Our Lucid Dream

tried doing vocals on my beats for the first time. this is an invitation to hate. god bless.

exams done. time to sit in my room for 300 billion years

it’s me. im goon.

i’d give anything to live in the same 2 years for the rest of my life. i miss my friends. everyone i meet now feels hollow and meaningless. i never learned from my mistakes until it was too late and now that i’ve done the work it’s meaningless to me. i wish i could kill the person i was 5 years ago and live in his skin. i thought eventually i’d be able to move on with my life and it would be better for everyone that way, maybe it is, but i can’t help but live in the past when im alone with my own thoughts, my mind always wanders back to one place, every attempt i make at moving forward feels like a mistake, i’ve woken up every morning for the past 2 years feeling guilty like I’ve failed everyone i’ve ever cared about cuz i did. im wasting my life and i don’t know how to stop feeling jaded about everything, nothing makes me happy anymore. i keep having dreams about one person and i wake up and realize that everything is gone. all i have left are memories, and that there is no purpose in making more with people i will never appreciate. my life is a nightmare, i wish i was 18 in 2022, i wish i did better for the people i love. i hope that one day it’ll stop feeling like a piece of me is gone but i dont think that day will ever come. im sorry for everything.

productive as fuck for a couple days and then I don’t go outside for a day and i just want to stop being alive

tgisb

bought a ps3 just to play my older brother games

this is me bc fuck my chud life

my fucking uber driver is like 600 lbs no joke and he smells like a particular strain of unwiped ass person i havent experienced in several years. reminds me of a certain white jeep.

it has never been more over than this