Smile Always

Just a day before that special person birthday, I would get a dream about them. A happy moment with them.

It is like my brain subconsciously remind me that their birthday is coming. It is like my brain subconsciously knows I really miss them.

I know I have to move on. Life is like that.

Seem like 19 Sep, 11 July, 12 Oct, 11 Nov and 28 Jan would always be a day my brain will subconsciously remind me.

It work with her..i see her now like meh..nothing. But..i also realise i started to be more less caring..more heartless the more I do this. Is it worth it? To erase your pain, you just become a heartless person?

I know some ppl who are like this. They feel so much hurt that they just dont care anymore. But i can feel they are shouting, screaming for help.

Haih, looks like I cant do much of my own stuff. Maybe read latest op and naruto manga only and the latest episode, and for LoL just ai for 1st win, and ToS just play at lunch and after fyp hour -_-

I always thought when in fyp, I would meet the 6th chapter but nah. My partner is fine but I just know we will be just teammate and at most just friends like me and sherry.

I realise that I shouldnt expect and want tht 6th person to come. It has to be natural and also when I really need it… Guess I will be patient [:

It is not really the matter of exams. I told that person I wanted to meet her after our last paper. At first I thought it was a good idea since by nature, that will be the last time we will meet until graduation day come. I want to tell you everything, since Year 1 to now. That is why I need some time out of you.

But as time passes by, I realise I know you quite a bit. I know you don't like those mushy lovey words. I know you don't like to feel awkward, so why I must waste your time to tell you something you don't wanna know?

So I just decided, on that day, if you still remember that I want to meet you, then I will just tell you. But if not, I will just end my 5th chapter of my relationship life like this. Kinda sad, but maybe it was for the best.

There is a slight chance you might read this, since you are on my follower list lololol xD So if you did read, you decide then.

[: this smiley..I have a reason for why I use this instead of the normal (: Not a lot of ppl use this type of smiley also.

At that time I ask them, which should I use to represent myself whenever I text them. Both chose [: 

I thought she could guess who I was, but looks like she don't remember. Guess the saying is true.

"Sometimes we can only keep the people we cared about in our heart, but not in our life."