#REGRETMUCH | a PRIVATE & SELECTIVE roleplay blog for rue valentine an original character loved by alice [she / they. 21+. est.] established 2024

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@drkprincedee said: take a deep breath,  you need to calm down.

from a meme i can't find but i'm always accepting

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she'd soon rather a hole open up and swallow her whole than deal with THIS. an intrusive voice drowned out her own thoughts, muffling the continuous bass that rumbled in the house behind them; the commotion inside her head made decipher the song playing impossible, a futile attempt to ground herself. dark eyes hid behind a pair of hands that clutched near her temples, disheveled locks framed her with obscurity as she remained determined to stare down at the road.

agreeing to come was a BAD IDEA, she knew this and she still decided to sneak out to make an appearance. the night started off okay. she hadn't gone to a social even like this since she was a prime suspect for her history teacher's murder. and although, charges were dropped, evidence somehow dissolved into thin air, the speculations and gossip lingered the following months.

it was a turning point in her life that questioned on whether she'd finally reached rock bottom. the revelation that her body was no longer her own and was decaying with every breath she took. it was far too late to tap out on their deal not when so much blood was on her hands. she'd foolishly danced with the devil hoping for a thrill, perhaps dreaming of an adventure that would enact fun hijinks and conclude with a happy ending.

it's only a matter of time before her soul DIES OUT and deni takes her place. she knows it, he knows, alissa doesn't need to know it. this was simply retribution for all the years she wasted wallowing in her own pity instead shifting her energy into something or someone worthwhile.