she's fine

saerok had been laying in the dark for a good hour, trying to let sleep find her. but it seemed useless; her mind was too active and the mid-day nap was coming to bite her in the ass. 

she sighs, sitting up and looking at the time on her phone. 12:16am. she unlocks her phone and scrolls through her contacts, wondering if anyone would be awake at this time. she sees her messages with sophie and smiles, “she might be awake.” she mumbles to herself, pressing the conversation.

( ✉ ) SMS OUTGOING ➭ soph 🐙

  — heyyyy are you awake? 👀   — can’t sleep and wanna talk to someone    — we can get ramyun 😊🍜   — my treat 💖

sending messages … SENT !

saerok couldn’t remember the last time she had actually gone shopping. almost everything she bought was always for track. it seemed that 90% of her closet consisted of workout pants and sports bras. she didn’t complain too much, they were comfortable, but she’d been thinking about how boring it was to wear the same 4 outfits when she wasn’t working out.

she’d never been super materialistic which is why buying clothing other than what she needed for training seemed ridiculous.

but after a heated argument with her dad about her future, saerok felt her credit card grow heavy in her pocket. in a wave of anger she bursts into soojin’s room and proceeds to inform her they were going shopping, “i’ll buy you whatever you want.”

now at the mall, saerok steps out of the fitting room and twirls on one foot in front of soojin. the silver material gives off a luminescent effect. “this is definitely a lot shorter than anything i’ve ever worn.” she comments. she had no issues with showing skin—she was an athlete so wearing shorts and a sports bra was just a given.

she looks at her ankle wrap in the mirror, “wow the beige in my cast really compliments the silver huh?” she’s being sarcastic, if not a little bitter.

saerok hadn’t been this nervous for something in a long time. she tries to wrap her head around when the feelings started to appear, but she honestly can’t pinpoint it. she’s nervous, waiting in the living room for yerim to walk through the front door. she feels bad, waiting to spring something like this on her roommate as soon as she walked through the door. but yerim’s training schedule was pretty rigid so this was the best time she could think to do it.

she hears the door unlock and she freezes, watching as yerim comes through the door. she looks tired, she thinks. “hey yerim! welcome home.”

she turns down the television, “whenever your settled i was wondering if we could talk?” as soon as she says it though, she feels like retracting it immediately. this is a mistake, she tells herself. but it’s too late, and all saerok can do is give the other a soft smile, “i know you’re probably tired from training but i just had something on my mind i wanted to talk to you about.”

saerok sighs as she stands in front of the grocery store. she’d asked the girls what they wanted and written out a whole list. but now that she’s staring at her crutches she’s seeing this was a stupid idea. she just wanted to be helpful since she was at home so much now; but she was quickly realizing that having full mobility is definitely something to be grateful for.

she looks at the electric carts at the front of the store and shakes her head. there’s no way she’s sitting in one of those. they’re so slow and sae would just get antsy. after a couple minutes she figures out how to push the cart while still having one crutch under her left arm. it’s not the most graceful looking thing, but it’s what she could do.

she takes her time going through the store. she’s about halfway through her list when she makes a turn out of an aisle—and runs her cart right into someone. she immediately starts apologizing profusely, face reddening, “i’m so sorry sir i really didn’t see you, it’s a little difficult for me to steer this thing right now and...” 

she trails off when she gets a better look at the gentleman and her eyes widen, “seungyoun... is that you?” the embarrassment is even worse now. not only did she run into someone with her cart, but it’s someone she hadn’t spoken to in forever. “oh god, i’m so sorry, i didn’t hurt you did i?.”

‧ ₊ ˚ TRC FLYERS——— 5!

     taking her bottom lip between her teeth, heejins eyes bounce around the crowd of people continuously passing her by, looking for the next person to approach. running her hands through her hair, taming long, messy strands as the wind messes it up slightly, she finally catches sight of someone she wants to approach: a pretty girl, one with an image she feels would be worth going up to for something like this. with an easy smile, she steps forward, a hand already outstretched with a flyer in hand. “hi, do you have any interests in becoming an idol?” she starts off, a brow rising as she speaks. “if you do, you should take this flyer for trc, i feel like you could be a good fit there.” 

