ARCHIVED & MOVED !

Man i thought I would never come back here to post something on this account, and yet here I fucking am. Why? Because Some of you fucking people do not understand how to let things go. 

Stop stalking me.

I can see you whenever people hover over my blog. One would think that after a fucking year, they would move on. but they don’t. I explicitely have told people that I have IP trackers on here. So I had tagged abusive IPs that kept coming back after a while. Anyway....

You want some new food? You want to square off? 

You’re probabably too much of a fucking coward but. I have a blog for you.

It is not mine, keep in mind. But they’re ready to either educate your fucking ass or they’ll probably just piss you off more but at the very least, you’ll go tell all your friends that you gatekeep and gaslight. I dunno what else to tell you.

I am just poppin in here to say hi!  How are you?  My name is Chrys / Fides, you may know me from the blog recently linked titled fidespeaks.  I haven’t been posting on that blog because I actually want to start up a proper academic blog regarding and recapping my studies.  It’s been slow progress but I promise I’ll link it here just as soon as its up and ready!  

Anyway, I am here to tell you who I am: a friend of Khepri’s who is currently studying social psychology, forensic psych, and political science (among a shit ton of other things but that’s the label I’m on this week) and I’m pretty sick of on the prolonged stalking that’s been happening over a simple misunderstanding that’s not been discussed at all!  

Now, before you accuse me of being racist or some stupid fucking bullshit based on who I associate with, I will warn you before hand that I am an extremely active volunteer in my community (I volunteer for a couple of LGBT groups and a group that helps former inmates find work and mental health help due to the shit that prisons make them go thru) and I am a major advocate for prison and criminal justice reform.  In fact, it’s my entire hyperfocus rn!!  So... if you have questions for me or any concerns, feel free to ask either here or on my other blog and I’ll be happy to answer them for you.  

But !!   For the most part I’ll be handling things on this blog from now on!  So if you’re here to be a creepy creep who’s hunting Khepri, I’m really afraid you’re going to be very upset!!  I’m currently working on an entire rebuttal of the whole callout, but as you can probably assume my life is extremely busy and my attempts to implement actual social progress in my community take precedent over dealing with stupid little idiots who think their performative allyship means anything in the grand scope of things :) 

alright. i’ve decided that i will be making a more ‘formal’ post about it. now that i have actually had some sleep and food. This honestly has been a thing I have considered for a while now. But now even more so given everything that has happened. mind you, it has been about a month now. I gave it some time and some thought about it. the only reason why i hadn’t considered of moving is because that would then mean that the case I filed would go inactive. 

yes, i, a civilian who handles & knows about how cases work cause I read them every day, filed a police report due to stalking and doxxing. I may tolerate a lot of things. but I do not tolerate that form of harassment. 

I knew they wouldn’t get anywhere with it, especially since two people who were actively participating in the stalking were in the 2 RICH neighbourhoods that have shitty LEAs imo. hiring a PI would mean that I have money. I do not have that money ( amazing right? ). I have said this and will continue to say it time and time again, I grew up poor, and i am not remotely close to the 10 percenters. I find it rather despicable that AFTER A MONTH the same people ( or their white knights ) are monitoring me. leave me alone. 

This obsession that these people have is messed up. They will kill somebody with what they are doing. And honestly. I have a few words for them. Not sure if i’ll ever post that publicly cause idk if its worth it. I know that it’ll eventually get to them, but for now i wont be posting my words for them. Anyway... 

I have moved claude to a fresh new account with a new URL. Please inquire about it if I have forgotten to get to you in private. keep in mind, I will only give it to those who have spoken to me outside of tumblr.

For those of you who wish to still interact with me. Yes, I will be approaching those that I still talk to. Please know that I will move all of our interactions onto the new blog. Our developed relationships are still there as well. I simply moved to declutter the mess here. as well to get people away from me. I am not, and never have been, part of the FE RPC. my new blog for claude is unaffiliated with FE. so.... keep that in mind. This is going to be a friends only blog. Key word: FRIENDS.

➵ @baracaffe​​ - dedue //: asked       [ first few get kisses ]

💋 // probably i'm late but dedue wants kisses

☪ //:   ➵   ALWAYS HAD HABIT of staying up far too late than he should have, but for the man, it was more than necessary. The noble refused to rest until the war was over -- surely the other would understand, right? ( ah but of course he would ) Dedue was a man of duty. He, of all people, would know EXACTLY what it was like to bound to responsibility. For Claude, this was something that must be done. 

