “You made your dreams come true. I’m really proud of you.”
Taehyung smiled sadly, “All of my dreams haven’t come true yet.”
Your breath hitched as Taehyung moved closer. His eyes scanned your face intensely, “I missed you, Y/N.” he let out a choked laugh, tears falling down his face, “And I love you. I am completely and irrevocably in love with you too. I’ve always been but I was a coward.”
Hearing the familiar words that you wrote down in your letter to Taehyung made you break. A shaky gasp left your lips as you leaned your head down to cry. Your shoulders shook with each sob. Taehyung pulled you into an embrace and placed his cheek on top of your head. You felt numerous tears fall on your hair which made you believe that he was crying too.
“I’m so sorry.” Taehyug sniffled. “I love you. I’m sorry it took me so long.”
You cried against his shoulders and gripped his shirt tightly. Your heart ached in agony and love because this moment was something you’d always dreamed of happening, and now that it was, it broke you.
You pulled back and your teary eyes met his own. Your lips wobbled, “I hate you.”
“I know.” Taehyung muttered, reaching up to brush your hair away from your face.
“I hate you.” You weakly punch his shoulder, “I hate that I was never able to shake you out of my system. I hate that every guy that I met and tried to date could never meet my expectations because I always thought of you. I hate how even after three years, you still consume my every awakening thought. You are in my blood and I will never be cured of you.”
Your voice cracked, “I hate you.”
Taheyung’s lips tugged into a tragic smile, “And I love you.”
A shaky exhale left your mouth and you turned away from him. You reached up to wipe away any tears that fell.
“Look at me.” You hear Taehyung ask faintly.
“Baby.”
Your hand clenched into a fist.
“Look at me, please?”
You swallowed and turned to face him. Taehyung gave you a weak grin and reached for your hand.
“What now?” You questioned quietly.
“Now?” Taehyung replied softly. “Now, you can do whatever you want. I said my piece and if you want nothing to do with me, I’ll walk out right now.”
You were quiet for a few minutes before you shook your head. You held your pinky up to him and Taehyung stared at it in surprise, “Promise me you’ll stop being a coward?”
Taehyung laughed bashfully and linked his pinky with yours, “Promise.” This time, he brought your intertwined hands to his lips and kissed the back of your hand.
You felt your skin burn.
Taehyung took the chance to scan your face again before a small grin broke out on his face.
“Can I kiss you?”
You froze.
“What?”
Taehyung laughed, “Can I kiss you?”
You slowly nodded your head and Taehyung’s grin grew wider before he pulled you into a breathtaking kiss.
The moment your lips met his, your whole body relaxed into his hold and he took that chance to pull you closer. You felt him let out a relieved sigh against your lips and you almost wanted to combust. The tip of his tongue teased your bottom lip which made you part your lips for him. A satisfied moan left him as your tongues made contact.
His leg made its way between your thighs and you whimpered as Taehyung pushed his thigh up into your heat.
“Bedroom.” Taehyung whispered huskily against your lips. You were at a loss for words so the only thing you could do was point to the other side of your apartment where your bedroom is.
Taehyung pulled you back into a kiss and this time he did not hold back. Your tongues tangled with each other and you both stumbled across the apartment to try to get to your bedroom. The door slammed loudly against the wall as Taehyung blindly opened it. He gripped your thighs and hauled you up into his arms which caused you to moan.
You felt your back fall back onto your mattress and you watched as Taehyung hungrily eyed you.
“Fuck, I've dreamt of this for so long,” Taehyung muttered, his fingers trailing up your exposed legs. You slightly arched your back with a whine which caused him to laugh, “Patience baby. I need to savor you.”
“Hurry up.” You grumbled.
Taehyung chuckled darkly, “You’ve always been such a brat.” He leaned down to lick your neck up to your ear. You moaned loudly at the dirty action. Your back arched into his chest and you felt your panties sticking to your heat already.
“Taehyung,” You whined.
“What do you want, sweetheart?” Your eyes rolled back at the pet name. “Tell me what you want.”
“Your mouth.” You gasped. “Please.”
Taehyung chuckled and his hand trailed down your stomach to your aching core. He cursed loudly at the wetness and you whimpered at the light touches of his fingers.
“You're already so wet for me, huh?” Taehyung teased. You tried to push your heat closer to his fingers but his other hand was quick to push your hips down on the bed. “Ah, ah, not so fast. I'm going to take my time with you and you're gonna be a good girl and lie there all pretty for me, okay?”
You trembled. Taehyung left your heat and he gripped your cheeks softly with a raised eyebrow, “Words.”
“Yes, sir.” You swallowed thickly.
Taehyung gave you a satisfied smirk, “That’s my girl.”
Your core clenched at the comment. My girl. You were his girl. Fuck, if he wasn't going to start anything soon you were going to pounce on him, damn the consequences.
Taehyung pushed your legs apart again and you closed your eyes with a whimper but the sound of his tongue clicking made you open your eyes again. He gave you an approval hum and you cursed under your breath. He was so undeniably sexy right now.
He reached the hem of your shirt and you lifted your arms up to allow him to take off the clothing. His eyes darkened at the sight of your bare chest, “No bra?”
“I don't wear one when I'm home. It's uncomfortable.” You murmured breathlessly.
Taehyung huffed before he leaned down, trailing kisses on your sternum. You watched as he licked and sucked around your tits but he never placed his mouth where you so desperately wanted him to. His eyes flickered up to yours, and he smirked before his lips encircled your right boob.
You threw your head back with a noisy moan and your hand flew to the back of his head, gripping onto his hair tightly which caused him to groan against your chest.
His hand reached up to intertwine with yours and he pushed it into the mattress, sucking on your nipple hungrily. He swirled his tongue in circles making your eyebrows furrow in pleasure.
“Taehyung.” You gasped. He hummed before switching to your other boob, giving it the same treatment. He sucked harshly resulting in you arching your back. He grinded against your core and moaned loudly as you gripped his hair harder.
Taehyung let go of your tit with a pop, his lips were red and swollen from the intense act.
“You’re divine.” Taehyung groaned before pulling you into a sloppy kiss. You groaned against his mouth and his tongue danced with yours as he grinded against you again.
You whimpered and tightened your legs around his waist. He pulled back and a string of saliva connecting your lips was visible, “Fuck, baby.”
“I need more, Tae.” you mumbled, voice laced with complete desire. Taehyung didn't respond. He began to trail kisses down your chest before he finally came to your core. He slowly pulled down your shorts and a small groan left his lips at the damp spot that was evident on your panties.
“Fuck, I bet you taste as sweet as you smell.” Taehyung grunted. You whimpered and you felt your core pulsing. He leaned closer and his hot breath was against your covered heat and your stomach clenched in anticipation. His arm circled your waist to hold you in place while the other one intertwined with your left hand.
He licked a stripe up your clothed heat and the feeling of his wet tongue against the most sensitive part of your body made you shiver heavily.
“Tae,” You whined loudly and he chuckled. His fingers looped into the bands of your underwear and he pulled them down, revealing your wet cunt.
“Look at you,” he mumbled in complete admiration, “You’re so fucking pretty.”
Taehyung wasted no time and his tongue was quick to lick between your slick folds. Your hips bucked into his mouth, and you arched your back letting out the most pornographic moan that caused Taehyung to groan loudly against your heat. The vibrations of it sent shivers down your spine.
He latched onto your clit and sucked harshly. A loud gasp left your lips and you felt yourself arching again before Taehyung pressed you back down onto the bed roughly. You whined and he pushed his tongue into your cunt, flickering it up and down. Your eyes welled up with tears as your body shook with pleasure.
You glanced down and Taehyung peered up at you with hooded eyes, his hair completely disheveled from your constant gripping and you've never seen such a beautiful sight. He looked so fucking good that it was enough to make the tension in your stomach reach its endpoint.
“I'm gonna cum.” You moaned but you cried out when he suddenly pulled away. You opened your eyes to see him moving away from between your thighs. Taehyung locked his lips and he rolled his eyes back at the sweet tangy taste of you.
“You're not cumming yet.” Taehyung shook his hand as he tugged his shirt over his head. “You're cumming around my cock.”
Fuck. Whatever he wants.
You gawked at his chest, his abs clenched every time he moved an inch and you felt yourself get even wetter. You were quick to help him pull his pants and boxers down and he laughed at your eagerness.
“Shut up.” you grumbled.
He tapped your nose and smiled at you, “You’re cute.”
“Just fuck me already.” You rolled your eyes and he raised an eyebrow at that.
Taehyung let out a dark chuckle, “You’re such a fucking brat, but you're my brat.”
You swallowed thickly and stared at him with wide eyes.
“Are you clean?” Taehyung asked but you were distracted by the sight of his cock. He was big, definitely bigger than all the guys you've ever slept with. The head was pink and leaking with precum already as he stroked it. He was so fucking gorgeous.
“Baby?”
You looked away to see Taehyung staring at you in amusement.
“I—um—yes, I’m clean.” you stuttered.
Taehyung laughed and he leaned down to pull you into a soft kiss, “You’re the cutest.”
“Stop it—” You began but were cut off with a moan as you felt him teasing your entrance, lubricating his cock with your slick. Taehyung grunted and his hands fell between the sides of your head. Your hands flew to his wrists and you gripped onto it tightly as your stomach clenched.
“I'll go slow, okay?” Taehyung assured you softly. You nodded and whimpered as he slowly pushed into you. Once he was finally nestled inside your walls, a low moan left his mouth. The rawness of your gummy walls gripping him so tightly made him want to ram into you so roughly, but he held back. He used all of his power to hold himself back.
“You okay, sweetheart?” Taehyung asked worriedly and you gave him a quick nod.
“You can move now.” you breathed out.
Taehyung growled and immediately rocked his hips into you. A loud moan left your mouth as you arched your back into him. His hand moved toward yours and he intertwined it, pushing it into the mattress.
“I know, baby. I know.”
You whimpered at that. He continued to thrust, each one harder and more intense. Taehyung's breath was uneven and every now and then, a soft moan would leave his lips whenever you would grind down onto him. “My girl. You're all mine. Jesus, you're so fucking tight.” You moaned, hearing his comments.
When he reached a particular spot, a trembling whimper left you. Taehyung panted against your ears and a low deep chuckle came from him, “Right there?”
“Fuck, please, please, please.” you babbled.
His fingers reached down to your clit and he began to rub it aggressively. Your lips parted and your eyebrows furrowed as your toes curled in euphoric pleasure. The tension in your lower stomach was close to bursting.
“Fuck, you feel like heaven,” Taehyung grunted as he slammed into you with another harsh thrust. “Cum. I wanna feel you.”
His circular motions on your clit intensified and your back arched into his chest as you felt yourself release. Your legs shook uncontrollably as waves of pleasure washed over your entire body. Your walls clenched around his cock causing Taehyung to moan.
Despite being overstimulated, you still wanted to make sure Taehyung cum as well. You started to rock your hips against him which made him gasp loudly, his cock throbbed inside of you.
“Baby—” Taehyung started but you cut him off with a kiss. He groaned against your lips and your tongue made its way into his mouth, sucking on the muscle roughly. He whimpered and began to thrust as he tried to reach his climax.
“Shit, you're too fucking good for me.” Taehyung babbled, “You want me to fill you up?” You moaned intensely at his dirty words, “Fuck, yeah you do. Want me to fill you up and make you round with my baby?” The thought of carrying his child made you clench around him which caused his eyes to roll back as he continued to chase his release.
“Fuck, I'm cumming.” He groaned as he gave one final thrust before his hot seed coated your walls. Taehyung’s head fell onto your shoulders and he breathed heavily against it, eyes shut in content. Your fingers reached up to brush through his hair.
“Let me clean you up,” Taehyung murmured, and he slowly started to pull away, causing you to wince at the sudden loss. “I know, I know. I'll be right back, okay?” You watched tiredly as he walked to your bathroom before coming back with a wet cloth and he kneeled to wipe away your mixed cum that was still leaking out of your cunt.
Once he was finished, he grabbed you a new pair of underwear and his shirt. He helped you put it on and he grabbed his boxers from the ground and put them on before climbing into bed with you and enveloping you in his arms.
“I can't believe this is real.” you whispered and Taehyung chuckled before nuzzling his face into your neck. His arms were snaked around your waist tightly and he had no desire to let you go.
“Well believe it because I'm never letting you go now.” Taehyung placed a kiss under your jaw. “You're mine forever.”
You laughed and leaned down to face him, he gave you a wide smile which made you scrunch your nose, “I love you.”
“And I love you.” Taehyung muttered softly with sparkling eyes.
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synopsis: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
genre / warnings: unrequited love, heavy angst, some fluff, strong language, usage of alcohol, reader is a hopeless romantic and an art major!!, taehyung is oblivious as hell, jimin is your biggest supporter, jungkook and reader are so cute (they are bffs fr </3), jimin’s relationship with reader also makes me cry, flashbacks are in italics!
nini’s notes: my first one shot!! this may have a part two depending on how i feel and how well it does!! the letters aspect of this is somewhat inspired by tatbilb!! i really love this, i cried like six times writing this no joke, so i hope you enjoy it :’)!!
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You met Taehyung when you were fifteen. You remembered it as clear as day. You were in a bad mood having received a low score on your math exam. You could never understand the subject, it never made sense to you. You just wanted to go home and lock yourself in your room while you drown in your own self-pity. The big tub of vanilla ice cream that stood in your freezer had your name all over it.
“Namjoon! My ice cream better still be in the freezer! I swear I am not in the mood to deal with you right now, my day is going badly as is!” you shouted as you walked inside your house, shoving off your shoes clumsily. Your cheeks were tinted pink from the frosty weather. The cold weather made your bad mood worse.
Despite winter being your favorite season, today was way too cold and your mood wasn't the brightest. Your fingers reached up to grasp the fabric of your scarf, and you started pulling at it aggressively. An annoyed huff left your lips as you tried to untangle the mess.
“Namjoon!” you shouted again, eyes focused only on removing your scarf, and you didn't notice that there were other people beside your brother in the house. “Did you hear me? I—”
Oh.
Six unfamiliar pairs of eyes stared at you in surprise.
“Uh, Joon?” you squeaked out. Your fingers froze, still tangled with your scarf.
Your brother pinched his nose in exasperation before he flashed his friends an awkward grin, “Sorry, guys. This is my little sister, Y/N. Don't mind her, she's a little crazy in the head sometimes.”
“Yah!” you snapped. A deep chuckle broke through the chaos and your eyes were quick to glance over at the source.
You swore you had never seen such a beautiful man in your life before. He was the embodiment of your type. His beauty made you completely forget about the ridiculous math formulas and the low exam score you received.
You watched as he confidently stood up from the couch and extended his hand, “Hi, I'm Taehyung.”
Hi, I think you're the love of my life. You thought to yourself as you gawked at him.
Your eyes trailed to his outstretched hand, as if it were a foreign thing to you. Namjoon could see Taehyung’s face slowly falling as he realized you weren't reaching out to return his gesture.
Namjoon coughed loudly, breaking you out of your trance. You hurriedly grasped Taehyung’s hand and your knees almost buckled. You've never thought a human hand could fit so perfectly with yours. Your heart thumped faster as a boxy smile appeared on Taehyung’s face.
“Hi.” you breathed out. Taehyung’s smile grew wider and he squeezed your hand before letting it go.
Namjoon raised an eyebrow at your interaction but shrugged it off, “This is Jin and Yoongi hyung, Hoseok, Jimin, and Jungkook too.” As he listed their names, your eyes trailed over to each boy who gave you a small bow of their head or a smile.
“Hi. Nice to meet you guys.” you awkwardly stated. You nervously shifted in place before sticking your thumb toward the direction of your room. “I'm gonna go—I, yeah.”
