June

If I could control myself again there is so much I would do, I would be so happy I could start coming out and transitioning but instead I'm stuck here unable to sleep barely holding on to what little control I have left I just wanna get better already but it's so hard to even be present anymore I am worried I've been eating less and less compared to the very little I was already eating, I just wish the people that knew cared or could help in any way

I left her behind and along the way I lost myself

I'm eating once a day now, I'm worried for my mental well being, I am getting worse, I'm worried about my safety and my sanity has been long gone

I am tired of living in this flesh prison and the copper wires in my veins is calling to me

Now am having paranoid delusions I still haven't completely figured out what they are but I'm having them

Also I'm back on my eating disorder shit 🤪🤪

So first off when I got high I decided that being able to see the future was too much responsibility for me let alone one person so yeah

Help please

The dark thoughts grow ever so darker and frequent as time goes by, soon I won't be able to stop myself. I fear I already can't but they only allow me to do so for now.

Breaking news I'm still mentally ill

Sometimes it feels like these memories aren't mine and I'm just borrowing someone's life and I'm living in borrowed time aren't I

Sometimes I think about the things that have happened in my life, then I realize again for like the twelfth time that day I can't remember it