trees waiting to hear what next you'll hum

your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for a graduate degree

I self administered black tea to the point of madness.

every time it rains i think of that raymond carver poem. poetry is like prayer to me methinks. or an incantation

My best friend once told me, quite seriously, that it's impossible to tell the difference between a cow and a horse just by looking at them. We were kids, but like. What?

after a while csethiro and csevet take to referring to themselves as the emperor's third nohecharis

I have never, and will never, use "ofc" to mean "of fucking course". It literally stands for OF Course...

well maybe you should blearily wake up at 5:08 in the pre-dawn light and find the sleeping soft tiny mammal body of your cat just inches from your head like a miracle too beautiful for speech, and you should rustle one hand out from your blankets to rub fingertip circles across the warm eggshell dome of her little velvet-wrapped skull and on the bristly patches just where the cups of her ears begin, and as she inclines her head into your fingers and purrs without ever opening her little eyes you should feel a love so tender that you understand how that love could have reached out from the fireside into the inky spangled nights long gone to reach her, and then you'll feel better

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maybe orpheus always looks back because his very effort to reverse death means that he can't look forward. if he could look forward, he could accept eurydice's death, grieve, and keep moving in life. his refusal to accept her death is looking back. his going down to the underworld, asking hades and persephone for her life, trying to lead her out... it's all 'looking back'. he does nothing for the entire story except look back. orpheus! looks! back! it's his entire thing! the story ends the same way it begins: orpheus looked back.