You were quick to spin around and scamper away. Your ears picked up the familiar deep chuckle which caused your heart to skip a beat.
That night, you wrote a letter for the first time.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
A few years passed, and your crush on Taehyung grew stronger. Out of the boys that Namjoon befriended, you were closest with the youngest three; Jungkook, Jimin, and Taehyung. That doesn't mean you weren't close with the others. You were just closer in age to the three.
No one knew of your crush except for Jimin. He immediately figured it out when he noticed your eyes seemed to always shine around Taehyung’s presence.
“You like him.” Jimin muttered with wide eyes, his gaze flickering back and forth between you and Taehyung.
You tensed up and choked out a nervous laugh, “What nonsense are you going on about now?”
“Oh, please.” Jimin rolled his eyes. “You can’t put up an act around me. I see right through you.”
“Jimin.” you sighed.
Jimin softened, “Y/N.”
“He can’t know.” Was all you said.
Jimin was quiet for a moment before he spoke, “Can you handle it? Bottling your feelings inside?”
You didn’t answer. Jimin sighed and leaned down to place his head on your shoulder.
Jungkook, on the other hand, was dense and never picked up the small signs. He couldn't even tell if someone liked him or not. Taehyung was similar in that way but he knew enough to pick up the signs when a girl was crushing on him. Yet, when it came to you, he was completely oblivious.
“Hey, are you going to the grad party tonight?” You glanced up from your laptop at the sound of a soft knock on your door. Your roommate, Sunni, had a hopeful look on her face. You weren't exactly a party person and preferred to stay in rather than go out. Sunni could see the distaste on your face already and was quick to blurt out, “Taehyung will be there.”
You gave her a wary stare, but Sunni didn't budge. She raised an eyebrow, “And so will Jimin and Jungkook, y'know our friends, your best friends? Look, it's Jimin and Taehyung’s senior year before they go out in the real world. Are you really going to skip out on their last hurrah?”
Your face fell at that. It was their last year. You and Jungkook were only in your second year so you still had some time before you would graduate.
“Fine, but only because it’s for Jimin and Tae,” you grumbled, which caused Sunni to squeal.
“Come on! We need to find you an outfit!” Sunni was quick to walk to your closet and rummage through your rack of clothes.
“Seriously?” You whined. “I just organized my closet.”
“Relax.” Sunni scoffed, “You’re acting as if I will make a complete mess. I’m a clean freak, you know that, but that’s beside the point. We need to find something sexy but cute.”
“I’m not trying to impress anyone, Sunni.” you snickered as you continued to type out your assignment for your English class.
“You should! You're beautiful, sexy, and smart!” Sunni exclaimed with wide eyes. “Anyone would be lucky to date you!”
You laughed at her statement, “Thanks, Sunni.”
“Now, put your assignment aside for the night.” Sunni grabbed a white lace halter top and a light blue jean skirt. A huge grin appeared on her face, “Because tonight, we're gonna party.”
You sighed fondly, a grin plastered on your face as well.
You needed to let loose tonight.
By the time you and Sunni finished getting ready, the time for the party to start was approaching. The two of you took Sunni’s car and drove to the location of the party. From what Sunni told you on the way there, it was a senior’s house that they recently bought with a couple of other people.
Sunni squealed as the two of you walked toward the entrance, “I'm so excited! You'll have a lot of fun, I promise!”
You merely laughed. You could only hope. Parties and you never mesh well together.
You felt your phone vibrate in your pocket and reached back to grab it. A smile appeared on your face seeing that it was a text from Jimin. You didn't tell anyone that you were going as you wanted it to be a surprise.
Jimin: you're here???
You: surprise!! where are you??
Jimin: fuck
You: ???
Jimin: stay by the front door, ill come get you
You: jimin you're scaring me
Jimin left you on read and didn't answer which caused you to furrow your eyebrows anxiously. Your heart was beating rapidly and you glanced up to try to find Jimin. You felt a little calmer when you saw a familiar blonde coming your way.
“Jimin!” you shouted over the loud music, your eyes flickering around his face. “What’s wrong?”
Jimin gave you a pitying look, “If I had known you were coming, I would've warned you.”
“What?” you muttered with knitted brows.
“Lina is here. With Taehyung.”
Oh.
Lina was Taehyung’s first girlfriend. The two had an on-and-off relationship since their freshman year. They would get into arguments, break up, and then get back together in a couple of weeks. Jimin didn't like her nor did the rest of the guys. They all believed Taehyung deserved better and Lina knew the hold she had on him so she would always come back to him because he would too.
“They're back together?” Was all you could bring yourself to say.
Jimin rolled his eyes and took a big sip of alcohol from his cup, “Don't get me started. It's complicated, according to Taehyung. He and I got into a small argument about it and he's ignoring me right now.”
“Tae? Ignoring you?” You gaped at him. Jimin gave you a sad smile and shrugged.
“Maybe you can smack some sense into him, Y/N.” Jimin sighed and his eyes softened, “He just, I don't know, he seems to only listen to you somehow.”
“Don't say that.” you mumbled as you rubbed your forehead.
Jimin shrugged, “It’s true, but anyways, no more of this nonsense. Let's go drink and celebrate me finally graduating.” he grabbed your hand and paused, “And find Jungkook. God knows where that kid is.”
You snorted.
As Jimin guided you through the huge crowd, you subconsciously searched for Taehyung. You believed what Jimin told you but you just wanted to see it for yourself.
Maybe this is your sign to finally move on from him.
You loved him since you were fifteen.
You couldn't do this to yourself anymore.
Just as you were about to step into the kitchen, your eyes met a familiar pair of warm brown eyes. Your breath hitched. Taehyung’s eyes slightly widened upon registering that you were actually there. You noticed he slightly tensed up which caused Lina, who was sitting on his lap, to lean toward him and whisper something.
You gave him a small smile and looked away before he could return it.
“Find me a strong drink, Jimin.”
Jimin glanced back and smirked, “You don't have to tell me twice.”
You and Jimin ventured further into the kitchen and the two of you finally made it to the nearby table where all the drinks were. Coincidentally, you found Jungkook there.
“Y/N!” Jungkook gasped. His eyes lit up in complete joy and he rushed to embrace you, “I thought you said you weren't coming?”
“Yeah, but Sunni managed to convince me.” You smiled and paused, taking a glance around the area, “Who—I don't know where she went.”
“I saw her with her little boyfriend, Jaemin.” Jimin took a sip from his cup. “I think she'll be fine.”
You sighed in relief. You knew she was in good hands at least.
“I could treat her better but whatever.” Jungkook rolled his eyes. He had a slight crush on Sunni but you knew Sunni wasn't really that interested and Jungkook knew that but he liked to joke around about it.
You snorted, “Sure, pal.”
“Thanks, best friend.” Jungkook sarcastically muttered. He turned around and grabbed an unopened can of beer. “Oh! Here. I know you don't like super-strong alcohol.”
“Thanks, Kook.” You gave him a genuine smile, “But, uh, I think I'd be down to drink some of that strong alcohol today.”
Jungkook’s jaw lightly dropped, “Who are you and what have you done to my Y/N?” he paused and frowned, “Wait, who's dying tonight? Who are we killing?” Jimin snorted and you snickered.
Your heart warmed. Jungkook was truly your best friend. “No one, doofus. I just want to let loose tonight.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow and glanced over at Jimin, who gave him a nod, “Hmmm. . . If you say so.” he passed you his cup, “Take mine. I'll grab a new one.”
“No—it's okay.” You shook your head but Jungkook didn't budge.
“Take the cup. I don't trust anyone here.”
“I agree.” Jimin clicked his tongue and pointed to the cup.
“You guys are too much.” You chuckled but they knew you didn't mean it.
“Yeah, love you too.” Jungkook grinned, “Okay, I'll be right back and we’ll party.”
“Are we going to get Tae?” you asked and Jungkook immediately rolled his eyes.
“Not if he's with her. I'm passing on that.”
Jimin slapped a hand on Jungkook’s shoulders, “It's nice having someone who understands.”
You sighed, “If she makes him happy, we should be happy for him.”
“Dude.” Jungkook deadpanned, “She’s literally the devil reincarnated. Taehyung experiences more sorrow than joy.”
Jimin cackled loudly at that. You opened your mouth to say something but found no words.
“Okay, be right back!” Jungkook turned and went to get a new drink.
“He needs to learn the hard way, Y/N.” Jimin told you once Jungkook was out of earshot.
You didn't answer, merely drowning some alcohol down.
You had a few drinks in you now and you knew you were most definitely buzzed. Your head pounded as you continued to dance with Jimin and Jungkook.
“Wait, guys.” You huffed and stopped in your tracks to hold your head. “I think I'm going to get some water. My head’s killing me.”
The two stopped and gave you a concerned look.
“I'll go with you.” Jimin didn't hesitate to offer but you shook your head and smiled.
“No, no. It's okay. I'll be back quickly.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow, “You sure?”
“Yeah.” you nodded with a laugh. Jimin reluctantly let you go and you started to make your way through the crowd, muttering apologies as you passed by.
You finally reached the kitchen and grabbed a cold unopened water bottle from the cooler.
“Hey, you're Y/N, right?” You looked up to see a somewhat familiar guy. He looked decently handsome and you recognized him as one of your classmates.
“Oh, hey! Luke, right?”
Luke smiled, “Yeah! I didn't know you were a party type of person. You don't seem like one.”
“Ah.” you chuckled, “I know some of the seniors that this party is for and they're my best friends so I came out to celebrate with them.”
“That’s nice.” Luke grinned before his posture shifted into a more nervous stance, “Uh, this is really random and super out of the blue, but I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me? I think you're really cool.”
Oh wow. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise. Luke was handsome but he wasn't really your type. He was quite far from it.
“Oh, I'm sorry.” You gave him a sympathetic smile, “I'm not really interested but you seem like a great guy.”
Almost immediately, Luke’s entire energy changed. His eyes grew dark and a snarky look appeared on his face.
“Whatever. You're not all that anyway.”
“What did you just say?” The two of you turned your heads to see Taehyung glaring harshly at Luke.
“Tae.” you were quick to say, standing up taller to hold him back from potentially throwing a punch.
“No.” Taehyung shook his head and stepped closer to you, his hand reached out to place his palm on your lower back. You tensed up at the touch and glanced up at him with wide eyes.
Taehyung’s eyes darkened as his glare remained on Luke, “I suggest you walk away before I do something I’ll regret.”
Luke scoffed. “What? Is she your girl or something?”
“Yeah.” Taehyung raised a stern brow, “So listen to what I said and walk the fuck away.” You froze.
What?
Luke rolled his eyes and scoffed again, mumbling incoherent phrases under his breath as he walked away.
You continued to stare at Taehyung in shock.
Taehyung quickly glanced down at you and his eyes softened. His brows furrowed in concern, “You okay? He didn't try anything right?”
“No,” you reassured him. “You—You didn't have to do that y'know.”
“I'll always protect you,” Taehyung stated with knitted eyebrows, confused as to why you would say such a thing. “You know that.”
“I know.” You closed your eyes for a brief moment, “I'm talking about me being your girl.”
Taehyung paused. His mouth opened and closed before a sigh left his lips, “It worked, didn't it?”
You pursed your lips, “Yeah, I guess.”
He noticed the water bottle in your hand and glanced back at your face, his eyes flickered around, “You drank a lot tonight, didn't you?” It wasn't really a question, but rather a statement because he knew the answer.
He knew you.
He always did.
“Want me to take you home?” Taehyung asked softly.
“What?” you muttered in disbelief.
“I'm kinda sick of the party already and you look tired. I can take you back to your apartment.” Taehyung shrugged.
You glanced over to the crowd of moving bodies and spotted Jimin and Jungkook who were a part of some dance train. Taehyung followed your stare and exhaled sharply.
“Go.” he nodded his head toward their direction, “Let them know. I can go start the car.” You gave him a hesitant look and he gave you a small smile, “I didn't drink tonight if that's what you're worried about. I wasn't in the mood.”
“Okay.” you sighed and Taehyung grinned. He tapped the tip of your nose before he left. Your heart raced. This was not good for you. So much for trying to move on.
You started to make your way back to Jimin and Jungkook. The two noticed you immediately and cheered.
“Hey!” Jungkook shouted, “What took so long?”
“Some guy hit on me.” you answered before trailing off, “And Taehyung rescued me.” Jimin and Jungkook shared a look.
“He's taking you home now, isn't he?” Jimin questioned and you only gave him a timid smile in response. Jimin sighed and pulled you into his arms, “Let me know when you're home then okay?”
Jungkook pouted and pulled you into a hug after Jimin released you, “Me too. If Taehyung does something, I don't care how long I've known him, I will fight him if something happens to you.”
You laughed. You did not doubt that Jungkook would actually do it.
“I will.” you smiled, “Bye.” The two shared their goodbyes, and you went to find Sunni to let her know you would be leaving too. You spotted her in one of the corners chatting with some people.
“Y/N!” Sunni squealed. She turned to her group, “Guys this is my cutie roommate, Y/N.” You gave her friends a small wave and smiled.
“I just wanted to let you know I'm leaving now,” you informed her, and she gave you a concerned look.
“You're taking an Uber?” Sunni asked.
“No, Tae’s taking me home.”
Sunni raised an eyebrow at that, “Hm. Okay, stay safe, I'll be home soon too.” You nodded and gave her a quick hug before leaving to find Taehyung.
You reached the entrance and grabbed your shoes, putting them on and exiting the party. You were quick to spot Taehyung who was leaning against his car and scrolling through his phone.
At the sound of your footsteps, he glanced up and gave you a grin, “Took you long enough. Did you say bye to everyone in that house? I didn't know you were so popular.”
You rolled your eyes and let out a mocking laugh, “Haha. So funny, but I did, so we can go now.”
Taehyung chuckled and opened the passenger door for you to get in. Your heart warmed at the stupid action. It's the bare minimum, Y/N. Snap out of it.
Once you were inside, Taehyung quickly made it over to the driver’s seat and began to drive out. You buckled your seatbelt as did he and you felt yourself slightly shiver.
“Cold?” Taehyung asked, reaching to adjust the air conditioner already.
“I'm okay, thanks,” you said. A few moments of silence passed before you decided to take a bold step, “So, I heard you're back with Lina?”
Taehyung sighed. His grip on the steering wheel tightened, “No. It's just—complicated.”
“Isn't it always?” you huffed softly which made him crack a smile.
“Well.” you decided to change the subject as it seemed like Taehyung didn't really want to talk about his situation with Lina, “You're graduating soon, what are you gonna do after?”
“I don't even know.” Taehyung laughed softly, “Maybe apply to work at some art museum. I've always loved art.”
“And you're also really good at creating art,” you interjected.
Taehyung glanced over at you and grinned. He turned back to the road and shook his head fondly. “You're too kind Y/N.”
“I’m serious!” you whined. “You should really sell your art. I know I would buy it!”
“You're just saying that because you already know me.”
“I would buy your art in a heartbeat even if you were a complete stranger to me.” you were quick to snap back. Taehyung peered back at you for a brief moment and smiled.
“What would I do without my biggest supporter, huh?”
“Probably not know how to survive in this chaotic world.” you joked.
Taehyung paused for a second before a soft smile grew on his face. He looked over at you and a breathy laugh left his lips, “Yeah. True. I wouldn't.”
You fell quiet. The sound that only you could hear was the thunderous pounding of your heart beating against your rib cage.
That night after Taehyung dropped you off at your apartment and made sure you had everything you needed. You wrote your sixth letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
Time flew by and now you were a senior. You still kept in contact with Jimin after he graduated but with Taehyung, you slowly lost contact with him. It hurt when it happened, but you realized maybe this was a blessing from the universe, it had given you a chance to finally move on.
