Hopeless Romantic

To die

Trying to live when I wanna die .....

It's all because of my kids that I'm even alive . 💜💜💜💜

About not being here and saving the myself the pain .....ending all this pain I go through .....but my kids man ...esp my Shane .....HE NEEDS ME ....HE DOESNT HAVE ANY ONE BUT ME ...just me...so I will endure this pain so he can be happy that his mommy adores him

I feel like I never had a place in this world ...like all the thinks we had in common I have tricked myself into believing it I just want love I want to be held at night close...so close that I'm scared i might suffocate I want to be suffocated by love I want to be taken care of ...not financially ...but emotionally .... I want to feel that someone cares enough to make sure I'm good

Just leave me here staring at the wall In my head I'm trying to make sense of it all I kno my eyes are shiny from tears And my mouth straight bc of fears But leave me here Bc your intentions are not thought out You keep pushing and pushing but u should be pulling out Bc this not what u want Love to me is not a front Why do you think I'm so broken Damaged disgruntled Why do you think I never trust a soul And savor every moment of your hold Bc I kno you'll be gone just like the rest You thought u had a cape but it's more like a vest Bc, you see you can't save me A woman who's broken up like the sea Or more like the waves, Forceful when high Subtle when low Beautiful in the sun with a sparkle in my smile Or sad and rough like when the clouds cry Sometimes I wish I'd die Sometimes I wish I was strong Like the waves Or that I can go on forever and a day That I could leave this place Those lies Those ppl That I could get rid of these things Emotions .... U don't want these problems Being scorned Or bitter Or hurt Called names Ran over Ran through Ran back Backed up Backed off Not loved Or thought of Or held to any standard Just Nothing At All