there's this unhealthy pattern of mine that whenever I make a new friend/moot who likes my art or I really, and I mean REALLY like their art, I get obsessed with that person and I silently wait for them to post anything or do anything
It's completely uncounciously and you would think "oh, so you really appreciate that person who wants to be moots/friends with you, so you're interested in knowing more about them. That's cute!". No. I feel horrible. I loose apetite. I feel nauseus. My chest hurts. I loose motivation in doing anything, even talking to that person!! It feels like sickness. And if I say something that upsets them, oh God. I get the worst headache.
Why does this happen? Shit, I wish I knew...













