briar

is there a reason for why guys compare me to female celebrities that are quite pretty / pleasant from time to time while girls avoid it and if anything compare me to animated characters i’ve already established i relate to or something like why is that . i’ve always had only girl friends my entire life besides the occasional guy every couple years but it’s more noticeable nowadays

perhaps i will turn this into a digital diary. i have nowhere to turn to and have very intense paranoia about having a physical one when i live with my family (i know they don’t search my things but still… eek)

i get mad every day i wasn’t just born a guy

“i’m doing something else that day” it’s fucking prom bro seriously we’re fucking seniors

he won’t hang out with me at all feel so useless and annoying

and i just found out my closest friends aren’t even going to prom or won’t give me a straight answer. i just want to be fucking normal why can’t any of you let me have that for fucks sake

i made one fuck up at my job and now the place got a bad review and i got talked to by my boss about it i feel so fucking stupid i can’t do this

the reason nobody even dehumanizes me sexually or cares to lust after me is cause i genuinely have no sex appeal at all. i don’t even have the slight privelege of being kind of chopped and baby faced and still being a level of attractive. i’m just on the whole unattractively childish

Stupid fucking retainer and being a woman has ruined my life

That looksmaxxing shit has literally warped my brain I've been in that shit for years now even before it was mainstream. God it fucking sucks I am so disgusting

O don't want to work this stupid job anymore I want to quit I have too much shit to do

Please hang out with me man please

I wish I had nine lives so I could use one just to kill myself in front of somebody I hate or just fight them til I'm dead

My face is wet from crying