分裂した道化と≒発狂の修道女 Divided Clown ≒ Mad Nun
Disclaimer: There are two versions of the lyrics to this song, one which utilises ateji, and another one which is written normally. The set I have translated is the regular one, so double meanings have not been carried over here. ICDD also has very literary and vague lyrics to their songs, so the way I have interpreted the topics/subjects of the songs are very possibly different from what Rib:y(uhki) intended when it was written.
突き落とされた暗い井戸の水に起こされた
動悸と眩暈でグルグルと脳髄が眠り
Tsukiotosareta kurai ido no mizu ni okosareta
Douki to memai de guruguru to nouzui ga nemuri
I was woken up by the water of the dark well which I had been pushed down into
My brain spiralled into sleep from the palpitations and dizziness
†第一の夜†
やたら派手な服を着たワタシは
此処へ至るまでの記憶がない。
目の前には黒衣の白い女。
どうやら修道女のようだが、瞳に信仰の色が無い。
†Daiichi no yoru†
Yatara hade na fuku wo kita watashi wa
Koko he itaru made no kioku ga nai.
Me no mae niwa kokui no shiroi onna.
Douyara shuudoujo no you daga, hitomi ni shinkou no iro ga nai.
†The first night†
Dressed in clothes far too extravagant
I have no memory of how I got to be here.
In front of me is a white lady¹ clad in black.
She is seemingly a nun, but her eyes hold no colour of faith.
触れた温かさ 堪える事なんて出来ようか
貪りに明け暮れた 弄り過ぎたので「壊レマシタ」
Fureta atatakasa koraeru koto nante dekiyouka
Musabori ni akekureta ijirisugita node 「kowaremashita」
I had no way of resisting the warmth which I felt
I abandoned myself to my desires. I toyed with it too much and so “it broke”
†第二の夜†
女が凡てを受け入れるので
其の美しい躰に溺れてしまいました。
気が付けばあたりに柔らかな「赫」が広がっている
此処はどこなんだろう?
†Daini no yoru†
Onna ga subete wo ukeireru node
Sono utsukushii karada ni oboreteshimaimashita.
Ki ga tsukeba atari ni yawaraka na aka ga hirogatteiru
Koko wa doko nandarou?
†The second night†
Because the woman would accept all of me,
I drowned in her beautiful body.
By the time I realised it, a gentle “red” was spreading around me
Where could this place be?
[デス リミテッド ドグマライゼーション]
[Desu Rimiteddo Dogumaraizeeshon]
[Death Limited Dogmalisation]
ねぇ…アナタもママじゃないの?
Geist Seele Wille Zelle
eins zwei drei vier
Nee… anata mo mama janai no?
Geist Seele Wille Zelle
eins zwei drei vier
Hey… Are you not my mother either?
Mind heart will cell
one two three four
答えを教えて!
Kotae wo oshiete!
Tell me the answer!
さぁ踊り明かせ 「崩壊ピエロと気狂いシスター」
身が朽ちるまで愛し合え
Saa odori akase 「houkai piero to kichigai shisutaa」
Mi ga kuchiru made aishiae
Come, dance all night, “Crumbling Pierrot and Mad Sister”
Love each other until your bodies fall apart
“いつまでも、いつまでも、踊りましょう―――?”
“Itsumade mo, itsumade mo, odorimashou—?”
“Shall we dance forever and forever—?”
†第三の夜†
夜なのに明るい、心とは裏腹に現実は鮮やか。
彼女は変わらず微笑む、嫉妬のような感情から爪を立てる。
白い花が真っ赤に染まってより美しくなった。
†Daisan no yoru†
Yoru nanoni akarui, kokoro towa urahara ni genjitsu wa azayaka.
Kanojo wa kawarazu hohoemu, shitto no you na kanjou kara tsume wo tateru.
Shiroi hana ga makka ni somatte yori utsukushiku natta.
†The third night†
It is bright even though it is night, and completely different from my heart, reality feels vivid.
She smiles as she always does, digging her nails in from an emotion akin to jealousy.
A white flower was steeped red and became even more beautiful still.
†最後の夜†
そういえば一度も声を……聴いていない?
代わりに、ズルズル音がして印象が暈けてきた
鏡を見続けて起きてしまったゲシュタルトの崩壊のように。
†Saigo no yoru†
Souieba ichido mo koe wo…… kiiteinai?