     THOUGH it seemed as though the other was also bound by his own duties. Something that Claude had forgotten himself, but Dedue had not. Saved from a possible ( certain ! ) death; then had somehow managed to convince the other to help him UNITE people. Never was forced to stay, but also didn’t have a desire to see him leave either. Was genuinely very grateful for the decision to stay.

     SO WHEN the riegan noble heard the other man enter the room, head could only turn slightly to glance back. Visage had been learning against one hand, the other had a quill in its possession, but it was lowered carefully. Could tell something was up -- or perhaps he wanted something? The man was tired, but he wasn’t BLIND. Besides, how long have they known each other now? Formalities should have been long gone by now. They were, at least, for Claude. 

          ❝ dedue ... ❞     his calm voice made it apparent . his walls were down . but there was no reason to have them up with the other either . ever since they had gotten to know one another better , claude could feel it , he was safe with him .     ❝ have i really been up that long ? ❞

     COURSE, they both knew that answer. The noble just had a terrible habit of admitting own faults -- amongst other things. Yet, here they were, together, in the same room. Claude doing the same thing he was always doing: staying up late, devising strategies, && figuring out what to do. Dedue doing the same he was always doing: beside him, supporting him, && fetching him when it got too late. Felt entirely grateful for him. Especially during these days -- when he felt so very ALONE in the world. He wondered, though, if the other truly KNEW how much he appreciated him. 

          ❝ hmmm ... ❞     as he stood up , it seemed the other was already there beside him , as if he was waiting to catch him in case he fell . ah , well , he was tired . even perhaps slightly out of it , but he stood his ground for a mere moment .     ❝ you’re always too kind .   tell me ...   do you ever tire of it .... ❞    ( like i do ? )

     GENTLY, he reaches for the taller man’s hand. Fingers intertwine with his for a moment but he’s a bit hesitant. There is a sense && desire of LONGING coming from Claude. ( he’s lonely ) He’s always been playful in the past with him , with everybody, but this time, it’s different. He is needy -- but maybe they both are. Not for anything really out of the ordinary, but still the feeling is different. Maybe he had this feeling all this time; maybe he just didn’t know. Perhaps, though, that Dedue had felt the same way? ( surely he must have ! ) Felt that, perhaps, he would have been denied otherwise. But he wasn’t. 

     PERHAPS it was because he was tired, sleepy ! ( you think too much claude ) But this was what they both wanted, right? Fortunately, it seemed like Dedue knew as much && made no effort in stopping him. In fact, it seemed as though he was expecting it? Could tell he was leaning in - yet it seemed like he didn’t fully know HOW MUCH the noble wanted. Perhaps he expected a kiss on the cheek, yet.... that wasn’t what Claude was going for.

     REACHED for the other man’s face carefully. He is strangely softer than usual, but maybe it is because he wants to be. Leans in for a kiss. Not on the cheek, not on the nose or brow, but on the lips. It’s light, gentle. Lingers there for a moment -- as if he doesn’t want to pull away, but he does anyway. Instead of going to say anything about it at first, all Claude can do is rest his head against the other. 

     TIRED is perhaps not something nearly good enough to describe how worn he is. Broken is perhaps not a good one either. But with all that they have lost, it seems rather easy to feel that way. Yet, something stops him from giving up. Claude cannot help but to wonder, if perhaps Dedue is a reason for it. He always seemed so SUPPORTIVE of him -- even when he felt so much against the odds. 

          ❝ ah ...   forgive me ,   my friend .   i must be tired but ...   did i ever said thank you ? ❞

➵ @fxmiliarity​​ //: asked       [ prompts ]

“  family isn’t who you’re born with, it’s who you’d die for.  ”

☪ //:   ➵   OLIVE HUES GLANCED over at the other carefully. The words spoken seemed to resonate hard within him. Growing up, he had felt so alone. His mother && father, though very good to him, were not the only ones he was related to by blood. No.... He had brothers, sisters... only related to him by half ( but still related to him nonetheless ). Life with the Royal family was.... STRANGE to say the least. Seemed like everybody knew somebody, && yet, nobody knew anybody. One would think that in such a big family, the noble would have somebody to turn to. But that was NEVER the case. Always had to sleep with one eye open. Not to mention that everybody in his Almyran house KNEW of his background -- which was the reason for his discrimination. 

     CLAUDE knew what it was like to feel lonely. He knew that family.... was not always everything. At least not those blood related. Did have some, though, that he would always hold forever close to heart. CHERISHED them && would do so until the end of his days. Those were the ones that were called family -- that was HOME. 

     YVAINE was right -- maybe more than she knew ( though the assumption was made that she was very wise already ). To hear these things time and time again from her was often refreshing. Not always, but in this case... It was RELIEVING to hear. As if something calmed the worry within him. 