“Hey! You ready?” The sound of Jungkook’s voice broke you from your thoughts. A huge smile grew on your face at the sight of him. His outfit mirrored yours, a red cap and gown, and his neck adorned with numerous medals and cords.
“Hey, fellow grad.” you laughed. Jungkook chuckled and rolled his eyes playfully. “Yeah, I'm ready. We're starting soon?”
“Yeah. So get your valedictorian ass up on that stage already.” Jungkook clicked his tongue, nodding his head toward the stage.
“Says you salutatorian.” You snorted and linked your arms with his.
Jungkook scoffed and nudged you, “Can't believe you beat my ass by one point.”
You stuck your tongue out at him which caused him to nudge you a little harder. You laughed loudly and the two of you made it onto the stage. You both took your seats as the president of your university walked up to the podium.
You glanced out in the crowd, taking in the faces of your fellow peers and friends. A smile appeared on your face when you spotted Sunni in the crowd. The girl gave you a wink that made you let out a quiet chuckle.
You hear the president introducing Jungkook as salutatorian which signaled that he would go up to present his speech.
“Wish me luck.” Jungkook whispered and you gave him a bright grin and two thumbs up.
“You got this. Make me proud, Kook.”
Jungkook chuckled and walked up to the podium. His speech almost made you cry but you held it in. You couldn't cry right before you would present your own speech.
“And finally, my greatest gratitude goes to my ride or die, Y/N L/N. Without her, I genuinely would've not survived these past four years. She's my confidant and best friend. She pushed me to be the best version of myself and I'm so thankful that I have someone like her in my life. So, Y/N, valedictorian of this wonderful class, it's your turn to be the tearjerker.” The crowd laughed loudly and you giggled as you stood up to walk to the podium.
You pulled Jungkook into a tight hug and Jungkook gripped you tighter. You rubbed his back and whispered, “Love you.”
“Love you more.” he whispered back before the two of you pulled apart. His eyes were glistening with tears and you cooed which made him scoff. You laughed before taking his spot at the podium.
You sighed deeply into the microphone before a smile appeared on your face, “Good morning, faculty and students. Today is the day. The day we all close our books and write a new one. It's definitely scary to step into a chaotic world without knowing what is actually waiting out there for us but I know how all of you are. You're strong, bright, and determined. You’re all hard workers and today is proof of that.”
Your eyes flickered around the crowd and you noticed your parents beaming with pride. Namjoon was right beside them, tears visible in his eyes and you almost wanted to burst out laughing. He swore he wouldn't cry and yet here he was, not keeping his word. You notice the boys standing with him too. Yoongi, Jin, Hobi, and Jimin. Your heart cracked at the sight of no Taehyung. Maybe he's late.
He promised he would come to your graduation.
“When you graduate, I'll make sure to be the loudest there.” Taehyung placed his pinky out in front of you.
“Really?” you snickered and raised an inquisitive brow.
Taehyung grinned widely, “Scout’s honor.”
You laughed and intertwined your pinky with his. Taehyung's smile grew wider and he tapped your nose with his pointer finger causing your heart to warm.
You cleared your throat and focused back on the crowd of students in front of you. You inhaled sharply before continuing your speech, “In life, there are things and people you must keep and let go of. To those who stood with you through thick and thin, never scared to go against the odds that were against you, keep them. People like them are very hard to come by.” The crowd laughed in agreement. You cracked a smile.
“And sometimes you have to let go of those who mattered most even when it's the complete opposite of what you want. I want you to know that it's okay. It's a part of the cycle. Continue on and bloom. You live only once and you must make the most of it. You can't be the reason or let anyone be the reason why you're held back from greatness. So when you leave today, choose yourself. Choose happiness, choose love, and choose to do what makes you happy. It's okay to be selfish so live for yourself.” The auditorium erupted in claps and cheers and you swore you could hear a loud sniffle behind you. You immediately knew it was Jungkook.
“And I want you to know that you’ll always have a friend in me. You call, I run. So my fellow graduates, today we cheer for us and for our beautiful futures. Congratulations, you finished the first half of your journey. Keep soaring.” You smiled brightly and everyone in the audience stood up and cheered deafeningly.
The top ten of your class were first to walk the stage which included you and Jungkook. Then one by one, every student walked across the stage with their degree. After the president of your university shared his farewells and thanks, the students dispersed to their respective families.
“My baby!” your mother cried out as she rushed toward you. You groaned affectionately when she reached up to cup your cheeks. “I'm so proud of you!”
“Thank you, Mom.” You laughed.
Your dad sniffed and wiped a tear that fell down his face. “I can't believe how grown you are now.”
“Yeah, can you go back to that kid who would always trail after me?” Namjoon walked up to you with a tearful smile and you scoffed. He pulled you into a tight hug which made you let out an ‘oof’ sound. “I'm serious. Can you go back?”
“Love you too, Joon.” You patted his back and he sniffled on your shoulders which caused you to snort. The two of you pulled away and Jin walked up to you with a proud smile.
“Congrats, Y/Nie!” Jin cheered and he pinched your cheeks.
“Jin!” You whined and rubbed your face. Jin snickered at your reaction.
“Congratulations, Y/N.” Yoongi smiled and you beamed.
“Thanks, Yoongi!”
“Congrats! I got you this flower lei!” Hobi sent you a heart-shaped smile. You gasped and bent your head down slightly so he could place the lei around your neck.
“It's so beautiful! Thanks, Hobi!”
“Where’s my lei at?” You hear Jungkook let out a scandalized gasp from behind you.
“Jungkookie! Congrats, sweetie!” your mom cheered as she gushed over him. Jungkook’s cheeks burned red and he grew bashful.
“Ah, thank you, Auntie.” Jungkook gave her a soft smile.
Your dad slapped a hand on his shoulders and gave him a grin, “Congrats, kid.” Jungkook beamed and thanked him as well. Everyone followed in congratulating him and you chuckled at the sight.
“There's my favorite girl.” You turned to see Jimin beaming at you happily. You squealed and rushed to hug him.
“I missed you so much,” you muttered into his shoulders. Jimin chuckled and squeezed you tightly.
“I missed you more.”
“Taehyung?” you whispered so that only you and Jimin could hear. He gave you a sad smile and shook his head.
Your face fell, “He’s really not here?”
“I’m sorry, Y/Nie.” Jimin mumbled sadly.
Your heart dropped to your stomach. You thought he was probably just late but to know that he just never attended broke you.
“It’s okay.” You gave him a light smile. “I’m just happy you were able to come. I know how busy you've been with work and traveling.”
Jimin blew out a breath and shook his head, “I love my job but it is so exhausting with the constant business meetings.” You laughed at that.
“So, Y/Nie.” Jin wrapped his arm around your shoulders and you turned to see that everyone was surrounding you and Jimin. “I heard you're moving abroad?”
Your dad grinned at that, pride was clear on his face, “Y/N here got a really big offer to manage this art museum in Paris. I think it's called the Louvre.”
“You're moving to Paris?” Jungkook gaped at you in shock and you winced, “And working at the Louvre?”
“Surprise?” you sheepishly said. Your mom slapped your dad on the arm which caused a guilty look to appear on his face. “I was going to reveal it at our celebration party but Dad here got too excited.”
“Hey! I'm a proud father, okay?” your dad defended himself. Everyone laughed.
“I know I don't say it a lot, but I'm really proud of you, Y/N.” Namjoon smiled, his dimples poking from his cheeks.
You pouted and you felt yourself tear up. “Don't say that, I'm going to cry now.”
Namjoon laughed loudly and pulled you into an embrace.
“Okay, let's go party now please!” Jungkook pleaded and you rolled your eyes with a snort.
“Yeah, let's go.”
You were all back at your family’s house and it was surrounded by family and friends. You spent a lot of time mingling but you needed a breather. So you were currently sitting on the balcony from your room.
“Y/N?” You turned to see Jimin at the entrance of your room. He smiled at you, “Thought I’d find you here. Can I come in?”
You gave him a small grin and nod. You turned back to stare out at the night sky and sighed. You felt Jimin taking a seat beside you. The sound of the breeze and the chittering of insects was heard through the peaceful silence.
“He tried to come.” Jimin muttered.
You swallowed, “What happened?”
“Lina.”
You scoffed.
“They're back together? Again?”
“I don't know.” Jimin breathed out.
You took a large sip from your cup and rubbed your eyes, “I’m tired, Jimin.”
“I know.” he whispered.
“I can't keep going on like this.”
“Then why do you?”
A shaky sigh left your lips, “Because somewhere inside of me, I believe that maybe there is a chance. Maybe everything he's done for me was because it was in his interest in me. Why would he pretend that I was his girl that one night? Why is he always the first one to my rescue when I need saving? Why, Jimin, why?”
“I don't know why,” Jimin answered softly. “But what I know is that a few months after our graduation, he stopped trying to stay in contact with you.”
You got quiet and you turned to face him, "How do you know that?”
He cracked a sad smile, “Because he always asks me how you are.” You froze. “And whenever I ask why can't he ask you himself, he gets quiet.”
Your breath hitched and you felt your eyes sting with tears. You were quick to glance away from Jimin and stare back out at the sky. The moon seemed to shine brighter all of a sudden.
“What happened to you two?” Jimin asked quietly.
A few moments of silence passed.
“We grew up,” you answered. “I grew up. I think I stopped trying.”
Jimin hummed. “I’m proud of you. Really.”
You cracked a smile at that.
“Will you ever give him your letters?” Jimin questioned faintly.
You were quiet for a while. Your letters were sacred to you. It contained every honest and raw feeling you had for Taehyung. Maybe this whole time you could never move on was because you still held on to those letters. Maybe the key was to let them go. If you give it to him, you'll finally move on.
You turned to Jimin, “I think I will.” Jimin gave you a surprise look, “I think I will finally be able to let go of him if I do it.”
“Besides, I won't have to face him any time soon.”
Jimin looked at you confused now.
You sighed, “I leave tomorrow. First thing in the morning.”
Jimin’s eyes widened, “Y/N.”
“I know.” you exhaled sharply. “But this is what I worked for my whole life. This is it.”
“Everyone knows?” Jimin asked.
“Only my parents and Joon right now. I plan to tell the others later when I go back down.” You replied.
The sound of Namjoon yelling Jimin’s name from downstairs was heard which caused the two of you to look toward your bedroom door.
“Someone’s being called.” you snickered.
Jimin sighed and chuckled lightly. He got up from his seat and gave you a reassuring smile. “I’m here for you through everything, okay?”
You smiled back and nodded, “Thanks.”
Jimin winked and turned to leave but stopped when you called out to him.
“Hey, Jimin?” He gave you a confused look. “Do you think you can give the letters to Tae?” his eyes softened and he nodded.
“Yeah, I can do that.”
“Thank you.” you breathed. Jimin gave you one last smile before leaving.
You felt your phone vibrate and you saw that it was a text from Taehyung. Your heart dropped. The two of you hadn’t texted in months.
Taehyung: i’m sorry i wasn’t at your graduation, i tried really hard to. congratulations y/n, i’m proud of you :)
A lump formed in your throat and you felt your eyes well up with tears. You decided to ignore his text and face the night sky again.
That night, you wrote your goodbye to Taehyung.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
It was the next day, and you had to leave for your job now. Everyone was at the airport, teary-eyed but filled with happiness. You took in everyone’s faces and pouted.
“I'm going to miss you all so much.” you cried and rushed to try and hug everyone. Your mother cooed and caressed your hair as she tried to calm you down but it didn't really help. Your sobs were muffled against Namjoon's shoulders and you could hear that he was crying too. You pulled back, eyes brimming with tears.
“Okay, no more tears please.” Jungkook sniffled. He used the end of his sleeve to wipe any stray tears and gave you a sad frown, “I’m mad that you're leaving me but happy for you because you're achieving your dreams.”
You laughed tearfully and pulled the taller man into a hug. He was quick to squeeze you tightly.
One by one, you hugged everyone one last time. Namjoon sported a proud grin but his red eyes gave away his true emotions which made your heart break. He was your big brother and seeing your little sister leaving wasn't easy. Jin, and surprisingly, Yoongi looked about the same as Namjoon. Hobi was a complete mess, sniffling into his tissue every now and then. Jimin looked like he was about to break down but he held it in pretty well.
You hugged Jimin last and the blonde man made sure to hold you tighter and longer. When you pulled back, you handed him a stack of sealed letters that were tied with a red string. Jimin immediately recognized what they were and gave you a sad smile.
“Thank you.” Your voice cracked.
“Of course.” Jimin muttered back before hugging you again. You breathed out a shaky sigh and squeezed him.
The two of you broke apart and you gave everyone a small smile before slowly departing. Once your back was turned toward them, your heart grew heavier.
This will be good for you. This is what you need.
Jimin hasn't seen Taehyung in a while. The two of them were quite busy, Jimin with the numerous meetings with different businessmen and Taehyung being the head of managing a renowned art museum.
The two were still close but not as much as they were in college, especially now that Taehyung was back together with Lina. They rarely ever talk now.
For you though, Jimin had to break the silence. He had to. It was for your own well-being. You deserved better and he wanted to make sure you would.
Jimin was in front of Taehyung’s apartment door and with a sigh, he knocked. A few minutes went by before the door opened. Taehyung’s eyebrows rose in surprise at the sight of Jimin.
“Jimin.” Taehyung breathed out. “Hi! Uh—come in.” he stepped aside for the blonde to walk in and Jimin gave him a tight-lipped smile as he stepped inside.
“Lina’s not here is she?” Jimin cleared his throat.
Taehyung inhaled sharply and shook his head, “No. It’s over between us.”
“Really?” Jimin sarcastically laughed. His eyes were dark with anger, “You sure? Because I’ve heard that phrase a million times now.”
Taehyung sighed and clenched his jaw, “I’m serious. It’s over.”
“You missed her graduation.” Jimin snapped.
“I know.” Taehyung retorted harshly. He closed his eyes for a brief moment and rubbed his face, “I’ve been beating myself over it since last night, okay? Lina completely fucked me over and I couldn't get out of the plans she made because it was a done deal. I got even more pissed finding out that she purposely made the plans on Y/N and Jungkook’s graduation so I would miss it.”
Jimin’s lips parted in shock. His eyes softened and any fury in his body vanished.
“What are you doing here anyway?” Taehyung muttered tiredly, “We haven't talked in forever and I know it's awkward between us right now.”
“Y/N.” Jimin answered.
Taehyung froze.
“What about her?” Taehyung muttered softly. His voice dropped to that particular tone that he always spoke in whenever he talked about you.
Jimin didn't respond. He merely grabbed something from his back pocket and handed it to Taehyung.
Taehyung’s eyebrows furrowed together at the stack of letters in Jimin’s hands. He hesitantly reached out to grab it and his heart dropped at the familiar handwriting.
Taehyung. His name was written in a beautiful elegant cursive. He knew this was you.
“What is this?” Taehyung choked out.
“Just—” Jimin sighed, “Just read it.”
Taehyung swallowed harshly before he slowly opened the first letter on top of the stack. A neatly folded paper was in the envelope and he gradually unfolded it.
His eyes trailed over the words.
May 3rd, 2012.
That was the day you two met.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
Taehyung’s breath hitched.
His eyes frantically read the words over and over again.
He moved to the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
Is this love? I think it is. I always hear the birds singing louder whenever you're near. Maybe I'm just crazy, but maybe I'm not. Because I swear every time you smile at me, my heart jumps into the shape of your smile.
Taehyung’s eyes started to burn.
Dear Taehyung,
You're the only person who doesn't make me feel like I'm alone. I love Jimin and Jungkook but sometimes I don't think they understand me. Thank you for being that person for me. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm scared, Taehyung. I think I'm falling harder.