Kawarini, zuruzuru oto ga shite inshou ga boketekita
Kagami wo mitsudzukete okiteshimatta geshutaruto no houkai no you ni.
†The final night†
Come to think of it, I don’t believe I’ve ever… heard her voice before?
In its place, there was the sound of something sizzling, and any impression I had of it turned muddy.
Like the Gestaltzerfall² that occurred when I gazed upon a mirror and continued to stare.
[デス リミテッド ドグマライゼーション]
[Desu Rimiteddo Dogumaraizeeshon]
[Death Limited Dogmalisation]
ねぇ…アナタもママじゃないの?
Geist Seele Wille Zelle
Nee... anata mo mama janai no?
Geist Seele Wille Zelle
Say… are you not my mother either?
Mind heart will cell
助けてください……
血と肉を喰う「崩壊ピエロと気狂いシスター」
骨に成るまで愛し合え
Tasukete kudasai……
Chi to niku wo kuu 「houkai piero to kichigai shisutaa」
Hone ni naru made aishiae
Please help me…
The “Crumbling Pierrot and Mad Sister” who consume blood and flesh
Love each other until you turn into bones
ふと、周りの景色がなくなった。
暗闇の中、取り残されてしまった。
Futo, mawari no keshiki ga nakunatta.
Kurayami no naka, torinokosareteshimatta.
The scenery around me disappeared in an instant.
I had been left behind in the middle of darkness.
記憶も自我も拠り所も失ったワタシは―――。
Kioku mo jiga mo yoridokoro mo ushinatta watashi wa—.
Having lost my memories, ego, foundations—.
何処に居る?何処に居る? 何処に居る?何処に居る? 何処に居る?何処に居る?
何処に居る?何処に居る? 何処に居る?何処に居る? 何処に居る?何処に居る?
Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru?
Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru? Doko ni iru?
Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I?
Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I? Where am I?
不意に射した白い光に
強烈な懺悔の念と祝福の残滓を感じた。
其れはとてもとても小さな光だったが
ワタシを取り戻す為の灯火だと思った。
この熱を抱いて歩く。
殻に、膜に触れ、引き裂いた。
Fui ni sashita shiroi hikari ni
Kyouretsu na zange no nen to shukufuku no zanshi wo kanjita
Sore wa totemo totemo chiisana hikari datta ga
Watashi wo torimodosu tame no tomoshibi dato omotta
Kono netsu wo idaite aruku
Kara ni, maku ni fure, hikisaita.
There was a white light which was shone out of nowhere,
and towards it, I felt an intense sense of repentance and the remnants of a blessing.
It was a very, very small light,
but I thought that the flame was there to bring me back.
I will bear this zeal and walk.
I touched its shell, its membrane, and tore it apart.
聞こえる…聴こえる……彼女の声は「 」
Kikoeru… Kikoeru… Kanojo no koe wa 「 」
I hear it… I hear it… Her voice is “ “³
さぁ踊り明かそう
身が朽ちるまで愛し合いながら
血と肉を喰う「崩壊ピエロと気狂いシスター」
骨に成るまで殺し合え
Saa odoriakasou
Mi ga kuchiru made aishiai nagara
Chi to niku wo kuu 「houkai piero to kichigai shisutaa」
Hone ni naru made koroshiae
“Come, let us dance all night
as we love each other until our bodies fall apart”
The “Crumbling Pierrot and Mad Sister” who consume blood and flesh
Kill each other until you turn into bones
手を取り混ざったワタシとオマエ
eins zwei drei vier
Te wo torimazatta watashi to omae
eins zwei drei vier
You and me, our hands joined together
one two three four
目を覚ますとボクは…見慣れた部屋の…
……慣れ親しんだベッドに横たわっていた。
Me wo samasu to boku wa… minareta heya no…
……nareshitashinda beddo ni yokotawatteita.
When I woke up… I was in a room I’d seen before…
…lying on a bed I know very well.
―――声が聞こえる。
—Koe ga kikoeru.
—I hear a voice.
「治療は、完了しました。」
「Chiryou wa, kanryou shimashita.」
“The treatment has been completed.”
Translator's notes:
¹: The "white" in "white woman" doesn't denote race but the colour of the person.
²: Gestaltzerfall is a phenomenon which occurs when you stare at something for so long that it starts to look unrecognisable and foreign. This can also occur when you read the same word again and again.
³: Although there are no lyrics in between the speech brackets, it sounds as if the singer says "私と同じだ" (watashi to onaji da). "Her voice is "the same as mine"."
