Ribelle Bella

Maybe I need to stop opening up so easily. Maybe I shouldn’t fall so fast.

I'm one of the people unfortunate enough to not have a mother in my life. No, death didn't take her, but something so petty did. What I don't understand is... How do you conceive a baby, carry the baby for 9 months, go through all sorts of pain and hours of labor, raise the baby and then later on give up the human being like you never even carried a child in you... How do you just stop talking to your child? How do you go to sleep at night and not think about said child at all? Do you even cry over it? Does your heart break when you see that child's picture or hear their name? How could you put a child through hell? How could you not protect them? How could you let them struggle? No, it's not "tough love". It's selfishness. How do you just walk away? How do you not have faith in them? My hearts go out to the people that are in the same situation as me. My heart goes out to the people that lost their mother by death. My heart goes our to the true dedicated hard working mothers that put their children first. We need more mothers like that in this world. Maybe the world would be a lot safer. Happy Mother's Day

Today would've been 4 years with you. And I remember it like yesterday... Your sweet smile and your eyes sparkling while asking me the question. I was never that happy before. And I was happy with you throughout the whole relationship, even though I did nag a lot. But cuddling up on your chest with you running your fingers down my arm or through my hair, made me the happiest. Moments like that made me happy. And I cherished them a lot. And all the memories we made and smiles and laughs we shared together puts a smile on my face. We weren't angels in the relationship to each other. And I don't regret you. Even though I know you regret me. You were the best thing that ever happened to me and I'm still heartbroken over it. I don't know when I'll come back from this. But I love you still. I always will. And I miss you, even when I talk to you and see you most of the time. I just wish I had another chance.... Thank you for everything.

Remember when you said forever? 💔