A shaky breath left Taehyung’s lips and he felt like his knees were about to buckle.
Dear Taehyung,
Today was the worst and best day ever for me. I hated going on the roller coasters but your encouragement pushed me not to be scared. You made today fun. You always knew how to make me feel better, and that still scares me. I don't think I can ever shake you out of my system.
Taehyung let out a choked cry as his knees started to quiver. Jimin started to tear up at the distraught sight of him.
Dear Taehyung,
You left for college today. I cried two times after you and Jimin said goodbye. I hope college treats you well. I know you will do amazing things and I can't wait to hear about them. Remember that I'll always be in your corner! Fighting!
Taehyung felt himself drop to the floor. A trembling whimper left him as he read the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
The hole in Taehyung’s chest grew. His vision started to get blurry as he continued to read.
Dear Taehyung,
I think I am completely and irrevocably in love with you. Every time you laugh, my heart turns into a mess. Every time you tap my nose, my heart decides it's only you. I'm really scared now. What should I do, Taehyung? You've wrecked me entirely.
A stifled sob escaped Taehyung. His head hurts now and his heart burns.
Dear Taehyung,
It's been a few months since you graduated now and I miss you. A lot. You're a big manager at your dream art museum now and I couldn't be more happier for you! I still think you should sell your art and I hope you do one day! Maybe, I'll work at the Louvre and your art will be displayed!
A few tears fell onto the next letter and Taehyung felt his heart drop at the first few words.
Dear Taehyung,
My graduation is coming up and I'm valedictorian. Jungkook is super salty over it but I hope you're proud of me! We haven't talked in months now and I tried keeping in contact but I guess our lives just got too busy. I miss when we were careless kids laughing over stupid things. I got a job offer at the Louvre too! Crazy, right?! It was a big surprise for me but I'm super happy! I hope to see you at my graduation and tell you all about it! Love you. Miss you.
Taehyung leaned back against his couch and let out a shaky breath. His hand came up to wipe away his tears.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
This was the last letter and Taehyung knew this was it. He noticed there was no ‘Dear’. You had let him go. Taehyung grasped at his chest and cried. Jimin, who stood watching him, quietly sniffled, his heart clenching in pain for his friend.
“She kept looking for you at her graduation.” Jimin revealed gently.
That didn't help Taehyung at all, it only caused him to cry harder. He glanced up at Jimin with swollen eyes, “Where is she?”
Jimin was quiet.
Taehyung grew anxious. He felt his eyes sting, “Jimin. Where is she?”
“She’s gone, Tae.” Jimin quietly replied, “She left for Paris.”
Taehyung felt his whole world collapse.
You were right there in front of him this whole time and he was so blind.
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synopsis: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
genre / warnings: unrequited love, heavy angst, some fluff, strong language, usage of alcohol, reader is a hopeless romantic and an art major!!, taehyung is oblivious as hell, jimin is your biggest supporter, jungkook and reader are so cute (they are bffs fr </3), jimin’s relationship with reader also makes me cry, flashbacks are in italics!
nini’s notes: my first one shot!! this may have a part two depending on how i feel and how well it does!! the letters aspect of this is somewhat inspired by tatbilb!! i really love this, i cried like six times writing this no joke, so i hope you enjoy it :’)!!
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You met Taehyung when you were fifteen. You remembered it as clear as day. You were in a bad mood having received a low score on your math exam. You could never understand the subject, it never made sense to you. You just wanted to go home and lock yourself in your room while you drown in your own self-pity. The big tub of vanilla ice cream that stood in your freezer had your name all over it.
“Namjoon! My ice cream better still be in the freezer! I swear I am not in the mood to deal with you right now, my day is going badly as is!” you shouted as you walked inside your house, shoving off your shoes clumsily. Your cheeks were tinted pink from the frosty weather. The cold weather made your bad mood worse.
Despite winter being your favorite season, today was way too cold and your mood wasn't the brightest. Your fingers reached up to grasp the fabric of your scarf, and you started pulling at it aggressively. An annoyed huff left your lips as you tried to untangle the mess.
“Namjoon!” you shouted again, eyes focused only on removing your scarf, and you didn't notice that there were other people beside your brother in the house. “Did you hear me? I—”
Oh.
Six unfamiliar pairs of eyes stared at you in surprise.
“Uh, Joon?” you squeaked out. Your fingers froze, still tangled with your scarf.
Your brother pinched his nose in exasperation before he flashed his friends an awkward grin, “Sorry, guys. This is my little sister, Y/N. Don't mind her, she's a little crazy in the head sometimes.”
“Yah!” you snapped. A deep chuckle broke through the chaos and your eyes were quick to glance over at the source.
You swore you had never seen such a beautiful man in your life before. He was the embodiment of your type. His beauty made you completely forget about the ridiculous math formulas and the low exam score you received.
You watched as he confidently stood up from the couch and extended his hand, “Hi, I'm Taehyung.”
Hi, I think you're the love of my life. You thought to yourself as you gawked at him.
Your eyes trailed to his outstretched hand, as if it were a foreign thing to you. Namjoon could see Taehyung’s face slowly falling as he realized you weren't reaching out to return his gesture.
Namjoon coughed loudly, breaking you out of your trance. You hurriedly grasped Taehyung’s hand and your knees almost buckled. You've never thought a human hand could fit so perfectly with yours. Your heart thumped faster as a boxy smile appeared on Taehyung’s face.
“Hi.” you breathed out. Taehyung’s smile grew wider and he squeezed your hand before letting it go.
Namjoon raised an eyebrow at your interaction but shrugged it off, “This is Jin and Yoongi hyung, Hoseok, Jimin, and Jungkook too.” As he listed their names, your eyes trailed over to each boy who gave you a small bow of their head or a smile.
“Hi. Nice to meet you guys.” you awkwardly stated. You nervously shifted in place before sticking your thumb toward the direction of your room. “I'm gonna go—I, yeah.”
You were quick to spin around and scamper away. Your ears picked up the familiar deep chuckle which caused your heart to skip a beat.
That night, you wrote a letter for the first time.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
A few years passed, and your crush on Taehyung grew stronger. Out of the boys that Namjoon befriended, you were closest with the youngest three; Jungkook, Jimin, and Taehyung. That doesn't mean you weren't close with the others. You were just closer in age to the three.
No one knew of your crush except for Jimin. He immediately figured it out when he noticed your eyes seemed to always shine around Taehyung’s presence.
“You like him.” Jimin muttered with wide eyes, his gaze flickering back and forth between you and Taehyung.
You tensed up and choked out a nervous laugh, “What nonsense are you going on about now?”
“Oh, please.” Jimin rolled his eyes. “You can’t put up an act around me. I see right through you.”
“Jimin.” you sighed.
Jimin softened, “Y/N.”
“He can’t know.” Was all you said.
Jimin was quiet for a moment before he spoke, “Can you handle it? Bottling your feelings inside?”
You didn’t answer. Jimin sighed and leaned down to place his head on your shoulder.
Jungkook, on the other hand, was dense and never picked up the small signs. He couldn't even tell if someone liked him or not. Taehyung was similar in that way but he knew enough to pick up the signs when a girl was crushing on him. Yet, when it came to you, he was completely oblivious.
“Hey, are you going to the grad party tonight?” You glanced up from your laptop at the sound of a soft knock on your door. Your roommate, Sunni, had a hopeful look on her face. You weren't exactly a party person and preferred to stay in rather than go out. Sunni could see the distaste on your face already and was quick to blurt out, “Taehyung will be there.”
You gave her a wary stare, but Sunni didn't budge. She raised an eyebrow, “And so will Jimin and Jungkook, y'know our friends, your best friends? Look, it's Jimin and Taehyung’s senior year before they go out in the real world. Are you really going to skip out on their last hurrah?”
Your face fell at that. It was their last year. You and Jungkook were only in your second year so you still had some time before you would graduate.
“Fine, but only because it’s for Jimin and Tae,” you grumbled, which caused Sunni to squeal.
“Come on! We need to find you an outfit!” Sunni was quick to walk to your closet and rummage through your rack of clothes.
“Seriously?” You whined. “I just organized my closet.”
“Relax.” Sunni scoffed, “You’re acting as if I will make a complete mess. I’m a clean freak, you know that, but that’s beside the point. We need to find something sexy but cute.”
“I’m not trying to impress anyone, Sunni.” you snickered as you continued to type out your assignment for your English class.
“You should! You're beautiful, sexy, and smart!” Sunni exclaimed with wide eyes. “Anyone would be lucky to date you!”
You laughed at her statement, “Thanks, Sunni.”
“Now, put your assignment aside for the night.” Sunni grabbed a white lace halter top and a light blue jean skirt. A huge grin appeared on her face, “Because tonight, we're gonna party.”
You sighed fondly, a grin plastered on your face as well.
You needed to let loose tonight.
By the time you and Sunni finished getting ready, the time for the party to start was approaching. The two of you took Sunni’s car and drove to the location of the party. From what Sunni told you on the way there, it was a senior’s house that they recently bought with a couple of other people.
Sunni squealed as the two of you walked toward the entrance, “I'm so excited! You'll have a lot of fun, I promise!”
You merely laughed. You could only hope. Parties and you never mesh well together.
You felt your phone vibrate in your pocket and reached back to grab it. A smile appeared on your face seeing that it was a text from Jimin. You didn't tell anyone that you were going as you wanted it to be a surprise.
Jimin: you're here???
You: surprise!! where are you??
Jimin: fuck
You: ???
Jimin: stay by the front door, ill come get you
You: jimin you're scaring me
Jimin left you on read and didn't answer which caused you to furrow your eyebrows anxiously. Your heart was beating rapidly and you glanced up to try to find Jimin. You felt a little calmer when you saw a familiar blonde coming your way.
“Jimin!” you shouted over the loud music, your eyes flickering around his face. “What’s wrong?”
Jimin gave you a pitying look, “If I had known you were coming, I would've warned you.”
“What?” you muttered with knitted brows.
“Lina is here. With Taehyung.”
Oh.
Lina was Taehyung’s first girlfriend. The two had an on-and-off relationship since their freshman year. They would get into arguments, break up, and then get back together in a couple of weeks. Jimin didn't like her nor did the rest of the guys. They all believed Taehyung deserved better and Lina knew the hold she had on him so she would always come back to him because he would too.
“They're back together?” Was all you could bring yourself to say.
Jimin rolled his eyes and took a big sip of alcohol from his cup, “Don't get me started. It's complicated, according to Taehyung. He and I got into a small argument about it and he's ignoring me right now.”
“Tae? Ignoring you?” You gaped at him. Jimin gave you a sad smile and shrugged.
“Maybe you can smack some sense into him, Y/N.” Jimin sighed and his eyes softened, “He just, I don't know, he seems to only listen to you somehow.”
“Don't say that.” you mumbled as you rubbed your forehead.
Jimin shrugged, “It’s true, but anyways, no more of this nonsense. Let's go drink and celebrate me finally graduating.” he grabbed your hand and paused, “And find Jungkook. God knows where that kid is.”
You snorted.
As Jimin guided you through the huge crowd, you subconsciously searched for Taehyung. You believed what Jimin told you but you just wanted to see it for yourself.
Maybe this is your sign to finally move on from him.
You loved him since you were fifteen.
You couldn't do this to yourself anymore.
Just as you were about to step into the kitchen, your eyes met a familiar pair of warm brown eyes. Your breath hitched. Taehyung’s eyes slightly widened upon registering that you were actually there. You noticed he slightly tensed up which caused Lina, who was sitting on his lap, to lean toward him and whisper something.
You gave him a small smile and looked away before he could return it.
“Find me a strong drink, Jimin.”
Jimin glanced back and smirked, “You don't have to tell me twice.”
You and Jimin ventured further into the kitchen and the two of you finally made it to the nearby table where all the drinks were. Coincidentally, you found Jungkook there.
“Y/N!” Jungkook gasped. His eyes lit up in complete joy and he rushed to embrace you, “I thought you said you weren't coming?”
“Yeah, but Sunni managed to convince me.” You smiled and paused, taking a glance around the area, “Who—I don't know where she went.”
“I saw her with her little boyfriend, Jaemin.” Jimin took a sip from his cup. “I think she'll be fine.”
You sighed in relief. You knew she was in good hands at least.
“I could treat her better but whatever.” Jungkook rolled his eyes. He had a slight crush on Sunni but you knew Sunni wasn't really that interested and Jungkook knew that but he liked to joke around about it.
You snorted, “Sure, pal.”
“Thanks, best friend.” Jungkook sarcastically muttered. He turned around and grabbed an unopened can of beer. “Oh! Here. I know you don't like super-strong alcohol.”
“Thanks, Kook.” You gave him a genuine smile, “But, uh, I think I'd be down to drink some of that strong alcohol today.”
Jungkook’s jaw lightly dropped, “Who are you and what have you done to my Y/N?” he paused and frowned, “Wait, who's dying tonight? Who are we killing?” Jimin snorted and you snickered.
Your heart warmed. Jungkook was truly your best friend. “No one, doofus. I just want to let loose tonight.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow and glanced over at Jimin, who gave him a nod, “Hmmm. . . If you say so.” he passed you his cup, “Take mine. I'll grab a new one.”
“No—it's okay.” You shook your head but Jungkook didn't budge.
“Take the cup. I don't trust anyone here.”
“I agree.” Jimin clicked his tongue and pointed to the cup.
“You guys are too much.” You chuckled but they knew you didn't mean it.
“Yeah, love you too.” Jungkook grinned, “Okay, I'll be right back and we’ll party.”
“Are we going to get Tae?” you asked and Jungkook immediately rolled his eyes.
“Not if he's with her. I'm passing on that.”
Jimin slapped a hand on Jungkook’s shoulders, “It's nice having someone who understands.”
You sighed, “If she makes him happy, we should be happy for him.”
“Dude.” Jungkook deadpanned, “She’s literally the devil reincarnated. Taehyung experiences more sorrow than joy.”
Jimin cackled loudly at that. You opened your mouth to say something but found no words.
“Okay, be right back!” Jungkook turned and went to get a new drink.
“He needs to learn the hard way, Y/N.” Jimin told you once Jungkook was out of earshot.
You didn't answer, merely drowning some alcohol down.
You had a few drinks in you now and you knew you were most definitely buzzed. Your head pounded as you continued to dance with Jimin and Jungkook.
“Wait, guys.” You huffed and stopped in your tracks to hold your head. “I think I'm going to get some water. My head’s killing me.”
The two stopped and gave you a concerned look.
“I'll go with you.” Jimin didn't hesitate to offer but you shook your head and smiled.
“No, no. It's okay. I'll be back quickly.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow, “You sure?”
“Yeah.” you nodded with a laugh. Jimin reluctantly let you go and you started to make your way through the crowd, muttering apologies as you passed by.
You finally reached the kitchen and grabbed a cold unopened water bottle from the cooler.
“Hey, you're Y/N, right?” You looked up to see a somewhat familiar guy. He looked decently handsome and you recognized him as one of your classmates.
“Oh, hey! Luke, right?”
Luke smiled, “Yeah! I didn't know you were a party type of person. You don't seem like one.”
“Ah.” you chuckled, “I know some of the seniors that this party is for and they're my best friends so I came out to celebrate with them.”
“That’s nice.” Luke grinned before his posture shifted into a more nervous stance, “Uh, this is really random and super out of the blue, but I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me? I think you're really cool.”
Oh wow. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise. Luke was handsome but he wasn't really your type. He was quite far from it.
“Oh, I'm sorry.” You gave him a sympathetic smile, “I'm not really interested but you seem like a great guy.”
