this is my soliloquy

Once you start noticing the erasure and exclusion of trans mascs in everything from media to academics you can never stop noticing it

#the therapist who wrote my permission slip for hrt was a trans man#and during that appointment we talked about the erasure of trans men from basically everything#and i talked about an article i had read a week or so earlier about trans people and hiv#it very in depth about risks prevention treatment etc#except that it exclusively referenced trans women with a single sentence at the end basically saying 'oh trans men are at risk too'#less than a year later i saw that same therapist speaking at an hiv organization fundraising event#he talked about how he had just recently been diagnosed with hiv#and had to sit there while this doctor told him all about how the treatment options had never been tested on trans men#none of them#they knew that the treatment would work#but not how effective it would be in comparison to its effectiveness in other demographics#no idea what kind of side effects he might experience#how it would interact with his body and his hormones#what the long term effects would be#nothing#he had to sit there while his doctor told him he would have to be a guinea pig but its not like he has a choice#the only alternative is dying from aids#that whole thing was kind of a wake up call for me#and i started paying more attention getting tested regularly myself and all that sruff you're supposed to do#and over time i befriended the person who did most of my testing#they were also trans masc and we would talk about this kind of stuff#and i told them i wanted to get on prep but every doctor i asked had a wildly different answer on if i even could take it#which verison i could take etc#and they said that only one form of prep has been approved fot trans men but its never actually been tested on trans men#and that one version isnt good for long term use because it has some pretty serious side effects long term#and they said that they regularly go to conferences and meet with representatives from all these drug companies#and they ask 'wheres the data on trans men' 'when are you doing clinical studies on trans men'#and the answer#every single time is: we have not done any studies on trans men and we have no intention to ever do studies on trans men#this is not some passive result of trans masc invisibility it is an active act of erasure that needs to be recognized as an act of violence

Also people being obsessed with Greek mythology as kids wasn’t invented by Percy Jackson. My dad read the Iliad and the odyssey in high school because one of his friends was super obsessed with Ancient Greek lit and he was like “well I can’t let him be smarter and more well read than I am I’ve gotta catch up”

This is probably a Canadian deep cut, but my obsession with Greek Myth started on like 2007 when Class of the Titans was on television

this is how we should generate power for cities

contextual storytelling from that sign in the back

muttering "the hamsters control the wheels" as i wander around like a blind medieval soothsayer

What the fuck are you talking about. My dad has a penicillin allergy, he has, in reference to himself, referred to penicillin as poison in a similar way this commenter has. He also understands that for most people penicillin is really good and useful and he would never call someone using penicillin poisoned. Maybe there’s context I’m missing but given what you’ve provided as context I don’t see anything wrong with the person referring to testosterone as poison. It seems to me like you are policing a transfem’s speech for no real reason.

who said that they think anyone who puts testosterone in their body is diseased, deformed, and should be ashamed of it. Certainly not that anyone on that Reddit thread. For the love of god stop extrapolating the way people talk about themselves and their own insecurities into ways they must view others. If a transfem refers to herself as deformed from male puberty that is clearly a reaction to extreme dysphoria, it reflects nothing about how she views other people. If upon seeing someone insecure and in pain express those insecurities about themself your first thought is “this must mean they hate me and the way I am” then you need to fix that.

Also for a lot of transfems, being on testosterone does kill them.

No, its the T that kills people. Of course a supportive community is important, extremally important, but you can have an entirely supportive community and still be awfully suicidal from dysphoria.

Ok but like if T kills transfems due to crippling dysphoria, what about all the trans masc & afab non binary folks that are suicidal due to dysphoria associated with being forced to go through an estrogen-dominant puberty? Or do their lives not have as much value as their trans sisters?

You should be happy to go through estrogen-dominant puberty you transmisogynist shitbag. Don't you know that by calling estrogen suicide inducing is incredibly transmisogynistic? You should be happy to go through the changes of estrogen based puberty at a young age compared to trans women who often don't. It's like a free transition!

that would explain some of the actions of the court

"dni if you engage with irredeemable media! dni to kill a mockingbird stans" ok well CLEARLY you have never read to kill a mockingbird if you think it's irredeemable media and also having a book that was published in 1960 on your dni stan list is kinda ridiculous actually

i literally do not think any of you have ever read a book published before the 2000s before in your entire life

#'Dni if you've read to kill a mockingbird' what's is this the Florida banned books list #Who r u Ron DeSantis

You really buried the lede by only mentioning To Kill a Mockingbird

Undertale?? THE MAGIC SCHOOL BUS???