[ #refugeinshadows ]. ind. private & selective heavily headcanon based astarion ancunin from baldurs gate 3. resurrected by roz ( he/him & over 21 )
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roz. please feel free to block this post if you need to as this isn't the first time i've had to ask for help , and i totally understand that not everyone can help , nor would i expect it. i am once again struggling financially , i came home to a house with hardly any food , and barely any electric. i do have a commissions blog for anyone interested ( @rozcomms ) and i'm also happy to offer free graphics for anyone who can help, as well as psd's etc. i am also willing to make up to 200 base icons too ( or ones with a psd ). ill leave my paypal link down below bc my email doesn't work for some reason. please know there is no expectation of help , i know everyone is struggling right now and this is not an obligation.
roz. please feel free to block this post if you need to as this isn't the first time i've had to ask for help , and i totally understand that not everyone can help , nor would i expect it. i am once again struggling financially , i came home to a house with hardly any food , and barely any electric. i do have a commissions blog for anyone interested ( @rozcomms ) and i'm also happy to offer free graphics for anyone who can help, as well as psd's etc. i am also willing to make up to 200 base icons too ( or ones with a psd ). ill leave my paypal link down below bc my email doesn't work for some reason. please know there is no expectation of help , i know everyone is struggling right now and this is not an obligation.
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the following is a collection of sentence starters from larianās baldurās gate 3. part 2.
look at me - iām not a monster.
stay back. i donāt want to hurt you, but i will.
no. youāre not one of them at all.
i was ready to run you through. my mistake, friend.
thatās far enough. whatās your business down here?
you revealed our location? that tongue gets any looser, (name), and iāll cut it out.
reckon i might miss this place.
this place is more dangerous than i thought.
well, donāt you cut a fine figure.
sometimes iām jealous of that girl. ugh - to feel so invincible again.
in your expert opinion, whatās the best way to kill a devil?
iām certain there are answers out there. weāll find them together.
thereās no story. none that youāre entitled to hear, anyway.
you can tolerate a great deal of suffering, so long as it has meaning.
until then, all i can do is endure.
please try to understand that itās not something i can just talk about freely.
perhaps thereās potential in you.
honestly, your faith is your own concern. i wonāt judge, one way or the other.
i think i did well by joining you.
you already know my biggest secrets. what more can you ask?
that wallās an illusion! hiding what, i wonder ā¦
sun, moon, and stars will still be there, waiting for us.
this place is pretty spectacular, isnāt it?
no book or painting could ever do its strange beauty justice.
a perfect ring of mushrooms ⦠nature, or magic?
hmm. i thought that mightāve done something.
another illusion. is anything real down here?
iām more concerned with this ātwitā who set a spectator on you.
a rival - a mere footnote to my legend. you should be more concerned with who i am.
the fools must have turned back. or, better yet, died in the search.
i need no more rivals. try to take this as a compliment, yes?
this presence ⦠this magic is not divine, but fey.
little? i am a god! and iām gonna rip you - tear you - wear you for a hat -
donāt do anything hasty, now.
iāll just kill you and claim it for myself.
iām the lord of murder - iāll show you why.
if youāre expecting me to drop to my knees before you, forget it.
a wizardās tower is his sanctum, a private place for research and respite. but as this wizardās not home ⦠i say we take a peek.
a strange place for a button. especially one that doesnāt work.
what good would it do for me to be troubled? we canāt save them all.
youāll have to speak slowly. i find it quite difficult to concentrate with my condition gnawing at my insides like a teething displacer kitten.
the whole village is falling to pieces ā¦
hey, maybe we can scare up a few dusty bottles of wine somewhere.
i like your way of thinking. split any takings we find?
what creatures live in water this dark?
iām a rabid dirty dog. and i bite.
i couldāve killed you before you even noticed me, but i didnāt. stand down.
i can be discreet. no need for bloodshed.
share? you really are in the wrong place.
a bleeding heart, are you? reckon iāll just roast and eat it.
what in the hells did you do to that corpse?
you do plenty for me, more than you realize. but this cannot be remedied.
are you alright? is there anything i can do to help you?
enough. bickering wonāt save your friend.
run away, then.
(name) - i was so worried! did they hurt you?
who cares? weāre together now, thank gods!
iām grateful, donāt mistake me, but ⦠why help us?
freeze it, cock-stench. we arenāt done just yet.
pay up, and you get to skink away. resist, and i gut you.
drop it. i donāt owe you anything.
your incompetence has been my ruin.
stop! no more innocents will die today, (name).
you care for the weak. most curious.
you so much as touch me, and iāll tear you from limb to limb.
ah - another treacherous soul walks among us.
i aināt going down easy.
you been a shit since i laid eyes on you, (name).
strike him down. prove your faith.
your silence speaks to your heresy.
look, you have no idea what youāre dealing with ā¦
itās the whole damn reason weāre here, and iām not leaving without it.
the mission comes first.
and i thought iād heard it all. thatās some cambion-level deception.
i go where thereās shit to stir. and thereās no shortage of options.
i canāt remember much, truth be told.
centuries of torment will do that to you.
youāve been naughty. and you know what happens when youāre naughty.
just who in the nine hells are you?
well, well. arenāt you a luscious thing?
been a long time since someone stuck their neck out for me like that.
you have a manner of irresistible desperation about you. i like it.
you know, iāve been thinking. and i think thereās something i should tell you. nothing big or terrible, just ⦠a small little detail about me that hasnāt come up naturally.