Almost immediately, Luke’s entire energy changed. His eyes grew dark and a snarky look appeared on his face.
“Whatever. You're not all that anyway.”
“What did you just say?” The two of you turned your heads to see Taehyung glaring harshly at Luke.
“Tae.” you were quick to say, standing up taller to hold him back from potentially throwing a punch.
“No.” Taehyung shook his head and stepped closer to you, his hand reached out to place his palm on your lower back. You tensed up at the touch and glanced up at him with wide eyes.
Taehyung’s eyes darkened as his glare remained on Luke, “I suggest you walk away before I do something I’ll regret.”
Luke scoffed. “What? Is she your girl or something?”
“Yeah.” Taehyung raised a stern brow, “So listen to what I said and walk the fuck away.” You froze.
What?
Luke rolled his eyes and scoffed again, mumbling incoherent phrases under his breath as he walked away.
You continued to stare at Taehyung in shock.
Taehyung quickly glanced down at you and his eyes softened. His brows furrowed in concern, “You okay? He didn't try anything right?”
“No,” you reassured him. “You—You didn't have to do that y'know.”
“I'll always protect you,” Taehyung stated with knitted eyebrows, confused as to why you would say such a thing. “You know that.”
“I know.” You closed your eyes for a brief moment, “I'm talking about me being your girl.”
Taehyung paused. His mouth opened and closed before a sigh left his lips, “It worked, didn't it?”
You pursed your lips, “Yeah, I guess.”
He noticed the water bottle in your hand and glanced back at your face, his eyes flickered around, “You drank a lot tonight, didn't you?” It wasn't really a question, but rather a statement because he knew the answer.
He knew you.
He always did.
“Want me to take you home?” Taehyung asked softly.
“What?” you muttered in disbelief.
“I'm kinda sick of the party already and you look tired. I can take you back to your apartment.” Taehyung shrugged.
You glanced over to the crowd of moving bodies and spotted Jimin and Jungkook who were a part of some dance train. Taehyung followed your stare and exhaled sharply.
“Go.” he nodded his head toward their direction, “Let them know. I can go start the car.” You gave him a hesitant look and he gave you a small smile, “I didn't drink tonight if that's what you're worried about. I wasn't in the mood.”
“Okay.” you sighed and Taehyung grinned. He tapped the tip of your nose before he left. Your heart raced. This was not good for you. So much for trying to move on.
You started to make your way back to Jimin and Jungkook. The two noticed you immediately and cheered.
“Hey!” Jungkook shouted, “What took so long?”
“Some guy hit on me.” you answered before trailing off, “And Taehyung rescued me.” Jimin and Jungkook shared a look.
“He's taking you home now, isn't he?” Jimin questioned and you only gave him a timid smile in response. Jimin sighed and pulled you into his arms, “Let me know when you're home then okay?”
Jungkook pouted and pulled you into a hug after Jimin released you, “Me too. If Taehyung does something, I don't care how long I've known him, I will fight him if something happens to you.”
You laughed. You did not doubt that Jungkook would actually do it.
“I will.” you smiled, “Bye.” The two shared their goodbyes, and you went to find Sunni to let her know you would be leaving too. You spotted her in one of the corners chatting with some people.
“Y/N!” Sunni squealed. She turned to her group, “Guys this is my cutie roommate, Y/N.” You gave her friends a small wave and smiled.
“I just wanted to let you know I'm leaving now,” you informed her, and she gave you a concerned look.
“You're taking an Uber?” Sunni asked.
“No, Tae’s taking me home.”
Sunni raised an eyebrow at that, “Hm. Okay, stay safe, I'll be home soon too.” You nodded and gave her a quick hug before leaving to find Taehyung.
You reached the entrance and grabbed your shoes, putting them on and exiting the party. You were quick to spot Taehyung who was leaning against his car and scrolling through his phone.
At the sound of your footsteps, he glanced up and gave you a grin, “Took you long enough. Did you say bye to everyone in that house? I didn't know you were so popular.”
You rolled your eyes and let out a mocking laugh, “Haha. So funny, but I did, so we can go now.”
Taehyung chuckled and opened the passenger door for you to get in. Your heart warmed at the stupid action. It's the bare minimum, Y/N. Snap out of it.
Once you were inside, Taehyung quickly made it over to the driver’s seat and began to drive out. You buckled your seatbelt as did he and you felt yourself slightly shiver.
“Cold?” Taehyung asked, reaching to adjust the air conditioner already.
“I'm okay, thanks,” you said. A few moments of silence passed before you decided to take a bold step, “So, I heard you're back with Lina?”
Taehyung sighed. His grip on the steering wheel tightened, “No. It's just—complicated.”
“Isn't it always?” you huffed softly which made him crack a smile.
“Well.” you decided to change the subject as it seemed like Taehyung didn't really want to talk about his situation with Lina, “You're graduating soon, what are you gonna do after?”
“I don't even know.” Taehyung laughed softly, “Maybe apply to work at some art museum. I've always loved art.”
“And you're also really good at creating art,” you interjected.
Taehyung glanced over at you and grinned. He turned back to the road and shook his head fondly. “You're too kind Y/N.”
“I’m serious!” you whined. “You should really sell your art. I know I would buy it!”
“You're just saying that because you already know me.”
“I would buy your art in a heartbeat even if you were a complete stranger to me.” you were quick to snap back. Taehyung peered back at you for a brief moment and smiled.
“What would I do without my biggest supporter, huh?”
“Probably not know how to survive in this chaotic world.” you joked.
Taehyung paused for a second before a soft smile grew on his face. He looked over at you and a breathy laugh left his lips, “Yeah. True. I wouldn't.”
You fell quiet. The sound that only you could hear was the thunderous pounding of your heart beating against your rib cage.
That night after Taehyung dropped you off at your apartment and made sure you had everything you needed. You wrote your sixth letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
Time flew by and now you were a senior. You still kept in contact with Jimin after he graduated but with Taehyung, you slowly lost contact with him. It hurt when it happened, but you realized maybe this was a blessing from the universe, it had given you a chance to finally move on.
“Hey! You ready?” The sound of Jungkook’s voice broke you from your thoughts. A huge smile grew on your face at the sight of him. His outfit mirrored yours, a red cap and gown, and his neck adorned with numerous medals and cords.
“Hey, fellow grad.” you laughed. Jungkook chuckled and rolled his eyes playfully. “Yeah, I'm ready. We're starting soon?”
“Yeah. So get your valedictorian ass up on that stage already.” Jungkook clicked his tongue, nodding his head toward the stage.
“Says you salutatorian.” You snorted and linked your arms with his.
Jungkook scoffed and nudged you, “Can't believe you beat my ass by one point.”
You stuck your tongue out at him which caused him to nudge you a little harder. You laughed loudly and the two of you made it onto the stage. You both took your seats as the president of your university walked up to the podium.
You glanced out in the crowd, taking in the faces of your fellow peers and friends. A smile appeared on your face when you spotted Sunni in the crowd. The girl gave you a wink that made you let out a quiet chuckle.
You hear the president introducing Jungkook as salutatorian which signaled that he would go up to present his speech.
“Wish me luck.” Jungkook whispered and you gave him a bright grin and two thumbs up.
“You got this. Make me proud, Kook.”
Jungkook chuckled and walked up to the podium. His speech almost made you cry but you held it in. You couldn't cry right before you would present your own speech.
“And finally, my greatest gratitude goes to my ride or die, Y/N L/N. Without her, I genuinely would've not survived these past four years. She's my confidant and best friend. She pushed me to be the best version of myself and I'm so thankful that I have someone like her in my life. So, Y/N, valedictorian of this wonderful class, it's your turn to be the tearjerker.” The crowd laughed loudly and you giggled as you stood up to walk to the podium.
You pulled Jungkook into a tight hug and Jungkook gripped you tighter. You rubbed his back and whispered, “Love you.”
“Love you more.” he whispered back before the two of you pulled apart. His eyes were glistening with tears and you cooed which made him scoff. You laughed before taking his spot at the podium.
You sighed deeply into the microphone before a smile appeared on your face, “Good morning, faculty and students. Today is the day. The day we all close our books and write a new one. It's definitely scary to step into a chaotic world without knowing what is actually waiting out there for us but I know how all of you are. You're strong, bright, and determined. You’re all hard workers and today is proof of that.”
Your eyes flickered around the crowd and you noticed your parents beaming with pride. Namjoon was right beside them, tears visible in his eyes and you almost wanted to burst out laughing. He swore he wouldn't cry and yet here he was, not keeping his word. You notice the boys standing with him too. Yoongi, Jin, Hobi, and Jimin. Your heart cracked at the sight of no Taehyung. Maybe he's late.
He promised he would come to your graduation.
“When you graduate, I'll make sure to be the loudest there.” Taehyung placed his pinky out in front of you.
“Really?” you snickered and raised an inquisitive brow.
Taehyung grinned widely, “Scout’s honor.”
You laughed and intertwined your pinky with his. Taehyung's smile grew wider and he tapped your nose with his pointer finger causing your heart to warm.
You cleared your throat and focused back on the crowd of students in front of you. You inhaled sharply before continuing your speech, “In life, there are things and people you must keep and let go of. To those who stood with you through thick and thin, never scared to go against the odds that were against you, keep them. People like them are very hard to come by.” The crowd laughed in agreement. You cracked a smile.
“And sometimes you have to let go of those who mattered most even when it's the complete opposite of what you want. I want you to know that it's okay. It's a part of the cycle. Continue on and bloom. You live only once and you must make the most of it. You can't be the reason or let anyone be the reason why you're held back from greatness. So when you leave today, choose yourself. Choose happiness, choose love, and choose to do what makes you happy. It's okay to be selfish so live for yourself.” The auditorium erupted in claps and cheers and you swore you could hear a loud sniffle behind you. You immediately knew it was Jungkook.
“And I want you to know that you’ll always have a friend in me. You call, I run. So my fellow graduates, today we cheer for us and for our beautiful futures. Congratulations, you finished the first half of your journey. Keep soaring.” You smiled brightly and everyone in the audience stood up and cheered deafeningly.
The top ten of your class were first to walk the stage which included you and Jungkook. Then one by one, every student walked across the stage with their degree. After the president of your university shared his farewells and thanks, the students dispersed to their respective families.
“My baby!” your mother cried out as she rushed toward you. You groaned affectionately when she reached up to cup your cheeks. “I'm so proud of you!”
“Thank you, Mom.” You laughed.
Your dad sniffed and wiped a tear that fell down his face. “I can't believe how grown you are now.”
“Yeah, can you go back to that kid who would always trail after me?” Namjoon walked up to you with a tearful smile and you scoffed. He pulled you into a tight hug which made you let out an ‘oof’ sound. “I'm serious. Can you go back?”
“Love you too, Joon.” You patted his back and he sniffled on your shoulders which caused you to snort. The two of you pulled away and Jin walked up to you with a proud smile.
“Congrats, Y/Nie!” Jin cheered and he pinched your cheeks.
“Jin!” You whined and rubbed your face. Jin snickered at your reaction.
“Congratulations, Y/N.” Yoongi smiled and you beamed.
“Thanks, Yoongi!”
“Congrats! I got you this flower lei!” Hobi sent you a heart-shaped smile. You gasped and bent your head down slightly so he could place the lei around your neck.
“It's so beautiful! Thanks, Hobi!”
“Where’s my lei at?” You hear Jungkook let out a scandalized gasp from behind you.
“Jungkookie! Congrats, sweetie!” your mom cheered as she gushed over him. Jungkook’s cheeks burned red and he grew bashful.
“Ah, thank you, Auntie.” Jungkook gave her a soft smile.
Your dad slapped a hand on his shoulders and gave him a grin, “Congrats, kid.” Jungkook beamed and thanked him as well. Everyone followed in congratulating him and you chuckled at the sight.
“There's my favorite girl.” You turned to see Jimin beaming at you happily. You squealed and rushed to hug him.
“I missed you so much,” you muttered into his shoulders. Jimin chuckled and squeezed you tightly.
“I missed you more.”
“Taehyung?” you whispered so that only you and Jimin could hear. He gave you a sad smile and shook his head.
Your face fell, “He’s really not here?”
“I’m sorry, Y/Nie.” Jimin mumbled sadly.
Your heart dropped to your stomach. You thought he was probably just late but to know that he just never attended broke you.
“It’s okay.” You gave him a light smile. “I’m just happy you were able to come. I know how busy you've been with work and traveling.”
Jimin blew out a breath and shook his head, “I love my job but it is so exhausting with the constant business meetings.” You laughed at that.
“So, Y/Nie.” Jin wrapped his arm around your shoulders and you turned to see that everyone was surrounding you and Jimin. “I heard you're moving abroad?”
Your dad grinned at that, pride was clear on his face, “Y/N here got a really big offer to manage this art museum in Paris. I think it's called the Louvre.”
“You're moving to Paris?” Jungkook gaped at you in shock and you winced, “And working at the Louvre?”
“Surprise?” you sheepishly said. Your mom slapped your dad on the arm which caused a guilty look to appear on his face. “I was going to reveal it at our celebration party but Dad here got too excited.”
“Hey! I'm a proud father, okay?” your dad defended himself. Everyone laughed.
“I know I don't say it a lot, but I'm really proud of you, Y/N.” Namjoon smiled, his dimples poking from his cheeks.
You pouted and you felt yourself tear up. “Don't say that, I'm going to cry now.”
Namjoon laughed loudly and pulled you into an embrace.
“Okay, let's go party now please!” Jungkook pleaded and you rolled your eyes with a snort.
“Yeah, let's go.”
You were all back at your family’s house and it was surrounded by family and friends. You spent a lot of time mingling but you needed a breather. So you were currently sitting on the balcony from your room.
“Y/N?” You turned to see Jimin at the entrance of your room. He smiled at you, “Thought I’d find you here. Can I come in?”
You gave him a small grin and nod. You turned back to stare out at the night sky and sighed. You felt Jimin taking a seat beside you. The sound of the breeze and the chittering of insects was heard through the peaceful silence.
“He tried to come.” Jimin muttered.
You swallowed, “What happened?”
“Lina.”
You scoffed.
“They're back together? Again?”
“I don't know.” Jimin breathed out.
You took a large sip from your cup and rubbed your eyes, “I’m tired, Jimin.”
“I know.” he whispered.
“I can't keep going on like this.”
“Then why do you?”
A shaky sigh left your lips, “Because somewhere inside of me, I believe that maybe there is a chance. Maybe everything he's done for me was because it was in his interest in me. Why would he pretend that I was his girl that one night? Why is he always the first one to my rescue when I need saving? Why, Jimin, why?”
“I don't know why,” Jimin answered softly. “But what I know is that a few months after our graduation, he stopped trying to stay in contact with you.”
You got quiet and you turned to face him, "How do you know that?”
He cracked a sad smile, “Because he always asks me how you are.” You froze. “And whenever I ask why can't he ask you himself, he gets quiet.”
Your breath hitched and you felt your eyes sting with tears. You were quick to glance away from Jimin and stare back out at the sky. The moon seemed to shine brighter all of a sudden.
“What happened to you two?” Jimin asked quietly.
A few moments of silence passed.
“We grew up,” you answered. “I grew up. I think I stopped trying.”
Jimin hummed. “I’m proud of you. Really.”
You cracked a smile at that.
“Will you ever give him your letters?” Jimin questioned faintly.
You were quiet for a while. Your letters were sacred to you. It contained every honest and raw feeling you had for Taehyung. Maybe this whole time you could never move on was because you still held on to those letters. Maybe the key was to let them go. If you give it to him, you'll finally move on.
You turned to Jimin, “I think I will.” Jimin gave you a surprise look, “I think I will finally be able to let go of him if I do it.”
