Rhianna

Melon’s 12 day old pups. Photos by Lexi Mire

Solar System Plate Set

Photographer: Janice McKenna

The Grand Budapest Hotel (2014)

I’m trying so hard to be better. Someone asked me what I mean by that. I don’t exactly know what I mean or I guess I can’t put it into words. But I just want to be a better person. I want to be more confident. I want to be less stressed. I want to be okay with being myself and I want to like myself. The journey of being okay with who I am is so hard and I’m no where close to being there. I hate everything about myself and I don’t want to feel that way. I want to like me for me. I want to be able to go into stores without having a panic attack. I want to be able to be a real adult who can handle things without feeling like the world is collapsing on me. I want to be able to hang out with people and not think they all hate me. I feel like my anxiety has been escalating and I can’t get a grasp on it. Everything piles up so quickly and I can’t get through it sometimes. I can’t stop my thoughts from going to a dark place in my head and I just want to be better. I’m scared of my mind and how it can control me and how I can’t control it. And I just want to be betttttttterrrrrrr all around and I’m scared. I feel scared of everything and I need to stop. This is a rant and I’m sorry and I’ll probably delete this but i just needed to write it out in this moment.

photos: laurajunekirsch

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