                                                        ———— for you, @rksaebom ♡

saerok’s on her way to get some coffee. she’s been dying for some caffeine and she figured she could apply for a job there as well. she’s surprised when a soft voice takes her away from her thoughts about an iced caramel macchiato.

without even thinking much of it she accepts the flyer, smiling at the smaller girl in front of her. “an idol...”

it’s bittersweet; but she knows the other girl has no idea about saerok’s family and what being an idol meant to them. she swallows her negative feelings, they’d become a knee jerk reaction anyway, and instead lets her thoughts curiously tip-toe around the idea; what if i became an idol?

saerok grinned as she watched people quickly walk past her, on their mission to get somewhere. on any other day she would be doing the same thing; head down, trying to get to wherever she needs to go as fast as she can. it was interesting being stopped on the sidewalk and watching it from the outside.

she turns to dongmin and smiles widely, “okay, so... i think we should just walk around and enjoy ourselves. you won’t be posing, per se, i do want to keep the poses natural.” she reaches up and fixes a small hair that escaped from his hairstyle. “i will admit i think this is my first time doing an actual shoot. most of my pictures either don’t involve anyone, or it’s when i’m hanging out with friends and they don’t even know i’m taking pictures.”

she pauses, “okay that sounded way creepier than i meant it to be.” she has two cameras hanging around her neck. “i brought my dslr and my polaroid because i think it’ll be nice to play around with both and see which ones we like.”

she gives his arm a gentle and loving squeeze, “thank you, by the way, for accepting my offer to photograph you. you’re just too handsome for me to not get my hands on some pics of you—plus it’s nice to get out of the house and you make for great company.” she grins.

compact in hand, saerok applies a coat of lip gloss - puckering her lips in the reflection. she shuts the compact and slips it into her bag. she’d arrived a little too early for the date and decided to take refuge from the heat at a small cafe next door. her hands drum against the table as she sips from her water. 

she’s nervous, though she’s not sure why. this isn’t even technically her date. she thinks back to the conversation she’d had with her friend soohyun.

“someone set this blind date up for me but... i just don’t think i can do it, saerok! it’s totally not my style, but i’d feel bad for not showing up. do you think... do you think you could go for me?”

it didn’t seem like a bad idea at the time; saerok was always willing to help her friends no matter what. and it was just a blind date, most of them didn’t go past the first outing anyway. but as she’s making her way inside the arcade, she can’t shake the nagging feeling of guilt that’s slowly building in her stomach. she felt bad that she was just going on this date just for it to inevitably go nowhere. it felt unfair to the person she was meeting with. 

she reads the physical description sent to her by soohyun; dark hair, 171cm, slim build.

saerok looks up from her phone and watches a couple people walk past her, but almost all of them are with another person, or don’t fit the description. she finally notices one guy who comes in by himself and seems to be looking around for someone as well. she walks up cautiously and gently touches his shoulder, “hi... kikwang? it’s me, uh, soohyun.” she smiles.

hello~! this is a plot call for saebom; i’m gonna do stamina starting tomorrow so she definitely needs all the plots she can get!! below are some plots i’ve come up with; none of them are gender or age specific unless otherwise stated. if none of these suit your muse pls send me a tumblr IM or a twitter DM and we can brainstorm!!

help, the room is spinning

saebom has never really drank very much before. she decides to hang out with friends at a bar and proceeds to get incredibly drunk. she’s lost her friends and she’s also lost her crutches and is hobbling around. please help her otl.

first kiss (18+)

sae never really had a chance to experience young love. she had boyfriends, sure, but she wasn’t super into the relationships at all and it never last longer than two weeks and she never actually experienced her first kiss. until you come along. 

mario kart champion

you and saebom have a good old time playing mario kart. she’s been talking big game about how great she is at mario kart and how she’s gonna whoop your butt. unfortunately, she ends up losing and now her life is in shambles.

model for me

saebom loves taking pictures when she’s going through a rough time. she asks you to be her model and take pictures throughout downtown seoul. strike a pose.

blind date (male, 18+)

you were originally supposed to go on a blind date with saebom’s friend, but she got cold feet and asks sae to go on the blind date for her. saebom agrees only because she wants free food. unfortunately sae is the worst liar and lets it slip that she’s not supposed to be your date. but hey! we’re already at the arcade so why not have fun?

late nights

( this is so cute anon, thank you T~T ♡ come to me and plot with me bab!!! i’m so glad you love saebom… she loves u toooo~ )

( 190811, 4:13am )

tw: anxiety, depression, panic attacks