“Besides, I won't have to face him any time soon.”
Jimin looked at you confused now.
You sighed, “I leave tomorrow. First thing in the morning.”
Jimin’s eyes widened, “Y/N.”
“I know.” you exhaled sharply. “But this is what I worked for my whole life. This is it.”
“Everyone knows?” Jimin asked.
“Only my parents and Joon right now. I plan to tell the others later when I go back down.” You replied.
The sound of Namjoon yelling Jimin’s name from downstairs was heard which caused the two of you to look toward your bedroom door.
“Someone’s being called.” you snickered.
Jimin sighed and chuckled lightly. He got up from his seat and gave you a reassuring smile. “I’m here for you through everything, okay?”
You smiled back and nodded, “Thanks.”
Jimin winked and turned to leave but stopped when you called out to him.
“Hey, Jimin?” He gave you a confused look. “Do you think you can give the letters to Tae?” his eyes softened and he nodded.
“Yeah, I can do that.”
“Thank you.” you breathed. Jimin gave you one last smile before leaving.
You felt your phone vibrate and you saw that it was a text from Taehyung. Your heart dropped. The two of you hadn’t texted in months.
Taehyung: i’m sorry i wasn’t at your graduation, i tried really hard to. congratulations y/n, i’m proud of you :)
A lump formed in your throat and you felt your eyes well up with tears. You decided to ignore his text and face the night sky again.
That night, you wrote your goodbye to Taehyung.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
It was the next day, and you had to leave for your job now. Everyone was at the airport, teary-eyed but filled with happiness. You took in everyone’s faces and pouted.
“I'm going to miss you all so much.” you cried and rushed to try and hug everyone. Your mother cooed and caressed your hair as she tried to calm you down but it didn't really help. Your sobs were muffled against Namjoon's shoulders and you could hear that he was crying too. You pulled back, eyes brimming with tears.
“Okay, no more tears please.” Jungkook sniffled. He used the end of his sleeve to wipe any stray tears and gave you a sad frown, “I’m mad that you're leaving me but happy for you because you're achieving your dreams.”
You laughed tearfully and pulled the taller man into a hug. He was quick to squeeze you tightly.
One by one, you hugged everyone one last time. Namjoon sported a proud grin but his red eyes gave away his true emotions which made your heart break. He was your big brother and seeing your little sister leaving wasn't easy. Jin, and surprisingly, Yoongi looked about the same as Namjoon. Hobi was a complete mess, sniffling into his tissue every now and then. Jimin looked like he was about to break down but he held it in pretty well.
You hugged Jimin last and the blonde man made sure to hold you tighter and longer. When you pulled back, you handed him a stack of sealed letters that were tied with a red string. Jimin immediately recognized what they were and gave you a sad smile.
“Thank you.” Your voice cracked.
“Of course.” Jimin muttered back before hugging you again. You breathed out a shaky sigh and squeezed him.
The two of you broke apart and you gave everyone a small smile before slowly departing. Once your back was turned toward them, your heart grew heavier.
This will be good for you. This is what you need.
Jimin hasn't seen Taehyung in a while. The two of them were quite busy, Jimin with the numerous meetings with different businessmen and Taehyung being the head of managing a renowned art museum.
The two were still close but not as much as they were in college, especially now that Taehyung was back together with Lina. They rarely ever talk now.
For you though, Jimin had to break the silence. He had to. It was for your own well-being. You deserved better and he wanted to make sure you would.
Jimin was in front of Taehyung’s apartment door and with a sigh, he knocked. A few minutes went by before the door opened. Taehyung’s eyebrows rose in surprise at the sight of Jimin.
“Jimin.” Taehyung breathed out. “Hi! Uh—come in.” he stepped aside for the blonde to walk in and Jimin gave him a tight-lipped smile as he stepped inside.
“Lina’s not here is she?” Jimin cleared his throat.
Taehyung inhaled sharply and shook his head, “No. It’s over between us.”
“Really?” Jimin sarcastically laughed. His eyes were dark with anger, “You sure? Because I’ve heard that phrase a million times now.”
Taehyung sighed and clenched his jaw, “I’m serious. It’s over.”
“You missed her graduation.” Jimin snapped.
“I know.” Taehyung retorted harshly. He closed his eyes for a brief moment and rubbed his face, “I’ve been beating myself over it since last night, okay? Lina completely fucked me over and I couldn't get out of the plans she made because it was a done deal. I got even more pissed finding out that she purposely made the plans on Y/N and Jungkook’s graduation so I would miss it.”
Jimin’s lips parted in shock. His eyes softened and any fury in his body vanished.
“What are you doing here anyway?” Taehyung muttered tiredly, “We haven't talked in forever and I know it's awkward between us right now.”
“Y/N.” Jimin answered.
Taehyung froze.
“What about her?” Taehyung muttered softly. His voice dropped to that particular tone that he always spoke in whenever he talked about you.
Jimin didn't respond. He merely grabbed something from his back pocket and handed it to Taehyung.
Taehyung’s eyebrows furrowed together at the stack of letters in Jimin’s hands. He hesitantly reached out to grab it and his heart dropped at the familiar handwriting.
Taehyung. His name was written in a beautiful elegant cursive. He knew this was you.
“What is this?” Taehyung choked out.
“Just—” Jimin sighed, “Just read it.”
Taehyung swallowed harshly before he slowly opened the first letter on top of the stack. A neatly folded paper was in the envelope and he gradually unfolded it.
His eyes trailed over the words.
May 3rd, 2012.
That was the day you two met.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
Taehyung’s breath hitched.
His eyes frantically read the words over and over again.
He moved to the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
Is this love? I think it is. I always hear the birds singing louder whenever you're near. Maybe I'm just crazy, but maybe I'm not. Because I swear every time you smile at me, my heart jumps into the shape of your smile.
Taehyung’s eyes started to burn.
Dear Taehyung,
You're the only person who doesn't make me feel like I'm alone. I love Jimin and Jungkook but sometimes I don't think they understand me. Thank you for being that person for me. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm scared, Taehyung. I think I'm falling harder.
A shaky breath left Taehyung’s lips and he felt like his knees were about to buckle.
Dear Taehyung,
Today was the worst and best day ever for me. I hated going on the roller coasters but your encouragement pushed me not to be scared. You made today fun. You always knew how to make me feel better, and that still scares me. I don't think I can ever shake you out of my system.
Taehyung let out a choked cry as his knees started to quiver. Jimin started to tear up at the distraught sight of him.
Dear Taehyung,
You left for college today. I cried two times after you and Jimin said goodbye. I hope college treats you well. I know you will do amazing things and I can't wait to hear about them. Remember that I'll always be in your corner! Fighting!
Taehyung felt himself drop to the floor. A trembling whimper left him as he read the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
The hole in Taehyung’s chest grew. His vision started to get blurry as he continued to read.
Dear Taehyung,
I think I am completely and irrevocably in love with you. Every time you laugh, my heart turns into a mess. Every time you tap my nose, my heart decides it's only you. I'm really scared now. What should I do, Taehyung? You've wrecked me entirely.
A stifled sob escaped Taehyung. His head hurts now and his heart burns.
Dear Taehyung,
It's been a few months since you graduated now and I miss you. A lot. You're a big manager at your dream art museum now and I couldn't be more happier for you! I still think you should sell your art and I hope you do one day! Maybe, I'll work at the Louvre and your art will be displayed!
A few tears fell onto the next letter and Taehyung felt his heart drop at the first few words.
Dear Taehyung,
My graduation is coming up and I'm valedictorian. Jungkook is super salty over it but I hope you're proud of me! We haven't talked in months now and I tried keeping in contact but I guess our lives just got too busy. I miss when we were careless kids laughing over stupid things. I got a job offer at the Louvre too! Crazy, right?! It was a big surprise for me but I'm super happy! I hope to see you at my graduation and tell you all about it! Love you. Miss you.
Taehyung leaned back against his couch and let out a shaky breath. His hand came up to wipe away his tears.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
This was the last letter and Taehyung knew this was it. He noticed there was no ‘Dear’. You had let him go. Taehyung grasped at his chest and cried. Jimin, who stood watching him, quietly sniffled, his heart clenching in pain for his friend.
“She kept looking for you at her graduation.” Jimin revealed gently.
That didn't help Taehyung at all, it only caused him to cry harder. He glanced up at Jimin with swollen eyes, “Where is she?”
Jimin was quiet.
Taehyung grew anxious. He felt his eyes sting, “Jimin. Where is she?”
“She’s gone, Tae.” Jimin quietly replied, “She left for Paris.”
Taehyung felt his whole world collapse.
You were right there in front of him this whole time and he was so blind.
synopsis: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
genre / warnings: unrequited love, heavy angst, some fluff, slice of life, strong language, usage of alcohol, reader is a hopeless romantic and an art major!!, taehyung is oblivious as hell, jimin is your biggest supporter, jungkook and reader are so cute (they are bffs fr </3), jimin’s relationship with reader also makes me cry, flashbacks are in italics!
nini’s notes: my first one shot!! this may have a part two depending on how i feel and how well it does!! the letters aspect of this is somewhat inspired by tatbilb!! i really love this, i cried like six times writing this no joke, so i hope you enjoy it :’)!!
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You met Taehyung when you were fifteen. You remembered it as clear as day. You were in a bad mood having received a low score on your math exam. You could never understand the subject, it never made sense to you. You just wanted to go home and lock yourself in your room while you drown in your own self-pity. The big tub of vanilla ice cream that stood in your freezer had your name all over it.
“Namjoon! My ice cream better still be in the freezer! I swear I am not in the mood to deal with you right now, my day is going badly as is!” you shouted as you walked inside your house, shoving off your shoes clumsily. Your cheeks were tinted pink from the frosty weather. The cold weather made your bad mood worse.
Despite winter being your favorite season, today was way too cold and your mood wasn't the brightest. Your fingers reached up to grasp the fabric of your scarf, and you started pulling at it aggressively. An annoyed huff left your lips as you tried to untangle the mess.
“Namjoon!” you shouted again, eyes focused only on removing your scarf, and you didn't notice that there were other people beside your brother in the house. “Did you hear me? I—”
Oh.
Six unfamiliar pairs of eyes stared at you in surprise.
“Uh, Joon?” you squeaked out. Your fingers froze, still tangled with your scarf.
Your brother pinched his nose in exasperation before he flashed his friends an awkward grin, “Sorry, guys. This is my little sister, Y/N. Don't mind her, she's a little crazy in the head sometimes.”
“Yah!” you snapped. A deep chuckle broke through the chaos and your eyes were quick to glance over at the source.
You swore you had never seen such a beautiful man in your life before. He was the embodiment of your type. His beauty made you completely forget about the ridiculous math formulas and the low exam score you received.
You watched as he confidently stood up from the couch and extended his hand, “Hi, I'm Taehyung.”
Hi, I think you're the love of my life. You thought to yourself as you gawked at him.
Your eyes trailed to his outstretched hand, as if it were a foreign thing to you. Namjoon could see Taehyung’s face slowly falling as he realized you weren't reaching out to return his gesture.
Namjoon coughed loudly, breaking you out of your trance. You hurriedly grasped Taehyung’s hand and your knees almost buckled. You've never thought a human hand could fit so perfectly with yours. Your heart thumped faster as a boxy smile appeared on Taehyung’s face.
“Hi.” you breathed out. Taehyung’s smile grew wider and he squeezed your hand before letting it go.
Namjoon raised an eyebrow at your interaction but shrugged it off, “This is Jin and Yoongi hyung, Hoseok, Jimin, and Jungkook too.” As he listed their names, your eyes trailed over to each boy who gave you a small bow of their head or a smile.
“Hi. Nice to meet you guys.” you awkwardly stated. You nervously shifted in place before sticking your thumb toward the direction of your room. “I'm gonna go—I, yeah.”
You were quick to spin around and scamper away. Your ears picked up the familiar deep chuckle which caused your heart to skip a beat.
That night, you wrote a letter for the first time.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
A few years passed, and your crush on Taehyung grew stronger. Out of the boys that Namjoon befriended, you were closest with the youngest three; Jungkook, Jimin, and Taehyung. That doesn't mean you weren't close with the others. You were just closer in age to the three.
No one knew of your crush except for Jimin. He immediately figured it out when he noticed your eyes seemed to always shine around Taehyung’s presence.
“You like him.” Jimin muttered with wide eyes, his gaze flickering back and forth between you and Taehyung.
You tensed up and choked out a nervous laugh, “What nonsense are you going on about now?”
“Oh, please.” Jimin rolled his eyes. “You can’t put up an act around me. I see right through you.”
“Jimin.” you sighed.
Jimin softened, “Y/N.”
“He can’t know.” Was all you said.
Jimin was quiet for a moment before he spoke, “Can you handle it? Bottling your feelings inside?”
You didn’t answer. Jimin sighed and leaned down to place his head on your shoulder.
Jungkook, on the other hand, was dense and never picked up the small signs. He couldn't even tell if someone liked him or not. Taehyung was similar in that way but he knew enough to pick up the signs when a girl was crushing on him. Yet, when it came to you, he was completely oblivious.
“Hey, are you going to the grad party tonight?” You glanced up from your laptop at the sound of a soft knock on your door. Your roommate, Sunni, had a hopeful look on her face. You weren't exactly a party person and preferred to stay in rather than go out. Sunni could see the distaste on your face already and was quick to blurt out, “Taehyung will be there.”
You gave her a wary stare, but Sunni didn't budge. She raised an eyebrow, “And so will Jimin and Jungkook, y'know our friends, your best friends? Look, it's Jimin and Taehyung’s senior year before they go out in the real world. Are you really going to skip out on their last hurrah?”
Your face fell at that. It was their last year. You and Jungkook were only in your second year so you still had some time before you would graduate.
“Fine, but only because it’s for Jimin and Tae,” you grumbled, which caused Sunni to squeal.
“Come on! We need to find you an outfit!” Sunni was quick to walk to your closet and rummage through your rack of clothes.
“Seriously?” You whined. “I just organized my closet.”
“Relax.” Sunni scoffed, “You’re acting as if I will make a complete mess. I’m a clean freak, you know that, but that’s beside the point. We need to find something sexy but cute.”
“I’m not trying to impress anyone, Sunni.” you snickered as you continued to type out your assignment for your English class.
“You should! You're beautiful, sexy, and smart!” Sunni exclaimed with wide eyes. “Anyone would be lucky to date you!”
You laughed at her statement, “Thanks, Sunni.”
“Now, put your assignment aside for the night.” Sunni grabbed a white lace halter top and a light blue jean skirt. A huge grin appeared on her face, “Because tonight, we're gonna party.”
You sighed fondly, a grin plastered on your face as well.
You needed to let loose tonight.
By the time you and Sunni finished getting ready, the time for the party to start was approaching. The two of you took Sunni’s car and drove to the location of the party. From what Sunni told you on the way there, it was a senior’s house that they recently bought with a couple of other people.
Sunni squealed as the two of you walked toward the entrance, “I'm so excited! You'll have a lot of fun, I promise!”
You merely laughed. You could only hope. Parties and you never mesh well together.
You felt your phone vibrate in your pocket and reached back to grab it. A smile appeared on your face seeing that it was a text from Jimin. You didn't tell anyone that you were going as you wanted it to be a surprise.
Jimin: you're here???
You: surprise!! where are you??
Jimin: fuck
You: ???
Jimin: stay by the front door, ill come get you
You: jimin you're scaring me
Jimin left you on read and didn't answer which caused you to furrow your eyebrows anxiously. Your heart was beating rapidly and you glanced up to try to find Jimin. You felt a little calmer when you saw a familiar blonde coming your way.
“Jimin!” you shouted over the loud music, your eyes flickering around his face. “What’s wrong?”