         ❝ yve ,   i -- ❞     paused for a moment before a smile is drawn on his face . he knew he didn’t need to hide from her - who could she possibly tell ? but it was an old habit of his . one that he knew would have to be broken sooner or later .      ❝ you know ...   i would like to think that too .   but i suppose i would rather live for them - with them .   isn’t it better when we all come out alive ...   together ? ❞

Alright. Enough is enough. I know that you were maybe trying to ask nicely? maybe?? but... Please stop. its been a month. you want your answer? You will actually be surprised. And its probably something that nobody really wants believe.

No. I am NOT a cop. I am NOT a police officer. I am sure you weren’t trying to mean any harm in asking. but please read before you actually send things..... And send it OFF anon or in the DMs..... i am seriously not going to attack you. 

I really do say it on my other document.

note: with.  I AM NOT A COP.

is that what you wanted to hear? probably not. but it’s the truth. but hey clearly i’m wrong.... dont know how the truth can be wrong but hey? idk.

i understand you are anxious and nervous. but mind you, aside from existing and having literally no desire to do anything but to write with friends, you all are really out here hyper fixating on somebody who has a different opinion than you and has a different background than you. also i had some of these people BLOCKED prior to the thing anyway. and why do you think i didn’t follow certain people?  

besides. i am an anxious mess myself. and i really am just absolutely TIRED of this.... just stop..... if you have people telling you that i am not a cop, then maybe ask those people to clarify? or if you really wanted to know. come to me OFF anon.

the only reason why i will be saying anything about this is cause i’ve gotten enough asks about the same thing.

➵ 𝙽𝙰𝙼𝙴 :   claude ( khalid ) von riegan ➵ 𝙰𝙶𝙴 :   17 - 18 / 23 -24 ➵ 𝙷𝙴𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 :   175 cm / ~5′9 ➵ 𝚂𝙿𝙴𝙲𝙸𝙴𝚂 :   human ➵ 𝙶𝙴𝙽𝙳𝙴𝚁 :   male ➵ 𝙽𝙰𝚃𝙸𝙾𝙽𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈 :   almyran / fodlanese ➵ 𝙱𝙸𝚁𝚃𝙷𝙳𝙰𝚈 :   24 july ➵ 𝚂𝚄𝙽 𝚂𝙸𝙶𝙽 :   leo ( cusp ) ➵ 𝚁𝙴𝚂𝙸𝙳𝙴𝙽𝙲𝙴 :   almyra / leicester  ➵ 𝙼𝙰𝚁𝙸𝚃𝙰𝙻 𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝚄𝚂 :   dependent  ➵ 𝙰𝙻𝙸𝙶𝙽𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃 :   chaotic good ➵ 𝙳𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙺 :   tea ( almyran pine peedles / chamomile / leicester cortania ) ➵ 𝙵𝙾𝙾𝙳 :   pheasant roast with berry sauce / beast meat teppanyaki / pickled rabbit skewers / daphnel stew / scrambled eggs with vegetables ➵ 𝙳𝙰𝚈 𝙾𝚁 𝙽𝙸𝙶𝙷𝚃 :   Night ➵ 𝚂𝙽𝙰𝙲𝙺𝚂 :   mixed nuts ( does baklava count as a snack? )  ➵ 𝙿𝙴𝚃 :   not really a pet but a white wyvern . ➵ 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚄𝚁 :   green ( though yellow is a close second ) ➵ 𝙵𝙻𝙾𝚆𝙴𝚁 :   desert rose , hibiscus , achillea ➵ 𝚂𝙴𝚇𝚄𝙰𝙻𝙸𝚃𝚈 :   bisexual ➵ 𝙱𝙾𝙳𝚈 𝚃𝚈𝙿𝙴 :   mesomorph ➵ 𝙴𝚈𝙴 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚁 :   dull olive green ➵ 𝙷𝙰𝙸𝚁 𝙲𝙾𝙻𝙾𝚁 :   chocolate brown

anyway, in case you haven’t noticed, activity is probably gonna be lowered for a bit. my mental health is not the best, and it’s physically affecting me. i’l be trying to post one ic thing a day, but i don’t know how that will go as claude’s muse has always been finicky. i’ll at least go for a hc thing a day. i do have more muse on link, but again. don’t know what else to do. i’m gonna try to play fe3h but i also got pmd and i still need to get a couple of other games. I love claude though so i will never be letting go of him and i’m here out of spite. he really is such a good muse and character. i just need to take it easy.

that and currently. im having to deal with some other irl complications. so yea. needless to say. i may not be here much except for like once a day.

also...