i want to join you - to fight by your side.
iām sorry for barging in like this, but i had to come find you.
i wonāt let you down. i promise.
we all have our burdens, one way or the other.
iām trying to say that youāve earned my trust in a way very few ever have ⦠i want that to mean something.
freedom - iād forgotten how it felt. thank you.
if you have a moment, iād like your opinion on something.
the problem is this: a preponderance of evidence that i am a terrible adventurer.
i canāt risk re-capture. i barely escaped last time.
it was a mistake. and not one weāll repeat.
i donāt know. he was kind of fun.
we canāt just invite danger in to our hearth like that. we must be more careful.
most monsters will think twice before making a meal of me.
an old hunterās trick - if you canāt mask your scent, spoil it.
i prefer a weapon to stench, thanks.
youāre a monster hunter? not what i imagined.
whatever youāre hunting, your stench alone will kill it.
a quick wit is rare indeed.
know how to ask, and theyāll share that knowledge. if youāre fool enough to pay their price.
speak plainly. what is she?
i think youāre mistaken - this place looks innocent enough.
truth is like a blade, my friend. we can arm ourselves with it - or just as easily find it pressed against our throat.
i would not put you in danger.
your coyness is getting boring. tell me.
you take insult where none is intended, my friend.
how thoroughly invigorating it is to stand by oneās friend in the face of danger.
you best have one hells of an apology for me.
you must have mistaken me for someone else.
that wriggler swimming in your brain juice is a bit of an inconvenience, isnāt it?
thatās none of your concern.
donāt change the subject.
keep that hole under your nose shut.
letās not involve ourselves in this place any longer than is necessary.
you want to play the hero so badly? fine. letās make this interesting.
gods, itās hot in here.
iāve had better days. and worse ones.
i am, after all, the villain of the tale.
you truly are a soul that steels my own.
you are as thick as they come.
even i am tired of the sound of my own voice.
i stand at a precipice, but if you do not give up hope, neither shall i.
all of this ⦠it must feel like a betrayal.
you bastard! you ruined it, you ruined everything!
slow down - what did i do?
this is an interesting way of thanking me.
i donāt need this. good luck getting out of here on your own.
i know i should head home, but ⦠i canāt bring myself to leave.
(are you alright?) / not even a little bit. but i will be.
she favored me like a child favors a captive pet.
i promise i will not betray your trust.
i cannot thank you enough.
you will face (name)ās judgement.
i wish you could have visited at a better time.
you had no right to intervene.
youāre not one of us.
copper for your thoughts?
always a delight to speak to you.
did i play games like this in my youth? was i sweet once?
what are you doing? iām busy here!
nothing beats the taste of stolen beer.
come on, now. theyāre just having a bit of fun.
letās do what we have to do, then get out of here.
smellās like burnt flesh.
hold out your arm so i can mark your flesh.
iām here to spill your guts across the floor.
pain without purpose is a terrible thing, wouldnāt you agree?
i often feel i like raw pain too much. it scares me.
as long as the story ends in death, itās all the same to me.
forgive me, but - that look in your eyes. something terrible has happened to you.
what i see in your eyes, in your soul, is only natural.
weāve all suffered in these dark times. it is little wonder you hear scars of pain and anguish.
touch me and youāll lose your hand.
the pain you suffer will cleanse you - do not fight it.
you look tired. should i take over?
welcome the pain. let it become part of you.
that looks like itās going to bruise.
not that iām suggesting we stop for a drink, of course.
i wouldnāt want to place all my faith in blind luck.
sympathies wonāt help me to survive.
your life, much like your words, is meaningless. end the latter to save the former.
looks like the booze got the better of them. theyāre practically unconscious.
theyāre dying for me. all of them.
why donāt you take a closer look? iāll observe from back here.
please donāt open the creepy book!
toddlers are easier to please than you lot.
you know, i never pictured myself as a hero.
all i want is a little fun. is that so much to ask?
having performance issues, (name)?
never have i met such troglodytes.
i was hoping you wouldnāt notice i was gone.
i suggest we admire it from afar.
it would be too much to hope thatās nothing to do with us, wouldnāt it?
i go my own way - alone.
iāll feed your innards to the ants before i do that.
identify is fluid to astarion - fashion also depends on his mood , he enjoys dresses as much as he enjoys doublets , it simply depends on how he feels like dressing that day.
also the concept of being ripped from nature and turned into a creature that's considered an abomination of nature , definitely has an affect on those who are turned , especially elves & i think astarion definitely misses parts of who he was , parts he can remember. the first time he feels the sun on his face without it burning him to a crisp is probably something that becomes a core memory. being able to see trees, to walk barefoot in the grass when no one is looking. removing the tadpole takes all of that away and astarion knows it.
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Thereās also something so very sad about the fact that astarion often believes the only way he can earn protection is through offering his body up. Also the nonchalant way he explains it to tav too, as if itās normal for him to expect to offer himself up and in a twisted way it has become his normality. Cazador ensured this. Forced him to accept this way of thinking. That it was the only way heād get anything he needed ( like food / clothes / protection etc )
thinking about how cazador really had a 'favourite spawn' room which he awarded to his favourites at different times just to pit them against one another and how astarion must have felt walking into that on his quest to kill cazador. it's a reminder of the gross power dynamics and what they were expected to do to earn his favour.
he'd have burned that whole palace down if he could have. completely razed it to the ground and i think part of him regrets not doing it after he's left for the second time.