Jimin gave you a pitying look, “If I had known you were coming, I would've warned you.”
“What?” you muttered with knitted brows.
“Lina is here. With Taehyung.”
Oh.
Lina was Taehyung’s first girlfriend. The two had an on-and-off relationship since their freshman year. They would get into arguments, break up, and then get back together in a couple of weeks. Jimin didn't like her nor did the rest of the guys. They all believed Taehyung deserved better and Lina knew the hold she had on him so she would always come back to him because he would too.
“They're back together?” Was all you could bring yourself to say.
Jimin rolled his eyes and took a big sip of alcohol from his cup, “Don't get me started. It's complicated, according to Taehyung. He and I got into a small argument about it and he's ignoring me right now.”
“Tae? Ignoring you?” You gaped at him. Jimin gave you a sad smile and shrugged.
“Maybe you can smack some sense into him, Y/N.” Jimin sighed and his eyes softened, “He just, I don't know, he seems to only listen to you somehow.”
“Don't say that.” you mumbled as you rubbed your forehead.
Jimin shrugged, “It’s true, but anyways, no more of this nonsense. Let's go drink and celebrate me finally graduating.” he grabbed your hand and paused, “And find Jungkook. God knows where that kid is.”
You snorted.
As Jimin guided you through the huge crowd, you subconsciously searched for Taehyung. You believed what Jimin told you but you just wanted to see it for yourself.
Maybe this is your sign to finally move on from him.
You loved him since you were fifteen.
You couldn't do this to yourself anymore.
Just as you were about to step into the kitchen, your eyes met a familiar pair of warm brown eyes. Your breath hitched. Taehyung’s eyes slightly widened upon registering that you were actually there. You noticed he slightly tensed up which caused Lina, who was sitting on his lap, to lean toward him and whisper something.
You gave him a small smile and looked away before he could return it.
“Find me a strong drink, Jimin.”
Jimin glanced back and smirked, “You don't have to tell me twice.”
You and Jimin ventured further into the kitchen and the two of you finally made it to the nearby table where all the drinks were. Coincidentally, you found Jungkook there.
“Y/N!” Jungkook gasped. His eyes lit up in complete joy and he rushed to embrace you, “I thought you said you weren't coming?”
“Yeah, but Sunni managed to convince me.” You smiled and paused, taking a glance around the area, “Who—I don't know where she went.”
“I saw her with her little boyfriend, Jaemin.” Jimin took a sip from his cup. “I think she'll be fine.”
You sighed in relief. You knew she was in good hands at least.
“I could treat her better but whatever.” Jungkook rolled his eyes. He had a slight crush on Sunni but you knew Sunni wasn't really that interested and Jungkook knew that but he liked to joke around about it.
You snorted, “Sure, pal.”
“Thanks, best friend.” Jungkook sarcastically muttered. He turned around and grabbed an unopened can of beer. “Oh! Here. I know you don't like super-strong alcohol.”
“Thanks, Kook.” You gave him a genuine smile, “But, uh, I think I'd be down to drink some of that strong alcohol today.”
Jungkook’s jaw lightly dropped, “Who are you and what have you done to my Y/N?” he paused and frowned, “Wait, who's dying tonight? Who are we killing?” Jimin snorted and you snickered.
Your heart warmed. Jungkook was truly your best friend. “No one, doofus. I just want to let loose tonight.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow and glanced over at Jimin, who gave him a nod, “Hmmm. . . If you say so.” he passed you his cup, “Take mine. I'll grab a new one.”
“No—it's okay.” You shook your head but Jungkook didn't budge.
“Take the cup. I don't trust anyone here.”
“I agree.” Jimin clicked his tongue and pointed to the cup.
“You guys are too much.” You chuckled but they knew you didn't mean it.
“Yeah, love you too.” Jungkook grinned, “Okay, I'll be right back and we’ll party.”
“Are we going to get Tae?” you asked and Jungkook immediately rolled his eyes.
“Not if he's with her. I'm passing on that.”
Jimin slapped a hand on Jungkook’s shoulders, “It's nice having someone who understands.”
You sighed, “If she makes him happy, we should be happy for him.”
“Dude.” Jungkook deadpanned, “She’s literally the devil reincarnated. Taehyung experiences more sorrow than joy.”
Jimin cackled loudly at that. You opened your mouth to say something but found no words.
“Okay, be right back!” Jungkook turned and went to get a new drink.
“He needs to learn the hard way, Y/N.” Jimin told you once Jungkook was out of earshot.
You didn't answer, merely drowning some alcohol down.
You had a few drinks in you now and you knew you were most definitely buzzed. Your head pounded as you continued to dance with Jimin and Jungkook.
“Wait, guys.” You huffed and stopped in your tracks to hold your head. “I think I'm going to get some water. My head’s killing me.”
The two stopped and gave you a concerned look.
“I'll go with you.” Jimin didn't hesitate to offer but you shook your head and smiled.
“No, no. It's okay. I'll be back quickly.”
Jungkook raised an eyebrow, “You sure?”
“Yeah.” you nodded with a laugh. Jimin reluctantly let you go and you started to make your way through the crowd, muttering apologies as you passed by.
You finally reached the kitchen and grabbed a cold unopened water bottle from the cooler.
“Hey, you're Y/N, right?” You looked up to see a somewhat familiar guy. He looked decently handsome and you recognized him as one of your classmates.
“Oh, hey! Luke, right?”
Luke smiled, “Yeah! I didn't know you were a party type of person. You don't seem like one.”
“Ah.” you chuckled, “I know some of the seniors that this party is for and they're my best friends so I came out to celebrate with them.”
“That’s nice.” Luke grinned before his posture shifted into a more nervous stance, “Uh, this is really random and super out of the blue, but I was wondering if you wanted to go out with me? I think you're really cool.”
Oh wow. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise. Luke was handsome but he wasn't really your type. He was quite far from it.
“Oh, I'm sorry.” You gave him a sympathetic smile, “I'm not really interested but you seem like a great guy.”
Almost immediately, Luke’s entire energy changed. His eyes grew dark and a snarky look appeared on his face.
“Whatever. You're not all that anyway.”
“What did you just say?” The two of you turned your heads to see Taehyung glaring harshly at Luke.
“Tae.” you were quick to say, standing up taller to hold him back from potentially throwing a punch.
“No.” Taehyung shook his head and stepped closer to you, his hand reached out to place his palm on your lower back. You tensed up at the touch and glanced up at him with wide eyes.
Taehyung’s eyes darkened as his glare remained on Luke, “I suggest you walk away before I do something I’ll regret.”
Luke scoffed. “What? Is she your girl or something?”
“Yeah.” Taehyung raised a stern brow, “So listen to what I said and walk the fuck away.” You froze.
What?
Luke rolled his eyes and scoffed again, mumbling incoherent phrases under his breath as he walked away.
You continued to stare at Taehyung in shock.
Taehyung quickly glanced down at you and his eyes softened. His brows furrowed in concern, “You okay? He didn't try anything right?”
“No,” you reassured him. “You—You didn't have to do that y'know.”
“I'll always protect you,” Taehyung stated with knitted eyebrows, confused as to why you would say such a thing. “You know that.”
“I know.” You closed your eyes for a brief moment, “I'm talking about me being your girl.”
Taehyung paused. His mouth opened and closed before a sigh left his lips, “It worked, didn't it?”
You pursed your lips, “Yeah, I guess.”
He noticed the water bottle in your hand and glanced back at your face, his eyes flickered around, “You drank a lot tonight, didn't you?” It wasn't really a question, but rather a statement because he knew the answer.
He knew you.
He always did.
“Want me to take you home?” Taehyung asked softly.
“What?” you muttered in disbelief.
“I'm kinda sick of the party already and you look tired. I can take you back to your apartment.” Taehyung shrugged.
You glanced over to the crowd of moving bodies and spotted Jimin and Jungkook who were a part of some dance train. Taehyung followed your stare and exhaled sharply.
“Go.” he nodded his head toward their direction, “Let them know. I can go start the car.” You gave him a hesitant look and he gave you a small smile, “I didn't drink tonight if that's what you're worried about. I wasn't in the mood.”
“Okay.” you sighed and Taehyung grinned. He tapped the tip of your nose before he left. Your heart raced. This was not good for you. So much for trying to move on.
You started to make your way back to Jimin and Jungkook. The two noticed you immediately and cheered.
“Hey!” Jungkook shouted, “What took so long?”
“Some guy hit on me.” you answered before trailing off, “And Taehyung rescued me.” Jimin and Jungkook shared a look.
“He's taking you home now, isn't he?” Jimin questioned and you only gave him a timid smile in response. Jimin sighed and pulled you into his arms, “Let me know when you're home then okay?”
Jungkook pouted and pulled you into a hug after Jimin released you, “Me too. If Taehyung does something, I don't care how long I've known him, I will fight him if something happens to you.”
You laughed. You did not doubt that Jungkook would actually do it.
“I will.” you smiled, “Bye.” The two shared their goodbyes, and you went to find Sunni to let her know you would be leaving too. You spotted her in one of the corners chatting with some people.
“Y/N!” Sunni squealed. She turned to her group, “Guys this is my cutie roommate, Y/N.” You gave her friends a small wave and smiled.
“I just wanted to let you know I'm leaving now,” you informed her, and she gave you a concerned look.
“You're taking an Uber?” Sunni asked.
“No, Tae’s taking me home.”
Sunni raised an eyebrow at that, “Hm. Okay, stay safe, I'll be home soon too.” You nodded and gave her a quick hug before leaving to find Taehyung.
You reached the entrance and grabbed your shoes, putting them on and exiting the party. You were quick to spot Taehyung who was leaning against his car and scrolling through his phone.
At the sound of your footsteps, he glanced up and gave you a grin, “Took you long enough. Did you say bye to everyone in that house? I didn't know you were so popular.”
You rolled your eyes and let out a mocking laugh, “Haha. So funny, but I did, so we can go now.”
Taehyung chuckled and opened the passenger door for you to get in. Your heart warmed at the stupid action. It's the bare minimum, Y/N. Snap out of it.
Once you were inside, Taehyung quickly made it over to the driver’s seat and began to drive out. You buckled your seatbelt as did he and you felt yourself slightly shiver.
“Cold?” Taehyung asked, reaching to adjust the air conditioner already.
“I'm okay, thanks,” you said. A few moments of silence passed before you decided to take a bold step, “So, I heard you're back with Lina?”
Taehyung sighed. His grip on the steering wheel tightened, “No. It's just—complicated.”
“Isn't it always?” you huffed softly which made him crack a smile.
“Well.” you decided to change the subject as it seemed like Taehyung didn't really want to talk about his situation with Lina, “You're graduating soon, what are you gonna do after?”
“I don't even know.” Taehyung laughed softly, “Maybe apply to work at some art museum. I've always loved art.”
“And you're also really good at creating art,” you interjected.
Taehyung glanced over at you and grinned. He turned back to the road and shook his head fondly. “You're too kind Y/N.”
“I’m serious!” you whined. “You should really sell your art. I know I would buy it!”
“You're just saying that because you already know me.”
“I would buy your art in a heartbeat even if you were a complete stranger to me.” you were quick to snap back. Taehyung peered back at you for a brief moment and smiled.
“What would I do without my biggest supporter, huh?”
“Probably not know how to survive in this chaotic world.” you joked.
Taehyung paused for a second before a soft smile grew on his face. He looked over at you and a breathy laugh left his lips, “Yeah. True. I wouldn't.”
You fell quiet. The sound that only you could hear was the thunderous pounding of your heart beating against your rib cage.
That night after Taehyung dropped you off at your apartment and made sure you had everything you needed. You wrote your sixth letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
Time flew by and now you were a senior. You still kept in contact with Jimin after he graduated but with Taehyung, you slowly lost contact with him. It hurt when it happened, but you realized maybe this was a blessing from the universe, it had given you a chance to finally move on.
“Hey! You ready?” The sound of Jungkook’s voice broke you from your thoughts. A huge smile grew on your face at the sight of him. His outfit mirrored yours, a red cap and gown, and his neck adorned with numerous medals and cords.
“Hey, fellow grad.” you laughed. Jungkook chuckled and rolled his eyes playfully. “Yeah, I'm ready. We're starting soon?”
“Yeah. So get your valedictorian ass up on that stage already.” Jungkook clicked his tongue, nodding his head toward the stage.
“Says you salutatorian.” You snorted and linked your arms with his.
Jungkook scoffed and nudged you, “Can't believe you beat my ass by one point.”
You stuck your tongue out at him which caused him to nudge you a little harder. You laughed loudly and the two of you made it onto the stage. You both took your seats as the president of your university walked up to the podium.
You glanced out in the crowd, taking in the faces of your fellow peers and friends. A smile appeared on your face when you spotted Sunni in the crowd. The girl gave you a wink that made you let out a quiet chuckle.
You hear the president introducing Jungkook as salutatorian which signaled that he would go up to present his speech.
“Wish me luck.” Jungkook whispered and you gave him a bright grin and two thumbs up.
“You got this. Make me proud, Kook.”
Jungkook chuckled and walked up to the podium. His speech almost made you cry but you held it in. You couldn't cry right before you would present your own speech.
“And finally, my greatest gratitude goes to my ride or die, Y/N L/N. Without her, I genuinely would've not survived these past four years. She's my confidant and best friend. She pushed me to be the best version of myself and I'm so thankful that I have someone like her in my life. So, Y/N, valedictorian of this wonderful class, it's your turn to be the tearjerker.” The crowd laughed loudly and you giggled as you stood up to walk to the podium.
You pulled Jungkook into a tight hug and Jungkook gripped you tighter. You rubbed his back and whispered, “Love you.”
“Love you more.” he whispered back before the two of you pulled apart. His eyes were glistening with tears and you cooed which made him scoff. You laughed before taking his spot at the podium.
You sighed deeply into the microphone before a smile appeared on your face, “Good morning, faculty and students. Today is the day. The day we all close our books and write a new one. It's definitely scary to step into a chaotic world without knowing what is actually waiting out there for us but I know how all of you are. You're strong, bright, and determined. You’re all hard workers and today is proof of that.”
Your eyes flickered around the crowd and you noticed your parents beaming with pride. Namjoon was right beside them, tears visible in his eyes and you almost wanted to burst out laughing. He swore he wouldn't cry and yet here he was, not keeping his word. You notice the boys standing with him too. Yoongi, Jin, Hobi, and Jimin. Your heart cracked at the sight of no Taehyung. Maybe he's late.
He promised he would come to your graduation.
“When you graduate, I'll make sure to be the loudest there.” Taehyung placed his pinky out in front of you.
“Really?” you snickered and raised an inquisitive brow.
Taehyung grinned widely, “Scout’s honor.”
You laughed and intertwined your pinky with his. Taehyung's smile grew wider and he tapped your nose with his pointer finger causing your heart to warm.
You cleared your throat and focused back on the crowd of students in front of you. You inhaled sharply before continuing your speech, “In life, there are things and people you must keep and let go of. To those who stood with you through thick and thin, never scared to go against the odds that were against you, keep them. People like them are very hard to come by.” The crowd laughed in agreement. You cracked a smile.
“And sometimes you have to let go of those who mattered most even when it's the complete opposite of what you want. I want you to know that it's okay. It's a part of the cycle. Continue on and bloom. You live only once and you must make the most of it. You can't be the reason or let anyone be the reason why you're held back from greatness. So when you leave today, choose yourself. Choose happiness, choose love, and choose to do what makes you happy. It's okay to be selfish so live for yourself.” The auditorium erupted in claps and cheers and you swore you could hear a loud sniffle behind you. You immediately knew it was Jungkook.
“And I want you to know that you’ll always have a friend in me. You call, I run. So my fellow graduates, today we cheer for us and for our beautiful futures. Congratulations, you finished the first half of your journey. Keep soaring.” You smiled brightly and everyone in the audience stood up and cheered deafeningly.
The top ten of your class were first to walk the stage which included you and Jungkook. Then one by one, every student walked across the stage with their degree. After the president of your university shared his farewells and thanks, the students dispersed to their respective families.
“My baby!” your mother cried out as she rushed toward you. You groaned affectionately when she reached up to cup your cheeks. “I'm so proud of you!”
“Thank you, Mom.” You laughed.
Your dad sniffed and wiped a tear that fell down his face. “I can't believe how grown you are now.”
“Yeah, can you go back to that kid who would always trail after me?” Namjoon walked up to you with a tearful smile and you scoffed. He pulled you into a tight hug which made you let out an ‘oof’ sound. “I'm serious. Can you go back?”
“Love you too, Joon.” You patted his back and he sniffled on your shoulders which caused you to snort. The two of you pulled away and Jin walked up to you with a proud smile.
“Congrats, Y/Nie!” Jin cheered and he pinched your cheeks.
“Jin!” You whined and rubbed your face. Jin snickered at your reaction.
“Congratulations, Y/N.” Yoongi smiled and you beamed.
“Thanks, Yoongi!”
“Congrats! I got you this flower lei!” Hobi sent you a heart-shaped smile. You gasped and bent your head down slightly so he could place the lei around your neck.
“It's so beautiful! Thanks, Hobi!”
“Where’s my lei at?” You hear Jungkook let out a scandalized gasp from behind you.
“Jungkookie! Congrats, sweetie!” your mom cheered as she gushed over him. Jungkook’s cheeks burned red and he grew bashful.
“Ah, thank you, Auntie.” Jungkook gave her a soft smile.
Your dad slapped a hand on his shoulders and gave him a grin, “Congrats, kid.” Jungkook beamed and thanked him as well. Everyone followed in congratulating him and you chuckled at the sight.
“There's my favorite girl.” You turned to see Jimin beaming at you happily. You squealed and rushed to hug him.
“I missed you so much,” you muttered into his shoulders. Jimin chuckled and squeezed you tightly.
“I missed you more.”
“Taehyung?” you whispered so that only you and Jimin could hear. He gave you a sad smile and shook his head.
Your face fell, “He’s really not here?”
“I’m sorry, Y/Nie.” Jimin mumbled sadly.
Your heart dropped to your stomach. You thought he was probably just late but to know that he just never attended broke you.
“It’s okay.” You gave him a light smile. “I’m just happy you were able to come. I know how busy you've been with work and traveling.”
Jimin blew out a breath and shook his head, “I love my job but it is so exhausting with the constant business meetings.” You laughed at that.
“So, Y/Nie.” Jin wrapped his arm around your shoulders and you turned to see that everyone was surrounding you and Jimin. “I heard you're moving abroad?”
Your dad grinned at that, pride was clear on his face, “Y/N here got a really big offer to manage this art museum in Paris. I think it's called the Louvre.”
“You're moving to Paris?” Jungkook gaped at you in shock and you winced, “And working at the Louvre?”
“Surprise?” you sheepishly said. Your mom slapped your dad on the arm which caused a guilty look to appear on his face. “I was going to reveal it at our celebration party but Dad here got too excited.”
“Hey! I'm a proud father, okay?” your dad defended himself. Everyone laughed.
“I know I don't say it a lot, but I'm really proud of you, Y/N.” Namjoon smiled, his dimples poking from his cheeks.
You pouted and you felt yourself tear up. “Don't say that, I'm going to cry now.”
Namjoon laughed loudly and pulled you into an embrace.
“Okay, let's go party now please!” Jungkook pleaded and you rolled your eyes with a snort.
“Yeah, let's go.”
You were all back at your family’s house and it was surrounded by family and friends. You spent a lot of time mingling but you needed a breather. So you were currently sitting on the balcony from your room.
“Y/N?” You turned to see Jimin at the entrance of your room. He smiled at you, “Thought I’d find you here. Can I come in?”
You gave him a small grin and nod. You turned back to stare out at the night sky and sighed. You felt Jimin taking a seat beside you. The sound of the breeze and the chittering of insects was heard through the peaceful silence.
“He tried to come.” Jimin muttered.
You swallowed, “What happened?”
“Lina.”
You scoffed.
“They're back together? Again?”
“I don't know.” Jimin breathed out.
You took a large sip from your cup and rubbed your eyes, “I’m tired, Jimin.”
“I know.” he whispered.
“I can't keep going on like this.”
“Then why do you?”
A shaky sigh left your lips, “Because somewhere inside of me, I believe that maybe there is a chance. Maybe everything he's done for me was because it was in his interest in me. Why would he pretend that I was his girl that one night? Why is he always the first one to my rescue when I need saving? Why, Jimin, why?”
“I don't know why,” Jimin answered softly. “But what I know is that a few months after our graduation, he stopped trying to stay in contact with you.”
You got quiet and you turned to face him, "How do you know that?”
He cracked a sad smile, “Because he always asks me how you are.” You froze. “And whenever I ask why can't he ask you himself, he gets quiet.”
Your breath hitched and you felt your eyes sting with tears. You were quick to glance away from Jimin and stare back out at the sky. The moon seemed to shine brighter all of a sudden.
“What happened to you two?” Jimin asked quietly.
A few moments of silence passed.
“We grew up,” you answered. “I grew up. I think I stopped trying.”
Jimin hummed. “I’m proud of you. Really.”
You cracked a smile at that.
“Will you ever give him your letters?” Jimin questioned faintly.
You were quiet for a while. Your letters were sacred to you. It contained every honest and raw feeling you had for Taehyung. Maybe this whole time you could never move on was because you still held on to those letters. Maybe the key was to let them go. If you give it to him, you'll finally move on.
You turned to Jimin, “I think I will.” Jimin gave you a surprise look, “I think I will finally be able to let go of him if I do it.”
“Besides, I won't have to face him any time soon.”
Jimin looked at you confused now.
You sighed, “I leave tomorrow. First thing in the morning.”
Jimin’s eyes widened, “Y/N.”
“I know.” you exhaled sharply. “But this is what I worked for my whole life. This is it.”
“Everyone knows?” Jimin asked.
“Only my parents and Joon right now. I plan to tell the others later when I go back down.” You replied.
The sound of Namjoon yelling Jimin’s name from downstairs was heard which caused the two of you to look toward your bedroom door.
“Someone’s being called.” you snickered.
Jimin sighed and chuckled lightly. He got up from his seat and gave you a reassuring smile. “I’m here for you through everything, okay?”
You smiled back and nodded, “Thanks.”
Jimin winked and turned to leave but stopped when you called out to him.
“Hey, Jimin?” He gave you a confused look. “Do you think you can give the letters to Tae?” his eyes softened and he nodded.
“Yeah, I can do that.”
“Thank you.” you breathed. Jimin gave you one last smile before leaving.
You felt your phone vibrate and you saw that it was a text from Taehyung. Your heart dropped. The two of you hadn’t texted in months.
Taehyung: i’m sorry i wasn’t at your graduation, i tried really hard to. congratulations y/n, i’m proud of you :)
A lump formed in your throat and you felt your eyes well up with tears. You decided to ignore his text and face the night sky again.
That night, you wrote your goodbye to Taehyung.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
It was the next day, and you had to leave for your job now. Everyone was at the airport, teary-eyed but filled with happiness. You took in everyone’s faces and pouted.
“I'm going to miss you all so much.” you cried and rushed to try and hug everyone. Your mother cooed and caressed your hair as she tried to calm you down but it didn't really help. Your sobs were muffled against Namjoon's shoulders and you could hear that he was crying too. You pulled back, eyes brimming with tears.
“Okay, no more tears please.” Jungkook sniffled. He used the end of his sleeve to wipe any stray tears and gave you a sad frown, “I’m mad that you're leaving me but happy for you because you're achieving your dreams.”
You laughed tearfully and pulled the taller man into a hug. He was quick to squeeze you tightly.
One by one, you hugged everyone one last time. Namjoon sported a proud grin but his red eyes gave away his true emotions which made your heart break. He was your big brother and seeing your little sister leaving wasn't easy. Jin, and surprisingly, Yoongi looked about the same as Namjoon. Hobi was a complete mess, sniffling into his tissue every now and then. Jimin looked like he was about to break down but he held it in pretty well.
You hugged Jimin last and the blonde man made sure to hold you tighter and longer. When you pulled back, you handed him a stack of sealed letters that were tied with a red string. Jimin immediately recognized what they were and gave you a sad smile.
“Thank you.” Your voice cracked.
“Of course.” Jimin muttered back before hugging you again. You breathed out a shaky sigh and squeezed him.
The two of you broke apart and you gave everyone a small smile before slowly departing. Once your back was turned toward them, your heart grew heavier.
This will be good for you. This is what you need.
Jimin hasn't seen Taehyung in a while. The two of them were quite busy, Jimin with the numerous meetings with different businessmen and Taehyung being the head of managing a renowned art museum.
The two were still close but not as much as they were in college, especially now that Taehyung was back together with Lina. They rarely ever talk now.
For you though, Jimin had to break the silence. He had to. It was for your own well-being. You deserved better and he wanted to make sure you would.
Jimin was in front of Taehyung’s apartment door and with a sigh, he knocked. A few minutes went by before the door opened. Taehyung’s eyebrows rose in surprise at the sight of Jimin.
“Jimin.” Taehyung breathed out. “Hi! Uh—come in.” he stepped aside for the blonde to walk in and Jimin gave him a tight-lipped smile as he stepped inside.
“Lina’s not here is she?” Jimin cleared his throat.
Taehyung inhaled sharply and shook his head, “No. It’s over between us.”
“Really?” Jimin sarcastically laughed. His eyes were dark with anger, “You sure? Because I’ve heard that phrase a million times now.”
Taehyung sighed and clenched his jaw, “I’m serious. It’s over.”
“You missed her graduation.” Jimin snapped.
“I know.” Taehyung retorted harshly. He closed his eyes for a brief moment and rubbed his face, “I’ve been beating myself over it since last night, okay? Lina completely fucked me over and I couldn't get out of the plans she made because it was a done deal. I got even more pissed finding out that she purposely made the plans on Y/N and Jungkook’s graduation so I would miss it.”
Jimin’s lips parted in shock. His eyes softened and any fury in his body vanished.
“What are you doing here anyway?” Taehyung muttered tiredly, “We haven't talked in forever and I know it's awkward between us right now.”
“Y/N.” Jimin answered.
Taehyung froze.
“What about her?” Taehyung muttered softly. His voice dropped to that particular tone that he always spoke in whenever he talked about you.
Jimin didn't respond. He merely grabbed something from his back pocket and handed it to Taehyung.
Taehyung’s eyebrows furrowed together at the stack of letters in Jimin’s hands. He hesitantly reached out to grab it and his heart dropped at the familiar handwriting.
Taehyung. His name was written in a beautiful elegant cursive. He knew this was you.
“What is this?” Taehyung choked out.
“Just—” Jimin sighed, “Just read it.”
Taehyung swallowed harshly before he slowly opened the first letter on top of the stack. A neatly folded paper was in the envelope and he gradually unfolded it.
His eyes trailed over the words.
May 3rd, 2012.
That was the day you two met.
Dear Taehyung,
I think you're an angel who fell from heaven to thaw my frozen heart.
Taehyung’s breath hitched.
His eyes frantically read the words over and over again.
He moved to the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
Is this love? I think it is. I always hear the birds singing louder whenever you're near. Maybe I'm just crazy, but maybe I'm not. Because I swear every time you smile at me, my heart jumps into the shape of your smile.
Taehyung’s eyes started to burn.
Dear Taehyung,
You're the only person who doesn't make me feel like I'm alone. I love Jimin and Jungkook but sometimes I don't think they understand me. Thank you for being that person for me. I don't know what I would do without you. I'm scared, Taehyung. I think I'm falling harder.
A shaky breath left Taehyung’s lips and he felt like his knees were about to buckle.
Dear Taehyung,
Today was the worst and best day ever for me. I hated going on the roller coasters but your encouragement pushed me not to be scared. You made today fun. You always knew how to make me feel better, and that still scares me. I don't think I can ever shake you out of my system.
Taehyung let out a choked cry as his knees started to quiver. Jimin started to tear up at the distraught sight of him.
Dear Taehyung,
You left for college today. I cried two times after you and Jimin said goodbye. I hope college treats you well. I know you will do amazing things and I can't wait to hear about them. Remember that I'll always be in your corner! Fighting!
Taehyung felt himself drop to the floor. A trembling whimper left him as he read the next letter.
Dear Taehyung,
I told myself I would finally work on getting over you, but tonight, you just had to go and mess it all up for me. You set me back to square one. I'm scared.
The hole in Taehyung’s chest grew. His vision started to get blurry as he continued to read.
Dear Taehyung,
I think I am completely and irrevocably in love with you. Every time you laugh, my heart turns into a mess. Every time you tap my nose, my heart decides it's only you. I'm really scared now. What should I do, Taehyung? You've wrecked me entirely.
A stifled sob escaped Taehyung. His head hurts now and his heart burns.
Dear Taehyung,
It's been a few months since you graduated now and I miss you. A lot. You're a big manager at your dream art museum now and I couldn't be more happier for you! I still think you should sell your art and I hope you do one day! Maybe, I'll work at the Louvre and your art will be displayed!
A few tears fell onto the next letter and Taehyung felt his heart drop at the first few words.
Dear Taehyung,
My graduation is coming up and I'm valedictorian. Jungkook is super salty over it but I hope you're proud of me! We haven't talked in months now and I tried keeping in contact but I guess our lives just got too busy. I miss when we were careless kids laughing over stupid things. I got a job offer at the Louvre too! Crazy, right?! It was a big surprise for me but I'm super happy! I hope to see you at my graduation and tell you all about it! Love you. Miss you.
Taehyung leaned back against his couch and let out a shaky breath. His hand came up to wipe away his tears.
Taehyung,
I graduated today and you weren't there. I read your text and I chose to ignore it.. I think if I answered I would’ve lost all the progress I made. I think this is for the best anyway. I spent the better half of my teenage years in love with you and that journey taught me a lot. You taught me a lot. Even though we don't talk anymore, you're still one of the most important people in my life.
Goodbye Taehyung,
I'll always love you.
This was the last letter and Taehyung knew this was it. He noticed there was no ‘Dear’. You had let him go. Taehyung grasped at his chest and cried. Jimin, who stood watching him, quietly sniffled, his heart clenching in pain for his friend.
“She kept looking for you at her graduation.” Jimin revealed gently.
That didn't help Taehyung at all, it only caused him to cry harder. He glanced up at Jimin with swollen eyes, “Where is she?”
Jimin was quiet.
Taehyung grew anxious. He felt his eyes sting, “Jimin. Where is she?”
“She’s gone, Tae.” Jimin quietly replied, “She left for Paris.”
Taehyung felt his whole world collapse.
You were right there in front of him this whole time and he was so blind.
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9 letters, 1 goodbye (☘︎ ✯ ෆ) | part one part two
pairing: brother’s best friend!taehyung x fem!reader
summary: Kim Taehyung was forbidden the moment your older brother, Namjoon, became friends with him. Falling for Taehyung was something you couldn’t control. He was everything you wanted in a man and more. He met every standard of yours and exceeded them, but you could never bring yourself to confess to him, so you wrote your feelings down in nine letters and kept them in a shoebox. Though, Taehyung always went back to his first love, making you believe that there was no chance for you. You decided it was time to let him go. He could never be yours. That day, you wrote one last letter. Your goodbye letter.
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